She was stunned and cannot find strength to move herself away from the person in front of her whilst white flashes are everywhere to get the latest headlines for the next following days by featuring the hottest supermodel in Europe. She cannot even manage to blink her eyes to confirm if she's having a visual hallucination or what. Pristine blue eyes staring at the electric blue eyes of the person she loved the most when supposed to be the place of Emily way back years ago. She can slowly feel the aura of her past when she gently stares at her and smile.

"Nai." The nickname that Emily always spoke but now, she can hear it from her ex or girlfriend still, she doesn't know what supposed to call to Effy.

"Effy." She barely said.

"How are you?" the brunette asks her whilst people around them sending whispers to each other if who was Naomi in Effy's life. She's making her way to get close to Naomi who like became a statue whilst their friends Cook and Freddie observes them.

She remained still until Effy is just inches away from her. "Nai." She caresses her face like what she always does before she left Bristol to migrate in Brazil. She missed those soft cheeks and effect whenever she touches Naomi. She missed her so much that it breaks her heart into fine pieces for almost every fucking minute that she was away from Naomi. God knows how much she wanted to stay that time and spend the rest of her life with her girlfriend. And now that she's back, we don't know if for good or what, she will try to settle everything and start again with Naomi. She can even give up her successful career just to be with Naomi again. "I missed you."

"I don't know what to say, Ef. You've been away for how fucking long, I almost forgot." Tears are evident in her eyes that anytime soon, she'll breakdown and cry in front of all those people's stares to show how much she was hurt when Effy left her.

Effy's eyes were filled of pain upon seeing the person she loves verge with tears because of her. She slowly leans and encircled her long arms around Naomi's waist. She missed the feeling of Naomi's warmth embrace and sweet kisses when they're still together. She missed that vanilla scent which Naomi wore since the day Effy said she loves vanilla scent. She missed seeing the necklace which have a ring and engrave of her name in Naomi's neck whilst she's wearing all fucking minute the necklace identical to Naomi with Naomi's name as well. She missed everything about Naomi. She missed how much Naomi loves her, how gentle Naomi every time she surrender herself over and over again in bed with her. She misses her every fucking minute of her life that she once planned of ceasing her career just to be with Naomi again.

"I'm here now. I won't leave you again. I fucking swear." She whispers into Naomi's ear. She can feel the same electricity from Naomi every time she let out a hot breath into Naomi's neck. "I'm gonna make it up to you just to win you back again." she tightens her embrace making Naomi let out a deep sigh. "Just tell me what to do, I'll do it."

"Effy…" she supposed to say that she loves someone else already but when she saw her again, she's thinking otherwise. She fell from second thoughts about how she really feels towards Emily now that the person she wished would stay has returned in her life. "I don't know."

"We could slowly make things up fall from their proper places. We don't need to rush everything up… I'll wait for you to be ready." She pulls herself away until herself level with Naomi's. "I will."

Naomi on the other hand couldn't think clearly. How about Emily? How about those moments she had with the red-head? Is that all they could ever be? How about the love she has in her heart intended for Emily? How about them? What about them? What about Emily.

X

"You fucking tell me what's going on, Cassandra." they're hanging out at the nearby bar beside the event center where Katie's show has been successful. "You compose yourself or I'll both bang your head against each other." She took a swig from her vodka. She's waiting for Cass to respond. "What the fuck? I'm talking to you yeah?"

Cassie tosses down 2 straight shots of tequila in front of them. She cannot even think clearly, she doesn't know what to do. She doesn't know how to act in front of Emily. How can she coat her pain in front of the girl she loves for like fucking forever? She smiles sadly. "Oh wow."

"What?" Katie said impatiently. "You two are acting like fucking twats again. You consume all my patience, you'll both see." Cassie can sense threaten from Katie's voice.

"I tried, Katiekins." She keeps on playing on her empty tequila glass like it was the most interesting toy she ever had. "I'm sorry. It's just that… it's hard." Tears fell from her eyes silently making Katie feel sorry for her. Katie knows how much Cassie loves her sister ever since they were like fucking 10 years old. The first heartbreak Cassie had when Emily proposed to Mandy that she didn't even know the two were together. She was really surprised that she didn't notice herself crying in front of Emily who was so happy that time that she needs to give a fucking lie just to hide her bleeding heart. She felt so stupid not to notice Emily and Mandy's sweet gestures. She even made her way home so fucking drunk because of the unbearable pain she had in her heart. She still wants to be stupid just so she can spend time with Emily. She's that stupid and pathetic. Poor Cassie.

"What did Emily tell to you 4 years ago?" What?" Katie becomes so harsh that she cannot stand looking at her friend in a state of not being her usual self. She cannot see the happy Cassandra. All she can see is full of pain Cassandra making her heart feel sorry for her.

Cassie let out a sardonic laughs. She can't forget what Emily said, never she will. She grabs 2 straight shots again letting the alcohol takes place the pain in her burning heart. She's still crying. She saw a flash of a red hair in the bar; even in the dark she can still differentiate Emily from other red-headed girls. She hurriedly wipes her eyes and turns her phone off.

"Hey guys."

Katie suddenly looks back to where she hears the voice of her twin. She immediately saw her sister making her way to them. She glares at Cassandra saying compose yourself or I'm gonna fucking hit you.

"I've been looking everywhere for you." She claimed. She saw Cassie at the corner of her eye staring at her sadly. When she shifted her gaze from her twin to her best friend, Cassie took away her stare and grabs another shot. Emily made her way to take the vacant seat beside her best friend. "Hey."

"Oh wow. Hi Emsy." She said happily whilst her heart was tightening.

"Why aren't you answering my calls?" Emily asks worriedly. "Something wrong?" she rubs the back of her best friend making Cassie gasp.

Emily texted Naomi that she'll just need to find Katie and that maybe she cannot go home with her. The reason why Emily didn't witness a heart break meeting of Effy and Naomi again. If she was there? Good luck heart, prepare to fall on the ground and break.

Cassie can't stand Emily stares. She can feel her heart melting in pain. "Drained." She shook her phone in front of Emily. "Sorry."

"Cass…" Emily said huskier that ever. She can sense that there's something wrong between her and Cassie. "Do we have a problem that I didn't know?

"No." she answers back quickly. "Why?" she took a swig from a vodka bottle upon finishing all the shots.

Katie left them to talk first. She wanted them to clarify everything but she doubt Cassie. She knows that Cassie won't spill anything that can make Emily stay away from her. She went out from the bar and has a fag. Emily and Cassie know where she is if ever they'll decide to go home.

"Look." Emily grabs her best friend's hand and held it tightly. "I'm in love with her." she stays silent after saying those heart breaking words to Cassie.

"I know." She smiles sadly to Emily. Pain is very much obvious in Cassie's face.

"Can you please try to get along with her?"

"Sure."

"Cass…"

"Did I say sure, right?" she said sarcastically.

"Please? For me."

Cassie looks at her intently. "Why can't it be?" she fucking swears, if the song playing at that moment won't stop, she'll close that bar for good. "Why can't it be the two of us? Why can't we be together? Only friends." She never thought that there are so many songs that can spill her feelings out. She sometimes was spacing out whenever she can hear the song that best suits her relationship with Emily. How she hates "Chasing Pavements".

"Yeah sure Emsy." She forcefully twitches her lips up. "You know I will do anything to make you happy." She bows her head after saying those words that might make the situation awkward between her and Emily.

"Thanks Cassie." She envelopes her best friend with a tight hug. "I love you."

Cassie shuts her eyes and let out silent tears when she heard those words. How she wish it means more than just a friendly love. She savors the moment that Emily hugs her because she knows it will be the last time she'll feel that now Naomi has taken Mandy's place in her best friend's heart.

"Yeah." She simply answers back. "Thanks."

They stayed a bit longer in the bar reminiscing all the happy memories they had when they were still kids. Katie went back inside the bar after consuming two fags outside. She joins them laughing and teasing whenever they remembered something funny. How Cassie wish they can go back to the times there were only the three of them, no Mandy… no Naomi.

X

It's been a week since the successful Fashion show of Katie. Naomi and Emily have separates office since Jenna gave Emily her own office beside her own. It's been a week but still Emily doesn't have the slightest idea if who Effy is in Naomi's life. She never heard anything from the news and especially she never read anything in the news paper. She's still living with Naomi but she lately notices something from the blonde. She caught Naomi staring at her as if she has something to say to her. There was a time when in the middle of the night, she heard Naomi from the washroom like talking to someone on the phone. But she didn't mind all of those things because she knows, Naomi won't hurt her. Naomi can't hurt her.

She's making her way to Naomi's office to bring some important documents that needs her approval. She's happy on what's going on with her and Naomi even though there's no confirmation or anything about the real score between them. She halted and tried to clear her vision if it is Cassie she's seeing running towards her.

"Hey. Cass wha-" she was cut off by a hyper Cass who hugs her tightly.

"Hey. Emsy!" Back to her old self again. She let out the two theme park tickets from her pockets.

"Cassandra!" she softly exclaimed. "How many times did I tell you that please don't jump off me or run towards me? You're scaring me."

"Oh sorry, Emsy." She grins like an idiot.

"What's that?" Cassie walks Emily to Naomi's office.

"Erm, a paper?" Cassie answered mockingly.

"Yeah, right." She rolls her eyes against her blonde best friend.

"Tickets for theme park!" she shouted excitedly. "Can we go now? I asked your Mum, she said yes."

Cassie was hoping that she will see Emily nodding at her but to her dismay, she saw a doubtful Emily. They halted in front Naomi's office and knocks.

Naomi was a bit surprised seeing Cassie inside her office. She can feel jealousy in her being again upon seeing her hand interlacing with Emily.

"Nai." Emily greeted her. She walks towards Naomi's desk and handed the documents. "Here." She's blushing.

"Thanks Em." Naomi gave her a cute smile.

"Emsy, please. Can we go?" Cassie is like a fucking puppy praying in front of her best friend just to say yes. "Please?" Cassie keeps on pulling Emily's office suit like a fucking child who's asking some candy from her mum. She doesn't care about Naomi who's watching them.

Emily looks at Naomi who stops signing something waiting for her response. They actually planned something for dinner.

"Erm, Cass…"

"Yeah?" Cassie was waiting excitedly with all smiles and hopes in her face. This is the day she's been waiting for. Upon waiting, they can see heavy raindrops outside the window of Naomi's office. They all think that it won't stop until evening.

"I'm sorry but I can't." she said sadly. She wanted to please Cassie but she already made a commitment to have dinner with Naomi.

"Emsy, just this day. Pretty please." She's still hoping to change Emily's answer. But the truth is, pain is slowly eating her heart. She can feel the tears will soon form in her hoping eyes. "Just this day please?" her energy slowly pacing low.

"I can't."

"Emsy, swear just this day only. After this I'll stop bugging you. Just spend this day with me. ?"

Silent emerges from their atmosphere inside Naomi's office.

"Cassandra, I said I can't okay?" Emily's voice a bit louder than usual like she's shouting at Cassie. "We'll go there tomorrow okay?" she said impatiently. She's getting agitated when Cassie forces her to go.

Cassie bows her head to hide her tears. She really looks like shit. She remained silent.

"What the fuck is wrong with you, Cassie?" she keeps on giving her best friend some aching homily. "I said I can't. What part of that sentence you didn't understand?" it was harsh making Cassie let out free flowing tears making Emily notice the drops on the shining floor. She just want to make that day special, she wanted to spend that single day with her best friend since they usual spend that day together, ever since.

"What?" she's waiting for her best friend's answer. Even Naomi was a bit surprised the way Emily acted towards her best friend. She never expected that she'll be harsh with Cassie.

They heard couple of knocks and saw Katie comes in. She saw Cassie bowing her head down.

"Hey guys." She smiles at them.

"Hey you Cassandra, getting older eh?" she teases her friend. "Where's the party at?"

Cassie smiles but still staring at the shiny floor. Katie walks towards her and grabs her.

"Happy birthday, bitch!" she said happily. Cassie looks back at her with sad smile.

"Thanks." Katie was surprised in the way Cassie looks.

Emily's eyes grew wider upon realizing that it was her best friend's birthday. She was so broken seeing her best friend crying on the day of her birthday because of her. She forgot it.

"Oh shit." She utters whilst Naomi was surprised too.

Emily saw Cassie went out of the room quickly. She didn't want to cry so much in front of them. She was so broken the way Emily treated her in front of Naomi. She cannot fucking believe it. She just want to make her birthday special and to make that possible, she needs to be with Emily. But look what Emily did to her? Very fucking fantastic. What a birthday gift.

"Cass." Emily ran after her crying best friend. "Please stop. Wait."

But Cassie keeps on running away from her. She cannot bear the pain. She felt so stupid, pathetic and starting to feel self-pity.

"Cassie." She pulls her arms when her best friend was about to run outside, not giving a care if she'll be drench or get sick because of the heavy rain. She just wanted to escape.

"Don't fucking touch me, Emily." She utters heavily.

"Cassie." They both stares at each other. Emily feels so sorry how she treated her best friend earlier. How can she take her words back now, when she already created a non-curable pain in her best friend's heart?

HELLO. YEAH I KNOW. IT'S DRAMATIC. SORRY. SORRY FOR ERRORS. I KINDA DON'T HAVE SLEEP YET. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF THIS, THANKS! GREAT DAY TO ALL OF YOU.

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