Broken

Chapter 13:

Violence

Bella

I walked back into the kitchen, biting my lip furiously. I grabbed a knifed, and violently began slicing the lasagna.

"Stupid Edward…thinks the world revolves around him. Fuck him…I don't need him, nobody needs him." I muttered under my breath angrily.

"Bella? Are you alight?" Jasper asked with concern in his voice. I laughed evilly, and shook my head.

"No Jasper, I'm not alright. I so badly want to choke somebody's throat but I can't. I'm starting to get these thoughts that aren't natural for a person to think. I'm going crazy Jasper, and it's all Edward fucking fault." I shouted, throwing the knife of the counter with a thud. Jasper pulled me in a hug carefully, and I let a tear slipped out.

"I know this is hard Bella, but we'll get through it…together. I'm with you every step of the way." Jasper whispered, and I nodded in his chest.

"I know Jasper. I know you're always going to be there for me, and I appreciate that but…I need to this on my own for once. I need to take matters into my own hands." I whispered, and Jasper nodded as he pulled away.

"What are you going to do?" Jasper asked, and I sighed looking at my feet.

"I decided…that tomorrow I'm going down to the courthouse, and file for a divorce." I whispered painfully, and Jasper looked at me with hurt in his eyes.

"Bella…you don't want to do that. Trust me Bella, I know you better than everyone, and the last thing you want to is to get a divorce." Jasper stated, and I shook my head furiously.

"No Jasper, it is my I want. I'm no longer that Bella anymore, so no…you don't know me better than everyone. I've changed Jasper. Edward turned into a monster that I couldn't love anymore. He doesn't want me…he wants sex, and it kills me to know that. I wanted to know that was a lie but these past few weeks changed my mind completely. I was supposed to be home, in bed tonight but instead of explaining myself to you. Do you know how fucked up that is? That your own husband doesn't want you, or your son? That kills me Jasper, to know I was the second choice. That I'm the one with some fucked up body or some shit. I'm broken Jasper. Edward broke me. I've tried so hard to put on a poker face, and act like nothing's wrong but it's hard. It's so fucking hard Jasper. I've held myself for so long, that I feel if I let go I'll fall apart. I don't know what to do. My minds telling to do one thing, and my heart another." I whispered, and Jasper looked at me pained.

"Bella…I know Edward fucked up, and I'm not defending him…but you guys need to work things out. Even if you get a divorce you need to figure out how to be friends at least…for Anthony's sake." Jasper whispered, and I nodded with a sigh.

"I know." I admitted, and Jasper chuckled awkwardly.

"Now…let's eat what's left of the lasagna." Jasper said in an amused voice looking at the food I destroyed minute ago. I laughed as my eyes widened.

"Sorry…I was just so angry." I admitted, and Jasper laughed.

"It'd fine…I bet it'll be just as good." Jasper complimented, and I blushed looking at my shoes once again.

"I guess." I mumbled, and Jasper sighed.

"Alright, how about this…Anthony and I can drive to Justin's Place and picked up some food to go, and pretend you made it. Sound good?" Jasper offered, and I laughed.

"That sounds perfect." I mumbled as I grabbed the remains of my food, and threw it in the garbage…Too bad for Alice and Rose.

"Anthony, come with me…we're going to pick up some food for mommy." Jasper told Anthony, shutting off the TV. Anthony gladly accepted Jasper's offer, and they were soon out, and about. I sighed as I grabbed the few knifes, and spoons I dirtied while making the food. I was soon cut off by somebody banging on the door. I opened it, just to be face to face with a tired looking Edward. My eyes widened as I attempted to shut the door, but he stuck his foot in.

"Bella…stop being so stubborn, and let me talk." Edward demanded, and I shook my head.

"Why should you? All you do is hurt me, and I'm tired of it. I'm sick and tired of feeling like your play toy, and your whore." I shouted, and Edward stared at me with a blank expression.

"Are you seeing someone Bella?" he said with no emotion in his voice. I stared at him for a minute before answering.

"What? No, why would you say that?" I shouted, and he looked at him with an evil look in his eyes.

"It reeks of men's cologne. Who are you fucking?" He shouted, and slapped him hard. He stood frozen for a minute before looking at me hard.

"You have no right Edward. No right to barge in here and excuse me of fucking somebody. Even If I was, what's it to you? I'm not yours, anymore." I shouted, and looked pained.

"Baby, I hate to break it to you, but those papers aren't signed…which legally means that you're all mine." He whispered smugly before pulling me in his arms. My jaw dropped as I pushed him away roughly.

"Fuck you Edward. I don't want anything to do with your anymore. You ruined my life! Don't you understand that I'm miserable? I'm dying inside Edward. Just hearing your name makes me want to cry because I miss, and love you so much. I don't want to love you anymore. I don't want to love a monster! You're a monster Edward. You broke me. You broke me so much that I don't know if I'll ever be fixed again. I hate you for that. I hate you so much." I whispered as I sobbed. Edward looked at with so much pain in his eyes.

"You don't hate me." He whispered, and I nodded.

"No, I do. I really mean it this time. I hate you." I gritted through my teeth. Edward stared at me in pain, realizing I wasn't lying.

"No, I won't let you hate me. " Edward demanded, cupping my cheek. I swallowed the lump in my throat, and sobbed.

"Why Edward? Why are you causing me so much pain? Why not let me if you're just going to sleep around anyways. Why don't you just have no strings attached?" I whispered with hurt in my voice. Edward pulled away angry.

"Let you go? Why and the hell would I let you go? Can't you see I love you?" he shouted, and I frowned.

"You sleeping with other woman tell me otherwise." I whispered, and Edward looked at me with wide eyes.

"Is this what it's about? Me sleeping with Lauren? I thought were past that Bella!" he shouted, and I shook my head.

"No, it's not about Lauren. It's about the tramp you slept with before you came here." I shouted, and he looked at me in disbelief. He was about to say something before Jasper walked in with Anthony behind him with food in his hands. Edward's jaw dropped and his eyes widened.

"It's Jasper? You're fucking Jasper? Is that why you didn't want me to come over?" Edward shouted, and my jaw dropped.

"Whoa man, you need to cool it. You have no idea what you're talking about." Jasper stated, setting his hand on Edward's chest. Wrong move.

"No, you have no idea what the fuck you're talking about!" Edward shouted, pushing Jasper away from him. Oh shit.

Before I knew it Jasper swung his fist, and it collided with Edward's jaw. I heard the faint screams of Anthony as Edward landed with a thud. Edward then quickly stood up, and tackled Jasper. I shouted, and tried pulling him off with no success.

"Edward, stop it!" I shouted while the tears furiously ran down my face.

"No, he needs to learn to get his own woman, and not fuck mine!" Edward shouted as he punched Jasper once more.

"Daddy, stop it!" Anthony shouted, jumping on his back. Edward then froze, and stood on his feet slowly. I cried as I grabbed Jasper's head comfortingly.

"Comforting your boyfriend huh?" Edward gritted, and I looked up at him with tearful eyes.

"How could you Edward? Jasper's been my best friend since middle school, nothing else. You know that." I whispered slowly. Edward just stared at me.

"I'm sorry Bella." He whispered, and I shook my head.

"No, you're not. If you cared about me, you'd stop hurting me, and the people I love…but you just can't stop can you? Do you get pleasure out of hurting people; do you just do it because you're bored?" I asked, and shrugged.

"I think you should leave." I gritted, and he just stared at me.

"I'm sorry." He whispered, and I snapped.

"Just, go!" I shouted.

"Daddy...why did mommy mad at you?" Anthony whispered, and my heart broke.

"Well, daddy did some awful things, and I'm trying to fix them at the moment." Edward whispered.

"I love you daddy." Anthony whispered, and Edward had tears in his eyes.

"I love you too Anthony. " Edward whispered painfully, giving him a tight hug before leading himself out. I them set my head on Jasper's chest, and cried.

This is my entire fault.

Edward

I don't know what happened, I just snapped! I wasn't angry at Bella, or jasper…just angry at myself. So angry I threw my anger into violence. I knew Bella wasn't sleeping with Jasper, but I let my mouth speak before thought about what I was saying. That stunt probably just cost me my wife, and son. It pained me to see Anthony hurt. He wasn't physically hurt, but emotionally from watching me fight with Jasper. When Anthony jumped on my back, and begged to stop I froze and pulled away. It was like Anthony had me in a trance. I just …I just don't know. My life's all screwed up right now.

Bella was right…I do need some help. Being without her just made me crazy. God, I'm so screwed up!

I don't know what to do next, but I do know one thing…I was going to make it up to Bella.

Hey, I know this is my shortest chapter probably, but I felt like I had to end it. How did you like the juiciness? I actually cried at the part with Anthony saying I love you. I know Edward is a fuck up but trust me…he's going to come around.

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Sneak peak chapter 14:

I sighed, and dialed the number in. it rang a few times before she finally answered.

"Hello?" she answered in a painful voice, I felt my heart crack.

"Bella, its Edward…I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to right now, but…I need you. I know I haven't been the best husband in the world, but I'm trying. I'm trying to show you how much I love you, but I end up hurting you in the end. I'm sorry Bella. All I want to do is hold you in my arms again. I miss you. Please let me make it up to you with dinner. We need to talk." I finished with a whispered. I heard Bella sigh.

"Alright Edward…but no funny business. One dinner, that's it." Bella demanded, and I smiled with a laugh.

"Alright, it's perfect. Thanks Bella." I whispered into the phone with happiness in my voice.

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