alrighty it's chapter 19 here for all of ya! have some fun!
Chapter 19: I Am Me
-Ichijo's POV-
"Aido, what did you do now?" Kaname asked, sighing.
He held out a small doll, and I felt my jaw fall open...it was a brown teddy bear?
"Look at what the scary girl keeps- a little baby's bear!" Aido said, jokingly, running around and dodging Tenma's attempts at murder.
"Give that back! My brother gave that to me!" she shouted, lunging at him for the millionth time.
"Aido," Kaname called standing next to me, "put down the toy, and remove yourself from my room."
Aido was gone faster than zero could pull a gun on Kaname Kuran.
When Tenma went to pick up the bear, I noticed there was a picture. "Did you really want the bear, or did you want that picture?" I asked, walking over to her.
She looked up at me. "Both, I keep all my pictures in her pocket, so I never loose them," she said, pulling several pictures from the pocket, one fell out, and caught my eye. It was a picture of Tenma and a little boy, playing around in a beautiful garden. But what struck me as odd, was that it was me in the picture with her, when I had no memory of such an event.
"What's that? Did I loose one?" Tenma asked, pointing at the small picture.
"Here, it's your's," I said, giving her the picture.
"Huh, I don't remember this one...oh well, doesn't matter," she said, stuffing the pictures back inside the bear. "i'm going to go for a walk," she said, darting out of the room.
"Go with her," Kaname ordered, and I left, but not before picking up a folded paper from the floor.
"Wonder what this is..." I said quietly as I roamed the halls of our dorm. Flipping it over, I found a word written in curly handwriting--"Ichijo." 'So it's for me then...' I thought turning to my room and walking inside.
I sat on my bed and opened the paper, there was a note that fell out, so I read that first.
"Ichijo,
I've been writing scribbles in my spare time about everyone here at Cross Academy, and now, I finished the one for you.
Ja Ne,
-Tenma"
I put the note to the side, and picked up the larger paper.
"I am me
-Tenma Seijun
"I am me,
I love to be obscene,
I always smile,
I never let you see me cry,
because I always put my personal feelings aside.
I'm always here,
I'm always there,
I'll put on a smile,
Just so you'll smile too.
That's just me,
Because I don't want you to be sad,
It's just me.
Yea, I know I'm obscene,
Because, in the end,
I know,
That I am me,
No one can change that,
And I know it never will."
I put the paper on my night stand and looked over to my window, and there she sat, staring at the crescent moon. "Since when did your walk involve my room?" I asked jokingly, but she remained silent.
I stood there, waiting for her to move, speak, look at me, but for a moment, she did nothing, and I was worried. "Are you alright?" I asked, walking over to her.
But when I walked up to her, I saw her face, streaked with tears. I sat next to her on my window.
"Why?" she asked, catching me by surprise.
"Why what?"
"..." She didn't respond, but broke into more sobs.
I couldn't understand why she was crying, but I gently stroked her back, in hopes it helped. "What's wrong?" I asked again.
"Why can't I..." she trailed off, looking down "...be strong, too?" she finished, looking at me.
"Tenma, you are strong. You're one of the strongest I know." I said, running my hand across her tear-stained face, wiping away some of her tears.
"I am not...I'm nowhere near as strong as any of you..." she said, her voice shaking more and more as her sobs increased.
I felt something inside me slowly crack with every sob she made, but I felt helpless to stop it.
"What can I do, Tenma? How can I help you?" I asked, desperately, tears forming in my own eyes. "I don't want to see this beautiful face stained with tears." I said, wrapping my arms around her shoulders.
"Stop trying to help me!" she shouted, breaking from my hold, and walking to my door. "Let me do this myself! It's my burden to bear! Not...not your's..."
I quickly ran to her, grabbing her back by the hand, and pulling her to me. "Then make it my burden Tenma, give me even a small amount of the pain you've felt. Please, don't let yourself be shut off from the world. And if you will not let the world in, then at least let me in, that's all I ask." I said, pulling her closer, her head in the crock of my neck.
"Why?" she asked again.
I pulled her head up, so she was looking directly at me. "Because, I ..." I trailed off. 'I should probably wait...'
"What?" she pressed, her violet eyes gazing solely at me.
-Tenma's POV-
Right then, I had felt the urge to just reach up and see if I was dreaming, because this could never be real, and I did it. I reached up, and touched his cheek, it was warm.
'Why is he always so warm?' I asked myself.
I quietly sat there, my hand not moving an inch. But when I felt a warm hand touch my face, I quickly pulled back, my mind snapping into focus. "I'm sorry..."
"No," he said quietly, taking my hand, and gliding the tips of my fingers along he cheek bones. "Don't be."
I wanted to say something but a lump in my throat was telling me otherwise.
-Ichijo's POV-
Her hand was so cold, but feeling it against my skin, it felt wonderful. When I looked back up at her, she had this look, like she wanted to say something, but she remained silent.
I took my free hand, and ran it across her cheek. "Something wrong?" I asked.
She never answered, like she was holding herself back.
I let go of her hand, and stood back up. "I understand, you were uncomfortable, I'm sorry, I got carried away and-"
"If you're acting like this over something so small, then there's no way you could take my pain." She cut me off, her voice cold.
I heard more broken sobs, though they were held back. "No one can heal a shattered heart."
ok next up is chapter 20! wow...this is a long story...and guess what? it's get's longer!! XD
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