Chapter five
Ste's point of view
I woke up to have the biggest hangover and hardly any memory of what had gone on last night. I remember that I'd had quite a few drinks and that it was Ewan who had been buying them for me. I also remember him asking lots of questions about Brendan but how or what time I'd got in that was blank. I should have known that something wasn't right, as when I got out of bed I was naked; usually I slept in my boxers, unless I have company of course. I got out of bed and jumped in the shower, hoping that somehow it would refresh my memory, but still nothing. I couldn't believe that I had to go in to work, I felt like shit and I just wanted to go back to bed. I got changed, grabbed my phone and keys and headed out of the door. I was lost in my own thoughts trying to remember something from last night when a text came through on my phone. It was from Brendan.
"Have fun last night did ye?"
What the fuck was he on about?
Then it hit me, I had a vision of Ewan kissing me, I was kissing him back and at that moment I knew what had happened between us.
"Oh my god last night I slept with Brendan's lover"
I said out loud to myself. I've really messed everything up now. I had no choice but to tell him the truth, so I text him back.
"Where are you? I need to speak to you."
I wasn't sure if going to see him would be the best thing to do but I knew it would be the right thing.
"I'm at the club" he replied.
I wondered why he would be there so early, maybe he had a delivery or something. I don't know I just wanted to tell him what I'd done. God he was going to kill me, no doubt I would get the beating of my life but this isn't about him it's about me and i can't live with the guilt. Sleeping with Ewan, what was I thinking? That's the thing I wasn't thinking at all. As soon as I got to the club I saw him and Ewan together, they were laughing, and when Brendan noticed me he snogged his face off. Why would he do that, it really hurts me still after all this time apart. I suppose he does it because he can, he doesn't have to explain himself to anyone let alone me.
*coughs*
"Um….Brendan"
He pulled away from Ewan and looked at me.
"Ah Steven You wanted to see me?"
What was with him today, he looked so smug.
"Yeah can we talk in private?"
I could tell by the way he was enjoying this, what his reply would be.
"I don't keep things from Ewan, so say what ye need to say Steven"
I had to tell him the truth, it always finds a way of coming out especially in this village. Me and Brendan had lied to each other too many times before and although I may have blown any chance I might have had with him, I still didn't want to lie to him.
"It's about last night…i…um…slept...with Ewan."
Brendan's point of view
It was late or should I say early when I got home from the club, contemplating my next move hadn't gone according to plan and I had trashed the office and sulked instead. I went into the bedroom where Ewan was already asleep. I pulled the covers back to reveal his naked form, he had a great backside, not as inviting as Steven's but it was nice all the same. I didn't really wanna fuck him but I had a lot of pent up anger to get rid of. I didn't even wake him properly, what would be the point. I touched myself thinking of better times with Steven, how good it felt to be inside him, how desperate I was to almost convince myself it was him lying face down on my bed. Ewan was disorientated but he lifted himself up enough for me to enter him easily. Then I did what I had to do, I fucked him hard. It was rough and raw, no emotion what so ever. I surprised myself by being able to take him, especially when I smelt the familiar smell of Steven on him. Ewan had just served a purpose, nothing more, and fucking him was better than beating him.
I'd learned to control my anger a lot better these days, luckily for him. Ewan tried talking to me after; he must have sensed how different I was with him.
"Are you okay Brendan?"
NO, I wasn't okay; he had just fucked the love of my life.
"Yeah good go back to sleep. I just had an urge ye know."
It didn't take him long to go back to sleep but me on the other hand I didn't sleep a wink. For once in my life I didn't know what to do. Steven changes me; he makes me doubt everything I've ever known. How do I play this for the best without getting it wrong and pushing him further away? I wasn't bothered that Ewan cheated on me, I know I should have been but the only thing I cared about was him….Steven.
I got to the club early this morning as I had a few deliveries; Ewan came with me even though I didn't really want him to. Although Steven had moved on from me and nothing I said got to him anymore I still couldn't resist texting him.
"Have fun last night did ye?"
Games…. this was all I knew. He returned my text by telling me he wanted to see me. I know Steven he was no doubt feeling guilty and I know that he would have to confess. I was not going to make this easy for him. When he arrived at the club I immediately kissed Ewan, I don't really know why, maybe I was hoping to make him jealous. I could see the guilt it was written all over his beautiful face, but I still wasn't going to help him out. When he asked to speak to me in private I told him that whatever he wants to say he can say in front of Ewan. I noticed him swallow hard then he confirmed what I already knew.
"It's about last night…i…um…slept...with Ewan."
I couldn't hide the grin that was now prominent on my face.
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