Compulsive Noties

You guys...I think we're coming to the end of the road here. And I realised...I'm really twisted. Some of the things I write...it's just...gosh. And sorry this chapter's extreamly short too. But I had to make it short because it's got certain meaning to it. There's stuff behind the words. Ya know? Next chapter will be longer hopfully. And aren't you glad i didint wait a week to post it? -Smiles- Alrightie then.


There were many things scattered across the floor, things ranging from a dress, also cut up the side, a bottle of pills, water bottles, glue sticks, speakers, but that wasn't my main focus. Sasuke screamed through the tape, and I looked around awaiting Suigetsu's reappearance. With no sign of the crazy man I made my way toward the now weeping Sasuke. I'd never seen him like this. He was always so cool and collected, so relaxed, so unafraid. Everything about him was like that. So pissed off but happy. Now seeing him crying clothes cut, hair messed up, I wondered where the infamous Robbie was.

I walked slowly and carefully watching every corner, and even as Sasuke's tone reached it tip top in urgency I kept my pace. Always checking behind me. I wasn't going to screw this up and end up like him. I bent over to pick up a pocket knife, and I felt him behind me, his hands on my hips.

"Remember this, Naruto?" I could hear the smirk on his lips. I sharply turned around, the knife next to his mouth.

"Fuck. You. You know what Suigetsu? I'm so done. And you know what?" I began to back in into a wall,

"I was so fucking done when I broke up with you. When I ended it. When I severed our ties. I was done then, with your crazy 'Never give up' attitude, even though that was the reason I agreed to go out with you in the first place, but it's over now. And I don't know if you noticed, but that man you have over there laying on the bed, he's my new boyfriend. The boyfriend I don't plan on dumping. Which in turn means you can't have him. Oh! And I almost forgot, that also means you can't do that to him." I gestured to the bed, where Sasuke hysterics had calmed down now that I was in control of the situation.

"You know, Naruto," He lifted his hand to pull the knife from my hand, I didn't put up a fight and let it slide from my hand knowing he wouldn't turn around and cut me.

"It's nice being able to say your name. And you didn't need to go on that long rant. I knew it was over, I knew that." He flipped the blade shut and moved from the place I had him cornered at, and sauntered around the room.

"Which 'in turn' "He mocked, making his way over to Sasuke, but I hadn't noticed,

"Made me want Sasuke even more." He pulled the pocket knife that I had returned to him and flipped it open at Sasuke's throat.

"I won't cut him. I just want one thing." He ripped the tape off and Sasuke yelped,

"Fuck!"

"Shh, shh, shh now be quite while I collect my prize." Prize? What prize, and why was I to watch? So he wouldnt pull a fast one. God I hated him.

His posture failed as he leaned in to close the gap between their lips, and I cringed as I could feel a scowl crawling apon my face. How I want to run over and strangle him. Watch the light slowly leave his demonic eyes, and drop his motionless body like a sack of potatoes. As he pulled away I could see on Sasuke's face he hadn't liked it much either. Relief rushed over my body. Suigetsu flipped it around and ran the knife along the rope around his wrists and ankles. Sasuke shook them loose and regained his composure. He took a deep breath and stepped fron the bed over to me.

"Suigetsu, we could have been friends. I'm afraid that's only to happen in another life." He left the room and as calm as he looked, you could hear him jetting down the steps and out the front door. I walked over to Suigetsu, who was now sulking.

"Do you see why people don't do this shit? Why your always alone even though your very handsome? Because...I mean fucking A! What more explanation do you need! Everything is lain out like a blanket! You know...you could have had him...not as a lover as a friend. But that never good enough for you, 'cause you always need to stick you dick in something don't you. Even if they don't want it. God you disgust me. I never want to see your face again. And I doubt if Sasuke does." I began to walk away, when the knife came flying by and hit and stuck to the wall.

"Fuck. You. Fuck you...you arrogant son-of-a-bitch." He stood up and walked over the the knife, but I pulled it from the wall and held tightly to the grip.

"You know what Naruto? I havne't been alone all this time. Or maybe I have. But that's none of your buiness now. Why should you care you have 'Sweet little Sasuke.' Well you know what? I hope everything bad happened between you two. I hope in ends like a burnt down plane. Fast, painful, and scary. I hope no one comes out alive. You don't deserve to be happy." I felt my scowl coming back. With every word My control slowly slipped away. I put the knife in his face.

"What are you do?" He grabbed the blade and close his hand over it as tight as he could. His white hands turned red, and small streams of blood made their way down his hand.

"Maybe I don't," He pulled his hand away, and showed me the deep gash on his hand.

"But I don't deserve to be pushed aside but the one person I ever loved." He ran his hand along my face, and a shiver of pain and anger ran down my spine.

"And I'll keep coming back into you life, weather it be to ruin it, or help it. I'll be there. Just around the corner. Waiting for my chance to reappear. Why do I keep doing this?" He's voice became a yell,

"Why!? Why!? Because, Naruto, because. I love you. I always have, I always will. 'Till the day I die. I'll be back, but because I want to see you happy go. Go to him. As long has your happy. And I'll be here...still waiting." He leaned forward and kissed me. I made to reaction to it, and dropped the blade. There I stood, his lips pressed against mine. My body stone, not happy, not mad, not sad, not sympathetic. Indifferent. Totally indifferent. I didn't want to push him away, I didn't want to pull him in. I just stood there, my thoughts, my actions...indifferent. He broke the kiss, and look in my eyes for any kind of life. Any kind of happiness or anger, anything. But there was nothing. His face fell limp, and sorrow spread on the expressions. I turned to leave,

"Naruto?" I looked back, still emotionless.

"Love him. Please? Like you...like you could never love me. Do you think I'll ever love again?" I continued my blank stare,

"That's what I thought...go, please." I walked out of the door and down the steps, and into my car. And there was Sasuke sitting next to me, still wiping tears from his eyes.

"What took you so long?" He sobbed reaching out to hold me, and I warped my arms around his upper body, the scene playing out at top speed a million times in some kind of loop. I let my chin set on his head, ad his tears went though my shirt.

"Stay with me." He sad through sobs,

"Stay with me tonight, stay with me forever." My hug held him tighter, but I didn't show any emotions on my face still.

"I will...Sasuke...I will."

-:-

Have you every felt like you were an old stuffed animal. And one to many play dates had gone on? Like you were played with so many times your little stitches couldn't handle much more? Have you every felt like you were to tired to move. To tired to feel. To tired to do anything? Have you ever felt like everything you worked to could easily ripped away at the flick of a wrist? Like everything was meaningless like you needed to be told again what was right and what was wrong so you could see if there was a defined line. If where was a clear black and white. Have you ever found it hard to believe what you were told, what you knew was right?

Well that's how I felt right now. Laying in my bed, with Sasuke in my arms. Like I needed to be woken up from a bad dream. Like I needed a reality check. Something to show me everything I want and need in life. Because all those things were hard to find. I could move past earlier today. I couldn't catch up with the reality. I couldn't catch up with what was going on right at this very moment. What was going on? What was I doing wrong? How could I fix it? Why did Sasuke feel so far away but so close. On the other side of the world but right in my arms. He held tight. His arms holding on as much as his heart was. He was scarred, sad, and needed me. I tried to fake my emotions that night, for they were long gone. My indifferentness was slowly growing. He noticed, that's why he was holding on so tight. Holding on so that I wouldn't let go. I knew that when I woke up, they'd be back. I hoped they'd be back. But this feeling...this...no feeling was taking over. I felt nothing at all. Except Sasuke.

"Sasuke?" I shook him lightly awake,

"Yes Naruto?" He asked still drowzie, I thought for a moment why I had woken him up, and what it would do.

"Kiss me." I needed to know if I was alive inside.

Like I said it had to be short....YAY REAL PARAGRAPHS ISH... lol