A/N Okay feel free to hurt me in any way you want and I promise I won't even try to run. One more thing I won't try to do is excuse myself for the delay. I just hit the worst block ever and I couldn't get out of it. And that's why this chapter is not all that good but I just wanted to get myself back into the game. I hope you can still find it in your hearts to like this and let me know.
The pain of owning nothing is still to big to talk about *sniffles*
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It spread like wildfire. The awkward, tiny, not at all masculine new kid snatched the most desired single guy on campus. People found it hard to believe but the evidence was almost stabbing them in the eye. The hand holding, the occasional pecks on the hair (delivered by Shane for obvious height "problems" they had), the sweet glances they sent each other over the table at lunch. The Warblers were out of their minds happy about it. Nick and Jeff effectively lost their position as the cutest couple because Reed was honestly, in everyone's opinion, the most adorable thing ever. And the way Shane was looking at him…priceless.
But not everybody was happy about the newest sweethearts on campus. Kurt was the only one who noticed, so far, the creepy glances Jared kept sending his friends. He remembered his own transfer, when the young dancer was only a freshman, and the way he glared at him because he made Blaine unavailable. Seriously the boy had some kind of Anderson addiction.
Kurt bitch-glared at Jared across the room and turned around to continue the conversation with the rest of their little group. Two minutes later the lunch hour ended and they all picked up their things to go to class. Shane took Reed's bag and the small boy smiled gently at him slipping his hand into Shane's. Together they walked out of the cafeteria.
Kurt frowned a bit and turned to Blaine.
"How come you never carry my bag any more?"- Blaine looked at him with an amused expression.
"Well I think we're past that "we-need-to-impress-each-other" stage in our relationship."-he said matter of factly.
"Really? When did we pass it exactly?"-Kurt asked in his signature diva voice that always came paired with his perfect eyebrow shooting up.
"Remember that time when we were watching movies and you fell asleep on my shoulder and started drooling on my shirt?"- Kurt gapped at him seemingly deathly offended, turned on his heel and stormed out right after throwing an audible "I hate you" towards Blaine.
Blaine smiled at a few boys that laughed at their exchange knowing full well how much the pair loved each other and that their bickering was just another way of showing how incredibly sure of their love they really were.
Shane and Reed maybe the cutest couple, and Nick and Jeff were just as adorable. A few other couples around school were hot or smart or kind. But Kurt and Blaine…they were truly the power couple of Dalton.
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"So I'll see you after class?"- Shane handed Reed his bag as they reached Reed's next class.
"Actually I should go to the Art Hall. My mom called me last night and…well there's an exhibition and…I kind of thought I could try and send something…"-Reed trailed off awkwardly, feeling a bit scared that Shane would get mad for turning him down. But as he chanced a look up into his boyfriends (and yaaaaay Shane was his boyfriend, Reed still couldn't believe he could say it now) eyes all he could see was pride, and love and support. His heart jumped with happiness.
"Bambi that's amazing! I'm so proud of you. Want me to come and make stupid suggestions while you paint?"-the dancer smiled down at his sweetheart reminding him of the first time they were together in the art studio. He knew what this meant for Reed. He stopped painting for exhibitions after whatever has happened to him and Shane was just insanely happy that he was willing to at least try to get back to it.
Reed giggled at his question and playfully pushed him backwards. He bit his lower lip and decided to run an idea by Shane. It was the day to be brave apparently.
"Um…no thanks…I think I'll live without the suggestions but I wanted to ask you something…and I'll understand if you don't want to do it…or if it makes you feel uncomfortable…and if it does just say no I won't get mad and…"
"Reed, baby, do you think you could ask me while we're both still young. You know I can't deny you anything."- and it was the truth too. Shane found out early in their relationship that jumping out of a plane without the parachute on Reed's command would be no problem for him. Just a small pout or the most subtle puppy dog eyes and he was done for it. It was kinda pathetic, as Nick informed him. But Shane couldn't care less. In his opinion, if it made Reed happy when he looks like a fool, well Shane would gladly look like a fool all the time.
"I…um…I want you to be my model…for the painting…I want to paint you…if that's ok with you."- his eyes were piercing holes in the floor and Shane couldn't resist but wrap him in his arms. He smiled into his golden curls.
"It's perfectly okay with me. I would be honored."- he kissed his temple gently and waited for Reed to look at him. After a few seconds the artist lifted his arms and wrapped them around Shanes neck, standing on the tips of his toes to offer his lips to the tall dancer. Shane leaned down and gently touched his rosy lips with his own feeling dizzy and content and at home.
That was as far as they get. Softly kissing, hands securely around each other. But never anything more. Shane was perfectly fine with it. He would wait for Reed for the rest of eternity and if they never went any further than just kissing, that would be fine as well. They parted and he could feel Reeds breathing turned faster and his cheeks were a little flushed. He smiled at him and kissed the tip of his nose.
"Thank you."- Reed said as they unwrapped themselves from each other before the bell rang.
"Anything for you. So when do you want me?"- he asked waggling his eyebrows playfully at Reed who just glared at him and to Shane that was the funniest thing ever. Tiny, perfect, angelic Reed trying to pull a Kurt-Hummel-original-bitch-face. It was hilarious. But Shane knew better than to laugh. Laughing meant no Bambi kisses. And that sucked.
"I'll be in the hall right after my last class, so you can just come in any time."- he said and started walking towards the classroom door.
"Okay. See you then."- Shane bounced over to him and gave him a soft goodbye kiss before running so he wouldn't be late for his next class.
Neither of them noticed Jared glaring at Reed before entering the classroom and taking the seat right behind Reed determined to show that little weirdo just who Shane belongs to.
As the class started Reed realized he was going to be just as bored as any other time when he was in math so he pulled his sketch pad from his bag and decided to try and sketch a rough draft of Shane's face to keep him entertained. His hand flew across the paper so easily like he was born to do it, and under his delicate fingers appeared a familiar smile, then a mop of curly hair and a pair of amazingly sweet and warm eyes. Reed smiled at his sketch feeling calm and loved just because he had a picture of Shane with him. His other hand played with the thin silver chain around his neck. Shane bought him that chain for Christmas and Reed loved it. He found himself touching it every time he started feeling overwhelmed and it soothed him. Not like Shane himself did, but the chain still represented his boyfriend and Reed felt safer just knowing it was there.
A rough kick in his chair snapped him out of his daydreaming. He looked around confused and found Jared staring at him.
"C-can I help y-you?"-he asked timidly. And, yes, Reed was being relaxed and happy and less scared around the Warblers but he still had trouble talking to everyone else.
"Sure can tiny. How about you leave Shane alone?"- Jared hissed back at Reed making the small boy cringe and curl in on himself in his seat.
"W-what?"
"You heard me. Why don't you just crawl back into your little mouse hole and let Shane date someone who is worthy of him. Someone…well…anyone who's not you really."
Reed could feel himself trembling as Jareds words pierced his heart. And he knew why it made him feel so bad. If he were anybody else he would know that Jared was just jealous and he would just ignore him. But Reed knew from the start that Shane deserved someone better. He wanted Shane to have someone amazing, someone who is just as beautiful and shiny as he was. And that person wasn't Reed, and he knew it. But every time it came up Shane would just say that Reed can't see himself for how truly beautiful he was so he would just have to do it for him. He would choke all of Reeds protests with a kiss and Reed would feel better for a few days. He would manage to convince himself that Shane was right and that he was the only one who couldn't see how amazing he was. But now…Jared saw it too. And Reed knew he had to make Shane see he needed someone so much better.
When the class ended he went to his room to pick up his new set of paints he got from Kurt and Blaine and he rushed to the Art hall. He needed the familiarity of the big smelly studio to calm him down. He rounded the corner and with downcast eyes stumbled into the room.
He sniffled quietly and then jumped when someone rushed to him and took him in his arms.
"Bambi, sweety what's wrong? Are you crying? Reed look at me!"- Shane was so nervous he felt his heart skip a little.
Reed looked up and his eyes widened as he took in the studio that was now transformed into the most romantic thing he had ever seen. There were candles lit everywhere, and in the middle of the room he saw a pile of soft looking cushions and a blanket and a basket with food and Shanes laptop perched next to an enormous bowl of popcorn.
"S-Shane what's going o-on?"- he asked as the dancer held him tightly a look of pure concern glued to his face.
"I wanted to surprise you. Reed I want you to tell me why you're crying. Did someone hurt you? Do I need to injure someone?"- Shane took a step back to look at Reed but the small boy just kind of gravitated back into his arms and started to cry hard and uninhibited now that he was feeling safe again. He clutched Shanes blazer and buried his head into his chest. Shane let him cry as he held him close dying to know who hurt the most important person in his life. A few more minutes passed and Reed started to quiet down, hiccupping here and there but he definitely wasn't crying any more.
He pried his hands off of Shane and stepped back from him.
"S-sorry…I…"-he started but Shane cut him off.
"No don't say you're sorry just tell me what's wrong so I can make it better. Honey please tell me."-Shane pleaded as he took Reed by the hand and led them to the cushions sitting down and pulling the tiny boy between his legs so he can rest against him. He wrapped himself around him protectively and waited.
"I-I don't want to make you mad at me…I didn't m-mean to cry….he just…"
"He who Reed?"
"J-Jared…"
"What about that little asshole? What did he do this time?"- Shane felt himself growing angrier by the minute and he tried to calm himself down for Reeds sake.
"W-what do you mean this time?"- Reed was confused.
"He pestered Kurt when he got here because he was allegedly hot for Blaine. He said all kinds of nasty stuff about him. Cam heard him one day and…well we never really found out what exactly Cam did but that little prick never came near Kurt again. And now he's after me and he's honestly getting on my last nerve."
"S-so you don't…um…l-like him?"- Shane nearly missed Reeds tiny voice and then he tensed as his words got to him.
"What? Reed are you seriously asking me that. No I don't like him. I can't stand that idiot. And even if he was the most amazing guy in the world I happen to think that my baby is better than him in every possible way. Now, I'll ask you again…what did he say to you?"
"H-he um…he told me to leave you alone…t-to be with someone w-who deserved you…and Shane I know you'll be mad but I think…."
"No, Reed. I know what you're about to say and so I'll stop you before you do. You are the one who is so out of my league it's almost ridiculous. I'm lucky to have you even as my friend let alone my boyfriend. Do you have any idea how proud I am that people in this school get to see me holding your hand, walk you to your classes, hug you and kiss you? Do you know how amazingly grateful I am for you and everything you give me. Reed I know it's too soon but I love you…god I love you so so much."
And with that Shane let his own tears fall as he held Reed tighter to himself scared that he would just disappear if he let him go.
Reed felt all the anxiety leave his body at Shanes words of love. He loved him too. He knew that for a while. But he was still scared to give himself to Shane like that so he just wrapped his arms around Shanes and apologized over and over and over again for making him sad.
After a while Shane calmed down and let go of Reed to take the popcorn and his laptop.
"I kind of told people that the Art hall will be closed today so I thought we could watch a movie and then you could get started on that painting of yours if you want."-he asked Reed looking him with a silent plea in his eyes not to leave him, to just stay with him and fight his fears with him by his side.
Reed smiled warmly and snuggled back into Shanes strong chest as they watched some silly rom-com.
As the movie ended Reed felt like a new person somehow. He knew now that he trusted Shane and that they were serious. They were in for the long ride. And somehow that was just fine with him.
"So…how about that modeling job of yours now hm?"- he stood up and placed a new canvas in front of him pouring the paint out and taking his brushes.
"Yay…sure…this will be fun! Are you gonna tell me how to stand or sit or do I just hang around so you can look at me and admire how pretty I am?"- he batted his eyelashes and Reed just had to laugh at how dorky he was sometimes.
"No…you're gonna sit down and behave. Take off your blazer and loosen up your tie a bit."
Shane did as he was told while Reed ran across the room to get another stool. He picked it up and made a few steps before catching the leg of the chair with his knee and proceeding to fall down on his ass with it. Shane turned around, shook his head and smiled affectionately at his klutzy boyfriend. In Shanes eyes even that was adorable.
"I'm okay!"- Reed stood back up and gave the chair to Shane, walking back to his canvas.
"Okay sooo what do I do now?"- Shane sat down and looked at Reed.
"Just…sit there and look interested."
"In what?"
"Whatever you want….just look like that."
"Fine…bossy aren't we?"- he winked at the small boy and Reed blushed squirting paint onto his shirt.
"You are so adorable."-Shane smiled at him and then stilled as Reed began to drag his brush across the canvas. Shane saw him paint a few times and he knew better then to try and talk to him when he was "talking to his art".
Shane quickly found something to be interested in. The way Reeds eyebrows scrunched in concentration, the way his thin fingers curled around the brush, the way his small hand went up every now and then to tuck a stray curl behind his tiny elfin ears. Everything about Reed was magical to Shane. If he could he would just hold him and kiss him and worship him for the rest of time.
He knew there was a big part of Reed that he's not familiar with yet. He also knew that that part was the reason Reed was hesitant when it came to the physical part of their relationship. Not that Shane ever tried to do more than just kiss him. But he could feel Reed tense just from Shanes hands resting a bit lower on his back when they kissed and he knew not to push him.
But god was it hard being around someone who was so unintentionally sexy and have to restrain yourself. Shane knew he wanted him. So so badly. But just like he had to do from the moment he saw the perfect little boy, he was gonna have to wait for him to be ready to give everything to Shane.
From behind the canvas Reed was less involved in his painting than ever before. He mixed the colors and made all the right moves and Shanes features were almost recognizable by now, but he just wasn't lost to the world the way he used to be.
Shanes words echoed in his mind.
"I love you…god I love you so so much!"
Reed felt a shiver rake through his body as his eyes lingered on Shanes lips his brush was now tracing. He couldn't stop his mind from carrying him back to any of the moments Shanes lips were on his. So soft, and worm, and caring.
His eyes traced his jaw line, his long neck, and settled on his collarbones now visible since the tie was loosened up and a top button of his shirt was opened. To his own surprise Reed wondered what it would taste like to kiss the taller boy there, and would he like that. His mind created a beautiful sound that would rip off of Shanes lips if Reed did that to him, and his eyes snapped back to his canvas scared and surprised by his own thoughts. He wasn't ready to be with Shane like that. And he was kind of sure he never would be. So what was he thinking about? And then a creepy thought crawled into his mind. He was kind of imagining doing…stuff with Shane while Shane was in the same room. And now he was just plain embarrassed.
He caught Shanes eyes and blushed deeply making Shane laugh and stand up from his chair walking over to him.
"H-hey I never said you could move!"-he squeaked when Shane easily scooped him off the floor and huged him tightly.
"I know. But I missed you."
"Shane I was right here with you!"- he rolled his eyes pretending to be annoyed but Shane knew he loved it.
"It was still too far away. Take a break with me?"
"Okay."
Shane lowered Reed onto the cushions and sprawled himself next to him. He looked him deeply in the eyes and looking for any sign of discomfort, captured Reeds lips with his own. He felt Reed relax under his touch and he decided to take a chance and try something.
Softly placing his hand onto Reeds waist, and curling the other around his shoulders he gently ran his tongue across Reeds plump bottom lip. As soon as he did he could feel Reed tense and tremble underneath him trying to say something.
"Shhh…I'm sorry…I should have asked you first. I'm sorry I scared you."- Shane soothed him resting their foreheads together and breathing softly the air that smelled exactly like Reed and he was drowning in it.
"I-I wasn't s-scared I just…I don't know how to…"-he trailed off, feeling his cheeks burn with embarrassment.
"I could teach you if you want it."-Shane brought the hand from his waist to his neck and started playing with the soft curls resting there.
"I…um… don't w-want to disappoint you…"- Reed looked away from Shane biting his lip as Shane learned he always did when he was nervous.
"Bambi, you could never do that. I'm out of my mind happy just when you look at me. Trust me. Okay? I'll take care of you. I always will."- he tipped his head up to make him look at him. Reed locked their eyes together and silently nodded.
Shane kissed his forehead, his cheeks, the tip of his nose, and lastly pecked his perfectly full lips. He looked up and saw Reeds eyes flutter shut and he brought his head back down to attach their lips together again. He kept kissing him the way he always did. Slow, gentle, closed-mouth kisses that left them feel loved and appreciated.
Reed brought his hands around Shanes neck and pressed back returning the kiss. Shane took it as a sign and repeated his earlier actions. His tongue caressed Reeds bottom lip for a moment before he felt his angel take a deep breath as he parted his lips to invite Shane in.
The second their tongues met Reed shivered and whimpered beneath Shane and it turned Shane on to no end. But he knew better than to act on it. It was about Reed and making him understand that Shane loved him and cared for him. He gently explored the warmth of Reeds mouth inviting his tongue to play along.
They were lost to the world for a while.
Reed felt incredible. The butterflies in his stomach went wild the second Shane invited himself in and he loved every second of it. He loved how gentle he was, how patient and understanding and incredibly incredibly good at kissing he was.
After a while their need for air became too big and they parted breathing heavily against each others lips.
"Shane t-that was…"-Reed tried breathlessly but Shane cut him off.
"It was perfect. Just like you."
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Well there you go….the road to kind of sexy times started here. I wish you all a lot of Ranebows and I hope the next chapter won't take me this long to write
