I'm so excited! I want to see how high up I can get this story and updates will now com much sooner because I'm shortening chapters a bit. So R&R! And of course, the teaser =]

A green pastel is suddenly under my fingers, drawing deep green circles. A face forms around it, then teardrops, then flames. No, bright red hair…

Warnings:A lot of swearing, some incest, suicialness, possibly rape, horrible poetry, Yaoi/Yuri, could go anywhere. Smut type scene(s) VERY far in the future, because Roxas needs to turn less emo and get over the past before he'll let Axel fuck him. XD

I own nothing but the plot.

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What happened to this kid that drove him to silence and bottling up his emotions? I'm mean, I did that too, but it was only for a couple weeks…

Roxas stops short in front of me and I almost run into him. He points to a door with the numbers '813' over it. But it looks like a simple janitorial closet.

"That's it? You're shitting me." He nods and opens it, motioning for me to go in. is he on crack? There's no way 12 people can fit in there.

I step inside and he follows, closing it tightly and flipping on the lights. There's barely enough room for the both of us… and I can not quit thinking about how close he is... Damn it Axel, you haven't even seen him smile and you want to… shut up.

"Axel, watch." He pulls me out of my thoughts with that beautiful, entrancing voice… I gotta snap out of it already!

Roxas squats down next to a bookshelf, feeling around the underside of the second shelf from the bottom. What the hell is this beautiful crack-head doing now?

"Ah-ha." A sound goes off somewhere distantly and Roxas stands up. Seeing my curious look, he points to the bookshelf and explains.

"A doorbell. Tell them we're here." Sure, he has no trouble talking now. His voice has a harder tone to it now, as if he's keeping all the emotions out if it on purpose. He pulls his hood up when he sees me staring and turns a lovely shade of rose.

Suddenly the bookshelf swings inward, revealing Naminé.

"Hi Axel." She says, giving a little wave. Her eyes go wide and she bends down to look under Roxas' hood. She proceeds to squeal loudly and run back into the room. Roxas shrugs, almost like he's used to it, and walks in. Only Xion looks up when we walk in and she gasps. She's over in front of us in seconds, standing in front of Roxas. Without taking her eyes off him, she speaks to me.

"Axel, how did you get him to come? He seems a little different, somehow…" She raises a hand cautiously and grabs the edge of his hood. She pulls it down her eyes are squeezed shut. A minute of silence between the three of us passes before he opens his eyes. His eyes are shockingly full of emotions, even Xion can see this. Pain, sadness, and… is that hope?

The raven haired girl looks down, blinking away tears. She smiles slightly, but cries harder.

"Xion…" Her head snaps up at the sound of his voice. "I've missed you a lot."

Xion smiles, crying even harder. "Rox, you're back!" She moves as fast as lightning, wrapping the blonde in a tight hug. He gives me a look of helplessness, so I motion for him to hug her back. He slowly wrapps his arms around her for a minute before she releases him.

She grabs his hand and starts to drag him over to everyone one else. I follow them on their heels. I notice that Sora and Leon aren't here… probably making incest somewhere.

"Listen up everyone!" Xion yells and everyone freezes. Except Zexion. "Roxas is back with us!" She smiles dangerously.

"If anyone asks him his story, homicide will happen." She reaches into her bra and pulls out a pocket knife to prove her point. Pretty much everyone looks scared. I think I am too… If anything good will come from going to this school, it's to never underestimate small people.

She puts it away and grins as everyone goes back to what they were doing, except for Aqua who glares at us.

"Rox, isn't that why you clammed up in the first place, because everyone was interrogating you about what happened?"

"Ya…yeah." He nods slowly.

"Come sit by me and Aqua then, just like old times." I'm about to try to squish onto the couch with them, but Aqua sends me another glare, so I opt for the floor. Roxas looks extremely uncomfortable, especially when Aqua hops on Xion and they start making out.

I pat the floor beside me and the blonde sits, sighing. Immediately after Roxas moves the kissing girls lay out across the couch, Xion on the bottom. Fucking sex-crazed teenagers…

I face away from the couple and grab the blonde's jeans and facing him away too. He sighs again, closing his eyes.

"Penny for your thoughts, Roxas?"

He opens his eyes and shrugs. "Can I write it though?"

I nod and dig through my bag for an empty notebook and a mechanical pencil and I hand it to him. He opens it and starts writing, holding it so I can't see it. I entertain myself for about five minutes before he hands it to me.

I guess I'm just a little overwhelmed. I didn't expect Xion to react like she did, and you've been so nice. Not to mention I have almost zero people skills. This is really the most contact with people I've had since I was 13-ish. Please don't ask why.

I nod. "That's fine, maybe you'll tell me someday."

He shrugs. I can tell he highly doubts that. I bet he thinks I'll get frustrated and leave him all alone again. Hell, he probably wants me to so he can go back to barely existing because that's the only thing he's really known. I've decided I'm going to help him live again, like it or not.

"Hey Roxas." The small blonde is just staring off into space. I wave my hand in front of his face.

"Roxy, snap out of it!" he grabs the notebook with an annoyed expression and begins to write. He thrusts it under my chin.

First of all, don't call me Roxy, second, you were spaced out too you hypocrite.

I run a hand through my spikes. "Sorry. How about we both stop, okay?"

He nods with a faint ghost of a smile on his, his soft pink lips… I pinch myself hard. No more of that. If you try to make a move on him or something, it would just scar him more… and I really like this kid. Friendship will suffice.

"Roxas, earlier you never explained why you started crying on the roof. Would you mind?" he sighs then nods, beginning to write. As I'm waiting, Sora and Leon walk in, hand in hand. They stop short when the notice Roxas.

"Axel, how the hell did you get him to come?" Sora screeches, making Leon slap him in the back of the head. Sora grumbles and looks at me expectantly.

"Ask Xion when she's done being raped by her girlfriend." The pair walks away as Roxas back the notebook.

I started crying because the roof is like a sanctuary to me. No one has ever gone up there at the same time as me until you. And you caught me off guard. That was the first time I'd really cried in years.

Wow… dad would've said, 'this kid needs some major help…'

"Crying is healthy Roxas. I'll always have a shoulder for you to cry on if you ever need it." I smile at him and I think he almost smiles back. He scribbles in the not book then shoves it back at me.

Thanks Axel. I be you'd make a great friend.

I laugh at that and his almost-smile disappears. "I didn't mean it like that. I meant, after today, aren't we kind of friends already?" He writes again.

I don't know. Xion and Ventus were the only friends I've ever had, and I don't even know what it means to be a friends.

What kid doesn't even know what a friend is? I need to stop calling him a kid too… Roxas needs help...

"Roxas, I'm going to help you. Are you going to let me?" His face morphs into confusion, so I hand the notebook back.

Axel, what the hell do you mean by 'help me'?

You know, I never actually thought entirely through what I meant by that… I lean in closer and I can tell it takes everything he has not to cringe away.

"Roxas… I want to teach you how to have friends and be one, how to smile again, how to live…" And maybe to love…

I back up to look at his face. He has the combination of a pained look and a confused one, but he nods anyways. And those eyes… I'd describe them how people do mine: deep, beautiful, bright…

A bell goes of again, but this time it sounds different. Everyone gets up to leave except for Naminé, Ven and Terra. Ven and Terra are whispering to each other and Naminé is still drawing. The couple stands up and walks over to us. Roxas does that almost smiling thing again and Ven grins.

"Roxas, do you remember how we were best friends when we were younger?" Roxas nods.

"I didn't really until today. But here's my number if you want to hang out sometime." He hand him a slip of paper and they walk out too. Naminé chooses that moment to motion for me to come over.

"I'll be right back Roxy." He nods and lies back on the ground. Whoa, did I just call him Roxy? Where did that come from?

I walk over to Naminé. "Axel. I suppose Xion showed you the picture I drew for them?"

"Yeah, she did…" Uh oh… what the hell did she draw?

The blonde gives me a strange look. "I bet you're wondering who I drew you naked with, correct?" I nod, tongue tied.

Well, I didn't. Aqua and Xion requested that one. I normally draw my subjects fully clothed. So…" she tears a think piece of paper out of her sketch pad and offers it to me.

"Here." I take the paper and flip it over. I can feel my eyes widen. It's a picture of me on a bed, with my spikes in a ponytail and I have a soft expression on my face. I'm looking down at a small blonde cradled in my arms. Roxas. This picture is kind of like a dream I had… I look back up at Naminé, smiling.

"Naminé, I love it! You can draw me anytime, as long as I still have my clothes on and it's not with Marley…" I shudder and Naminé nods, smiling.

"Great, thanks! I've never really seen someone like you before. You make a great model." I'll take that as a complement.

"Okay, I'm going to go to lunch with Roxas…" but when I turn around, he's gone. Aqua is standing in the door way, her expression dark.

"Sorry Axel, he left." My face falls. He left without even saying goodbye?

"Why? Do you know where he went?" the bluenette laughs with no humor.

"Probably home. He never stays in the afternoon anymore. Oh, and he dropped this as he left. I assume it's for you." I walk over to her, being glared at the whole time.

"You and the little blonde better stay away from my girl. Get it?" She hisses. I nod and take the paper. What an empty threat, with gay me and emo kid Roxas. Speaking of whom, I gotta see if I can find him before he almost falls off a roof again. It might have been my fault that he fell, but I saved him too…

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So, how am I doing? Anyone have ideas? I'm really excited, because next chapter we get to meet the FANGIRLS!*Squee!* R&R!*throws Pocky at loyal readers!*