Broken
Note: I'm sorry but after I published chapter 16, I didn't like how I made Jasper look so I'm rewriting it. Please don't get upset, and enjoy. :)
Chapter 16:
Date
Bella-
I just stood there staring at Emmett with my eyes wide, and my mouth wide open. Why is he here? I was just talking to him, and he was in forks! What the hell?
"Emmett...what are you doing here?" I asked quickly, and Emmett frowned, shoving his hands in his front pockets. He looked at me under his lashes, and bit his lip.
"I just wanted to see you Bella. I haven't spoken to you in months, I thought you fell off the edge of the earth or something." he whispered as if he was in trouble. I sighed, and ran my fingers through my hair.
"I know Emmett, and I'm sorry...but this is a bad time to just show up at my doorstep unexpected. I have plans tonight." I stressed, and he groaned, smacking his forehead.
"Oh man...i knew I should have called ahead, but I wanted to surprise you! Never mind, I'll leave." he whispered, and I shook my head, grabbing his arm when he was about to leave. I smiled at him, and his eyes softened.
"Emmett...it's okay. I don't have to leave for another hour...come in, get something to eat...go to the bathroom...whatever you need. I've missed you, and want you stay so we can catch up but you do need to leave in ten minutes." I said sweetly, and he smiled big, pulling me into a bone crushing hug. I groaned as he lifted me up from the ground.
"Thank you Bella! I'm sorry for coming so suddenly, but I wanted to see you, and that phone call made me tempted even more. I've missed you!" he shouted, setting me back on my feet. I chuckled as I caught my breath, and smiled.
"I've missed you too...hows charlie?" I asked, and he shrugged.
"Getting older by the minute...but you remember Sue Clearwater?" he asked, and I nodded.
"yeah well...her husband Harry died of a heart attack about a month ago, and she stays with Charlie. I think I see sparks a flying." he said, wiggling his eyebrows. My jaw dropped, and I laughed.
"Really? That's sweet, because I don't want charlie to die alone." I stressed, and Emmett laughed, finally stepping inside. I closed the door, and led him into the kitchen.
"i don't want to see him die at all, but it happens." Emmett said as if it was nothing. I sighed as I grabbed some leftovers out of the fridge, and handed it to Emmett. His eyes widened, and he smiled big.
"thanks, belly! Yum, chicken...my favorite!" he said enthusiastically, eating away the chicken. I laughed.
"Emmett...food is your favorite. You'll eat anything." I laughed, and he looked at me.
"Not human." he said, and I chuckled.
"Duh you big oaf. Who eats humans anyways?" I said in disgust, and he let out a laugh.
"Cannibals do." he pointed out, and I slapped his shoulders.
"You know what I mean. You have to be twisted to eat somebody of your own species." I mumbled, and shuttered at the thought of me eating Emmett, Anthony, Rose, or any human. It was just disgusting.
"Don't knock it till you try it sister." Emmett mumbled between bites, and my jaw dropped.
"You're telling me you'd eat human if you had a chance?" I asked in disbelief.
"Can I cook it?" he asked, and I furrowed my eyebrows.
"Yes." I said simply, and he thought about it.
"Nah...i may like to eat, but I'm not that crazy. Ask Edward." he mumbled, tossing the bowl in the sink, and grabbing a soda out of the fridge. I looked at him confused, and rinsed off his bowel and set it in the dishwasher.
"Edward? Why would I ask him?" I asked, grabbing a bottle of water, and taking a gulp. He leaned on the counter behind him, and scratched his head.
"Well, he was crazy enough to cheat on you...maybe he'd be crazy enough to eat a human." Emmett said with a smile, and I laughed in my water.
"Emmett, that's sweet...but I don't think he'd eat another human." I said, looking at my shoes, and Emmett sighed.
"How are you Bella? You look...different. You're all dark, and sad. I don't like it." Emmett mumbled, and I looked at him with a frown.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled lamely, and Emmett sighed.
"It's not your fault, Edward's the idiot...has he signed the papers yet?" Emmett asked, and I bit my lip and looked at him through my lashes.
"I haven't gotten them yet." I mumbled, and his eyes widened.
"Bella, why not? He's a dick, and you don't deserve to be with him. Divorce his ass!" Emmett shouted, and I sighed.
"It's not that simple Emmett." I whispered as I played with my hang nail. Emmett looked at me like I head two heads, and popped open his soda.
"Not that simple? What's so difficult? Just drive down to the court house, and get those goddamn papers!" Emmett barked, taking a sip. I looked at him funny, and my eyebrows furrowed.
"Emmett...please watch your language. Anthony is in the living room, and your loud." I whispered, and Emmett's jaw dropped.
"I totally forgot about Anthony...can I see him?" Emmett asked excitingly, and I smiled.
"I'd love that...but you actually have to leave. Like, now." I stressed, pushing him towards the door, but with no success. Emmett grabbed my arm, and frowned.
"Why so soon? Who do you have plans with?" Emmett asked, and I bit my lip trying to think of a lie. One finally accrued, and I smiled.
"I'm going out with a few friends...we're going to a club so I can get my mind of Edward." I lied, and Emmett smiled big and his eyes widened.
"A club? That's so fun, can I come?" he asked excited, and my jaw dropped. Shit...what do I say now?
"Sorry...can't. My friends said no boyfriends, or anything." I lied, and he groaned.
"Dammit...i was hoping I'd have some fun tonight." he mumbled, and I laughed.
"Sorry...maybe next time." I told him, and he nodded.
"By the way, you look great Bella. Really pretty." he complimented, and I blushed. I looked at my feet, and bit my lip.
"Thanks Emmett...now, you need to leave." I demanded, pushing him at the door but he stopped himself again. What the fuck? Can't he take a hint?
"Why so soon? I mean, don't you need somebody to watch Anthony when you go out tonight?" Emmett asked sweetly, and I groaned.
"Emmett...I'm not stupid. I already thought of that...Jasper is coming to pick him up any minute, now you need to leave." I gritted, and Emmett frowned.
"Damn, don't get mad at me, I was just being nice." Emmett said in defense, and I sighed.
"I know you were, and I love you for that...but I already have everything taken care of, and my friends will get pissed if they see you. They might think your my boyfriend or something, and I don't want that." I lied, and Emmett looked at him feet, and then at me.
"Can I ask least stay, and see Jasper? I haven't seen him in a while." he mumbled, and I groaned.
"Can't it wait? I mean...you can see him tomorrow." I'm trying so hard for him to leave so I can save Edward's ass, but he won't take a hint. I'm so pissed off right now!
"Fi8ne, I get it...I'm leaving." Emmett said, raising his hands up in defeat. I sighed in relief, and motioned him towards the door. Emmett sighed, and walked towards the door. I smiled at him, and opened the door. I saw Emmett's eyes get wide, and his smiled widened as he looked outside. My eyebrows furrowed and looked at what he was looking at, and gasped.
Jasper was here. This was not good.
It's not that I don't want Jasper, and Emmett together...it's just that they'll end up talking for hours, and I wont be able to get them out before Edward gets here.
I watched as Jasper walked up to the door with a big smiled. He pulled Emmett in for a bro hug, before looking at me, and pulling me in a small hug.
"Does he know?" Jasper whispered, and I nodded into his shoulder.
"What's gonna happen when Emmett sees him?" Jasper asked, and I looked at him shyly.
"I was hoping he'd leave before that happens." I whispered honestly, and Jasper bit his lip.
"Don't worry, I'll make it quick." Jasper whispered before pulling away, and smiled at Emmett.
"Emmett, my man...hows it goin?" Jasper asked nicely, and Emmett shrugged.
"It's been alright...except Bella here is trying to get rid of me!" Emmett faked hurt, giving me a wink. I slapped his shoulder, and he stuck his tongue out at me. I laughed, and Jasper just looked at me. I stared at him confused, and he just smiled at me. Okay then.
"Well, Bella does have plans tonight...going out to dinner with Rose." he lied for me, and I mentally slapped my forehead. Emmett just stared at him funny, and gave me a look.
"I thought you were going clubbing with friends?" Emmett asked, and my mouth opened, and closed many times but words never came out. Jasper quickly cut in, covering up my lie.
"Yeah, that's right. They're going to get quick dinner, and then meeting their other friends at the club. Right Bella?" Jasper asked with a smile. I smiled at him, and nodded.
"Right." I said shortly, and Jasper looked at Emmett.
"Well, where's the kid?" Jasper asked with a laughed, and I bit my lip.
"Um...last I checked he was watching cartoons. It's getting late so he might be getting sleepy." I told him, motioning Jasper towards the living room. Emmett slowly followed, and looked at Anthony, who was sleeping on the couch with his batman action figure in his arms. I smiled in awe, and picked him up gently. He stirred a little bit, but relaxed in my arms. I kissed his forehead, and handed him to jasper, who held him close.
"Here...he's already eaten, but not much so he might be hungry if he wakes up. Just let him sleep in those clothes, but if he gets up change him. I'll be right back, I'm going to prepare an overnight bag." I told him, and he nodded, rocking Anthony gently. I smiled at Emmett before walking into the bedroom, and grabbing Anthony Superman backpack. Everything of his was pretty much some sort of superhero.
I grabbed a set of pajamas, and an outfit for tomorrow. I also shoved in a few pairs of socks, underwear, and a set of shoes. I grabbed a few of his favorite toys, and gently set them in the light. I also packed his nightlight, and jacket for just in case. I then zipped up the back, and thew it over my shoulder. I shut off the light before walking back in the living room where Emmett was sitting on the couch, and Jasper was no where to be found. I walked towards Emmett, and looked at the TV where he was watching a football game.
"Where's Jasper?" I asked, and he looked at me and then at the TV.
"He's setting Anthony in his car seat. He'll be back in a minute." he said, flipping through channels. I sighed as I set the bag down, and sat next to Emmett, and hugged his side. Emmett looked at me funny, and hugged me back.
"What's this for?" he asked with a laugh, and I shrugged.
"I dunno, I missed you I guess." I whispered, and Emmett smiled.
"I miss you too." he said, and I pulled away. I bit my lip before asking him what was on my mind.
"Emmett...how did you find me?" I asked, and he looked at me confused.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"I mean...I'm at Rose's house. You've never been here, so you shouldn't know where it is. How did you find me?" I asked, and he sighed while itching his head.
"I called Jasper." he said simply, and my eyebrows furrowed.
"You called Jasper? When?"
"After I got off the phone with you." he told me, shutting off the TV. I bit my lip, and ran my fingers through my hair.
"Why...why did you come to Seattle?" I asked, and he shrugged.
"i missed you. Sue is taking care of charlie, and I missed my family. There's an Em's Mechanics fifteen minutes away, and I found a place to stay already. I've been looking into this for quite some time actually." he whispered honestly, and I smiled.
"That's sweet." I told him, and he smiled back.
"Good, I'm glad you're not mad about it." he whispered, and I shook my head.
"I'd never be mad at that. I love you em." I whispered, kissing his cheek, and standing up. Jasper then came inside, and smiled at me.
"I'm ready to go...walk me to my car?" he asked, and I nodded.
"Em...wanna come?" I asked, and he smiled.
"Sure." he said, shutting off the TV. I smiled as we walked outside. I closed the front door, and walked over to Jasper's Escalate. The back door was already open, and I saw Anthony in the car seat, sleeping. I smiled in awe, and kissed his cheek gently.
"Goodnight baby...I'll see you tomorrow. I love you." I whispered before adjusting his legs, and shutting the car door quietly. I looked at Jasper, and he had his eyebrows raised.
"Well...i guess I'll see you guys tomorrow?" he asked both of us, and I nodded. We looked at Emmett, and just looked at us.
"What? Oh, yeah...i have to get a few things settled, but of course man." he said with a smile, and I laughed. Jasper nodded as he opened his car door. He was about to get in, but he froze. He looked at me, and pulled me into a hug. I laughed, and hugged him back before pulling away.
"Goodnight Bella. Be safe...please." he begged, and I nodded.
"Of course...drive safe, and call me when you get come...ice your face. Goodnight." I whispered, and he smiled at me before smiling at Emmett, and getting in the car. He was about to pull out when a silver Volvo pulled up in the driveway. My eyes widened, and Emmett's jaw dropped. I looked at Jasper, and he looked at me panicked.
Shit was going to hit the fan. This is not good.
"Bella, is that who I think it is?" Emmett asked roughly, and I slowly nodded at him with pain in my eyes. Emmett's jaw dropped, and he looked at his feet.
"I can't believe you Bella." Emmett mumbled, and I just looked at him. He looked at me, and shook his head.
"What Emmett?" I asked, raising my hands up in the air dramatically. He just shook his head, and shrugged. I watched as Edward's stepped out of the car, wearing a blue button up dress shirt, black slacks, and black converse. He looked so cute!
He smiled when he saw me, but it quickly fell when he saw Emmett. His face went pale, and I saw his Adam's apple move as if he swallowed his spit. This is so not good.
I heard Jasper get out of the car quietly, and stood by the door. Edward just smirked at him, and looked at me with a smile. I awkwardly waved at him, and looked at my shoes.
"Hey Bella." he greeted as if Emmett wasn't here shooting daggers at him. I smiled sweetly, and looked at him.
"Hey Edward." I whispered, and he looked me over one more time. I blushed, and Emmett just stared at me funny.
"Alright, if you guys are done being all lovey dovey, I'll like to get some answers!" Emmett demanded with a frown. I sighed, and put my hands on my hips.
"Fine Emmett...what do you want to know?" I asked.
"first, why the hell is he here? Two, are you even going out with friends tonight, and lastly...are you even going to divorce him like you said?" Emmett asked, and I looked at Edward with wide eyes. He looked at me pained, and looked at his hands in shame.
"First Emmett...i didn't say that I was going to divorce Edward. I said I was thinking about it, second, no...I'm not going out with friends tonight, and lastly Edward is here because we're having dinner tonight to talk about things. Happy?" I asked, and Emmett bit his lip. I played with my thumbs, and Emmett just sighed.
"No, I'm not happy. I mean, look at Jasper's face, it's fucked up!" Emmett shouted, and I shushed him.
"Quiet...Anthony is sleeping, and I know his face is messed up, but I want to work things out for our family...please Emmett. Support me on this." I begged, and he just stared at me with a blank expression. Before I knew it Emmett had Edward by his collar, and got in his face. I grabbed Emmett by the back of his shirt, and tried pulling him off, but with no success.
"Listen pal, I don't want to see my sister hurt again...so if anything, and I do mean anything, goes wrong...your face won't be recognizable in the morning. Got it?" Emmett asked, spitting on Edwards face. Edward wiped it away, and gulped while nodding slowly.
"Y-yes." he stuttered, and Emmett smirked.
"Good...you do everything right tonight. You pull out her chair, you open her car door, you pay for dinner, you don't look at any other girls...be perfect...because if your not, what's going to happen?" Emmett asked rudely, and Edward took a shaky breath.
"Y-you're going t-to break m-m-my f-face." Edward said nervously, and Emmett nodded before pushing him away roughly. Edward quickly caught his balance, and fixed his collar. I frowned, and slapped Emmett hard on the arm.
"What Bella?" Emmett asked, and I just shook my head, pushing Emmett towards his Jeep.
"Nothing Emmett...just...leave, and I'll see you tomorrow." I mumbled, and Emmett sighed opening his car door, and hoping inside. He looked at me sad before starting his engine, and pulling out of the driveway, and off to god knows where. I sighed in relief as I turned around and looked at Edward, and Jasper. They were awkwardly watching me with both of their hands in their pockets. I bit my lip, and ran my fingers through my hair.
"Jasper, maybe you should go home, and put Anthony in bed?" I asked sweetly, and he nodded with a smile.
"Yeah, I'll do that." he whispered, and pulled me in a hug. I thought I heard a growl from the side of me, but I shook it off. I hugged Jasper back, and smiled.
"Be safe." he whispered, and I nodded.
"I promise...drive safe, and call me when you get home. Love you guys." I told him, kissing him on his cheek and watching him get in his car. He started the engine, and smiled at me before driving away. I watched as the car got smaller in the distance, and sighed. I felt two strong arms pull me into a hug from behind. I smiled, and turned my head to see Edward standing behind me. He smiled me his breath taking smile, and kissed his chin quickly before pulling away.
"Sorry about all...that." I said with a funny expression, and Edward chuckled.
"Don't worry, it's fine Bella. When did Emmett come into town? You could have warned me he was here." Edward said, and I frowned.
"What do you think I've been trying to do all hour? He can't take a freaking hint! I told him to leave probably five-hundred times, but he wouldn't. He came into town to surprise me...i didn't even know he was coming." I said, biting my lip and Edward just stared at me with a blank expression. I became worried, but he finally cracked a smile.
"It's fine Bella, I understand. Emmett can be a little unusual sometimes...um, does he know about...us?" he asked awkwardly, referring to the cheating. I nodded slowly, and Edward just nodded.
"Oh...well, let's just cut to the chase, and get this night started. Bella, you looked beautiful tonight." Edward whispered in my ear, and I blushed as red as a tomato. He chuckled, and set his hands on my hips. They fit perfectly like we were meant to stay like that forever. I set my head on his shoulder, and wrapped my arms around his torso.
"Thank you...you look great Edward. Very hot." I complimented with a wink, and I felt him gulp loudly, and nod. I laughed and he just rolled his eyes. Edward grabbed my hand, and pulled me towards his Volvo. He opened my door for me, and I smirked.
"Still a gentlemen I see." I teased, sitting down. Edward smirked.
"Nah, I just don't want Emmett to kick my ass." he winked, and I laughed. He then shut my car door, and ran over to his side and got in. I buckled my seat belt quickly, and he was already on the road by the time I finished. His seat belt was already on, and he looked like he was in deep thought. I smiled small as I looked out the window, and grabbed my seat tightly. Edward was going about eighty mile per hour. He always drove fast, and I was never use to it. Of course, when Anthony was with us he would drive slow...and I do wish Anthony was with us now. He was driving like crazy!
"Edward...c-could you slow down a little bit?" I asked nervously, and he chuckled, slowing down to sixty. I quickly thanked him, and smoothed the wrinkles in my dress.
"Where are we going?" I asked curious, and Edward just smirked at me before looking back at the road.
"That's a surprise." he said, and I groaned. I hated surprises, and he knows that.
"Please tell me." I whispered, faking sadness. Edward's eyes softened, but he just shook his head and looked away. I frowned.
"Oh Edward?" I asked sexy, trailing my finger in his leg. His face went pale when I leaned over and kissed his neck. I licked his ear, and whispered, " Please tell me where we're going." I begged, and he gulped.
"Fine...we're going...to somewhere you'll love. Now please sit down, I don't want to crash." Edward said dull, and I pouted. Edward sighed in frustration, and played with the radio. He then settled for the classical channel, and I quietly listened to the music as I set my head on the window. I watched as Edward pulled over. My eyebrows furrowed...i tried to say something, but he put his finger on my lips cutting me off. I just stared at him, and he held up a black bandana. I was even more confused now.
"It's a blindfold." Edward said simply, and I just gave him a "what the hell" look. He chuckled, and made me turn around in my seat. He then blindfolded me, and I sighed.
"Edward, what's all this?" I asked, and he laughed. I heard him start driving again.
"Well...we missed our dinner reservations, so I'm going to skip dinner, and take you to what I had planned afterward. I want it to be a surprise, so I'm blindfolding you." he told me, and I bit my lip nodding. I didn't know if he saw me nod, but I didn't care.
"Alright...just curious, but where were you going to take me for dinner?" I asked, and played with my fingers. I heard Edward's light breathing, and the sounds of classical music.
"I had reservations for Le Bella Itailia." he told me, and I smiled.
"Like on our first date." I whispered, thinking nobody would hear me, but Edward did.
"Yeah...that was the plan. Maybe next time." he said, and I smiled at that. Next time. Did that mean Edward wanted to go out with me again? Sure...I'm still his wife, but it felt good to know that he still wanted me.
"Yeah...maybe." I whispered, and laid my head back on the head rest connected to the seat. I licked my lips, and grabbed the door gently. I felt the car slow down, and the engine shut off. I didn't hear the music anymore, but I did hear Edward get out of the car. I was about to scream at him, telling him to get me, but he was at my side, helping me out of the car in seconds.
"Careful Edward, I'm in heels." I whispered with a light voice. Edward groaned as he closed the car door, and led me off to some direction. I almost tripped, but Edward quickly caught me. I thanked him, and he sighed.
"This isn't working...here, I'll carry you." he said, and before I could protest I was in his arms. I laughed as Edward ran through the forest. I was blindfolded so I couldn't tell how fast he was running, but it seemed pretty fast. I smacked his chest, and he chuckled as he finally stopped, and set me on my feet gently. I heard Edward's heavy breathing, and I bit my lip.
"Can I take my blindfold off now?" I asked impatiently, and Edward chuckled. I felt as he untied the blindfold. It then fell to my feet, and I adjusted my eyes. Once they were settled to the lighting, I gasped. It was so beautiful. Edward had set up a blue plaid blanket on the middle of our meadow. It was surrounded by sparkling lights, and red roses. I felt tears fill my eyes, and my jaw dropped.
"Oh Edward...it's so beautiful...thank you." I whispered, hugging him tightly. He hugged me back with a laughed, and kissed my cheek.
"Your welcome Bella, love. I'm glad you like it." he whispered, and I smiled. I quickly wiped the tears away, and pulled out of the hug. Edward smiled at me, and pulled me towards the blanket. I carefully watched where I was stepping, and sat down on the blanket. I watched as Edward pulled a small basket out of a bush, and I laughed.
He sat down next to me, and opened the basket. He then pulled out various bowls or food, and bottle of wine. I smiled, and he then did something inside the basket, and I heard Debussy play. I smiled even bigger, and Edward smirked. He then grabbed a bowl, and opened the lid. I saw about ten chocolate covered strawberries. I licked my lips...they were one of my favorite foods.
"I'm sorry, I thought we'd have dinner so I didn't bring much to eat besides desserts." he said sweetly, and I nodded.
"It's fine, I understand. Besides...i wasn't that hungry anyways." I told him, and he smirked. I watched as he grabbed two wine glasses out of the basket, and pouring me some red wine. He handed me the glass, and we clinked our glasses together. I took a sip, and felt my lips form a smile on the rim of the glass. I carefully set my glass down on the blanket, trying to balance it, but failed. Edward chuckled, and pulled out a small plate. I looked at him confused, and he just smirked while grabbing my glass, and setting it on the plate. I blushed, and looked at my hands.
"would you like a chocolate covered strawberry?" Edward asked sweetly, and I nodded. I was about to grab one, when Edward smacked my hand away. I frowned, but smiled when grabbed one, and set it by my lips. I slowly took a bite, moaning at the taste. I heard Edward growl as he gulped. I licked my lips slowly, and smiled.
"That's good." I whispered, taking a sip of my wine. Edward took a bite of a strawberry, and sipped his wine as well. I set my glass down, and sighed.
"I don't want to ruin the night, but lets talk." I whispered, and Edward nodded. He took a big gulp of his wine, and looked at me. He stopped the music, and I ran my fingers through my hair.
"Alright...let's talk." he said, and I nodded.
"We can't keep doing this. I can't keep staying at Rose's. I don't have any money to help with the bills or anything, and I feel like a burden. Anthony sleeps on a couch almost every night, and I don't like him being uncomfortable because I can't get over my feelings." I started, and Edward looked at his feet. He looked at me, and opened and closed his mouth many times before speaking.
"You can come home Bella. Nobody is stopping you besides yourself. I understand you can't trust me, but we have to try. You're refusing to let me in, and it's killing me." he said painfully, and I swallowed the lump in my throat. I felt the tears sting in my eyes, but I blinked them away.
"I know Edward, but it's not easy to let somebody in who...hurt you. Edward it kills me to know you betrayed my trust, and slept with somebody else." I whispered, and Edward hung his head in shame.
"I know Bella...but you have to understand I was hurt. I thought you didn't want me, that you were planning on divorcing me anyways." he whispered, and my jaw dropped.
"Then why didn't you talk to me Edward?" I asked, and he shook his head.
"I don't know, honestly I don't. I wasn't thinking." he mumbled.
"You have to stop using that excuse Edward, I know something was going through your mind that day. Weather you were thinking about me, or Lauren...it doesn't matter, but you were thinking of something." I gritted, and he nodded.
"You're right...i was thinking, but not about how it was going to affect my family. All I thought about was myself. Honestly...i didn't think I was going to get caught, so I said, what the hell. Whose going to tell Bella? Bella hasn't talked to Lauren since high school, she'll never know...but now I'm dying inside because I made a choice. I had a choice Bella, and I fucked up. I'll admit, I'm a fuck up. I don't deserve what I have, I should be dying alone without the comfort of a woman, but I can't live without you Bella. Everything in the house reminds me of you so much, I hate going home. I go to work, it just reminds me of when I hurt you deeply. I go home, and it reminds me of when I bought all that stuff with you, or when we brought Anthony home for the first time. I go to my Volvo, and it reminds me of when we drove it to our first date, to dinners, to the hospital...all these places. Everything reminds me of you Bella!" he stressed out, and I felt a tear slip out. Edward looked at me pained, and wiped it away with his thumb. I licked my lips, and took a deep breath.
"Edward...I-I don't know what to do. I want to go home, I do...but I'm afraid that if I do you'll just cheat again." I whispered honestly, and he looked like he was on the urge of tears. He licked his lips, and scratched his nose.
"I know Bella, and I understand, but trust me Bella when I tell you I've learned from my mistakes." he begged, and I shook my head.
"I don't know if I can...i have to think." I whispered, and he nodded.
"I understand...take your time Bella." he whispers, and I smiled. Edward ran his fingers through his hair, and sighed. I watched him grabbed a container, and take off the lid revealing what looked like chocolate cake.
"How about we put our differences aside for a moment, and enjoy some German chocolate cake?" Edward asked, and I nodded with a smile.
"Sure. I love chocolate cake!" I gushed, and Edward laughed. He scooped up a bite, and brought it to my lips. I took the bit, and moaned at the chocolatey goodness. I licked the frosting off my lips, and smirked. Edward took a bite, and chewed slowly.
Edward looked like he was thinking hard, and I looked at him with confusion.
"Penny for your thoughts?" I asked softly, and he looked at me with a blank expression.
"Remember when you left...how you said that I fucked Lauren bent over on our bed?" he asked dull, and I nodded.
"Y-yeah. Why?" I asked, and he licked his lips.
"I only fucked Lauren that one time...and it was in my office. You know that, why would you say I fucked her over our bed?" he asked, and I shrugged, sipping my wine.
"I didn't know you only fucked her that one time until the night at the club. I just figured you fucked her in our bed when I was at work or something. Plus I was hurt, and thought I'd use it to defend myself. Obviously, it didn't help." I mumbled, and Edward cupped my cheek, making me look at him. He has a hurt look in his eyes, and I just looked at him with a blank expression on my face.
"Bella, I never had sex with anybody besides you in our bed, and I never will. That's our bed...I'll only make love to you in our bed." he whispered, and I smiled small, and looked at my hands.
"Thanks." I whispered lamely, and took a bite of cake. I grabbed a strawberry, and took a small bit, and set it back down. I chewed slowly, and looked at Edward. He was concentrating on his food. I bit my lip, and looked at him under my lashes.
"Edward? When I called you a few nights ago, and a girl...Jacky, I think her name was, answered the phone...why was she there? And why didn't you answer?"I whispered, and Edward sighed.
"Bella, I tried telling you that Janet wasn't there to please me, or for me to have sex with...she was a chef." he said, and I was confused.
"A chef?" I asked, and he nodded.
"Yes, Bella. A chef. I know it sounds lame, but I have no idea how to cook, and I missed having a home cooked meal every once in a while. I was constantly eating frozen pizza, microwavable foods, fast food, and it wasn't good for me. So I hired Janet. I was constantly working since you left, so I could easily afford it. When she told me you called, the first thing I thought was that you were going to get the wrong impression...and I was right. I called you, and you didn't give me a chance to explain. After you hung up the phone, I was heart broken. I downed a few shots of Jack, and laid in bed staring at the ceiling. I just wanted to roll over, and rot. I'm nothing without you Bella. Nothing." he said painfully, and I looked at my shoes. I felt so stupid.
"I'm such an idiot." I muttered, and Edward shook his head, and grabbed my chin softly. He looked at me with loving eyes, and I bit my lip.
"No, Bella...you're not. I disobeyed your trust, and I understand if you got the wrong impression." he whispered, and I nodded slowly, staring into his eyes. Before I knew it we were leaning towards each other, and Edward's lips were on mine. They were so soft, and warm. They fit with mine like two puzzle pieces. I moaned as I grabbed the back of his head, and he pulled me onto his lap. I gripped his hair tightly and felt Edward's tongue trace my bottom lip, asking for permission to enter. I gladly accepted, and I felt his tongue massage mine. I moaned, and pulled away for air for a quick second, but was kissing him again quickly. We stayed like that for a few minutes before we finally pulled away, gasping for air. Edward rested his hands on my hips, and his head on my neck. I sighed, and ruffled his hair. He kissed my neck, and I smiled.
"I miss you Bella." he whispered, and looked at the ground behind him. I felt like crying, but refused to.
"I know you do, and I miss you too Edward. Trust me, I do...but I don't want to make the wrong decision." I whispered, and he nodded in my neck.
"I know Bella." he whispered, and smiled. I pulled back, and kissed him sweetly. I rested my forehead on his, and looked him in the eyes. He was smiling, and pulled me closer. He hugged me tightly, and I laughed.
"Whats with all the hugging, and kisses?" I joked, and he...smelled me?
"I want this moment to last forever...so I'm making it remember-able." he whispered, and I smiled. I slid off his lap, and I laid on my back, looking at the stars. Edward moved the plates, and food, and laid close to me. He pulled me into his arms, and we stared at the sky.
"There's the big dipper." I whispered, pointing on the side of me. Edward chuckled, and I smiled.
"Yeah...there it is. Oh, and there's Orion's belt." he whispered, pointing on the other side of me. I smiled, and nodded. We sat there for a few minutes, looking at the sky when I saw something fly across the sky. A shooting star.
"A shoot star. Make a wish." Edward whispered, and I nodded. I closed my eyes, and mentally made my wish. My wish was too have everything go back to the way it was before I found out Edward cheated on me.
"Did you make a wish?" Edward asked, and I nodded. I looked up at him, and he looked at me.
"Did you?" I asked, and he smiled.
"Yeah, I did." he whispered.
"What did you wish for?" I asked, and he laughed.
"If I told you, it wouldn't come true." he said, tapping my nose with his finger. I laughed, and shrugged. I laid my head on Edward's chest, and sighed. I felt my eyes get heavy, but I refused to fall asleep. Edward saw me struggling to stay awake, and smiled at me.
"Go to sleep Bella, I'll see you in the morning." he whispered, and I let my eyes win. I heard Edward speaking, and said something like, "Goodnight love, I love you." then the darkness took over me, and I had a peaceful, dreamless sleep.
Review...sorry i re wrote it cuz i didn't like how i made Jasper sound...sorry. ;p