Squall's POV:
Gods no! I was hard, and it was painful. Seeking release, I removed myself from the fabric prison which brought instant comfort. I had one slight problem though. My mother must have heard the scream since I heard her footsteps along the hallway just outside my bedroom. I rolled onto my side facing away from the door and made sure that I was well covered.
Sure enough, my bedroom door opened and my mother's silhouette appeared. I was feigning sleep, something I was good at doing and after a few short moments, I heard the door click shut again. Mother was obviously satisfied that I wasn't dieing or anything. The moment I heard her footsteps vanish, I felt the urge to do something about my current state.
I rolled onto my back again, and spread my legs slightly, as always. As usual, I was dreaming that Cloud – Yeah, I had a boner for my cousin. It's no big deal – was standing before me, wearing only his hakama, which was quite easy to remove. I walked towards him with every intention to kiss him and remove the thin item of silk which was impeding me from my sole desire.
I felt his arms wrap around my torso, and I felt him kiss me as if this were the last chance he'd ever get. The warmth of his body pressed against mine was good. Like in all my fantasies about this, I was already naked and I felt him moan softly as his lips parted mine and made their way toward my neck. I tugged him off me for a moment, to gaze into his eyes as I fumbled for the belts of his hakama. Undoing the belts proved easy and I watched as the item of clothing fell to the floor.
Imagining him standing before me, completely naked brought to mind the dream again. My heart began to race as the image of Cloud was replaced by Seifer, who wearing board shorts. I tried to will myself to think of Cloud again, but no matter what I tried, all I could see was Seifer's image. It seemed to be burned into my mind.
My fantasy was now going out of control as I was still thinking of the dream I'd had. Seifer was there now on that cliff, though instead of him reaching down to kiss Cloud, he was holding me close to his chest, I could feel his heart race as he closed his eyes and lowered his face toward mine. I didn't get farther than that because I was snapped back to reality as I prepared myself for imminent release.
Never, in living memory, had I ever jacked off and produced such a powerful climax. I now realised that it was Seifer's image that had caused it. Things were slowly starting to make sense. I think I was falling for Seifer, the way I kept shooting glances at him and how easily I was getting annoyed. It was slowly dawning on me that I was jealous.
Prior to today, I had always thought that I was in love with Cloud. This evening had proven me wrong. I loved Cloud, there was no mistaking that, though the physical attraction I had felt for him, now seemed insignificant. Seeing him with another guy that I (now realised) that I was falling for made me feel things I'd never felt before.
I realised, I wasn't annoyed at Cloud for inviting Seifer tonight. I was subconsciously trying to deny all the signs that my heart was telling me about Seifer and cling to the comfort that being with my cousin had always given. I was deeply attracted to the tall blonde. He was beautiful, indeed he was an Adonis and so far he had shown me nothing but kindness, though he was somewhat blunt at times and I had yet to reciprocate his kindness in any way.
Gods help me. Denial is going to have to be a lot easier to cope with than this…