Note: some of the dialogue is taken directly from New Moon, which, sadly, I do not own. Disclaimerrrrr!!!
"I can't believe you! Emmett! This is serious!" it felt like betrayal, in the oddest way. He was always on my side, and now, he voted against me. Everyone, except Edward. It was a surprise visit. Bella and Edward had gotten back safely from Volturra only nights ago, and had spent most time together. It was just after two in the morning when they burst through the doors. There we all sat, at the virtually useless (usually) dining room table, not fifteen minutes earlier. It sort of surprised me, the whole conversation.
"Let's vote," Bella had said, and we all knew what she meant, "do you want me to join your family?" she looked at Edward, who voted "not in that way…" okay…off to a good start. Edward wanted her to stay mortal…
"Alice?"
"Yes" she whispered. Oh well, I had expected that. I glared at the little pixie nonetheless, who shrugged, looking at me just as coolly.
"Jasper?" Bella asked. I waited anxiously while he thought. Bella seemed anxious too. We didn't really know what he would say. Of course, I hoped he would vote for Bella staying human. Bella was hoping for the alternative…
"Yes"
"Rosalie?" she asked me, even though my answer would be obvious to everyone
"No" nobody understood. I hadn't had a chance, and Bella was throwing it away…they still looked at me, as if expecting something.
"Let me explain…I don't mean that I have any aversion to you as a sister. It's just that…this is not the life I would've chosen for myself. I wish there had been someone there to vote no for me" they all smiled sympathetically, even Bella. Next was Emmett…deep down, I was a bit worried, but I automatically assumed he would take my side…Bella only looked at Emmett, and he answered.
"Hell, yes!" he smiled, trying to ignore the slightly, well, more than slightly, scary way I was looking at him, "we can find some other way to pick a fight with this Demetri." I growled so that everyone could hear, but they acted as if they didn't notice. Bella looked to Esme next. I didn't know what to expect, but of course…
"Yes, of course, Bella. I already think of you as part of my family." Carlisle was next. I held my breath. His opinion was important, and I had a feeling about what he would say. He managed to, without really saying it, vote yes. Defeated. It was strange being on Edward's side, but he was my only ally. It didn't matter now, anyways. This was a vote. Majority rules, Bella would lose her humanity soon enough. Now, he knew I was angry, and he tried to stay out of my way, while apologizing.
"Rose, baby, I am so so so sorry…please don't be mad. I just, voted how I thought it should be…you can't be mad at me for that." He had a point, in a way
"But you know how I feel about it! You know how it is for me!" as usual, I would seem like the bad guy. Emmett, explaining everything calmly…and me, the terrible monster screaming at my poor husband…not so. Nobody knew exactly how I felt. It was long ago, and I had mostly blocked it out, but I remembered it clearly enough. As young and shallow as I may have been, I was happy. I was human. And just like that, without my permission, my mortality was stolen. It was unfair. And now, Bella had a choice to be human. To have children, age, and eventually die. That was the way things should've happened for me. Bella was going to throw it all away, and as irrational as it was, I resented her for it.
"Rose…I said it so many times, but I am sorry. I voted how I saw fit, and it seemed wrong for me to vote no. I totally understand your reasoning, but think of Edward too. It makes sense…" of course I could see his point, I wasn't unreasonable…but I was ruled by my feelings, not my head, and everything told me to be upset about this. But, it wasn't really his fault.
"Okay. I forgive you." I smiled slightly to show my sincerity, and he relaxed considerably, wrapping me in a hug.
"Okay…good. But Rose…I am sort of…um…worried."
"Why?"
"About you. How will you handle this all when it comes time to change Bella? If even thinking about it makes you upset, how will you stand it."
"I don't know. I'll try, though. It'll bother me, but I'll try…it's not my decision to make, I guess…" and I had always known it wasn't, but tonight made me realize that I couldn't stop it.
"So you really are done being mad?"
"Yes" I really was, in every sense, done with being mad.