Blood. I push myself into the shower clothes and all and try clear it up. It wasn't a nightmare, it was real and there's blood stained on me to prove it. I shampoo, rinse, lather not in the correct order but I seem to have removed all of the visible blood. I push past the mirror, deliberately avoiding it since this morning. I change into yoga pants and a sports bra I don't even try finding a shirt I just put a hoodie on top. My phone blasts and creating a distinct pounding in my head.

"Hello?" I croak

"Fer? Are you okay? Where are you?" It's Jen!

"Jen! Yes! I am okay I'm home! Oh my god where are you?" I yell frantically

" I don- don't know, Fer I have to go! I'm so glad you're not dead" Then she hangs up.

Dead? Who is dead? Logan? I seem to remember that but who else everything's a blur all I remember are screams lots of them. Is Marni dead? Stacie? Oh my god! What if Liam is dead! I turn on the radio to Fork's news station; unfortunately they don't have a TV channel. There don't seem to be a lot of dead people but the toll on the 'missing' seems to rising by the second. I begin to experience chest pains, the voices say that a lot of bodies were found in the woods. Seth! Seth went to look back for Jen. He was headed towards the woods. A lot of dead bodies were found in the woods. The constricting pain in chest increase and tears roll down my face, I need to find him. I dash through the stairs and out the back door. I pace, then I walk, then power walk until I am sprinting in the direction of his house, I've only been here once but I seem to remember exactly where it is. I knock on the door no answer; I knock again and again and again still no answer. I collapse on their steps and wrap my arms around my legs the tears roll more rapidly now. I hear the door open behind me and I quickly stand up. It's Leah. She takes in my current state, rolls her eyes and sighs.

"In his room" She states almost defeated.

"Thank you" I whisper, but I don't hesitate I run up the stair and I open his bedroom door. Its not hard to find him all there is a desk, a chair, a dresser and a bed. He is on his bed, he is snoring, I sigh and cry harder but this time my tears are happy ones. I turn to leave when I hear his voice.

"Fernanda?" Seth gasps as he sits up. His face, his voice all alarmed. Why? Because of me?

"You're okay, you're okay, you're okay "I chant, letting the happy tears spill. He doesn't seem startled when fling myself on him wrapping my arms around him he only holds me closer, he whispers" You're okay"

I nod; his hands find my face they lead me to look at him. His eyes are so intense that I am somewhat startled when he kisses me but I don't pull away, I happily kiss back intertwining my fingers in his hair. When I do pull back it is only because I desperately need air. When I look at him, he has a goofy grin of his face.

"What?" I ask as smile threatens to appear on my face.

"Nothing" he says playfully

I am about to kiss him once again when my phone rings. I answer it without having to shuffle too much from Seth's arms" Hello?"

"Fer? It's Liam are you okay? Did you make it home safely?"

"Um yes! Are you okay?"I gasp, I hadn't even thought about Liam! He must have been out of his mind yesterday.

"Yeah, I'm fine I was worried, I've been trying to get a hold of Jen but she's not answering her cell"

"She's fine, no don't worry"

"Good, okay I have to go now but I'm really glad you're okay"

"Thanks Liam, I'm glad you're okay too"

I hang up and turn to face Seth, his expression is thoughtful he gives me a smile.

"So Liam" he says finally

"Liam" I nod

"He is the guy from the beach?"

"Yes"

"The one that you kissed?"

I can feel the burn on my cheeks, but I smile playfully "Maybe, why? Are you jealous?"

Seth rolls his eyes, but hugs me tighter" Maybe, but I seem to handle jealousy better than you do"

"Ha. Okay. no that was different" I say really hard trying to keep my voice even

"Really? How so?"

"Well you kissed me the night before, so excuse me for being confused"

"Confused? That was confusion?"

I can hear the teasing in his voice, I pull away a bit to read his expression it is goofy but there is a hint of genuine curiosity in there" Okay so I don't like it when a guy kisses me and then I see him less than twelve hours later about to kiss someone else"

"I wasn't about to kiss Alana, I don't like Alana that way" he says innocently

"Well I don't like Liam like that either"

"Really cause you seemed to like him that way that day on the beach, and you were at that party with him last night and he's calling you today"

"Seth who am I with right now? In their bedroom? Who was I kissing a moment ago?" Seth smiles widely and I lean into his chest.

"Me..." He whispers"So to recap I don't like it when you kiss Liam and you don't like it when I kiss Alana"

"So you did kiss her!" I gasp incredulous

"No, but for arguments sake pretend I did would you like it?"

"No"

"Then its settled I won't kiss Alana if you don't kiss Liam. Deal?"

"Deal" I sigh happily and play into his game" in fact I promise not to kiss anyone if you don't kiss anyone"

"How about we have an I only kiss you, you only kiss me rule?"

"I'd like that"

"Good! Me too, so should um we shake hands on it?"

I lean back to hold my hand out, Seth shakes it then pulls me closer with it. We kiss, then we talk some more, he seems to really interested in what happened before all the screaming and blood maybe he's trying to figure out if I was with Liam, maybe not. We seem to fall to sleep again until we are woken by his alarm clock. Seth grunts, smashes his clock with his bare hand rolls over so he's next to me. But we both seem to woken up now. Damn alarm.

"Seth?"

"Hmm?"

"Why is your alarm clock set for seven thirty on a Sunday?"

"Uh, I –um- well- its kinda for uh work"

I ignore the stuttering only because its early morning and his head is obviously not in the right place.

"So you have to leave?" I whisper trying to hide my dislike of this idea.

"Nope, they'll get over it if I don't show up. I have a very good track record you know" He says in an matter-of-fact tone but then adds "Besides I'd much rather stay with you"

I smile and peck his lips. He shifts so he is hovering over me then whispers "You know I've never had a sleep over with a girl before"

This throws me off guard; I laugh closing my eyes "This is so not a sleep over"

"Why do you get to decide?" Even with my eyes closed I can see Seth pouting

"Well a sleep over implies sleep and your alarm woke us up" I mumble trying to stretch

"So it's my fault?"

"No but if you expect a sleepover then you have to let me sleep" I say and roll onto my belly, then prop my head with my elbows. He smiles then mimics my movements so we are facing each other. How can this feel so natural? So easy? I knew that this was the first time I had ever felt like this I should thank my lucky stars because it was with someone like Seth. Seth who was so kind and compassionate, not that his friends weren't but he was different like almost as if he always saw the good in the world. I on the other hand was completely the opposite, not the I didn't appreciate the hand I was dealt but I spent so much foreseeing the possible bad outcomes and reliving memories in my mind that I wanted to change- like with my dad even when I was so young how could I make him live? And make things easier on my mother. How I could have acted, reacted all those memories that made me who I am today I hold so dearly in my heart but there isn't a moment when I don't wonder what would have happened if thing hadn't turned out the way they had. I wouldn't have met Seth, or maybe I would have who knows? But I would have wanted Seth to have met my dad. To be honest I'm not sure of what I want, but I do know that I want to be with Seth for as long as I can. So I can really believe that not all good things come to an end.

This past week has been so hectic! I'm so proud that i edited this on time!

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