Chapter VI
The couple went over to the mall so Sharpay could shop. When they entered, Troy was holding Sharpay's hand and after around two boutiques later, he was carrying six shopping bags, and it was just 11 am! He was tired and a bit sore because of having sex with her the other night. Yet Sharpay didn't seem to tire out, she glanced at him and giggled.
"Hurry up Troy! This is just the first floor!" she cried happily and giggled madly as Troy tried to balance her shopping bags which were growing in numbers after every store they got into. Troy couldn't help but smile because Sharpay looked like she was in heaven. Her face was all perky and she babbled nonstop about how cute the dress was on the other store, or for what she was going to where this particular outfit…
They kept on and on until Troy grumbled that he was hungry and thankfully Sharpay agreed with him. He thankfully sat at their table and he couldn't wait for the food he ordered. All the while, Sharpay was watching him, her eyebrow raised with a smile twitching at the end of her lips.
"What's up with you today Troy?" she giggled.
"Huh?" Troy looked confused.
"You were looking out in space, and a while ago you kept staring at me like a zombie while I went shopping, so what is up with you?" she teased, lightly poking him in the arm. Troy grinned and just stared at her. Boy, she was incredibly beautiful; it was a shame though that he couldn't just take her away. Sharpay was starting to get worried.
"Troy?" she asked with concern in her voice.
"Wha-?" he managed to say and saw Sharpay looking at him with a frown, concern in her eyes.
"Oh, I'm sorry I've been spacing out, but I have been thinking about you…" he said.
Sharpay raised an eyebrow, "Thinking of me? Hello, I'm here beside you?" she scoffed.
"That's not what I meant," he countered. "I think I've fallen for you Shar… I feel different around you, more alive and happy than I have ever been… if only I realized it sooner. I could have had you now, and I'm not going anywhere…" he said sadly.
Sharpay studied him for a moment, seeing the regret in his eyes.
"Well Troy, I doubt you would have this revelation if Gabriella was alive…" she tried to explain. Seeing the logic, Troy nodded slowly. Sharpay smiled.
"Life has an evil way of getting back at us… one day your life's perfect, then it comes crashing down upon you. Just when you try to get back up, it kinda threatens to make you fall again…
I hoped last night a selfish thought, that maybe I could take you away or something. But I'd know it'll be wrong; like I'm stealing your life or something. I bet you wouldn't want to break your kids' hearts." Troy finished his rambling.
"Maybe, life is getting back at you Troy," Sharpay tried to joke. "After all, if you'd stuck with me all the way, my kids would've had you as their father…" she finished with a smile.
Troy just looked at her, remembering a memory when he was at Lava Springs. When that thought came to his head around 17 years ago, it would've made him commit suicide. But contemplating on it again, he wished with all his heart that he should've jumped at the opportunity. But no, he was concerned for his friends and Gabriella too…
Troy went up the stage as Sharpay told him they'd be rehearsing for the song "You Are the Music in Me". He was totally confused and kind of horrified when Sharpay began singing. The song he sang with Gabriella was quite massacred so that it would sound very Sharpay-ish. It became a kind of pop jam against its easy listening counterpart and he was the cute back-up singer in their duet.
After they sang, Sharpay said in they'd have a break and they were discussing something afterwards and suddenly he saw Sharpay in a white bridal gown and it freaked him out!
Sharpay was staring at Troy, he was acting terribly strange. He just suddenly spaced out and a grin was slowly forming in his lips as he relieved a memory while Sharpay was sitting across him, he forgot…
"Ahem" she said, Troy was instantly dragged back to earth. He looked wildly around and looked at Sharpay.
"Are you sure you're alright?" she questioned him, her eyes narrowing.
"Yep, I just remembered stuff, you're right… I should have accepted your dad's offer…" he trailed off.
"Oh, so you're relieving memories now…" Sharpay said trying to stifle her laughter.
"I guess I'll just eat without you…" she said indicating to the food that came while Troy was in La-La land. Troy immediately dug into his food and started to stuff his face.
After lunch and a bit more shopping, Troy took Sharpay to see a movie. An old movie was showing entitled "The Bridges of Madison County". As the couple watched, they were enamored because of the likeness of the movie to their own little love affair.
Troy drove Sharpay home and she invited him inside. While she made coffee in the kitchen, Troy was looking around the huge mansion. He made it to the music room and saw a guitar lying in the corner, he picked it up and started strumming, not really knowing what to play.
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
As Troy sang with all his heart, Sharpay entered the music room with their coffee unnoticed. She sat on one of the couches as Troy sang with his eyes closed. She could feel the emotions he felt; like she was the one who is now keeping him alive… after the song, Troy opened his eyes and saw her wiping the tears running down her cheeks.
He put down the guitar and kneeled in front of her to wipe of the tears. She was trying to choke back her sob but more tears just came out.
"How I wish Troy, that…tha-… somehow… it was us…" she stammered.
"Ssshh… I know Shar, I know…" Troy said trying to soothe her.
"I've dreamt of us since we were in high school. I mean I've loved you for so long!" she half-yelled, more tears running down her cheeks as she finally came out with what she'd been feeling for a very long time now.
"Since high school?" he asked shock all over his handsome features and curiosity in his eyes.
"Yes… it made me so confused and I couldn't let anybody in because I could not get over you… and so I became the Ice Queen and I kind of built a formidable fortress around my heart to keep everyone out because I so fucking loved you and I couldn't get over the fact that you didn't! Then Gabriella had to come into the picture and just ruin it all! I saw how you were so madly in love with her and I could feel all the jealousy creeping into me and I wanted to crush her but she's like a zombie popping out of her grave…with your help!!!" Sharpay kept ranting on and on as more tears fell. Troy was just in front of her and he saw just how much pain Sharpay went through.
Unfortunately he could not say that he felt the same way; that he secretly loved her to during high school. When they both entered East High as freshies, he was focused on basketball more than anything else and she was just making her mark as the Ice Queen and he didn't really mind the blond girl with the death glare then. They traveled within two otherworldly different cliques and when he met Gabriella, he fell for her right then and there.
So while trying to comfort Sharpay, Troy was struck with a revelation… he didn't love Sharpay. She was just there, conveniently at his hour of need to show him what he'd been missing for five years. He couldn't help but feel guilty because he just saw her as a tool whereas she'd been in love with him.
"Sharpay I have to go…" he said abruptly. She looked at him with question in her eyes.
"I just can't stay any longer." He tried to explain.
"Why Troy? Why leave now?" she asked, her voice filled with fear of losing him.
"I just have to…" he said standing up and making a way towards the door.
Misinterpreting his actions completely, Sharpay followed him out to the hall and yelled his name.
"TROY!!!" she yelled in her Broadway voice.
He spun around and looked at her, hands on her hips and fire in her eyes…
"HOW COULD YOU?! So you're done with me?! You got your fuck and now you're leaving me!!! So this is what I've been to you is that right?! I've just been you're dirty mistress is that it?! Gabriella's gone so you have no one to fuck and then coincidentally because of your editor you go to my show, charm me off my panties and just stick your dick into my pussy and now you're leaving when I am professing my undying love for you ergo making me feel guilty for having an affair with you and leaving because from this the going gets tough is that it?!" she yelled, her voice raw from the crying then the yelling.
Troy stood there gaping at her. How could she accuse him of just wanting to fuck her? He could not comprehend the thought so he just turned around and walked away to be safe. Wrong move, because no one just walks out of Sharpay Evans Adams; without her getting the last word. Before Troy could even make three steps, she was in front of him and getting ready to rant again. He got ticked, why couldn't she just let this go?
"You're one sick joke Bolton! Maybe you're just making this up so I could be some dirty mistress of yours… a dirty whore! Isn't Gabriella worth fucking anymore?!" Sharpay screamed right at his face. This got him…
"What the hell is the matter with you?!" he yelled before he can stop himself. He was burning with guilt, what she said was almost the whole truth; except for Gabriella being alive and Sharpay being a dirty mistress.
"I'm sorry…" was all he could say right after.
Sharpay saw the guilt in Troy's eyes and assessed that it's eating him alive. So she quickly strode to him and kissed his lips with incredible passion to ease his pain. Troy was shocked! After their brief argument she makes it up to him. So he quickly responded and was tugging at her top wanting to feel her bare skin. She obeyed at once and took off her top very quickly and moaned as Troy groped her body and dragged her back to the music room where he lay on top of her.
They both quickly shed their clothes and in no time soon, Troy was inside Sharpay grinding out his best as she screamed his name over and over again. After reaching his end, Troy pulled himself out of Sharpay and positioned himself with her on top so he could cuddle her. But before he could do that, she pushed him off and stood up with daggers in her eyes.
"I'm done with you Bolton, thank you for the fuck!" she said in a poisonously sweet voice. Then she motioned towards the door.
"When you've done dressing yourself up, please leave." She continued and gathered up her clothes and went up the stairs. He heard the distant slam of the door to her room.
Troy got up and gathered his clothes. So she used him for a fuck he thought; so he would know how it feels. She was also a great actress; he never knew that she faked everything until after she pushed him off. Sharpay Evans Adams finally got the last word.
September 13, 2027
The nerve of him!
So the great Troy Bolton just used me so he could have a fuck! The nerve of that guy! And I proved it… he gives in as easily as a child giving in when offered candy! I can't believe it… I can't believe I let myself take a chance with him… I thought that I'd be happy but I'm just consumed with so much guilt. Roger deserves better than this…
He was much better than Troy… I remember now how he courted me during college that British native… he was such a gentleman! When he asked me to be his girlfriend I wondered if he'll still be as sweet… wouldn't you know it, he was sweeter! Until now… why did I ever had the heart to do this to a man who loves me? He did nothing but love me…
Damn you Troy Bolton! Just because I wanted to live out a high school fantasy doesn't mean I really had to do it!
I can hear the door slam… that must be him getting out of my life forever.
Thank you!
XoXo
Sharpay E.A.
Note: It's been quite a while.. it's hard to update like everyday when swamped with schoolwork.. ah college... :)
anyway, i felt kinda bad for ruining another sweet moment of the lovers but reality check had to come in... hope you like it... :)
oh yeah, and about the movie, i recently found out that the novel was made into a movie and it's actually the only one that could actually accurately point out their situation as because it was based on it.. hahaha.. i'm sorry i'm rambling..