This chapter is slightly connected to Chapter 8: Loss. Sorry I've been gone for a while. Please enjoy.
He could remember what the doctors said after Kagome's miscarriage. It had only made their tragedy that much worse.
~~~They had taken him out into the hallway, away from his mate. It made him edgy and more hostile than usual. If it had not been completely necessary, he would not have taken Kagome to the hospital at all. But when her pain had not stopped… He'd had no choice. It was a good thing he had not resisted for too long. Now they knew what had caused her suffering. And while most of her physical pain was now gone, her emotional pain had only begun.
He was suffering too.
They told him the baby was malformed and it was only for the best that he had not survived.
He.
The child would have been a boy. The fact that he was "malformed" was no comfort. He was still Hiei's child. He was still the child that Hiei had been sure he'd never have the chance to have.
And then the damn doctors took him into the hallway and told him gravely that they had more bad news.
"More? As if this isn't bad enough without you adding to it."
The doctors had exchanged nervous glances. They were only human, but even a human's instincts reacted to Hiei's anger. They had chosen to tell him together because there was something… off about him. Something lurking inside him that could only be described as dangerous. Neither wanted to be on the receiving end of his fury alone. They believed in safety in numbers.
"We believe that your wife will not be able to give birth to a living child."
The doctor that had spoken found himself up against the wall. His fellow stood back, staying out of the line of fire.
"What did you say?"
"Sir… please let me down."
Hiei dropped him. "Explain."
"Well… this ordeal has been very taxing on your wife's body and there has been some damage… but we also believe one of you may have a genetic defect that…"
Hiei didn't pay attention. All that mattered was that his few hopes and visions of the future with his mate and children were being destroyed by some unseen foe that he could not fight.
"Leave us. Now."
Both men scrambled away.
Hiei took a moment to rein in his feelings and keep himself from letting loose his yoki and destroying the hospital. When he felt he had himself under control, he went back into his mate's hospital room.
Kagome was awake, watching him. "What's going on?"
He had to tell her. And he did.~~~
Hiei though back on those next few months bitterly. It had been hard to pull Kagome out of her depression, to make her understand that the loss of their son was not her fault, was no one's fault. To make her understand that he did not blame her and that they could lead a happy life without children of their own. After all, he reminded her, they had Shippo, though he was grown. Who was to say they would not find another orphaned demon child? Or even human?
But looking down in his arms at the tiny child resting there, he had never expected her.
She was beautiful. For an infant, she had quite a bit of glossy black hair. When she opened her eyes, they sparkled like rubies. Her skin was alabaster. And though he could already tell she was going to be a willful child, her beauty had inspired Kagome.
"Miwa. Her name has to be Miwa."
Hiei let a small smile escape. "Agreed."
The doctors had been wrong. Maybe it was Kagome's healing powers, maybe it was their will or maybe it was divine intervention, but Hiei and Kagome had their child and both felt confident that she would only be one of many.
The tiny, green-haired cat yokai peering up at his baby sister affirmed that.
2 years ago, a couple had tried 3 times to have a baby.
The doctors said, that they would never have a child. They both mourned for the child they'd never have.
1 year later, they gave birth to a little girl.
Gracie, you were a miracle. We all love you.
(Miwa means "beautiful harmony, peace.)