I don't know why I didn't listen to peaches. He warned me this could happen. I guess I didn't want to believe the great poof at the time. Now I do. Now I believe him, but now is too late. It's not like we had all that much time to make a decision. The twerp had been working recon with some of the girls in the tech room. Not that I really trust him, or that blasted technology that they rely upon, but this time they actually came up with something useful, or rather they had something useful thrown at them. It was a message. Not even a really long message, but a scary message, a message that would change things around here. The message was really simple. It stated that Twilight, stupid git, was going to attack some part of London. The scary part however wasn't that there was going to be an attack, but rather the focus of the attack. People. Stupid, bloody, unaware, civilians, who are so busy trying to deny that the scary parts of the world exist, that they actually put themselves in more danger than if they just accepted them. You know, it used to be in the good old days that everyone knew about the existence of vampires, and magic. It was just accepted knowledge and if you ask me the world was better off for it. Instead they now have all this technological crap. Completely bloody useless I'll say. Couldn't catch a fly, let alone a vampire. Well bugger that. I've had enough. Anyway Buffy wanted to stop Twilights attack. Giles wanted to do research. I had to go with the slayer on this one. I never really was one for the books and besides I hadn't had a good brawl in a while. Not since we got out of hell anyway. Buffy was rushing it though. She had this half cocked plan that pretty much involved taking every girl we had all the way over to London in order to stop this twilight bloke. That was the part I was having trouble with. It just didn't feel right going all the way down there guns ablazing. Peaches told her that we should at least leave a few girls behind, you know, to hold down the fort. She would here none of it. She got it into her head that this Twilight guy was pretty much unstoppable, and that it would take everyone to bring him down. For her this wasn't just some protect the innocents deal, this was it. This was the big battle to bring down the bad guy. It all seemed so simple. Too simple, but I didn't want to get involved. After peaches suggested that they leave at least enough girls behind to guard the castle in an attack she practically bit his head off with some rant about how this wasn't L.A. and she was the leader here. Oh! And just because she slept with him once didn't give him the right to order her around. Well I'm no bloody idiot. I could see that she was in a bloody mood about all this and I let it be. It was my chance to finally get into the good graces of the slayer and maybe give peaches a run for his money. I may not really ever have a shot with her, but that doesn't mean I have to make it easy for the competition. Somewhere, deep down, I know that the great poof was right though, and I wish that I had spoken up. What I wouldn't give to go back and say "Angel's right!"
Oh well! Can't change the past, why bother dwelling on things you can't change. That's the other difference between me and the poof that nobody ever seems to notice. Dwelling on the past is all Angel does. Bloody git! Practically drives the poor bloke insane, and sure as hell makes him unpleasant to live with! Not to mention driving everyone else around him starking nuts while he's at it. Why can't he just let it go? I'll never understand peaches constant need for self flagilation. Me, I just don't dwell on the past that much. Well, at least now that I'm not in the basement of a certain high school being tortured by the first evil. Which if I ever get my hands on that stupid broad I will make sure she feels the true wrath of William the Bloody. Soul bedamned!
The point is that while there is a lot in the past I wish I could fix, including the other day, I realize there isn't anything I can do about it and let it go, unlike a certain vampire, who by the way is completely different from me, and is as dull as a lampshade.
Anyway peaches, who is a bloody moron by the way (did I mention that!) decided to accuse the slayer head on of leading everyone into a trap. He used that oh so brilliant argument of "Angelus would have done it!" Ha! Because rubbing her face in it how you got her to fall for a bloody trap is the way to win her over. Way I figured was, maybe I could win her over for myself considering how peaches seemed determined to drive her away. I was a bloody fool.
Peaches was right in the end. It was a trap. Unfortunately nobody listened to him in the end. Not after I took the slayers side. Nope. Me, the slayer, and almost every girl living in the compound took off for London. Buffy agreed to leave the few girls working recon behind, and put Satsu and Xander in charge. Everyone from Los Angeles stayed 'cept me of course, stayed behind as well. I don't think there comfortable with the scoobies just yet.
Apparently it wasn't long after we left that the attacks started. They were small at first, luring small squadrons of girls out into the courtyard. Xander didn't realize until too late that they were surrounded. Way I heard it peaches was the only reason the whole place wasn't obliterated. He managed to mobilize everyone left behind and fend off the attacks until we could get back. As it turns out it was a trap, and the decoy worked perfectly. I guess this Twilight bloke knows the slayer almost as well as Angelus. Makes you wonder who he is.
In the end though, thank to peaches quick thinking, the losses were minimal. We only lost ten or so girls. Of course Buffy blames herself for all of it. When she came back from London with us she wouldn't even look Peaches or Giles in the eye. She just went straight to her room and didn't come out for two days straight. Peaches was the one who finally got her to come out. He was sick and tired of waiting for her to stop moping and went and locked himself in her room. I didn't dare go talk to her. I was too afraid I'd say something stupid. I knew she'd claim it was all her fault, and it's not, but there were a few times when I began to doubt that. Not peaches though. He never blamed her. I'm not sure what exactly he said in there, but whatever he said, when she finally did come back out she was her old self again… well at least until the second attack.
See what made this whole thing so nasty wasn't the fact that Buffy fell for an easily avoidable trap, no, anyone could have made that mistake. No, the scary part was when a group of vampires attacked the girls while they were working out in the courtyard. There were at least ten vampires, and while only three of the vampires made it out alive at least ten more of our girls were killed. But that still isn't the worst part. The worst part was their leader. A vampire so powerful she killed three slayers in the time it took Buffy to slay just one vampire. She was so merciless she made Angelus look like a fluffy bunny. She was strong enough that it took me, Peaches, and the slayer just to slow her down, and when we finally had an opening. Buffy finally had a chance to steak her, and keep this dangerous monstrosity from getting out alive, she hesitated. She hesitated. That girl was just a fledge. I can't imagine how powerful she'd be in a few years, let alone a decade. Buffy hesitated and now one of the most powerful vampires born in the past century is now once again free to go out and kill some more. All because Buffy couldn't kill her girlfriend! I mean I know how hard it is to have to kill someone that you once cared about, but that woman was dangerous! And I don't even think we've seen the worst of her. She is far greater a threat than Drusilla, and yet she walked because she and Buffy once had a thing. I tried to knock some sense into the slayer afterwards but Peaches would have none of it. He nearly staked me on the spot when I even suggested that the slayer had done something wrong. I guess that's for the best. She was real messed up after everyone cooled down. Went and locked herself back in her room again. Even went and told Giles that she quit. I guess she didn't know that her girlfriend had been turned. Peaches told me after that she hadn't even noticed the girl was missing. When I heard that I knew that Buffy was tearing herself up inside. I knew better than anyone that that woman, Buffy, was more important to this world than anyone else and if we let her kill herself (figuratively speaking of course), then we'd be doing the world a great disfavor. I finally got up the courage to go talk to her, and I'm glad I did. Seems I reinforced everything peaches had already said, and she seemed to be much better after I spoke with her. Everything would be just fine if the bloody twerps had managed to keep their mouths shut. I don't know how she puts up with those morons. The way they treat her I just… ugh!... bloody morons!! They don't understand. They don't even appreciate everything that she's given up. They have no IDEA how hard it is to make the tough choices. I did it for a while back in Sunnydale, and let me tell you it was no walk in the park. I guess that's why I always let Peaches lead when he was around. They have no idea how good they've got it, and yet they just poured on the blame. One of the newer girls even went so far as to suggest that somebody else lead them. I think that's when peaches finally snapped. He let into them alright, he let them have it. I'm so glad I was not on the receiving end of THAT lecture. I can't imagine how he'd get if Buffy ever told him about what happened last year in Sunnydale when they kicked her out. I'm pretty sure he'd start killing again. Soul be damned! Peaches was livid. You know how he gets when he's all speechy and angry. It's like listening to one of those religious fanatics give a speech on why you should join them. It's both irritating and compelling. Let's just say I'm glad that's over with. This time I wasn't a complete bloody moron. I spoke up for the slayer right along with peaches, which of course made anyone who knows us immediately take our side. We don't ever agree on anything! The slayer went from looking like someone had trampled her into the ground, to looking like a true leader. She started to get some of her confidence back even all because someone finally spoke up for her. She realized that while she may surround herself with some backstabbing morons, she also had some people who really truly cared about her, and were willing to put everything on the line to protect her. I think she finally gets it. I even thought she was ready to finally come into her own and take the lead, until she told me of her deal with peaches. I guess its for the best in the end, though I don't see the point. Basically she wants him to be her number two. She's going to tell him what the problem is and then he'll tell her what has to be done. Then all she has to do is start handing out orders. It's not that it's a bad idea, it's just that means that she still has no confidence in herself. And she's gonna need all the confidence she can get if she's gonna take out this Satsu chick…