Warning: Yaoi/Shounen-ai If u don't like than don't read
Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note if I did L would Still be alive and Light would have sex with him everyday
AN: YAY finally I am so sorry that it took me this long to update but here it is as promise the last two chapters of Angels and Monsters. I've been kinda busy with school or just being lazy and I'm sorry for how lazy I am :( but in this chapter before the last one there is sex I'm not gonna say who Light is gonna be doing it with but I'm some of you won't be surprised but there is a twist that might shock you or not I don't know but please enjoy from the hella long wait :)
(All AN's in each chapter are from four years ago, this was written in 2007 when I was Fifteen and posting on )
Chapter 7- Trying to forget
( Their height in heaven comforts not, Their glory nought to me; 'T was best imperfect, as it was; I'm finite, I can't see. The house of supposition, the glimmering frontier that skirts the acres of perhaps, to me show insecure)
Light and Takada continued talking. She wrote down on a piece of paper saying that Mikami wants to meet him. Light wrote back to her to tell Mikami that he'll meet him tonight at his place, but only for a short period of time. Takada left and Light made an excuse to the other task force members that Misa was whining that they didn't get to spend enough time together, which actually was true. The brunette had to make sure that Aizawa didn't follow him though since he was still suspicious of him being Kira. At 9 P.M. Light was on his way to Mikami's wondering what the lawyers reaction would be. Shocked and excited of course, but who knows. Light walked through Mikami's driveway and knocked on his door. The dark haired man answered right away. Mikami looked at the brunette's name and saw that he didn't have a lifespan. He stared at Light in surprise.
"You're G-God?"
"That's right, Mikami Teru."
"Ah, please, please come right on in," Teru moved aside to let his God, Kira inside.
"Thanks you so much for coming to meet me on such short notice," Mikami smiled with glee.
"It's my pleasure, you've been working very well without me giving you orders."
The dark haired man blushed at that remark.
"W-well, it was quite simple really, what you want is what I want," Mikami's blush darkened, " I would do anything for you."
"Anything?" Light's grin grew devilish and morbid.
"Y-yes."
The brunette moved closer to the dark haired man and brushed his cheek with the back of his hand.
"I-Is there something that I can do for y-" Mikami Teru was cut off by Light's luscious lips over his own. The brunette licked his upper lip to make the dark haired man open his mouth. Mikami allowed entrance and their tongues tangled together as one. The brunette started out gentle and then got more aggressive. Their kiss was passionate, but with lust not love. Light moved from Mikami's mouth to his throat and licked and nibbled the dark haired man's Adam's Apple. Mikami let out a small moan, his face turning red when the brunette squeezed his erection. Light took off his shirt and then Mikami's.
"We can go to my bedroom to do this," the dark haired man pointed to his door.
"No, I want you right here right now," Light's eye's turned a crimson red.
"As you wish," he shrugged.
Light removed the rest of his and Mikami's clothing. The brunette pushed Teru to the ground and licked his chest all over while his massaged his rock hard cock. The shinigami eyed man began breathing heavy with loud moans in between. Light took Mikami's cock and began slowly sucking him.
"Ah...Ah...Oh...God...yes...," the dark haired man moaned.
Light stopped before he could cum and shoved two fingers into Teru's entrance, scissoring in and out. Mikami moaned louder. Light grabbed the dark haired man's legs and put them on his shoulders. He pushed his erection roughly inside of the shingami eyed man, thrusting slow, but hard. Teru screamed in pleasure. Light moaned along with him as he felt the dark haired man's insides constrict around his cock. The brunette quickened his pace and reached the dark haired man's prostate making him moan in extreme pleasure.
"Ah...Ah..yes..God...Fuck me...harder...faster...nnn.."
Light bit his lip and closed his eyes. When he opened them he no longer saw the face, body, and soul of Mikami Teru; he saw L. His gorgeous porcelain skin, his beautiful onyx eyes, his raven hair, everything. Light could even hear him moaning in that monotone voice of his.
'Ah...Light...ah...mmm...nnn..'
The brunette stopped thrusting immediately and pulled out his cock.
"Hey, why did you stop?" Mikami was confused. '
Why the fuck does this keep happening to me,' the brunette thought, 'Because you're in love with me,' he heard L's voice saying.
"No," Light muttered aloud, "No I'm not that's not true."
"Huh, what are you talking about?" Mikami asked, still confused.
Light didn't respond, the only voice he could hear was L's.
'You know that you miss me, Light-Kun you don't want to fuck anybody, but me.'
"SHUT UP, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE," the brunette screamed, gripping his skull with both hands.
"What's wrong, are you okay?" Teru put his hand on Light's shoulder hoping to comfort him. The brunette shoved him away and as soon as he did he realized where he was.
"I-I'm sorry, but I have to go," he put on his clothes as fast as he could and rushed for the door. when he was about to turn the knob he was stopped by a hand grabbing him.
"Where are you going, I-I thought that you wanted me."
"I'm sorry if I led you on, but I have just been sexually frustrated lately. It's been a long time since I have had sex, too long, but I am still not over my Ex-Lover. I'm sorry, Mikami."
Teru let go of the Carmel eyed man's arm and allowed him to leave. Light could hear sobbing as he walked through the driveway to his car. He drove away to his apartment. Good thing Misa was spending the night at a friends house. As he walked into his living room he made a fist and slammed it on the wall.
'God fucking dammit,' he yelled in his mind, 'Why are you forsaking me now, L, of all times?' Light's mouth began to twitch into a small chuckle and then grew into a laugh. The laughs then turned into sobs. He screamed in sorrow and pain. His chest was aching in so much pain. 'Fuck my life,' he told himself, 'Just fuck everything, I want to die. What's the point in living anymore. To be Kira? Ha. No, that was the reason all of this shit happened. If L was still alive he would throw challenges at me, play this game of lives with me, love...me,' He cried evener harder at the thought, 'I feel dirty.' He stripped himself naked leaving his clothes of the floor. He walked to the bathroom and turned on the shower. He scrubbed and scrubbed, but he still felt filthy. He crawled into a fiddle position on the cold, wet tile floor. He pushed his fingers into his eyes to prevent himself from crying.
'I am filth, dirt, a monster. I shall never be clean ever again. I don't deserve to live, but L did. He was worthy of life,' Light wanted to crack his head open. Stop the pain that continued to ache in his chest. He thought of seeing L's beautiful face again. Feeling his soft skin, his hot tongue. Fuck, why couldn't he stop thinking about L? Why now? After five years? Now that he is finally God of the New World?
'I'm sorry, L, my love,' he thought, 'I never wanted you to die, but you gave me no other choice,' he pushed his fingers deeper into his eyes until a drip of blood trickled down his face. 'I will never be clean until I make up for what I did to you, L,' He got up and turned off the shower. He dried himself off and looked at himself in the mirror. 'I don't even know who I am anymore, but I am not Yagami Light, nor am I Kira. I am the lowest of all human beings, but I will prove to you that I truly do love you, L.'
Light punched the mirror into a thousand little shards and crawled down into what he called his pile of fucking shame.
( The wealth I had contented me; If t'was a meaner size, then I had counted it until it pleased my narrow eyes better than larger values, however, true their show; this timid life of evidence keeps pleading ,"I don't know.")