Chapter 9

Have you ever replayed an argument through your head? Or created a potential argument in your head? Made witty remarks that could you never say to the person on the other end of the argument, or simply take the conversation in a whole different direction?

I seem to be doing that lately, except I skip to the last part of it and just apologize. The last few days have been a complete mess, between trying to cope with my parents being out of town all the time, finding myself yelling alone for them or having to see Seth's beaten down look his eyes ever since our encounter at the beach. We can't hold an actual conversation without making some excuse to leave, we still eat lunch together but I just sit beside Kim or Embry they seem to like me the best. Jen is now actually attempting being nice to Embry but you can tell she wants to say more but just holds it in by the way she bites her lip, and she frequently refuses to eat lunch with us. I wonder where she goes, Forks perhaps.

So its eight forty I'm all dressed up and I'm just waiting for Jen, the truth is right now I wanted to go to Emily and Sam's barbeque, I just want to do something fun, casual and low profile. Instead I'm in this corset like dress and with shoes whose manufacturer obviously hates feet. I know I'm being pessimistic and pretty much a downer and I know I'm going to have to fix that before Jen gets here. I go to the bathroom mirror and practice smiling. When I look in the mirror what do you see?

I'd rather not answer that right now.

The doorbell rings and Jen's here looks stunning as always. We don't say anything as we drive to the beach; we just stare at the road ahead. Long and winding, never ending it seems but eventually it we do arrive in not a very party mood.

"So" Jen drawls "I'm going to find something to drink, go find Liam"

And just like that she vanishes. Great. I find my way to the dock; you can see the light from about twenty feet away but standing close to them it feels absolutely magical, I lean against the post.

"Fernanda!"

I turn around, it's Liam. I sigh but plaster on a smile" Hey! So it looks like lost! Where's the party?"

Liam laughs "This way! C'mon!"

He leads me to the beach where the party's seems to have already in full blast, people are drinking and dancing, declaring that 'they are young so they'll set the world on fire and burn brighter than the sun'. It seems that Logan has decided on Heineken for beer so I grab a red cup and fill it. Marni finds me and fills her cup as well and we toast.

"To being living life and getting wasted!" Marni sings she of course is wasted herself by now.

"To living life" I drawl I hesitate but add" and getting wasted"

Logan finds Marni and claims her for a slow dance. I slump against the keg and keep myself from filling my cup several times. Seeing all these couples dancing reminds me of Seth, we never dated and we don't know each other that well but it doesn't matter. I like the way he makes me feel just by being there; close by. Jen finds me or should I say finds the keg and sits on the sand.

" Hey Fer I-" Jen is caught off by a blood curdling scream.

We both get up and run in the direction of the water; people are gathered around Marni who is on the ground sobbing. Jen runs to her and wraps her arms around her, brushing her hair back Marni sobs uncontrollably and Stacie has a blank look on her face.

"What is going on?" I scream" Marni! Marni are you alright? What happened?"

"LOGAN! he-ee's" Marni sobs more.

"WHAT?" Jen snaps" LOGAN IS WHAT?"

"Dead" Finishes Stacie

This fazes me, I hear another scream this once come from somewhere in the distance. The sound is helpless and full of agony. Another scream, then another, then another they seem to be set off by each other each one more agonized and terrified than the one before. I take big breaths to try to think more clearly but only one thought come to mind. RUN. I reach for the ground, but Jen is gone. I look everywhere but there are people running in all directions making it harder for me to see. Never in million years do I see what comes next. Its Jen she's drenched in blood.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING?" I screech throwing my arms around her" Jen! Jen! Are you alright? Where were you? Who did this?"

There are gang fights all over North America, but this does not seem like the work of one. I can't quite put it into words and I have no idea how. Jen sobs into me and I rock her the faster she calms down the faster we can get out of here.

"We have to go" I say, I try pulling her up but I am dragged by her weight

" Waai-tt" Jen cries" I have to find Marni and Stacie!"

"Um okay I'll help you" I say reassuringly as we get up

"I'll go in the direction of the woods and you look here"

"Jen I really don't think-"But she is gone.

Great. I try my best to find Stacie or Marni but all my efforts are in vain, there are people screaming, running into me since I am going in the opposite direction of them and there is blood everywhere the sand is colored with it. I fall to the ground and start hyperventilating, my vision is hazy but I see the most beautiful, palest people coming towards me. They too are drenched in blood but then again so is just about every person on this beach. I hear more screaming and I try to tell them to run but they are gone, in a split second vaporized. I feel the tears rolling down my face, I don't care they are justified. We can't stay here I have to find Jen.

"FERNANDA?"

I ignore the sound of my name and walk towards the woods. I need to find Jen, now. So we can go home, where its safe and maybe this nightmare might end.

"FERNANDA!"

This time I turn around, to tell what whoever is calling my name to shut up and RUN, maybe its Liam whose concerned because of my current direction. I open my mouth but my breath stops short because it isn't Liam calling my name its Seth.

"Seth! What-"I interrupted by the bone crushing embrace that Seth gives me, he runs his hands all over and hugs me once again. He brushes my bloody hair away from my face and crushes his lips down on mine. I don't resist, I simply wrap my arms around his neck wishing if possible to have him closer to me. The next moment is so unpredictable; I can't feel my weight anymore and everything becomes so blurry it feels like I'm flying. But I know I'm not and I feel my weight returning. Seth kisses the top of my forehead.

"It's okay now, I swear Fernanda" He whispers, I can still hear the screams but they have somewhat subdued" You're safe."

And I feel safe; I look up to meet his eyes. They are full of worry and concerned but also mixed with relief. He bends down to kiss me once more, this time a bit more softly.

"I have to go, but I'll come back okay?" His voice sounds pained

I nod "Wait! What about Jen? You have to find Jen!"

"I will don't worry" He levels his gaze with mine and then I know I'm going to be okay. A car appears behind me and he doesn't hesitate to shove me into it. I don't even care whose driving; I just stare into the rear-view mirror and watch the lights fade.

I wake up the next morning under the covers of my bed I sigh. It was just a nightmare. So realistic but still a nightmare, I run to the bathroom and splash cold water over my face and then I look up. When I look in the mirror what do I see?

BLOOD.

I have been writting and editing like crazy! I really enjoyed writting this chapter and the next gets better and a lot more mushy for Seth and Fernanda.

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