Meredith lay in her hotel room that night. She couldn't stop the tears from falling. Her heart was breaking and there was nothing that she could do. She couldn't go back not yet. She had to figure out what she wanted. She had to figure out what her future held. She closed her eyes and was about to fall asleep when her cell phone began ringing. She looked and saw that it was Derek. She didn't want to talk to him not yet. But knew that he wouldn't sleep until he was able to talk to her.

She picked up the phone and pushed the talk button.

"Hello" she whispered.

"Meredith I love you. I'm so sorry please come home." Derek cried.

"I'm sorry Derek. I can't come home not yet. Please just give me some time. Get some rest. I'll talk to you tomorrow." she cried into the phone.

"How can I sleep. I need you next to me Meredith. Don't you realize how much I love you? You still love me don't you?" he asked.

"It's hard to be away from you Derek but at the same time I haven't had you for the last year. You go to work everyday and come home every night without saying a word to me. You may not think that you stopped showing me love but you did. That hurts worse than being away from you. I have slept next to you for the last six month and cried myself to sleep and you haven't even noticed. So no Derek I don't realize that you still love me. Not when you have ignored me for so long. I do still love you that is why I had to leave. I need to know if you still love me." she hung up the phone.

He called her up he said I have been such a fool

Derek hung up the phone and threw it across the floor. He walked upstairs and climbed into their bed. He didn't know she cried herself to sleep every night. How could he have been so blind to his wife. He snuggled closer to her pillow. He would find his wife and bring her back home.

Christina and Alex walked into the bar and sat down next to Mark and Izzy. "Hey I feel so bad." Izzy told Christina.

"I know she has tried so many times to talk to me. I haven't listened to her." Christina felt terrible.

"I can't believe that she actually left him. We all know that Meredith loves Derek. I mean it doesn't make any since." Alex said.

"We all noticed the strain on their marriage. Meredith hasn't acted like herself for months. We were all to busy to stop and talk to her. Maybe she shouldn't have quit working. She loved being a surgeon it was her life." Mark hated the thought of his friends marriage in trouble.

"It kind of makes you stop and think. If they can't make their marriage last who can." Alex spoke the words everyone had been thinking.

"Alex you make it sound like it's over for them. She'll come back I know Meredith she'll come back." Izzy wanted to believe that Meredith would come back but she was doubting her own words.

"I don't know Izzy. I mean she's hurt and feeling like no one has time for her. She doesn't even think that we care anymore. Why would she come back?" Christina asked.

"We have to help them. There has to be something that we can do." Izzy had tried calling Meredith but it went straight to voice mail.

"What can we do? We don't know where she's at. It's not like she's going to call us." Alex took a shot of tequila.

Mark looked at Izzy "We should get home. Maybe she has tried calling the house. Plus there's not much we can do tonight. We have to take the kids to school tomorrow for Derek." Mark stood up and helped Izzy onto her feet.

"Christina call me if you hear from her okay?" Izzy turned and walked out with Mark.

"Are you ready to go Alex. I need some sleep. If I am going to find her I need sleep." Christina said.

Alex shook his head and walked outside with his wife.