So sorry i haven't posted in awhile, i've been so busy and i rewrote this chapter a couple times so hope you like it...:)

Sonny's POV

The first answer that entered my mind was yes.

It was the answer that was the easiest: both for the future, and on my lips. It was the answer for the fairytales: me the princess and Chad the dashing prince charming. "Yes" would make the heartache and the lying and the pretending go away.

I opened my lips to say that exact word, but closed them again; along with my eyes; shivering and trying so hard to fight reality. I was shaking so much, I began to feel sick to my stomach.

"How can you understand, Chad?" I asked, with the safe haven of my closed eyes to hide behind.

"Understand…?" he said.

"Understand that I want to say yes?"

"Then say yes," he answered. He made it sound so easy. "It's that simple."

"Simple?" I repeated, and opened my eyes. "How can you say that this is simple?"

"It's one word!"

"But it's one of the biggest decisions you will make in your life!"

He looked down at me, seeming far away. His blue eyes held this certain hunger for me; the same hunger I felt swelling inside me. He had no idea how badly I wanted to say yes; to marry him and grow old with him; for him to bend down right now and kiss me, knowing we had the rest of our lives together.

"Baby…" he whispered. "Just say it. Please."

"You're not allowed to call me that anymore," I told him as gently as I knew how. "I…couldn't handle it."

He nodded with a strange stiffness, like he couldn't stand this. "Okay," he said, and got off of me, collapsing in a pathetic heap right next to me—close enough for me to hear him breathing, but far enough away that our arms weren't touching.

"Aren't you going to get up?" I asked.

"No. I think I'll stay here awhile."

"Okay," I said. "Can I just ask one favor?"

"Whatever you want."

"Can you…hold me? Just one last time?"

"No."

"Please?"

He sighed, reaching out his right arm away from his body, and toward me, so his fingers touched my waist. "Come here," he said.

I scooted on my back to his side. He closed his arm around my ribs, and my head rested in the crook of his neck. I breathed in so deep, a few short hairs from his head tickled my nostrils, before I released my breath against his skin.

Why didn't I say yes, even though I knew I couldn't? Tonight, we were going home, and right now, I couldn't face that.

At the moment, all I needed was his heavenly smell in my own lungs, his warm skin on my face, his arm around me, just holding me.

Nothing else. I didn't need anything else.

"Thank you," I said.

"You're welcome," he answered, without adding "Angel" to the end.

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