"Hey Charlie! I'm home!" I said, waiting for a response.
"Hey, Bells. Glad your home..." Charlie muttered without any real emotion. I frowned and started some breakfast for him. As I flipped the pancakes he came into the kitchen.
"Bells? Can I ask you a question?" asked Charlie, not making eye contact.
"Uh, ya dad. What's up?" I said quietly.
"I may sound like a stupid over-protective dad...but are you...pregnant or anything?"
"DAD!" I said loudly, "No! What makes you think I am?!"
"I don't know. I'm sorry Bells, I just wanted to make sure. 'Cus your always over there, not coming home until morning." He said, obviously feeling bad that he even asked.
"Dad, NO I am not. I'm sorry...but you know how much I love him. But I'm not having sex with him."
Not that I haven't wanted to...
I shook the thought from my head, thinking of the many times Edward had avoided the subject, the fear of hurting me overtaking him. Charlie pulled me out of my thoughts.
"Bells! The pancakes! They're burning!" he said, very loudly getting my attention.
"CRAP" I said, grabbing the spatula and flinging the pancakes toward the sink.
"Sorry Dad...I wasn't really paying attention." I muttered, starting new pancakes.
"Yeah, I could tell."Charlie said,picking my pancakes out of the sink and walking to the trash can. I frowned already missing Edward. I served up Charlie's pancakes, sat the syrup on the table, and stormed up to my room. I sat down and waited for my computor to boot up. As soon as I signed on, I started a letter to Renee.
"Dear Renee,
How are you? How is Phil? I just wanted to check in with you. I'm feeling bad because Charlie thinks I'm having sex with Edward...I told him of course not but I'm not sure he believed me. I better go clean up my pancake mess (long story) so just email me back. I love you, Mom.
Love,
Bella"
I was running out of things to say. But Charlie was just making me so sad and now I had to wait all day to see Edward. I decided I would drive down to La Push.
Walking swiftly in the now pouring rain, I jumped in my old Chevy and cranked the keys as it shuddered to life. Turning up the heat, I dried out my hair and jacket so I wouldn't be miserable. I pulled off down the driveway and began my drive.
When I reached La Push I drove straight to Jacob's house. Billy must have heard my truck, because with a frown, he opened the front door and pointed me toward the garage. As I walked I could hear Jacob grunting in frustration, probably working on his motorcycle. When I walked in he jumped in suprise even though I was positive he had heard me pull up.
With a sadness in his voice I had begun to reconigze he greeted me.
"Hey Bells."
"Hey Jake...I'm really sorry for the other day its always m-" He cut me off mid-sentance.
"Bella, Edward's right. I should have just dropped it. You know I love you and I know you don't love me." Jake said as he stood up and walked toward me.
"Woah. That's were you are wrong, Jake. I love you, its just not in the same way you love me." I said, getting angry because I had told him this thousands of times. Thats when I noticed he was right in front of me. His hot hands cradled my face and I didn't move. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn't bring my self to move.
"Ja-"
Suddenly, Jacob leaned in and kissed me, his firey lips a big change from the cold marble of Edward's.
"Jake! st-" I said, my talking muffled by his mouth. I pushed as hard as I could against his chest and he didn't budge. When he finished all I could do was look at him and shake my head. I turned and ran back to my truck as tears flowed down my face. As I opened the door I heard Jacob behind me.
"Bells, Please, I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me. BELLA! Please!" He said, his voice raising.
I pulled out and headed home, confused why it couldn't just be normal. Jake is my bestfriend, and he knew that, he just refuses to accept that that's all it is. I love him and like I said, its just not in the same way he loves me.
When I finally got home, I wiped my tears and went to the door. When I got inside Charlie was on the phone with Billy.
"...Oh...mmmhmm...well, sh"
I stopped him before he could announce that I was back home. I dragged up the stairs and walked into my room. Laying down on the bed I closed my eyes,trying unsuccsefully for peace. Then, a knock on my window pulled me out of my trance. It was Jacob. And he did not look happy.