Instant Star Chapter 4: Instant Craziness, an Instant Star + Twilight Crossover fanfic

Instant Star

Chapter 4: Let Me Fall

If I burn down in this fire
Well, I've got myself to blame
I can't stop or give it up
I need to feel the pain

Can you hear me?
Don't come near me
You'll just get in my way
I'm only human
And there's nothing you can say

Let me rise, let me fall
Let me breathe
I wanna lose control, I'm not afraid to lose it all
Let me break, let me crawl
Cause I will get up again if you let me fall

You Say you know who I am
and what I'm all about
Then you'll understand I gotta figure it out
And live my own life

Let Me Fall: Alexz Johnson

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After the song was over Tommy turned back toward Bella and just stated into her big brown eyes. Bella had never been so scared and excited in her life she thought her heart would just out of her heart would jump out of her chest. Suddenly Tommy closed the remaining space between them and covered her lips with his. This kiss was different then there last one because it held love, like, desire, assurance, and longing rather then just desire like the last. When they finally broke apart for air purposes Tommy was about to speak when they here feet running toward them.

Bella turned to the source of the running sound and saw a boy about 5 years old running to her. She instantly grabbed the little boy and picked him up as he giggled the word "Mommy". She hugged the boy tight to her as she gave him a semi-shocked look. "Jason, where is my dad?" Bella said sounding shocked but what she was shocked about was where her mother and Phil were. Just as Jason was about to speak you could see Charlie coming through the doors over doors over. Bella quick shoots Charlie a look that says "What the HELL is going on'" while Charlie just mouths the words "We really need to talk". Bella really need to find out what was going on but with the looks of shock and confusion Tommy was sporting write no that was making it really hard. "Go to Charlie and tell him that we will all go to the new house after I talk to my friend." said Bella as she looked at Jason while somehow steeling glances at Charlie to try to make out the expression on his face with no such luck. Once Bella put Jason down he gave her a kiss on the cheek and left with a sweet " 'k Momma".

All through this exchange Tommy was ver confused and shocked plus there were tons of questions running through his head. The biggest question that beat out "How is this little boy?" and "Why is he calling her Mommy?" was "How can she be a mother?". Granted that the child looked just like her but he had to be at 5 though. The little boy who she referred to as Jason had pale skin, big brown eyes, and brown hair. The difference between them other then gender was that Jason hair was curly instead of naturally straight like Bella's. The could almost past for twins if not for the age difference. Just a Tommy was about to speak he noticed Bella had turned to face him and was starting to so he listened intensely.

Bella didn't even wait for Tommy to say anything because she saw that he was listening to what she had to say. "That little boy that just came in is my little brother Jason Morgan Swan. He is 5 years old and my mother had him when I was 13. My parents had just gotten a divorce and my mom was having one-night stands instead of dating and with one she was a little careless. Since she didn't expect this so by the time she bothered to check she was already 5 months pregnant. So she had to have Jason but she didn't really want him. It was my Job to take care of him and I basically raised him from birth. When he was about 3 he started to call me Momma and my mother didn't care so I didn't correct him. When I was 17 and I moved to Forks my mother stilled didn't want him so I let him with the parent of a friend of mine Terri and Rory Kent. Nobody even new about Jason until now because I made a deal with my mother. If anyone else found out she would give him up to foster care. " After Bella said all this she felt really emotionally drained and she could do is stare into Tommy eyes.

Tommy came over and pulled her into a tight embrace and them pulled back a little to look in her eyes. "Whatever going on with your family just know that I am here for you. Thank you for telling me that I know it was not easy for you to open up like that. I promise with all my heart that I won't run away" said Tommy as her poured out his heart and soul to her. All she could do was kiss him with all the love she had left while her heart did flips inside her chest.

X- LATER THAT DAY AT BELLA PENTHOUSE APARTMENT-X

After spending a few hours with Tommy and get 5 calls from her dad they both decided she needed to go home and confront what was waiting. After hopping in to Tommy Black Viper they rode the 3 blocks from a small café call La Canzone di Amore in Nuova Luna (The Love Song In New Moon) to her apartment building.

She used her high-tech key card to enter her expensive (paid for by G-Major) and starlet looking penthouse. Before she even came fully into the House she spotted Charlie trying to put Jason down for a nap. He was not fairing very well because the only way Jason would go to sleep was if he heard me sing. I had made him a CD a while before I left for Forks but he must not have it with him. The song I would sing him wasn't even a song about him but it was the first song he heard. By now Charlie had seen me so I just walk over to Jason pick him up and sat on the couch. He snuggled in to my lap as I began to sing...

Once upon a time
Is always how the story starts
Boy meets girl
Both feel something in their hearts
There's a witch with an evil dragon
Or boy makes mistake
And girl is always understandin'

But once upon a time
For us, wasn't like thatNo one ever
Rolled out the welcome mat
Ever after was the
Last thing on my mind
But as we go on
It's strange how I find

That you're just tryin'
To get my attention
So gonna let you know
Exactly what I'm thinkin'

Don't worry
There's no hurry
Cuz no matter what you do
Baby my eyes are you

You're stupid antics may
driving me crazy
But you're the only one
who ever made me feel this way
Next time I see
that look in your eyes
Not gonna fool around
I swear, I'm gonna recognize

Cuz maybe you and I
have somethin' goin' on
And if that's true then
baby it won't be long
'Til you and I
can come together
And we stay
that way forever

So if you're tryin'
to get my attention
Goin let you know
exactly what I'm thinkin'

My eyes are on you!

By the time the song was done Jason was a sleep in her arms so she walk over to one of the guess rooms and laid him on the bed with a kiss goodnight. Once she left the room she went to sit on a couch across from Charlie and waiting for him to speak. "Your mother and Phil were in a car crash Bells." As he said this his voice cracked and started streaming tears. "Both of them didn't leave a will so your Jason only living relative and you have to take him or he goes to foster care. Bella I know this is a lot to take in but that little boy needs you to be his mother again." When Charlie finally finished he was cry to and holding his daughter tight.

Charlie felt sp bad for his daughter because she had to give up her life 5years ago and she didn't regret it one bit. Then she met him she seemed happy and carefree until he broke her. Now after she was finally rebuilding her life this happens. She does not deserve this but what she does deserve happiness and balance. After they talked for a little bit Charlie left and Bella went to sit in Jason's room. She didn't know why she was so scared because it not like she hadn't raised him before. Correction she knew why, she wasn't sure if she could manage a career and Jason but she had to. After watching him sleep for a bit she got up a grabbed her guitar from the case on her bed. She was just fooling around when it became a song and she even had the vocals. She sang her stress and sadness out.

Yesterday
Seemed so much longer then today
There must be something wrong with me
I think im losing in oh no
I must be stupid
Now im here
Yes im here
Cuz I tried
If your here
Then youre here
For a while

I can't reach the sky
Without being dragged down
I can't run forever
While I try to hold on
But if youll be there where I drown
I dont want to hold your hand
Its quicker then quicksandAnd you just wont make it

None the less I think I've seen a brighter side
Ive trusted no one deep inside
Is what they call the rest of them
They just dont get it
But were there
Yes were there
For a try
And were there
Yes were there
For a while

Ive seen so many try to get there way
Im sure its really not that bad
Yeah im sure really not that bad

Its quicker then quickersand
And you just wont make it

Bella going to be a mom again and a singer this time around. She wasn't sure if she could do this, at least this time.

Author's Note: Sorry this is a bit late but it is my biggest chapter for this story. Did I leave you shocked? I NEED 7 REVIEWS TELLING ME THIS!! I really don't like using 2 songs in one chapter but I LOVE Once Upon A Time. Let Me Know what you THINK!!

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-JJ