Yeah! My next chapter is finally up! :) :) :) I know I said I'd have two chapters, and I will in a couple more days….promise! But for right now, this is just the first very long chapter. But I got so many reviews, you desserve TWO long chapters. And I will get there. Just be a little paitent. I've been so busy since I updated last…with vacations and a full-time job!

Another thing you should know: The Jonas Brothers are the most amazing guys ever! I just recently discovered how talented they are….and how good music is hard to come by these days. But I support them 100% because their music is AMAZING!

Which is why, I want to use one of their songs in this chapter.

"Fall," by the Jonas Brothers. Look it up on youtube and listen to it while you read this chapter. It goes well with it.

Enjoy!

(Oh, and if anyone can give me any info on if the jobros are coming out with a new album or going on tour together or anything….PLEASE let me know! I know they're doing solo stuff, but I like them as a band)

My whole body ached for him, even though I had him.

I tried to tell myself that my head was throbbing and my fingertips were numb and restless because we'd been lying here so long, but I knew it was for some other reason. Some nameless, gigantic reason.

Was this love, or was this lust?

Did I want him, or need him?

I couldn't pinpoint the reason, or the answers to my questions. All I knew was my fingers could bury themselves in his shirt, and press and kneed at the fabric, but they possessed an eternal hunger, that would soon go unsatisfied.

It was my fault. It was my fault. It was my fault. I was the one who said 'no.' I was the one who strained against and broke the chains of true love.

True love.

The two words that were the most untrue when put together, according to society. But Chad and I proved it to be wrong…and I wanted to keep proving it wrong.

I wanted him so bad it hurt.

I felt Chad's fingers on my waist hold me slowly tighter, before he said something. "I'll stay here as long as you need me to, Sonny."

His voice was strange against the silence. It was as if I'd been hungry, and suddenly I'd been given a bite of food. His voice was the food. Hearing him say my name was the food.

And I was starving.

"Chad."

My mouth was sticky. I couldn't speak. But I had to. I needed to.

"Yes?"

"I'm sorry."

"That's just the hangover talking."

I couldn't take it. I just couldn't take this! Chad loved me so much, yet everything he said made it sound like he didn't believe I loved him back.

When I opened my mouth to speak, tasted my own tears. "St-stop," I wailed. "I—I can't…I didn't…" I struggled through the choking sobs and searing headache, to find words to say to him. But there weren't any words in the English language to describe how I felt—to describe that all I wanted and all I needed was lying next to me.

So I didn't say anything. Not a word; terrified of messing up what I wanted to tell him.

All I had was the soft wail of seagulls circling above us, the whistling of the ocean breeze, the majestic rush of the waves over the sand…

"Didn't…what?" Chad's voice was careful, and heavy. As heavy as two little words could possibly be.

"Can we…go back to not talking?" I whispered, then after I realized it sounded rude, added, "Please?"
"Fine," he snapped. "I understand."

Before I had a chance to say anything back, a painful tug pulled something inside my forehead. I jolted up so fast, Chad got sprayed with sand that sprinkled from my hair.

"What the hell, Sonny?" he scolded, now sitting up with me.

I pushed a hand at his chest, hardly aware what I was doing. "Shut-up!" I screamed in pain, doubling over with my fingertips drilled into my forehead in attempt to stop the massive headache. It was like someone was inside of my skull, trying to punch their way out. There was a constant, intense pounding, and this pull behind my eyes, as if that same someone who was in my skull, was also yanking at the strings behind my eyes.

"Sonny?" Chad was saying, but it sounded faraway. His hands were on my shoulders, trying so gently to pull me back up. "Sonny?" he kept saying. "Sonny! Can I help you?"

"No!" I screamed back. "You can go!"

"I'm not leaving you," he said stubbornly. "Not like this."

"Well too bad!" I shot back, sitting up now to look him straight in the eyes. "I don't want you here. I never wanted you here. Ever since we were going to pick up that cake." I was crying now, but not because of what I was saying—just because of the pain in my head, that was almost unbearable now. "God, Chad," I sobbed. "Why did you have to come with me? Why did you have to get lost?" I stared at him, waiting for an answer, but I don't know why. He wasn't going to answer me after all the stuff I just said.

"Just go," I said finally. "Just go…just go!" I threw a handful of sand at him, and he got to his feet. "I don't want you here anymore."

Chad stood there, hanging his head with his hands deep inside his pockets, before he turned to walk away.

I didn't think he'd come back, but he did. Only about a minute later.

"What?" I demanded.

"I came to tell you something," he said. "Something…I'm not sure how you're going to take. Something I've wanted to say for so long…"

I let out an annoyed sigh. "I thought I told you to leave—"

"I love you."

Three little words at the moment I was least expecting. Three little words that Chad handed me, and I didn't know what to do with them.

"Stop…" I said. I couldn't take this right now. This was too heavy for me.

"Sonny…"

"No! Stop it!" I was screaming again. "Stop! Stop! Stop! It isn't supposed to be like this! We aren't supposed to be together!" I stood up, and walked toward him as I was screaming. But every step I took toward him, he took a step back.

"We choose who we're with," Chad tried to reason. "We—we make our own fate!"

"But I don't want to be with you!" I screeched, stomping the ground. "I never, ever loved you!"

"Sonny…" he said, reaching out to grab my hand. "Quit it…"

"No! You quit it!" I was completely out of control, wound up in a fit of rage; tears spilling off my chin, eyes red and swollen, and headache burning in my skull.

"Just go, Chad! Just go! Leave me alone already…" I burst into violent sobs. Sobs that were too violent to control.

I stood there, I don't know how long, just crying. Crying, and cursing under my breath, wishing I could take back everything I'd said to Chad. And now he was gone.

And if Chad was gone, so was everything.

No, wait. He wasn't gone. He was right here, because when I reached out in the early-morning darkness, there he was. Standing there for me.

Since my eyes were still closed from crying so hard, I stepped forward, feeling around for him. I touched his shirt, and kept coming toward him, until I felt him reach out for me too, then pull me into his chest.

In his arms, the world felt warmer. He held me forever, or at least it felt like it. He held me so close and so tightly, it was as if he was saying I was his. Only his. Nobody could take his Sonny away.

I cried, and he stroked my hair.

My head melted away in pain, and his cold fingers soothed it.

I spoke, finally, and he listened. And this time, I meant what I said.

"I love you too," I shivered. "And…I don't want you gone, Chad. I want you. That's the problem."

"What problem?" he whispered.

The world was now a warm blur of colors, feelings, and Chad. I felt myself being lifted off the ground, and I felt my lips being kissed.

Inside, my heart was breaking. But on the outside, I was completely whole.

Sorry, I didn't think this chapter was that good, but I will work harder on the next one. Like I said…I've been so busy.

Songs I STRONGLY recommend you check out(all by the Jonas Brothers, of course :)

"Invisible"
"Pusin' Me Away"
"Inseperable"

"Games"
"You Just Don't Know it"

Songs to take you back (also jobros) :

"SOS"

"When You Look Me in the Eyes"

"Year 3000"

Check them out, guys!

Oh, and since the jobros are kinda fading and all…there's a lot of people who want to bring them back on the charts. Call your local radio station and request a Jonas Brothers song. Not just once, but as often as you can! THANKS!

You say Baby, I say Hey Baby

-You say Pray, I say Dear God

-You say Never Let You Go, I say Hold On

-You say Ride, I say Drive

-You say Latin Girl, I say Australia Girl

-You say Up, I say Fly With Me

-You say Justin Bieber,I say the Jonas Brothers!

Half of the Jonas Fans moved on and went with Justin Bieber. Copy and Paste this if you are one of the people who stayed with the Jonas Brothers and continued to support them, and JB will always mean jonas brothers.

JB3