Broken

Chapter 8:

Home

We stood like that for a few minutes before he said something with so emotion, and pain that it broke my heart.

"Please come home."

Those words…those three little words. Please come home. I really do want to come home, but Edward hurt me. I feel like if I forgave him so easily that he'll just do it again. I can't deal with that right now either.

"Edward…I want to come home, I really do, but…I'm scared that you'll just cheat on me again." I whispered honestly, and I felt Edward's chest shake. He was now sobbing.

"Bella…I know I'm a worthless waste of space, and I don't deserve you, or Anthony, but please believe when I say I wish I did. You're so amazing Bella." He whispered, looking in my eyes and rubbing my cheek with this thumb. I took a shaky breath.

"Obviously not if I drove the man I love into the arms or another woman. " I mumbled, and Edward shook his head frantically.

"No, no, no Bella! Don't say that. Trust me it was nothing you did, I was weak. I'm the one who fucked up, and should be suffering not you." Edward demanded, and I sniffled while biting my lip. I really want to forgive him, I really do, but it's so hard.

I was actually about to give into him when it dawned on me. If Edward hadn't come to the club for Lauren, then what was he doing there? Did he come to hook up with a different woman? Isn't one good enough for him?

"Edward…why were you at the club tonight?" I asked curiously, and his head shot up from where he was looking. He looked confused.

"What?" he whispered and I gulped.

"Why were you at the club tonight? You said you didn't come with Lauren, so why did you go?" I asked with a blank expression, and Edward just stood there for a moment before responding.

"I…went for a few drinks." He said slowly, and I shook my head. It doesn't make any sense.

"Why didn't you just go to a bar? There's one down the street from your house." I told him, and he winced at the word your.

"I uh, have a big tab there that I hadn't gotten around to pay yet. Last time I went they kicked me out." He said slowly with a deep husky voice. I shook my head frantically. I knew he was lying. When Edward lies he does blink, and he hadn't. Edward is very good a lying, but I sort have caught on. Sometimes I do catch it, but sometimes I do.

"No, no Edward….your lying!" I shouted. I felt my face get red as I shook my head. He came to the bar to hook up with another woman. He was no longer my Edward. He was possessed by the demon inside.

"Bella…" his voice cracked.

"Had you come there to hook up with another woman?" I said painfully. Please don't answer that Edward. It'll just kill me, I know it.

"Y-yes." He stuttered as he sobbed, and I gasped as I felt my heart break even more inside. I let out a loud sob as I fell to my knees. Edward cheated on me with another woman, and when I leave he goes to sleep with a different woman? Oh god.

I felt Edward kneel down as he tried wrapping his arms around me. I roughly pushed him away as I gritted my teeth hard.

"Don't touch me Edward! You came to sleep with another woman? Why, and please don't give me that "you were weak" bullshit!" I demanded, as he sat there on his knees staring at the ground. The tears were streaming down his face hard. I fought against the urge to pull him into my arms and hug him.

"I came to…I came to…god, I can't even say it!" he whispered, tugging at his hair hard.

"I came to get over you!" he shouted, and my mouth fell open. Get over me?

"Why would you want to get over me Edward? I'm your wife! You're not supposed to get over your wife, that's why you married me." I gritted out, and Edward shook his head.

"How and the hell was I suppose to know that Bella? You just left. I didn't even know if you were coming back. I waited, and waited for days, but I didn't get a phone call, an email, or even a fucking letter with the divorce papers like I expecting too! You just left, for all I knew you disappeared off the edge of earth Bella. I called Jasper, and he told me he didn't know where you were. I tried calling Rose, but she wouldn't answer my fucking phone calls! God! Why am I such a fuck up?" Edward shouted. I looked and saw that his hands were balled into fists, and his knuckles were white. Holy shit.

"Edward…" I whispered, and he shook his head frantically.

"No, Bella. No. I don't deserve you. I got to get out of here before I fuck up even more." Edward said frantically, and I stood quickly, grabbing his arms.

"Edward, Edward! Calm down." I begged, and began to relax a little bit. Edward just stood there staring at me. He opened, and closed his mouth many times before finally getting the words out.

"Bella…how did this all happen? When did you even find out?" he whispered, and I took a deep breath.

"I found out…about a week before I left. I was late Edward. My period…was late. I hadn't noticed really noticed with all the drama that was going on, but I finally did. I was two weeks late for my period, and I thought I was pregnant, so I went to the drugstore and bought a few tests. They all gave back positive. I was so…happy. I felt like Anthony was growing up so fast. I missed having a baby around a house. I was actually happy that I was pregnant. I was so happy I asked Rose to babysit. I hadn't told anybody yet. I wanted you to be the first to know so I drove to your work to surprise you with lunch, and good news. I ran up to your office once I got passed the front desk. I slowly opened the door, and my heart broke. I saw Lauren sitting on your lap shirtless as you guys were making out. You were touching her, and moaning for her like you do for me. I was hurt." I sobbed out, and Edward looked pained, like somebody just ran over his cat.

"You're pregnant?" Edward whispered, and I shook my head frantically.

"Let me finish." I whispered, and Edward nodded.

"Alright…as I was saying, I was hurt. I was so badly to walk up to you, and slap you till you bled, and shouted about how much I hated you…but I decided against it to spare your job. I decided to spare your job because I got laid off and you were Anthony's, and mine only income. After that, I went home, and acted like nothing was wrong. A few days later I went to the doctor to get an ultra sound where I found out that…that…that I wasn't pregnant." I whispered as my voice cracked. I avoided Edward's eye contact. It would hurt to look into his eyes right now.

"The doctor told me that it was my body adjusting to the new birth control I had gotten put on." I began sobbing. Edward pulled me in close, and I sobbed into his shirt.

"Bella…I'm sorry you had to go through that. I really am." He whispered. I hiccupped, and nodded.

"Edward…I love you so much, but…I don't know If I can do this." My voice cracked, and Edward shook his head.

"No, Bella. Don't say goodbye. This isn't goodbye. I will always love you, and you will always be my wife. We are not getting a divorce." He said in a husky voice, and I gripped his shirt tight, taking in his scent. So good.

"No Edward, it's not goodbye. Just…see yah later." I whispered, and Edward cupped my cheek.

"What does that mean Bella?" he whispered.

"It means…that I'll come back home one day. I just have to figure this all out. I want you to earn my trust again. I'm sorry but you threw It away the day I saw you with her." I whispered. I saw the hurt in his eyes as another tear streamed down his face.

"I'm sorry." He whispered.

"I know you are. I love you Edward."

"I love you too Bella."

"I got to go. It's getting late." I whispered, and he nodded.

"I'll drive you home." He offered, and I shook my head no.

"No Edward is fine. I'll take a cab.

"No, really Bella. I want to make sure you made I home safe." He offered, and I looked into his green orbs. Fuck. Why did I do that?

"Alright." I said, and he smile as he grabbed my hand and walked me to his Volvo.

Once there, Edward opened the door for me. I thanked him, and sat inside. Edward closed the door, and I took in the scent. I miss this scent.

Edward joined me in the car, and we were now driving. I watched as Edward fumbled with the radio, and finally music played. My heart stung. Debussy.

"This is the song that was playing on our first date." Edward whispered, and I nodded slowly.

"Clair de Lune." I whispered, and Edward nodded. I stared at my feet and listened to the light music, and the sound of Edward's breathing patterns.

"Did I ever tell you that you look beautiful tonight?" Edward whispered, breaking the silence.

"No." I mumbled as I felt my cheeks warm up. Edward chuckled.

"Well, you do." He whispered, and I nodded.

"Thank you." I whispered as I looked out the window. Once we arrived to Rose's house, Edward turned off the car. It was silent, was a comfortable silence.

"Bella...I know this might be asking for too much, especially after everything I've done, but can I see Anthony?" Edward asked slowly. I took a deep breath.

"Yes…I don't know where though. Anthony's not here tonight, and I don't know my plans yet." I told him honestly, and he nodded.

"I understand. I'm happy you'll just let me see him." He whispered.

"Yeah…walk me to my door?" I asked sweetly, and he nodded. Edward jumped out of the car and was at my side in seconds. Still like high school. I chuckled.

"Just like in high school." I whispered, and he chuckled, closing the door. Edward slowly walked me up to Rose's front door. We both stood there for a second staring at each other until I finally broke the silence.

"Goodnight Bella." Edward whispered. I smiled.

"Goodnight Edward." I whispered, giving him a kiss on the cheek and went inside. Once inside I leaned on the door, and slid down. What a night.

I woke up with a pounding in my head. I opened my eyes slowly, just to be blinded by the light. I groaned as I sat up slowly, rubbing my eyes.

"What did I do last night?" I mumbled as I stood up, and nearly fell. I looked down, and saw that I was still wearing my heels from last night. That's when it all came flowing back to me. Edward, Lauren, Alice punching Lauren, Edward beating up Reilly, me kissing Edward, and Edward bringing me home. It all came back to me. I suddenly sadden again as I remember my chat with Edward.

I looked around and saw that I wasn't in my bed; I was in the living room. I must have passed out on the couch. Wow, Edward was right…tequila does make me wild.

I shook my head as I took my heels off, and threw them off to the side. I slowly began walking to my bedroom as I ran my fingers through my hair. Once in my room, I walked over to the dresser, and pulled out some fresh clothes for today, a Great Lipsy Lace Heart Sweet heart sweat shirt top with a splendid one and one White tank top underneath. As for pants go, I'm matching it with a pair of Black Victoria's Secret University Love sweatpants, and a pair of pink heart socks for my feet. For shoes I decided to wear grey converse I've had since college. They were a little tight, but still comfortable. Lastly, I grabbed a pair of lingerie, and a silver heart locket Charlie bought me for my nineteenth birthday.

I sighed as I set my clothes on the bed, and into the bathroom that was connected. I turned on the shower, and set it to the right temperature. I quickly hopped in, scrub myself, and hoped out. I then wrapped my towel around myself, and looked in the mirror. My makeup from last night was smeared all over. I quickly grabbed a makeup wipe, and cleaned it off until my face was normal. After that I quickly got dressed, and brushed my hair.

After I was finished I walked into the kitchen, and grabbed a bite to each. I settled on an apple, and a bottle of water. I wasn't that hungry.

Rose was already at work, and Anthony wasn't home so the house was quiet. Too quiet for my liking. I was bored so I turned on the TV and watched random shows. My mind was a blank as I waited to Rose to come home. I guessed I dozed off because I was suddenly awakened by two screaming voices.

"Bella WAKE UP!" Rose and Alice screamed together. I groaned I sat up quickly. I looked around, and then look at Rose and Alice.

"What was that for?" I asked in a weird voice. Alice chuckled.

"You needed to wake up silly." Rose said. I was confused. Why?

"Why?" I asked

"Because Jasper is bring Anthony home in ten minutes." Rose told me, and I nodded. That's right.

"Oh, yeah. Sorry I just dozed off." I told her and she shrugged. I stood up from where I was, and Alice, and Rose's eyes widened.

"What are you wearing?" they screeched.

"Sweat?" I said in a "duh" voice.

"I know that, but they're hideous." Rose shouted. I shrugged.

"I liked them." I told her, and she shook her head, walking off somewhere.

I chuckled.

I stood up quickly when I heard the doorbell ring. I was excited to see my son. I actually missed him, even though it's been 20 hours, 27 minutes and 11 seconds. Yes, I counted.

I quickly opened the door, and gasped dramatically. Anthony was still in his PJS, and was holding a batman action figure. Where did he get that?

"Hi baby!" I told him, hugging him tight and kissing his cheek. He giggled.

"Hi mommy. Look at what uncle Dasper bought me." He said happily, showing me his action figure. My jaw dropped as I looked at jasper. He had a sheepish look on his face.

"You didn't have to do that." I told him, and he shrugged.

"I wanted too. Besides, I love him." Jasper told me, and I smiled giving him a hug.

"Thanks for doing this. I can see he loves it…want to come in?" I offered, and he looked at the time.

"I guess for a few minutes." He said walking in. I set Anthony back down on his feet, and ran into the living room watching cartoon immediately. I chuckled as I closed the door.

"Where's Rose?" jasper asked. I shrugged.

"I don't know…let's look in her room." He nodded and I dragged him to Rose's room where we found her and Alice on the bed reading fashion magazines.

"Hey Rose." Jasper said, and both their heads shot up. Rose smiled, and Alice kind…stared in awe. Weird.

"Hey Jasper." She told him, stand up and giving him a hug he laughed as he looked at Alice over her shoulder. Once they pulled away he looked at me, and then Alice again.

"Who's this?" jasper asked with a smile. Alice stood up quickly, fixing her hair.

"I'm Alice! I work with Rose." She told him, and he smiled.

"I've never heard of you." He said slowly, and Rose laughed.

"She's new." Jasper nodded, looking over her appearance. Do I seek a crush? I smiled. They would be cute together. I think.

"I'm Jasper." He introduced, sticking his hand out.

"Alice, again." They laughed as they shook hands. I gave Rose a look, and she returned the same look.

"I'm about to make lunch. Want to join us?" I asked jasper, and he shook his head.

"No I can't. I have to get to work soon, but thank Bells. Um…I guess I should go. It was nice meeting you." He said and Alice smiled.

"Bye Rose, Bella…Alice." He said giving her once last glance, and leaving. Alice was in a trance and I laughed.

"You like him!" I shouted when I heard the door shut. Her eyes widened.

"What it that obvious? Oh my god!" she screamed, slapping her hand to her forehead. I shook my head.

"No its fine. I think he likes you too." She gasped.

"Really?" she screamed, and I nodded.

"Yeah, I'll talk to him if you want?" I offered, and she nodded frantically.

"Thank you! Thank you!" she screamed while pulling me into a tight hug. I chuckled.

"Your welcome." I whispered, hugging back.

After Anthony was fed, I sat on my bed staring at my feet. Should I call Edward? I want him to spend time with Anthony before he forgets what his father even looks like. That'd be bad.

I sighed and fell back on the bed. I love Edward so much, but he hurt me. I don't know if I'll find it in my heart to forgive him, but I hope I can.

After giving it much thought I grabbed my cell phone, and typed in the seven digits. After a few rings, I heard his voice say hello, and I smile.

"Hey Edward, its Bella. I…I want to come home. "

OMG! What's going to happen? BTW, she's not forgiving him just yet, but she does want to come home. Review!