Chapter 6

I woke up startled by my cell I picked it up and saw the caller id. It was Jen.

"Hello?" I said groggily

"Fer? Where are you? Are you still asleep?" Jen whispered.

"Wha- Wait what time is it?"

"It's almost twelve, Fer? What is going on? Where are you?"

"I'm home, why are you whispering?"

"I'm in gym, Fer what happened yesterday? Seth has been asking everyone where you are. I overheard that girl Kim saying talking about you, what happened?"

"He kissed me."

"What? He kissed you?"

"Yeah, he drove me home and while we were saying goodbye he kissed me"

"Hold on- did you kiss him back?"

"A little, but I pulled back. Jen I just, I can't I don't know anything about him, and he's so, so-"

"Intense, I know believe me I know, but you gotta talk to him I can't explain it but I think it's best if you did"

"What are you talking about?"

"He looks, sad"

This made me jump Seth always had a grin plastered on his face, that one of the things I loved about him. He couldn't be sad, it didn't suit him. I had my phone on speaker and was pulling a shirt over my head.

"Jen, I'm on my way"

The lovely thing about La Push is that it lacked cops to keep traffic in order, not that there was any traffic to begin with. I sped down to school and I got there in nine minutes rather than twenty. I went to the office and got a late slip and told them I had a doctor's appointment. The lady rolled her eyes at me, but gave me the slip anyways. It was almost lunch which meant that I could talk to him with no interruptions, I found gathered my stuff from my locker and went to math. It was really hard to concentrate on slopes, my mind just wandered back to Seth, what would I say to him? Would he pretend it didn't happen or did he actually wanna talk about it? I had no idea what I would say, because the truth was that I wanted him to kiss me, I liked it when he had his arm around me it was just that little thought that crept the back of my skull, that made me hesitant of all these things. It contradicted my feelings, telling me to be careful to keep my guard up.

I was leaving math when I saw Seth, he was leaning against some girl's locker, leaning into her. Her face was a bright scarlet and I could hear her giggling. I exhaled, I had been worrying all morning about what I was going to say to him, how I would choose my words so that I didn't hurt him any further, so wrapped up in how I could shove those feelings away and try to be with him but now all these thoughts were gone in an instant like 'poof!'. I didn't want to be anywhere near him, I didn't even want to look at him, what game had he been playing that he had made Jen believe that he was hurting, Jen had no sympathy towards Embry or his friends, so when she told me he was sad I believed her, and raced to school to talk to him, to make it better for him. Maybe he had been playing with me all along and he was that type of guy. Someone came behind me.

"Oh my god!" Jen spat.

Clearly she saw, what I saw. He was soo close to her, he had one had leaned against the top of the locker and the in his pocket. I was jealous, I wasn't even going to deny it I didn't want him anywhere near another girl, for Christ's sake! He had kissed me and now it looked like he was going to kiss her. Unfortunately my locker was down the hall, which meant that I had to pass them in order to get to it. At that moment Seth looked up and saw me, he expression immediately changed and he stood straight up the girl noticed this and glanced in my direction, she gave me a dirty look and probed Seth so he would pay attention to her. I rolled my eyes and began walking fast down the hall,

"Fer wait!" he called.

I kept walking as fast as I could, pretending not to be able to hear him. He quickly caught up with me it didn't take him any effort to, which made me even angrier.

"Fernanda wait, please"

"What" I spat looking down.

"Fer, look at me, "he insisted "Please look at me"

I did, but only because I wanted to look him in the eyes when I said this:" Why did you kiss me? What did you think would happen? Huh, did you think I would melt and agree to be your girlfriend? You don't know me; you only just met me last week! And I obviously don't know you; I didn't think you were the kind of guy who played with people's feelings"

"No- you Fer you don't understand" He pleaded. He opened his mouth to say more, but then that girl came behind him and put her hand on his arm.

"Seth, you can come over after school and we can go over Dalton's theory, it shouldn't be a problem because you already know where I live" She was deliberately looking at me when she said this.

I didn't even wait for his response, I was already walking away. I could hear Jen heels clacking behind me, trying to catch up with me.

"What an ass, I can't believe I fell for the cute puppy look eyes"

"Whatever, its better that I found out about this now rather than later"

"I'm sorry, but your right."

I didn't respond, I didn't want to eat lunch I just wanted to go home.

"You need to take your mind off of him, I know what! I'll get some friends from forks and we can all head to the beach on Thursday!"

We had a professional day on Thursday and Friday, which meant there were going to be a lot of people on the beach.

"Jen, I don't-"

"God! Fer you need to hang out with people other than Seth and his friends, besides there's someone I want you to meet"

"Fine."

"Good lets go shopping! You need something for the beach!"

"Seriously?"

"Yes, in fact lets go after school!"

"Fine" I said defeated. There was no way I was going to win when arguing with Jen; I didn't even have the energy to. Maybe I was overreacting after all, me and Seth weren't going out or anything but at the same time I couldn't shake my jealousy away. School went by slowly; Kim came over to my locker in between classes to ask me where I was at lunch and I told her I had been with Jen, she asked me if I had fun at Emily's and if I was planning to bring anything to the barbeque the Saturday next week. I smiled and said to both yes, and then Kim smiled and hurried off to class. At least she hadn't mentioned Seth, which mean they probably didn't know and maybe Kim and the guys liked me after all it wasn't as if they had disinvited me to their barbeque which was I think next Saturday... SHIT it was the same day as Logan's party. I didn't want to disappoint Kim. From what I could tell it was just Kim and the guys, as much as a girl loves her boyfriend she needs girls to balance herself out. I saw the way other girls looked at Kim jealous that she was constantly surrounded by hot guys, it never bothered me but, up until today I had always sat with them and sometimes girls looked at me that way too. Maybe somehow I could make it up to her...

The rest of school went by real quick, I had art last period and Jen and I skipped it and headed to Port Angeles to go shopping. The reason why Jen was so keen on going shopping was because she wanted to set me up with one of her friends, some guy on Logan's swim team Liam. Jen gushed about him, how he was originally from Ireland and how cute his accent was, and how he had his heart broken by some girl and was on the rebound. The last part didn't exactly make too excited about him, but it would be nice to hang out with people other than people from the reserve for a change.

We went to all these local boutiques; they had gorgeous clothes way better than anything you could find at the mall. Jen picked out most the outfits I ended up buying, which made me look hot especially the heels. Jen drove me back to the school parking lot, so I could pick up my car. Seth was leaning against it with his hands crossed and his head hanging. I had half a mind to turn around and walk home, it wouldn't be so terrible I needed the work out plus my shoes were pretty comfortable. Just then Seth's head snapped up.

"Fer!" he breathed.

I rolled my eyes, I did not want to talk to him but at the same time I didn't want to leave my car in the school parking lot.

"What are you doing here?" I sighed.

"I didn't know where you were, I was worried..."

"Don't you have to Dalton's theory to go over?" I said passing him to open the door.

"It's not what you think... I promise" he pleaded.

"Whatever, its none of my business"

"Fer..."

"Seth, it's cool it's not like I had any expectations" I said, even though I did.

"I'm sorry; will you please let me explain?"

I was tired exhausted even, and to top it off I had homework to catch up with.

"Sure" I sighed.

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