Disclaimer: Do not own Naruto and its characters.
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"Oh, me?" the girl beamed at me. So I did say it out loud. Did I mention that her voice is irritatingly ringing in my ears? I looked at her waiting for the words that I'm afraid to hear. My heart was pounding loudly, I can feel it. I stood there, waiting for my world to crash in front of me. Wishing I'd hear something else. Another thing from what I'm perfectly sure she would answer.
"Well, I'm Sasuke's fiancée, Karin! I'm glad to meet a friend of his! Nice to meet you!" she waved at me. And that suddenly hit me…hard. Ouch. I think it's not yet clearly registering to me. I gulped a huge lump in my throat. I felt everybody's stare at me. I hate feeling like this. And I turned to look at a certain someone.
"Your…fiancée?" I asked Sasuke, my eyebrow raising. He looked at me and sighed. I waited for what he will say. And from the background I heard Karin saying something like 'Oh wait, I saw you a while ago, don't you remember me?' or something like that but I didn't really care.
I feel like I'm standing like a fool here. Like I've just been tricked by a T.V. show prank and I wanted to force a laugh like what other people do and tell them; 'Right, you got me there! Ha-ha!' But I couldn't, the tension was thick. And I just knew it; it was not a joke. Not a prank on me. It was all real. What I just heard was real. And I looked expectantly at Sasuke. What do you have to say now, huh? Jerk! He licked his lips and opened his mouth.
And the next thing I knew, he was reaching out to me. I shook my head and backed away from his reach. I also see the others shouting at me, with these worried faces. I couldn't hear what they were saying. They were all talking at the same time. And it was making me dizzy.
I held my head, it was throbbing. It was hurting so much. I didn't know what was really hurting more right now. My heart, my head, my dignity, I don't know anymore. My breath became shallow and I felt myself collapsing, having one last glance at Sasuke's worried look. And it all went black.
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I saw a figure walking away.
My eyes widened as I slowly recognized it. "Sasuke!" I called out as I got up on my feet and ran towards him.
"Sasuke! Wait!" I reached out my hand. But I was so far from him already. I couldn't reach him anymore.
"…no! Sasuke," I felt my tears falling. I fell to the ground and sobbed. "…you promised, you promised me, remember?" I whispered one last time.
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I jolted and sat up. It was a dream. I breathed and gulped as I held my head. Ugh. I feel like a mess right now. I feel like a shit. And I have a pretty good guess that I look like one too. I squeezed my eyes and slowly opened it. I was in a room. It was blurry at first but as it got clearer I wish it didn't.
Sasuke was sitting in front of me, looking at me. Staring at me, with this…this onyx eyes I missed so much. I didn't just say that.
I look down. What's the problem? Well, it feels really awkward as everything that happened awhile ago came back to my memory. I didn't feel like looking up at him. "You okay?" he finally spoke.
My eyes widened and I suddenly felt my temperature rising. I clutched the blanket that was on me. I felt the need to punch him, slap him, kick him or whatever to get back at him. Ugh. I hate this feeling; the feeling that I couldn't really do any of that to him.
I sighed and gulped. "Are you actually asking me that?" I gritted through my teeth. I bit my lip and looked away. I noticed that we were in his room, it was still the same, I noted. Well, who cares, I'm never going back here again anyway. Hmph.
I felt him staring at me. And I just know that he's staring at me with this 'Don't be stubborn' look. Don't ask me how I knew. I just know, okay? I heard him sigh. "You passed out. The others are outside." I heard him stand up. He shoved his hands in his pockets.
I instantly looked up, is that all that he'll say? He's not even going to explain? Argh. "Wait!" Okay, words are coming out of my mouth involuntarily again. He paused. What do I do now? Okay, I uneasily stood up and staggered beside him. I clenched my fist. And as I looked at him, damn, I can't believe he's doing this to me.
"What?" he said; rather irritated. I took a deep breath. Damn, you bastard! I feel my hand move on its own.
Slap! I breathed in shock. I brought down my hand and glared at him. "I hate you." I spat out at him, staring at him in shock. He reached out to his cheek and rubbed it, still not uttering a word.
I closed my eyes for a sec, trying to control my feelings. And then as I opened it, I scoffed and looked away.
I gulped and look back at him. "I can't believe this! I can't believe you! So you're going to leave like this? Without telling me what's really happening here? That you already broke off our relationship far back then and you didn't let me know?" I looked up at him expectantly. "I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe you."
I saw his eyes softened for a sec but it was gone as soon as it came. I pursed my lips close. He scoffed and crossed his arms. "What do you expect me to do? What do you need to know more about anyway? You heard everything, I have a fiancée." He stated arrogantly as if it was nothing, not an important thing at all.
And my world seemed to turn into ashes as every word that came from his mouth slashed it hard and crashed it down. I stared at him unbelievably. I opened my mouth but no words came out. I felt my hands shaking and getting cold.
"You jerk." I spat at him. He looked at me and I saw his brows furrowed as he quickly turned away. His back faced me. As I stare at him, I felt a tear fall. I felt my anger dispersing; I just felt helpless right now. As much as I hated to let him see me crying, I can't help the tears that were already falling.
I clenched my fist, "But you promised…remember? You said…you said you'll wait for me," I whispered as I felt myself break. "I…promised I'd…I'd come back, and I did. Why didn't…why didn't you do yours?" I choked as I bowed my head, hiding my tears. I was shaking now. I know I shouldn't show him that I desperately want to hug him, that I really miss him.
He seemed to hesitate to answer but then spoke up, "I…I don't remember. I forgot all about it," He just stood there and looked away. I instantly looked up. "Sorry."
"W-what…?" Just sorry? And that hit the spot; my tears were falling uncontrollably now as I hastily started walking away.
I felt him grab my wrist, saying something I didn't understand anymore, but I immediately snatched it back as I rushed outside. I was now running. Running away. Away from the truth. Away from everything. My tears were pouring and I didn't make a move to brush it away. Cause it feels much better…to let it all out. I hate this. I hate him. But I still feel the same towards him…
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