A/N: Love all the reviews! I thank each and every one of y'all. I know Madison is annoying..lol
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"Alright ladies, I'm heading to bed. Have a great rest of the night." Aiden says retreating to the bedroom we are sharing this weekend.
After sitting on the beach for a couple of hours drinking and listening to music we decided it was getting cold so we made our way back up to the house. To my surprise Aiden and Madison were able to refrain from all the snide comments about each other.
"So Carmen, you're not dating anybody, right?" Madison says from across the room where she's sitting next to Ashley on a small couch. I'm current sitting next to Carmen on another small couch. "I'm only asking because I think you and Spencer would make a cute couple. Don't you think they would make a cute couple Ash?"
Ashley doesn't respond she just looks at Carmen and I blankly.
Carmen and I both just look at each other. When I turn back to Madison I see Ashley shifting around on the couch.
"Madison." I hiss.
"What Spencer? You're single. She's single. Y'all should definitely hook up. Besides you've been so up tight lately, you definitely need to get some."
"Maybe they're not attracted to each other." Ashley says finally speaking up.
"No, I'm definitely attracted to Spencer." Carmen scoots closer to me on the couch. I've had a little bit too much drink so I find it difficult to suppress any giggle that escapes my mouth.
"You so don't have to lie." I turn towards Carmen.
"What? I'm not lying. I think you're cute. Not to mention you have a nice ass."
I laugh. "And there's the Carmen I met at the bar."
"What can I say I'm can't help the ladies can't resist this." Carmen points down to her body. I shove her playfully and we both start laughing hysterically.
Madison is smiling that we are getting along. But Ashley doesn't seem so pleased.
I've been looking under rocks and breaking locks
Just tryna find ya
I've been like a maniac insomniac,
Five steps behind ya
Tell them other girls, they can hit the exit
Check please...
Cause I finally found the girl of... my dreams
Much more than a Grammy award,
That's how much you mean to me
"Oh I love this song! Come on Spencer!" Carmen grabs my hand and pulls me off the couch. I'm feeling comfortable enough to dance; I've had a quite a few drinks. A smile breaks on my face as I let myself get lost in the music.
You could be my it girl
Baby you're the shit girl
Lovin' you could be a crime
Crazy how we fit girl,
This is it girl
Give me 25 to life
I just wanna rock all night long,
And put you in the middle of my spotlight
You could be my it girl
You're my biggest hit girl
Carmen isn't that bad. I'm having a great time dancing with her. She's singing while she's dancing in front of me. Madison has decided to join us in dancing, while Ashley sits and looks on. I have can feel her eyes on me.
Let me play it loud
Let me play it loud like...
Oh oh oh oh
Let me play it loud
Let me play it loud like...
Oh oh oh oh
Let me play it loud
You can't help but turn them heads
Knockin' them dead
Dropping like flies around you
If I get your body close not letting go
Hoping you're about to
Tell them other guys they can lose your number
You're done!
They don't get another shot cause you're... love drunk!
Like a TV show playing reruns
Every chance I get,
I'm a turn you on
Carmen is singing to me and I'm pretty sure my face turns a light pink color. I have my hands up in the air while my head is bobbing to the beat. After a lot of resisting I see Madison pull Ashley up to dance with her. The four of us are dancing around in the front room without a care in the world. Well more like three of us because Ashley just standing and lightly swaying side to side.
You could be my it girl
Baby you're the shit girl
Lovin' you could be a crime
Crazy how we fit girl
This is it girl
Give me 25 to life
I just wanna rock all-night-long
And put you in the middle of my spotlight
You could be my it girl
You're my biggest hit girl
Carmen comes up behind me and wraps an arm around my waist and sticks her legs in between as we dance in sync with the music. I throw my head back and let myself have a little bit of fun.
Let me play it loud
Let me play it loud like...
Oh oh oh oh
Let me play it loud
Let me play it loud like...
Oh oh oh o]
Let me play it loud
Can't seem to stop you from... running, running
Through my, through my mind, mind
Just keep it coming, coming
Til' I make you mine, mine
You've got that something, something
I wanna be with girl
You're my greatest hit girl
Just say this is it girl...
Hey baby...
Don't you know you're my it girl
You could be my it girl
Baby you're the shit girl
Lovin' you could be a crime
Crazy how we fit girl
This is it girl,
Give me 25 to life
I just wanna rock all night long
And put you in the middle of my spotlight
You could be my it girl
You're my biggest hit girl
"Man that was a blast." Carmen says as she pulls me towards the couch and we both fall into it. We both let out a little giggle as we sit down both tired from the dancing we just did. "You're a pretty good dancer Spencer."
"What? No. I was just having a good time."
"We'll I'm beat. Let's head to bed Ash." Madison pulls Carmen and me out of our conversation and we turn our attention to her. Madison give us a small wink.
Ashley looks over at Carmen and I. "I'm tired yet. I think I'm going to hang out here a little more."
"Come on, if you come to bed now I'll make it worth your while." Carmen and I look at each other feeling slightly uncomfortable.
"Um, no I think I'm good." Ashley says staying planted in her seat still sipping on a beer not taking her eyes off of Carmen and I.
"No. Come on." Madison yanks Ashley up and pulls her towards the bedroom. "Let them be alone." Madison tries to whisper but everybody in the room heard.
When they are out of sight Carmen starts to laugh. "What was that all about?"
"I have no clue." I laugh along with her.
"She always gets what she wants huh?"
"Pretty much. Once she sets her eyes on something she wants, it's pretty much hers." I think about how she has Ashley. "For her sixteenth birthday, she wanted a mustang but not just any mustang she wanted a royal blue with pink pin stripes. So yeah, that's what her dad got her."
"Wow. So what about you? Tell me more about yourself Spencer." Carmen throws her arm to the back of the couch and turns her body so she's facing me. I lift my leg to the couch and face her comfortably.
"Well what would you like to know?"
"Anything? Everything?"
"Well…"
"Oh, sorry guys. I didn't realize you were still up. I just wanted to um… get…a drink of water." Ashley says coming into the front room. We watch as she goes into the kitchen and fills get a glass of water.
"You were saying?" Carmen urges me to continue.
"I'm an only child. Lived in Los Angeles my whole life. I work for…."
"The Sentinel." Ashley speaks up from the kitchen.
Both Carmen and I turn to find Ashley leaning up against the counter watching us sipping on a water bottle.
"Yes, I work for The Sentinel."
Out of the corner of my eye I can see Carmen giving Ashley the get lost look. But Ashley doesn't, she moves and takes a seat on the other couch opposite us.
"Your work really is amazing Spencer." Ashley says in all honesty.
"Thanks." I whisper out while looking down at my hands that are clasped together in my lap. "I think I'm going to go to bed. I'll talk to you guys in the morning." I get up and make my way to the room not before I hear Carmen hiss at Ashley.
"Dude. What the hell was that?" Then I hear somebody get up and shuffle out of the living room.
When I open the door to the bedroom I see Aiden has taken the right side of the bed. I quickly grab a change of clothes and get changed in the in suite bathroom. I approach the bed trying to be as quiet at possible.
I lay on my back thinking out the night I just had. Ashley Davies. It's so weird that after three years she's now dating Madison, my best friend since childhood.
Flashback…
"Spencer, I'm going to fail this class. I don't understand why we need to know this crap. I'm not going to use this in my profession. I'm a music major." Ashley sighs out loud.
We are in the library trying to study for our midterm. Since we got together for coffee we've decided to be study buddies because we were both so lost in this class."
"No you're not. We will do this together. I promise you." I grab her hand that's resting on the table. She looks down at my hand on hers and I quickly pull it away after I realized what I have done.
"Uh, um, so how about we start with the what we first covered in class so we can refresh our memories." I quickly try to distract her away from the fact I just grabbed her hand.
"Yeah, that sounds like a good idea." Ashley says shifting in her seat. I think I just made her uncomfortable. Way to go Spencer.
End Flashback…
"Shut your brain off." Aiden groans turning over to look at me.
"I'm sorry Aid. I was just thinking about…"
"Ashley." I turn over on my side so we are facing each other.
"Yeah." I whisper out.
"What happened back then?"
I sigh.
"It's okay Spence. I'll be here when you're ready. Goodnight Spence."
"Night Aid."
I lie there for what seems like hours just tossing and turning. Until I just can't take it anymore. I get up and quietly tip toe my way into the kitchen to get a glass of water. I don't actually know where the glasses are so I'm opening up every cabinet door.
"Next cabinet." I hear from behind me. I turn around and see Ashley leaning against the doorway with her arms crossed in front of her.
"Thanks." I say pulling out a glass and filling it up with water.
"Spencer. I'm sorry about that night." When I turn around she's right in front of my face.
I shake my head trying to form words.
"I guess nobody can sleep in this house." Carmen comes in wearing boxers and a tank top. She goes straight to the pantry and pulls out the cereal. I'm still standing by the refrigerator so I pull out the milk and place it on the counter.
"Thanks Spence. You're not so bad."
"No problem." I say feeling slightly uncomfortable now.
"So what we're we talking about?" Carmen is completely oblivious to the tension in the room. "You know what, we should definitely take the jet skies out tomorrow. What do you think Ash?"
Ashley still not taking her eyes off of me answers Carmen quietly.
"Well good night." I say before making a hurried exit out of the kitchen. I don't want to think about what Ashley was just about to say.
"Spencer, wait." Ashley whispers out. I stop dead in my tracks. "Can we please just talk? Without out all of the interruptions?" I turn around and I see Ashley standing right behind me shifting from leg to leg and nervously twirling her hands.
"What's the point Ashley?" It was three years ago. That night meant nothing. You made that perfectly clear."
"No, I…"
"What you're sorry? What exactly are you sorry for?" When she doesn't say anything I know I'm done with this conversation.
I turn and see Carmen watching us from the doorway eating her cereal as if she was watching a movie.
"You know everything don't you? That's why you told me you were a good listener?" Carmen just nods her head after my accusation.
"Great. I must be this big joke. I have to get out of here." I don't let them say anything. I quickly walk into the bedroom and turn on the lights and quickly start gathering my stuff.
"What the hell are you doing Spence?" Aiden says sitting up and rubbing his eyes.
"We're leaving. Come on let's go."
"Spencer, it's three in the morning can we just calm down and maybe pack up and leave in a couple more hours."
"I can't be here anymore Aiden." I sit down on the bed. "I thought I was over what happened."
"Come on Spence. Get a jacket." Aiden gets up and throw a hoodie and some shoes on.
When we're both ready he leads me out of the house, through the cold sand. We take a seat next to each other and just listen to the sounds of the waves for a while before anything is said.
"Spence. You have to tell me what happened between you and Ashley. I can't help you if I don't know the situation."
"I know." I say as a single tear comes down my face. "It was the night of our final. We had been studying together for a few months and had become really close. We decide to celebrate us passing by going a bar near campus."
Flashback….
"You want another shot Spencer?" We are both really intoxicated. We've been drinking for the past couple of hours. Talking about anything and everything.
I nod my head. Ashley calls over the waitress and orders us another round of shots and beer.
"Now, she's hot." I say gesturing towards the waitress.
"No way! She's fake. She doesn't have that natural beauty."
"Wait. No, there is no such thing as natural beauty."
"I beg to differ. I know a natural beauty when I see one."
"So that girl you were dating last week was a natural beauty?"
"Oh god no. She was just a mistake."
"Then look around this bar. And show me one natural beauty."
"I'm looking at her."
The waitress sets our drinks down on the table. I haven't taken my eyes off Ashley and she hasn't taken her eyes off of me.
When the waitress leaves I quickly grab my shot and chase it with the fresh beer. For some reason I have this newfound confidence because I get up and go seat in the seat next to Ashley in our booth.
I don't think about what I'm doing but all I know is that our lips are pressed together and our tongues are moving in sync with one another. One our both us let's out a small moan.
After a few minutes of kissing, we pull away and rest our foreheads together.
"I've been wanting to do that since I sat next to you in class." Ashley says panting out of breath. I nod my head and reward her with a big smile for her honesty. "You want to get out of here?" She whispers out. Again I've lost my voice because I just nod my head and start to scoot out of the booth.
"I'm going to go close the tab. Get us a cab and I'll meet you out front?" I ask her and she just nods her head and gives me a small chaste kiss on my lips.
I had been waiting for this day. We had gotten so close and I was crushing badly on her.
I make my way up to the bar but it takes forever to get the bartenders attention. The bar is pretty busy. After what seems like twenty minutes I pay my tab and make my way outside.
I wasn't prepared for what I saw when I exited the bar. Ashley was helping a small blond into the cab with her getting in behind her. As they drive away I can see them in kissing in the back seat. I had never felt such a sharp pain in my chest before.
End Flashback…
"She just left you there?" Aiden says slightly annoyed.
"Yeah. I never called her and I never heard from her until I saw her yesterday with Madison."
"Wow Spence. So why did she say she did it?"
"I don't know. She tried to apologize tonight. But I wouldn't let her. What made me even more upset is the fact Carmen knew. She had been nice to me all night. What for pity?"
"I know you don't want to hear this but I think you need to let her explain herself. Ask her why she did it." I lean my head on Aiden's shoulder. "I'm sure she feels bad about it."
"I do." We both turn around and see Ashley standing behind us with her arms crossed in front of her chest. "I think about that night every day. The night I made the biggest mistake of my life."
"Well I'm going to head back to bed. I'll see you in the morning." Aiden places a small kiss on my forehead before getting up and walking back up to the house.
Ashley sits down next to me on the sand. We stare out into darkness nervously waiting for the other person to say something.
"Spencer, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving you alone that night. I'm sorry for getting that cab with somebody else."
"Why did you do it?" I say looking at her disbelievingly. I stand up.
"Because I was scared." She says standing up.
"Of me?"
"No, I was scared of my feelings for you. You made me feel so much, something I've never felt before and I didn't know how to deal with it."
"So you find a random girl to take home and leave me at the bar. Never calling or hearing from you again."
"I never stopped thinking about you Spencer. I've all you're articles. I…"
"You are with Madison. And that I can't deal with." She bows her head down in shame as I turn around and start walking towards the house.