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Since Jake was alpha he allowed Caroline and Aaron into the pack. I found

Aaron to be very polite and well mannered for a werewolf unlike some of the

other members in our pack. Caroline had urged him to join because she knew that

this was an opportunity to be protected and feel safe.

Jake and I were very satisfied by his choice in asking him into the pack.

"Bella..." Jacob shuddered

"Ya" I muttered I knew he was hiding something it was written all over his

face.

" I was wondering if we could see if you're a wolf like me?" he asked

" Sure but why are you so worried"

" Bella, because I don't want you to get hurt if I phase and you are standing too close"

Jake always worried to much how that he imprinted on me. I always loved him deep down.

That night I asked Paul to help me phase because he has always wanted to get me angry.

"Remember Paul don't go easy…" I regretted those words right after I said them in an instant Paul caught me off guard with an annoyed grunt from inside I could tell the boys were trying to hold Jacob back and loosing a little every time he heard me make a sound of what he calls "pain" but really it was just a few little scraps to my elbow. I had to tell Paul that we would have to practice later when Jacob was on patrols and wouldn't scare Aaron into leaving the pack.

Finally getting to talk to a girl was nice for a change and it was nice to have someone who could help cook for this pack with stomachs that are bottomless pits. Caroline got to socialize with Emily while I was trying to see if I could phase. When I got back I could tell she was worried I could just see it in her eyes. I tried to comfort her but she wouldn't relax till she knew Aaron was safe. This was when I dug deep I took off running when I realized that Paul wasn't moving form my path I got angrier buy the step of each foot and all of a sudden I jump and land over Paul with hazy grey paws. I called for Jacob… there was no answer… all of a sudden I feel empty… I wined to Paul with pleading eyes. He phased and didn't know what to do. I knew being the Alpha's mate I was next in command. I ordered him to gather the pack and go search for Jake, Aaron, Seth, and Jared. I laid down calling Jacob into the dark night… where was my loving Jacob…