" -don't want to hear it, Teyla." Sheppard is sitting across from me with Teyla, just as I left them. I look around and discover that something isn't right, everyone in the cafeteria is so subdued. What's going on?

" Faith? You okay?" I turn my gaze look at Sheppard.

" Um, I'm not sure. Something, just seems off. The rooms to tense, but why?"

" Could it be the three Wraith Hive ships speeding toward us?"

My spine stiffens, " What?"

" Oh, come on, Faith. You've known about this as long as we have."

I search my memory for the information but all I remember is sitting here listening to them talk, and before that falling asleep in my quarters. But everything before that up until arriving back in Atlantis after the rescue mission is a giant blank.

My head stars to throb as I push myself to remember but still, nothing. I glance up to see concern on both their faces and there is nothing I can say to reassure them because I can't reassure myself.

" Faith?" there's something different about Teyla's tone of voice.

I shake my head and immediately regret it as the throb turns into a pounding, " I don't know. I can't remember anything about three Hives ship baring down on us. The last thing about Atlantis involved issues that I remember is the fifteen hour ride to rescue you, Sheppard."

They raised their eyebrows in union, " You don't recall anything after that?" Teyla asked.

" Falling asleep last night and listening to you two just now."

" That's it?" Sheppard sounded shocked, " You've forgotten all the stuff since?"

" What stuff?"

" The nano-things that almost killed the entire human population of Atlantis, finding a very old Dr. Weir frozen in a stasis chamber in a lab, running into Kolia again as he tried to steal the ZPM even though "the Brotherhood" stole it from us, discovering that Teyla has some Wraith DNA and that we also had an intruder."

My gaze flickered to Teyla, so that's what has caused the change, before returning to Sheppard, " Intruder?"

" Bob. He didn't last long."

I nod as I see an image of a rather cocky Wraith standing in front of me as I raise a hand gun and fire, " Not long at all."

" What could have caused you to lose your memories?" Sheppard inquires.

I shrug, " Your asking me? I've never had something like this happen before-" I stop mid sentence as I feel a strange sensation, but somehow familiar. It feels like something trying to steal inside my mind but can't because I'm aware of it. With a jolt I realize that I felt the same sensation a few minutes ago before becoming aware just now. Someone, or something, I think just erased my memories.

I gasp as I realize the only thing that ever had the power to mess with me, the Ancient control device.

" Faith?"

" I have to go and, ah...break some equipment." I stand abruptly and hurry to the cafeteria balcony were I rush to the railing and swing my legs over. I flare my wing immediately and glide to one of the farthest towers were I land on one of its balconies, I fold my wings and run through the open door.

It doesn't take me long to zero in on the pull and follow it to a lab that appeared to have been under water after the storm. I could hear two scientists inside along with the occasional beep or ting of buttons, among other things I'm sure, being pushed.

The door is open so I just walk in, the scientists don't pay me any mind so I just walk up behind them and hit them with my fists. I watch as they both slump down to the floor in blissful unconsciousness, completely unaware of the fact that I'm going to break their new toy.

Running footsteps alert me to unwelcome company, I glare over my shoulder but see no one, at least not yet.

I can't chance it. I trust them, but what if the chance to control me is to much for someone? Sure, I'm still fairly resistant to the device, but my missing memories is living proof that I'm not completely safe.

Turning my head to the left I see a pulsing gadget connected to a stand, this is where the pull is coming from, this is where all my earlier nightmares originated. I lift my right hand and watch my talons lengthen, sharp and ready to pierce anything.

" Faith!" my head snaps in the direction of the voice, Sheppard and Teyla have made it to the beginning of the hallway to this room and they're racing toward me.

" I'm sorry, Major."

I turn my gaze back to the object before severing it into six slender sections, the pull immediately stopped and I pull my talons out of the mess of metal before retracting them. I turn around just as the two of them enter the lab.

" Faith?" Sheppard's eyes moved from the unconscious scientists to the scrap metal behind me.

I shrug, " No cause for alarm, Major. My problems are now through, at least that one."

" What was it?"

" The device the Ancients used to control the vampires they caught. I'm guessing these scientists found it and activated it and started messing around. Since I was the only only vampire around, anywhere, it automatically zeroed in on me. What ever buttons they pushed caused the device to erase my memories of the last few months. Luckily, it was only that short time and not all my memories."

" If you hate the thing so much, why didn't you destroy it before now?"

I watched as Teyla walked over to the scientists and kneeled beside them, checking their pulses and breathing.

" I haven't thought about it since coming here, actually, I haven't thought about in ten thousand years."

Sheppard glances at the shredded mass behind me, " Couldn't you have just turned it off?"

I smile, " And risk you military types taking advantage of me in the future? I think now."

Sheppard smiles at me, " Okay, I'll give you that one."

I look over his shoulder as I see reinforcements arrive, six men armed and ready, and completely useless when it comes to a rampaging vampire. I laugh at the thought of them trying to stop me let alone a rampaging vampire, they'd be dead before they knew it.

" Stand down."

" But, sir-"

" I said, stand down."

My gaze slides to the man who had spoken and I growl when I see Sgt. Bates glaring at me, for a split second I regret destroying the device only for simple excuse it would have given me when I... taught him a lesson. I sigh and turn back to Sheppard, " I'm out of here before the bullets start flying."

Without waiting for his response, I walk past him and purposely bump into Bates' side as I pass him. Even after all these years if you get on my bad side and don't do anything to get on my good side I'll make you wish you had. Just like when I was human, must be the Irish. At least, that's what mom would have said. My heart jerks at the thought of my mom, mostly because I had gone out of my way to forget in the beginning. Honestly, ever since coming to Atlantis I've found the desire to go home stronger then ever. Secretly, through the centuries of being on the Hive, I had my Wraith scan the planets we passed and the ones we culled to see if maybe Earth was among them. Now I at least know why I never found it, being in another galaxy and all.

I am pulled from my reverie when someone bumps into me, I hear a small "sorry" but nothing else, I look up to see the Gate standing in front of me. Wow, time flies.

" Faith?" I follow the voice above me to see Weir staring at me.

" Yes?"

" Is everything all right?" her voice said concern for my well being but her mind said concern for everyone else.

Sighing, " Yes. Sheppard radioed ahead didn't he?" a hint of accusation.

She didn't answer but looked behind her, my guess is at the display screen. Curious as to what I've missed, I start up the stairs to the control center, stopping a few feet away from the others as I gazed at the three glowing shapes on the black background. It was a highly inadequate representation of the Hives, but it was still intimidating to think that they were actually headed for us. Not that I'm afraid, I mean, I'm probably the one person of any species to have any right at all not to fear the Wraith. But still...

" I ordered Zelinka to create a computer virus that could wipe out the Ancient database. We may be able to take only 8, maybe 9% of it with us. I can't bring myself to choose what though."

" What would happen if the Wraith got the database?"

" Well, they would be able to drastically soup up their hyper drives and they would be able to find Earth easily."

I felt torn, " I don't like it."

" Like what?"

I cross my arms over my chest, " The feeling that I'm betraying everyone. I was with the Wraith way longer than I was on Earth, does that mean that I am more connected to them then Earth? But on the other hand, I can still vaguely remember my family and I would never want my little sister to know what the human planets in this galaxy have known for all their lives. You wanna know what I am? A vampire with serious issues."

I felt Weir's uncertainty as she tried to think of something to make me feel better about what was happening.

" Dr. McKay says we can take the program that will allow us to someday dial home. If we can find a ZPM somewhere, you might be able to go home and see your family."

" But that's just it. How do I choose between my parents as well as other family over my Wraith? I don't think that I could really go back to Earth without making sure that he was safe and well, at least."

Elizabeth paused, " What is your sister's name?"

I sigh, " Kaylee. Ironically, her middle name is Elizabeth Hope."

" How old was she when you last saw her?"

" I know where your going with this. Trying to get to me by making me recall some of the things that I've been trying to keep buried all these years. But it wont change how I feel."

" I don't mean anything by my questions, unless you count me trying to understand you and your views."

I roll my eyes, " Oh, sure. Play the open-minded card."

" Yes, well. I was a negotiator back on Earth, I can play the low cards. How old?"

I tighten my arms, " Barely a year."

" So young? Such a short time it must be difficult to keep those memories."

" Some times. I can't remember her laugh anymore, or the precious sparkle in her dark brown eyes. But I do remember her, and that is what counts."

" What about the rest of your family? Your experiences? Birthdays?"

" Your prying, Doctor."

" I'm sorry."

I shake my head as I stare at the screen, " Don't be. I've revisited so many memories since I came here, it is kinda nice to tell someone," I sigh heavily, " My mom's name was JoAnne, my dad's was Chris. My grandma, on my dad's side, lived across the street from where we lived and her name was Betty, that's where Kaylee's middle name came from. She and I are both named after our grandmothers. When I was human, I loved animals so much. You could walk into our house and see animals that not many people know about. Before all this happened, I was planning to adopt a wild mustang, now I can be my own mustang.

I was sixteen when Kaylee was born, I loved her so much, that's why I sacrificed myself. I'm proud of saving my family, but... to me that was ten thousand years ago, now all I have is my Wraith."

Weir gazes at me with a sympathetic manner, " I'm sorry, Faith. I can't imagine what your feeling right now. If we survive this, maybe we can find a way so that you can have both."

I nod, " Doubtful, but thanks for the reassurance."

" Dr. Weir! We have a hyper space window opening!" I throw a glance over my shoulder to McKay watching the screen of his laptop with a look of horror. Weir stands and rushes out to him, I shortly behind. I stare at the screen as three red dots suddenly appear over a representation of this planet, a single white dot representing Atlantis, I lift my head up and eye the ceiling imagining the Hives above.

Weir turns around to face a wild haired Czech, " Zelinka, put the virus on stand-by."

I watch as his fingers fly over the keys of his laptop, a blinking red Stand-by flashing across his screen.

Weir faces one of technicians, " Put on speaker." the technician pushes a clear panel and a smooth zing sounds,

" This is Dr. Elizabeth Weir, the Wraith are here. I know that everyone of you wishes that we could just go home, but we can't. In ten minutes, the self-destruct will be initiated. You have already sent your belongings to the Alpha Site, now it is time to follow. We are abandoning Atlantis, with only a small hope of ever making it back to Earth, but I ask you to take that chance. Weir out." she makes a slicing motion to the technician and another zing announces that the end of transmission.

Everywhere around me, I see people packing up their laptops and taking anything else that they can carry, I notice Sheppard and Teyla entering the Gate Room below and I watch as the Gate is dialed. Half way through the dialing procedure, the Gate pauses and starts dialing faster, signaling an in coming wormhole.

Sheppard and some other military personal prepare for whoever is trying to come through, the misty shield activates and for a moment everyone is silent. I glance up again to the Hives beyond, this sort of thing is their usual tactic to trap their prey.

" Receiving and IDC. It's the SGC..." the shock in the technicians voice was obvious, but at a quick sweep around I notice that he isn't the only one.

" Lower the shield." Weir says before hurrying down the stairs to stand next to Sheppard, who is now watching the glowing pool with a look of awe.

Suddenly, the pool ripples and armed men appear, one of them walks straight to Weir and Sheppard with a smug expression.

I don't stick around to listen, I turn away and walk through the door to the outside balcony where I lean against a supporting beam and try to ignore the panic slowly filling me. If Earth is able to contact Atlantis now it will only be a matter of time before they find out about me and my past with Wraith, I can picture the experiments that those military men would love to have done to me. How can I find my Wraith when I can't even trust my own planet?

The door opens behind me but I don't turn around, I have a fairly good idea who it is, sure enough, " I don't remember seeing her photo in that data transmission that you sent, who is she?"

I turn around to see a steely eyed, gray-haired man studying me with detailed skill, I feel my instincts rear inside me followed by the urge to make my dominance known. Instead, all I can do is narrow my eyes and watch him step closer and see Sheppard gaze in shocked horror.

Elizabeth hurries forward and stops in front of the man before he can get any closer to me, " She wasn't on the list because I respected her wish to stay off. Her situation is different then any other person in this city."

" How so? She looks like any young girl." he didn't even meet her eyes, but stared into mine, I did my best not to take it as a challenge.

" She could surprise you, sir." Sheppard walks up next to Weir and glances at me before turning back to face the man.

" Will you both stop being so cryptic. Did you pick her up like this Teyla of yours?" there is just something about this guy, he reminds me to much of Col. Sumner.

" She came to us the same time Teyla did. As to our being "cryptic", if you knew her you wouldn't want to betray her trust either for fear of your life." Elizabeth knew which buttons to push to get his attention, the man pulls his gaze away from me and faces her.

" What do you mean by that?"

" It means you don't want to piss me off." I cross my arms over my chest as he meets my eyes again.

He lifts his chin in the typical superior-male-fashion, " I have guns bigger than you."

Weir flashes a look at me with wide eyes, Sheppard's look wasn't much better, " You act all big and bad, but there is nothing about you that in any way would detour me from killing you."

" Faith." Elizabeth was trying to distract me as I stepped closer to the idiot.

" Don't 'Faith' me, Dr. Weir. This man needs to know what he is messing with."

He smirks, " I think your delusional, Girly."

My responding growl drew the attention of personal inside.

" You inconsiderate... if you ever down size me in such a way again... I am older than dirt!" I felt every muscle in my body tighten as my anger at this man flooded through me, my finger tips began to tingle.

" What is she?"

Sheppard beat Weir to the punch, " She's literally a vampire. From Earth. She's been here with us since we arrived. As long as you don't do anything stupid like... stare her in the eyes without blinking, or... just plan provoke her, everything turns out really well." Weir turn toward him with a raised eyebrow, I stare at him as well.

Who knew he was so good with words?

Okay, this is as far as I've gotten and I have some stuff going on, mainly school and work. I'll get to work of finishing all my fictions as soon as I can.