I screamed before I fell to the floor, the phone slaming against the wall. Edward came running from outside.
"BELLA?! WHAT'S HAPPENED?" Edward shrieked.
I couldn't see him, I couldn't breath, my heart wasn't working, wasn't beating, it couldn't be. This had to be a dream, a nightmare. The only part of my body working was the part that produced sobs and tears.
"BELLA?!" Edward was shaking my shoulders.
I heard him grab the phone, blinded by my tears.
"HELLO?? WHO'S THERE? DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH BELLA??" Edward spoke loudly into the phone.I could hear Seth, mummbling on the phone.
"Oh God...Oh...bye."
"Bella?"
I was unaware his arms around me. Every nerve in my body was dull, nothing hurt on the outside, but the inside was bleeding. My heart, broken in two. I curled into a ball, trying to hold myself together and at the same time, locking the pain in. Edward's voice was distant. All I could think of was Jacob...or what was Jacob. I felt faint, dizzy, black fuzz slowly surrounding my eyes...
I woke thinking it was any old morning, Edward laying next to my blanket covered body, until the realezation of yesterday sank in. I must have blacked out.
"Edward, was it a dream?" I said as fear of reality brought tears to my eyes.
"No, Love, I'm so very sorry. Please, don't cry."
Even that request, coming from the love of my life, could not be fulfilled. Tears poured out of the barrier that had been holding them in. Edward shuddered as he wrapped his arms around me for comfort. Nothing could ever make this better. I had to know what happen...if it was my fault.
"Hello?" Seth answered, quietly.
"Hey Seth...It's Bella..."
Trying to sound happier, he answered.
"Hi."
"Um..-" Choking back tears, "...Could you tell me...How it happened?" I asked, silent tears rolling down my hot cheeks.
"Bella, You don't need to know...It will hur-"
"YES, I DO NEED TO KNOW, SETH!" I practically screamed into the phone, half out of anger, half from sobs.
"Bella, you don't want to know!" Seth said back forcefully.
"yes...I do..." I murmmered.
"He...jumped off a cliff"
My screams echoed through out the house again.Edward walked toward the phone and put it back on the base. He bent down and wrapped his arms around me, trying to offer any comfort at all. What did I do to deserve this?
Weeks passed, Edwards arms around me day and night, the tears never ending.
Then, one day, when I was cleaning the floors in the house, I found a note stuck between the floorboards in my room. I slowly unfolded it...
"Bella,
I am so very sorry it came to this. I love you with all my heart and my heart is slowly breaking day by day as I watch you with Edward. Bella, I imprinted on you, long ago. Thats why I couldn't be without you. And, as much as I don't like Edward, I knew that I could never take you from him, it would be a death wish. I'm sorry. I need you to listen and read carefully. In my room there is a pillow in the top of my closet. Go get it. I left you something. I love you Bella. Make Edward take care of you for me.
I'll always love you,
Jacob"
The ink was fading from my tears. Jumping up, I wiped them away and ran downstairs and outside, grabbing my coat and keys as I went.Driving as fast as my truck would go, I finally reached the Black's house. Leaving the truck running, I went up to the door. Billy opened it, and as if he was pyhscic, pointed me to Jacob's room. I ran as my tears blurred my vision. I grabbed the pillow from the top shelf. It turns out, It wasn't a pillow at all. It was a pillow CASE filled with things of his. I cried as I pulled out the tuft of fur, the note giving me his motorcycle (and helmet), 789 Jacob's savings,a bracelet with a heart charm that had been carved, a "sorry" card, and a key with a ribbon tied to it that had "my heart" written on it with sharpie. At the bottom of the bag, I found another note.
"Bella,
I'm glad you found it. I love you, and please don't feel guilty. I felt like I couldn't just leave and leave you nothing. you are Edward's, and Edward is your's, forever. I don't doudt it. Forever love, Jacob."