Haruka was completely overwhelmed by their feelings back to the pits and was immediately taken by her father in the arm. "Congratulations! That was incredible. I told you, is that the main concentration. You ran great. "" Thanks Dad. Without you I would not have done well. Just because I have remembered your words before the race, I'm not overthrown. "She told him happily. But long kept this quiet moment, because their chief mechanic arrived and reminded them that they still had the awards ceremony. As Haruka then on the top of the podium and took their place, the national anthem rang out, she could no longer hide their tears of joy. She thought how nice it would be a turn when her mother could be there. If mom would be proud of me? Or they would be disappointed, because I pretend like I was a boy? Surely they would be happy about this victory. I still can not quite believe I've won real and even though I still do not go long. After the ceremony they had then also in a press conference. Haruka as she entered the room became quite nervous. 'Oh man, so many cameras and people. What am I supposed to say? Whether Shoya is nervous even if he has to his race to such press conferences? Surely he would laugh at me if he could see me now. You tried to repress these thoughts and sat down in her seat. The reporter they showered almost with questions like: "What are their goals this season? What's it feel to win in the first race? Can you imagine in this season for the championship ride? When you have driven for the first time? "Haruka answered all questions in a shaky voice. Her father was standing the whole time on the side of the room so that she could see him. She saw in his eyes that he was proud of her. As the press conference was finished, she went back totally exhausted with the team. To their surprise, there also Shoya waiting for her. "Hey, not bad, what you doing out there. I'm sure that someday in the very front mitfährst large. Let us take a little sometime race against each other. "He told her and gave her his hand to congratulate her. "That would be really great. But do not cry when I win! "" You spit sounds so pretty big, then we will see who cries at the end. "
The following race Haruka had collected more and more confidence in their appearance and become accustomed gradually to the press. More and more fan letters came to her house and she was increasingly under surveillance of the press when she was traveling for personal reasons. Most were fan letters from young girls who they thought was a sweet boy. " Many had sent their photos and then asked her if she was already taken. Haruka had been so focused on her career that she had not thought about it yet. What they found, however, her behavior was that the photos of the girls she looked more and more. She was now almost 13 years old and fully established in the racing world. Masaru wanted to buy his daughter in the city with new clothes for her, because through quite a growth spurt her her clothes were getting too small. In addition, her body began to change and Haruka was increasingly confronted with the fact that it was not a boy. "Oh Daddy, why do we have to go shopping? You know very well that I hate that, "she groused, as the two entered a clothing store. "You know very well that you urgently need new stuff. Finally, you are still growing. And the faster we will find something for you, the more likely we are then delivered back home and you are for now. "He answered her, smiling. Masaru knew this setting from the store by herself and had to laugh about it. After endless minutes, it seemed like Haruka, she had three new pants and twice as many new T-shirts. As her sponsor had been invited to a feast, they also needed a fitting dress for the occasion. When she left in a white suit the changing room to get her father to present she suddenly stopped and looked out with wide eyes from the store. Just went out there a girl about her age as over valued. Wow, that looks just like an angel. Moment of time, what I'm thinking about? What's wrong with me? This is something I've never thought ... Haruka shook his head because of the confusing thoughts that had been formed immediately and went to her father after he had mentioned several times that she had not consciously perceived. "And what do you mean? Can I so go to this party? It is enough for me so slowly ... "she asked. Masaru looked at his daughter and was surprised how good it was, the suit yet. "The suit fits perfectly. Come on get dressed to go and we pay. Then we will go home, okay? And on that occasion, you can also tell me the same time, what took you so ... just distracted, "he said referring to Harukas behavior, as they had left the locker room. Haruka shot at her father's words directly to a slight blush, and she hurried to get back into the locker room, so he did not. 'Oh man, sometimes I wish he would not be so attentive. I do not know what to tell him ... I'm still not even know what it was just ... How can someone I had seen only for two seconds, just get me so upset?
Fully loaded with the yield of the walk, the two went back to Masarus car and stowed the bags in the trunk. When they have taken place in the car turned the issue back Masaru onto the scene in the fashion business, Haruka was so messed up. He was in the last few weeks have frequently noticed that Haruka is often looked after pretty girls, but he had never yet touched it. But eventually he had to do so sometimes with her to clear the air and now it seemed like a good day for it. "Haruka, you know that we can talk to each other about everything ..." he began when he started the engine. "Yes Dad, I know. Why do you say that? I got something done? "She said, because she did not know what her father wanted to go out. "Haruka, you are now at an age where you start ..." he broke off because he found the right words would not come easy. Why is this so hard to find the right words? Whether it is my parents at that time fell just as hard to talk about it? As much as I would now like at my side, Sorano. You'd probably already a suitable starting place for this conversation. You were always much better at the important issue of cause when I ... But you're no longer there and I have to somehow create well alone ... Haruka looked over to her father and realized that he was probably lost in thought. "Dad, what do you mean? I do not understand what you want to tell me. "She tried again to draw attention to themselves. "What? Sorry, I was just a little in thought. Let us now when we get home, keep talking. "Haruka was obviously confused, but she had to know what the feeling, or rather, to whom her father had just been thinking. She had met her mother but never, but she knew that her father thought of her often. She had seen him frequently while he was in the living room and looked at the pictures of her. Mostly he did, if they had done something wrong, or willing to enforce their will with ...
At home, Haruka brought together with Masaru their purchases to their room where they stored the same things too, in her closet. Then she went into the living room, where her father was deep in thought an image of his dead wife in his hand. "Dad ..." Slowly, Masaru awoke from his rigid and looked at Haruka. "What princess?" "Will you tell me something about Mama? What was she like? "He smiled at his daughter and sat on the chair before he began to speak. "Your mom was the greatest man that I have ever met. I am glad to have met her and I am grateful that they gave me you. You are my everything. "" You think of her often, am I right? "" Yes that's right. Every time I see you, I can see you in Sorano. You are very much like her. Not necessarily in your way that you've probably me, but she had the same bright eyes like you and also the blonde hair you have of her. And I'm sure you'll once as beautiful as she is. "" Then you're not angry with me because Mom is not there? "" What nonsense ... I was never mad at you. You are to me the most important in life and you can not become anything for it. Fate would have it so ... "Haruka went up to her father and took him in her arms when she saw that he had begun to cry. "Do you think Mom would be disappointed in me if she would see what I do and how I behave?" "No, I think they would be proud of you. You are just as you are. It would not care what you look like and what you do, as long as you have fun and feel about yourself. "" But I do not, so they would be disappointed. I mean, I'm a girl but I pretend like I was a boy. "" You are but this and that would make them proud. They would, like me, always available to your decisions and respect them. "These words were liberating for Haruka. She had often wondered how her mother would have reacted to their behavior, even if she had never met her. "Well, now you tell me what has you so distracted just now when you came into the suit from the dressing room." Masaru turned the conversation into another direction. "I, uh ... I have since seen anyone as I wanted to show the suit ..." Haruka confessed to move her father. "And ...? Was she pretty? "He asked after Masaru and Haruka looked at her in surprise. She was caught by her father. "Come on, you can tell me quietly. I know you princess and I love you more often lately seen here is that you look at the pictures of your female fans closer look at. Do not worry, it's perfectly normal that you start up an interest in the appearance of others. You're just growing up. "" But this is normal, I mean I'm a girl and I got from my teacher says that girls are interested in when they grow up, more and more for boys. And I, oh I do not know ... Am I normal? "" Princess, do not worry you're normal. I do not know how to explain it to you, but for some girls it is quite normal to be interested in other girls. And for some it is then so that they are older when they begin to be too interested in boys while others remain only for girls interested in, so do not worry about it. No matter how that goes with you. I do not care how will you choose as long as you are about happy times. And see some positive, if indeed you stand on girls, then you need not hide even from the press. "" That I have not even thought so. It's all so confusing to me, I just do not know how I feel about what I feel. Thank you for your kind words and your explanation. This has now calmed me really something. "" I can well understand, it was no different then me. I remember that I also did not at first as I did with all the feelings and impressions that have since been incorporated to handle me, you should. So I can offer you is that you can always talk to me about everything. Nothing to be embarrassed. And now tell me, how she looked? "" Thank you Dad ... I can not really tell you very little about it. All I remember is that she has a pretty face and turquoise, curly hair. At more I can not remember. "Haruka was still slightly confused by themselves. The memory of this girl, that she had only seen very briefly, it was also laid back and her heart sank. "You know, I hope for you that you will see them once again and you can then also talk again." "But I would also still the problem that I think they will have a boy. How should I tell her because then I'm not? And what if they do not like me do? "" I can not answer you, but for such questions, it is still too early, do not you think? "" Right. Finally, I know they do not know. And it is unlikely that we ever meet again. "" That you never know. Maybe it's fate says so well with you and you will see her again someday and if you then still so interested in girls as it is now, then will everything else somehow arise. "Masaru hugged his daughter briefly and was then to prepare the dinner. He was glad he had that conversation behind him.