Takuya: Wow....now this feels weird....
Kouji: What, not being blackmailed into doing this disclaimer?
Takuya: Well, that too.....plus, there's nothing really funny to say....
Kouji: I know...It's kinda depressing, huh?
Takuya: Yeah...Well, I'm gonna um...do the disclaimer, K?
Kouji: Yeah...go for it...
Takuya: Kamiya...isn't here to own anything....is she?
meanwhile in the distance, a shadow looms on top of a building
Voice: You just keep convincing yourself of that, Takuya....and have fun with it.....
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Chapter 7
So small and fragile
Takuya, Kouji, and Yamato sat at the table in silence, eating a non-homemade dinner. It was odd, and quite awkward, to not have the teenage girl with the bright smile sitting at one side of the table and arguing with Kouji about something, or laughing with Takuya about a teacher, or even snuggling Yama closely. It broke their hearts to know that that smile wasn't going to be gone for just one night, or even for a week, but there was a large possibility that was growing on them that that smile would never be back.
"Can I be excused?" Kouji asked.
The other two looked up from their food to glance at Kouji. Yamato nodded, but Takuya looked back down.
"What is it, Takuya?" Yamato asked.
"I was just thinking about Kamiya again." He whispered, with a slight smile. He sat straight up, imitating her face, and grabbed Kouji's sleeve. "Kouji Minamoto, sit your ass back down here right now! I haven't even put desert in front of you yet, and you want to leave?"
The three burst out laughing, remembering Kamiya's old antics. It nearly brought tears to their eyes again to find that the same old situation wouldn't be happening again, and the boys grew deathly silent. Yamato sighed, and Takuya looked up from his dinner once again.
"I'm sorry....I didn't really want to upset everyone again." Takuya apologized.
"Don't worry, Takuya. You didn't." Kouji said. "It was her mother that did that."
All three let out a sigh in unison, and suddenly, they no longer felt like eating.
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Kamiya let out a very pissed off sounding sigh, for what had to be the thirteenth time in the past half hour. Her mother glanced at the angry girl and rolled her eyes. Kamiya saw it, and sighed again, this time sounding angrier than she had before.
"Would you stop sighing like that?" her mother spat.
"I'll stop sighing when you turn this car around and take me back to that apartment." Kamiya growled.
"Well, I'm sorry Kamiya, but that's not happening." Her mother said, turning her eyes back to the road.
"Then I guess you're in for a lot of sighing, now aren't you?" Kamiya said.
There was an awkward silence that hung in the air for what seemed like ages. Finally, Kamiya turned and looked at her mother in the same instant that her mother turned to face her.
"Why did you take me away from there?" Kamiya asked.
"Why are you so pissed off at me?" her mother asked in the same instant.
The two grew small smiles, but once they realized that they were quite possibly bonding, they quickly erased the smiles and settled back into their former angry poses.
"You answer my question first, and then I'll answer yours." Her mother said, and then pursed her lips again.
Kamiya sighed, but reluctantly obliged. "Well, considering that you call out of nowhere and tell me you are taking me home, and that I have no say in the matter, accuse me of running away, and take me away from the closest thing I have ever had to a real close family, then yeah, I say I had a right to be pissed." She choked out.
Her mother groaned.
"Kamiya, grow up! I am your mother. I am your family. You belong with me, and not some of your childish friends. I realize you may have had fun sitting around and playing house every day, but those days have to end sometimes. You have responsibilities to take care of, and they do not include sitting around playing with children." She said firmly.
Kamiya turned to her mother in a rage.
"Mom! How can you do this? Why do you keep saying that I have just been playing around? You know about Takuya's situation! That all has to do with my job, does it not? I was assigned to protect him, as well as to..." Kamiya began.
"I know what your job was. But the man was not even going to come out as long as you were there. He knew that you would protect Takuya until you died. So if he wasn't going to come out, how did you ever expect to get your mission accomplished?" her mother asked.
"I have my ways. I already had a plan in progress, and I was ready and willing to put it into action at any time. Then you showed up, and now I don't even have a chance to see if it would have worked. That's not entirely fair is it?" Kamiya grumbled.
There was another pressed silence for a while. The two refused to even look at each other. Finally, Kamiya's mother pulled off the road and turned to look at her.
"Kamiya, I'm going to tell you this now, and I'm only going to tell you once. You may just be allowed to complete your mission, but only once the time is right. Do you understand?" she asked.
Kamiya sat stunned. She simply turned to her mother and looked at her through wide eyes. As her eyes began to tear up, she could only utter one word.
"Really?" she asked.
"We'll work with it, okay?" her mother whispered.
Kamiya nodded and smiled, turning back to face the road again.
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Yamato laid on the bed in his and Kamiya's old room. He was humming an old song from his band's first CD. He picked up his guitar and began strumming a few chords on it, the same ones from the old song. He began singing the old lyrics. Kouji and Takuya stood at the doorway listening to the lyrics as they floated past the bed and drifted out the door and into the hall. Takuya was in a trace. The lyrics and rhythm of the song were truly captivating. Kouji stared at his boyfriend and put a gentle arm around his thin shoulders. Takuya looked at Kouji and smiled. They kissed, and Yamato looked up and saw the two of them, then changed his lyrics. The two boys turned their focus to Yamato as his song changed.
In the moonlight, your eyes shine like diamonds.
I can feel your smile upon me as I turn, and your gentle face greets me
I take you into my arms and we embrace, never to be apart again.
I kiss your delicate lips, and I know that together we'll be.
Knowing you'll always be there is beyond a joyous feeling.
My smile is wide and captivating, all there for the stealing
I know I'll be eternally yours, so why worry about anything else?
In the night,
In the moonlight,
Together we will be.
Seeing that you're with me is enough to make my heart stop.
And the feel of your touch makes me gasp and takes the breath from my chest.
I never want to be with anyone but you, for you are the only one for me.
Although I have seen many smiles and felt many loves, yours is the best.
Knowing that you're mine is better than any other feelings
You lips are lush and beautiful, and all mine for the stealing
I know we'll be together forever, so why even be afraid?
In the night,
In the moonlight
Alone with you I'll see
Your adoring smile,
Your precious face
The way you wrap me
In your embrace
The warmth of your love,
The feeling of your hug
Kiss me tenderly,
Make me yours tonight
In the moonlight.
Knowing you'll always be there is beyond a joyous feeling.
My smile is wide and captivating, all there for the stealing
I know I'll be eternally yours, so why worry about anything else?
In the night,
In the moonlight,
Together we will be.
Knowing that you're mine is better than any other feelings
You lips are lush and beautiful, and all mine for the stealing
I know we'll be together forever, so why even be afraid?
In the night,
In the moonlight
Together we will be
Together you and me
Together we will be.
Tears were filling Takuya's eyes as the song ended. Yamato looked up at the two lovers who had been embracing the whole time. Kouji was the first to speak.
"Did you write that?" he asked.
"Yeah. I wrote it for Kamiya, but I have never had a chance to perform it or record it. I just wrote it like three weeks ago. I really wanted her to hear it, but....I guess she won't get the chance." Yamato whispered the last part.
"Ah, don't say that. This is Kamiya we're talking about here. She's stubborn as a mule." Takuya said, turning away from Yamato. Then, he turned around slightly, and gave the blonde a peace sign. "She'll be back."
Kouji followed Takuya out the door and down the hall to their bedroom. Kouji settled onto the bed first, and Takuya sat next to him, leaning a soft head on Kouji's shoulder. Kouji smiled and softly ran his fingers through the chestnut hair. Takuya sighed and snuggled closer. All he wanted now was to be close to Kouji. He had been through so much recently, and it had worn him down both physically and mentally. He smiled and looked up at Kouji. Kouji looked down at his koi, and Takuya closed his eyes as Kouji leaned in for a gentle kiss. Kouji felt Takuya smile into it before he opened his mouth. Kouji seized the opportunity and slid his tongue in.
Takuya felt Kouji's tongue begin to dance with his, and at that point he knew that he could never be happier than he was right then. As the two's tongues dueled for the top spot, Takuya fell backward onto the bed, Kouji lying on top of him. In an instant, Kouji felt a light breeze in his hair, and the bandanna was gone. In the next second, Takuya had his hair down out of its ponytail and was running his fingers through it. The kiss was broken then, and both were left panting. Takuya leaned up after he had caught his breath and once again seized Kouji's warm lips. As their tongues began dancing again, Takuya began a quick handiwork of unzipping Kouji's jacket, and in seconds, it and his shirt lay in the floor.
Kouji leaned forward and easily slid his lover's shirts off as well, and they were left panting in nothing but their jeans. They both sat up, in a desperate attempt to catch their breath. Suddenly, Takuya looked at himself and then Kouji, then turned away, putting his back to the raven-haired one.
"Oh...my...God...." Takuya muttered.
"Takuya," Kouji whispered. "No. I'm the one who should be sorry. I nearly led you into..."
"No. I really don't mind that much. It's just that...I really don't want you to lose your virginity to someone like me..." Takuya muttered with downcast eyes.
"Takuya, what are you saying?" Kouji asked.
"Well it's just that I...The thing is...Kouji, I'm dirty. I'm not a virgin, which wouldn't be a bad thing if it wasn't for the fact that it was with someone like my father. Kouji, I don't want you wasting your time on someone like me." Takuya said, tears beginning to pool in his eyes.
"Taku..." Kouji whispered. He moved to sit behind Takuya and wrapped his arms around his lover from behind.
"Takuya, I never want you to think that what happened will make me love you any less. I didn't fall in love with you because of how you looked, or your past, or your present, or your future. I fell in love with you because of who you are. I could never think you were dirty, so don't worry. But look at me." Kouji said softly.
Takuya, tears streaming down his face, turned to face Kouji, who was now gently holding his shoulders.
"That kind of sex was not consensual, was it?" Kouji asked. Takuya shook his head. "Then you're still a virgin, Takuya-baby."
Takuya blushed at the nickname, but slightly smiled.
"But wait...how can that be?" Takuya asked.
"See, if you willingly make love to someone you truly care about with all your heart, then you have lost your virginity. It is gone, never to come back again, and hopefully, you don't regret it. But if the sex was against your will, like it was in your case, then you have never made love to anyone that you love with all that you are. That makes you a virgin." Kouji explained. "And you're my little virgin, aren't you, Takuya-baby?"
Takuya's face turned a bright red, and he buried it into Kouji's naked chest.
"Kouji, I love you a lot, I really do, and I want to make love to you and all....I mean, you are the only one I have wanted to be with with everything that I am for a long time, two years in fact, but...Kouji, I'm just not sure if I'm ready yet. I still have so many nightmares, even now, of that guy and what he did to me." Takuya whimpered.
Kouji hugged the brunette close and kissed the top of his head, burying his face in the chestnut hair and petting it softly.
"Don't worry, Takuya. I would never hurt you. But I can see how you wouldn't be ready just yet. I'll wait as long as you need me to. But once you are ready, all you have to do is let me know. I'm ready when you are, Takuya-baby, and not a moment sooner. Don't ever forget that." Kouji said.
Takuya nodded into Kouji's chest, and the two curled up under the blanket. And after a soft, tender kiss, and a sweet goodnight, the two fell asleep, wrapped in each other's embrace.
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Takuya: blushing did we really have to end the chapter like that?
Kouji: Hey, I liked it.
Takuya: So?!?!? I get to make decisions too, right?
Kouji: You can next chapter. But for now, I'm going to do something Kami never did. Here's a preview of the next chapter!!
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There was a loud crash, and Takuya wearily opened his eyes. He glanced around, and his eyes grew wide as the figure, dressed all in black, walked toward him.
"Cooperate," said one, grabbing him and covering his mouth. "And you won't get hurt. Got that?"
Takuya's fear-filled eyes flooded with tears. He was horrified. What had he done to deserve this? The one who had grabbed him lifted him up and pulled him close. Takuya had no clue what to do, other than try and get Kouji's attention. Suddenly, he developed a plan. He opened his mouth and bit down on the man's hand—hard. The man yelped, and uncovered Takuya's mouth.
"KOUJI!! HELP ME!!" Takuya cried out.
The darker haired boy's eyes shot open and he glanced toward where the yelling had been. Suddenly, his eyes fell on the four dark figures that were now making their way toward the open window. The one holding Takuya was almost to the window when Kouji leapt up out of the bed.
"Shit...TAKUYA!!" he yelled.
Kouji: Well, that's all for that chapter. Be sure to read and review so that the updates that Kami is sending us will come in faster. C ya'll!!!