Author's note:
I dunno if I like this chapter or not. I'm leanin' on not. I've been kind of in a mood, and I'm not really super motivated right now. Thanks for the reviews. Enjoy.
Bella yawned, rubbing her eyes as artificial light flooded into her room from the hallway. Alice was still snuggled under her blankets, but Rosalie was up and dressed, sitting at the end of her bed watching the brunette. "Were you watching me sleep?" Bella teased the blonde. It didn't really bother her, she just wanted to see Rosalie flustered for once.
Rosalie shrugged. "What else would I be doing all night?" she asked bluntly, surprising Bella. "I'm up all night most nights, remember? You're surprisingly entertaining when you sleep by the way. Did you know you talk in your sleep?" Bella blushed, looking away shyly. She wasn't sure what the blonde had heard from her, but right after her weird, sort-of-nightmare, she'd had the longest, raunchiest and detailed sex dream about Rosalie. "Don't worry," Rosalie murmured, closing the door before crossing the distance between their two beds. "It was nothing bad." She pulled up Bella's covers, climbing under them and pulling the brunette closer to her.
Bella felt soft hands wander up her legs, stopping at her pussy. "I think this is what you were asking for…" the blonde purred, rubbing her girlfriend through her shorts.
"Someone might walk in…" Bella moaned, though she started to grind against the blonde's hand.
"No one is going to come in," Rosalie disagreed, shifting her position so she hovered above Bella, supporting her weight with her arms. "Come on, I owe you from last night, remember?"
Bella let out a soft moan, her resolve melting as Rosalie pulled her shirt over her head and began kissing her way down her body. "What about Alice?" Bella asked reluctantly as Rosalie reached the waistband of her shorts, pulling them down a couple inches before kissing the brunette's uncovered skin.
"I told you, she's a deep sleeper. She won't wake up," Rosalie murmured soothingly, pulling down Bella's shorts more, lips following the falling fabric. "Don't worry Bella, just feel..." Bella nodded, relaxing under the blonde's touch and leaning back.
As Rosalie's lips drew nearer and nearer to where Bella wanted her most, the door creaked open, and an awkward "checks?" resounding from the crack. The girls' eyes widened in panic, Rosalie quickly pulling up Bella's shorts as she jumped away from the other girl. Bella struggled into her tank-top in panic. "Relax, it's only me," the voice whispered, still not fully opening the door. "Are you guys decent?" Bella suddenly realized that the intruder was Jazz, and instantly let out a sigh of relief. She didn't think she wanted to take risks like that anymore.
The brunette glanced over at Rosalie, who seemed more irritated than relieved. "What the fuck Jasper?" she growled. The blond man took the sociopath's hostility as a sign to come in, opening the door so he could enter the room, but then closing it enough that his tall body blocked any visibility from the outside.
"I'm sorry Rosalie, jeez," Jazz sighed, scratching the back of his head. "Your sister just scheduled a visit for next week and they wanted someone to tell you. That weird, ginger orderly like jumped at the opportunity... But I guess they thought he was creepy too, so I offered to go, but while I was stalling, the dude kept on glaring at me, and then at your door. It was weird shit. Anyway, I didn't want that guy walking in on anything... Or in your room while you three could be sleeping for that matter..."
Bella smiled at the blond gratefully, appreciating what a good guy he was, before it hit her. "Wait, was the guy's name Edward?" she asked anxiously.
"Uh, yeah," Jazz shrugged, glancing up in thought. "Yeah, actually, I'm pretty sure it was."
Bella shuddered, remembering how the man had looked at her walking back. She wasn't just imagining it. Rosalie looked over at Bella. "Who's Edward?" she asked angrily.
"He's an orderly..." Bella explained quietly. "He was staring at me on the way back to the ward... I don't think it's really a big deal though."
Rosalie scowled, looking past Jazz out of the door, searching for Edward. "If that creep comes near you again, I'll rip his eyes out," she hissed seriously. Bella had a feeling she meant it.
"Don't worry," she soothed the blonde, drawing circles on her leg. "You can't start anything with him, you'll draw suspicion to us…"
Jazz glanced awkwardly away from the two girls, giving them the illusion of space to have their moment. "Well, I'm gonna go now," he announced, slipping out of the door. He poked is head in. "Oh yeah, sister - next week."
Rosalie waved her hand dismissively as the orderly closed the door behind him. "Were you going to tell me?"
"I didn't think it was a big deal," Bella sighed, shaking her head. "I thought I was imagining it. Please don't be mad."
The blonde seemed agitated, her fingers gripping Bella's sheets tightly. "Do you like him?" she growled.
"No!" Bella protested, surprised Rosalie would even ask that. She thought the blonde knew that she was one hundred percent lesbian. "He's just some creep who kept looking at me, Rose, I'm sorry I didn't tell you..."
Rosalie shook her head, walking over to Alice's bed. She shoved the short girl out of her bed. "Come on," she growled as the third roommate got up from the floor.
"What'd you do that for?" Alice complained, rubbing her head, which had hit the floor. Thankfully their beds were low enough that the small girl wasn't hurt.
"I want to see if it's time for breakfast," Rosalie stated commandingly. The pixie-girl nodded, intimidated by the blonde. Rosalie walked out of the room, Alice following. "Are you coming?" she called to Bella as the door started to close.
Bella ran out after the two girls, happy Rosalie wasn't ignoring her completely. Unsurprisingly, Edward was standing right outside their room, leaning against the receptionist desk. He smiled at Bella, causing Rosalie to shoot him the most threatening look that the brunette had ever seen. "Rose," Bella whispered soothingly, catching up to her girlfriend.
"You're right, he is looking at you..." Rosalie practically snarled, walking over to the far end of the ward. Alice trailed a few steps behind the two girls, looking confused and slightly left out. Bella felt bad, realizing that she had kind of received most of the attention from the shorter girl's best friend. She hoped they would all eat breakfast together. "Can we go to the cafeteria?" Rosalie asked a nurse who was standing by the door.
The nurse sighed. "You haven't even gotten your meds yet, dear. We don't leave for another ten minutes." She gave Rosalie a steady look. "Are you anxious about your sister getting here? You seem a little wired up. Go get your meds."
Rosalie scowled. "Yeah, I'll take a bunch of pills when I'm upset, great, I'll have a medically induced state of non-fuckedupness. Fuck that, if I'm here for being crazy then I'd rather just be crazy." Bella hadn't really seen Rosalie act like this in a while. Whenever the blonde had her low points, they were often more melancholy, she'd lay in her bed all day and ignore people, or at its worst, she'd go out of her way to upset people. She hadn't really caused a scene like this since Bella's first day.
The brunette wondered if it was just her insecurity and possessiveness about her girlfriend, or if something else was bothering Rosalie. The blonde didn't seem to be too concerned about her sister's visit. Then again, she'd been a little preoccupied with getting cock-blocked. The more Bella thought about it, the more she realized that she actually knew nothing about her girlfriend's sister, or their relationship. Maybe her sister was one of the reasons Rosalie was such a complicated person?
"Look, Rosalie, take your medication or I'll call someone over and you'll get it intravenously," the nurse warned.
"Sure, IV's fuck you up anyway, don't worry, I'll be so high and doped up on fucking Benzos I'll just sit there and not bother anyone. You could just leave a needle in my veins and get an IV drip, then you'd never have to worry about me, I'd be a zombie forever." Bella tried to put a hand on the blonde's shoulder to calm her down, but she pushed her hand away, shooting a sharp glare at Bella. "I bet you'd like that too," she snapped at the brunette. "I'd be all fucked up and I wouldn't be able to do anything about you doing whatever you want."
Bella prayed that the nurse wouldn't care enough to pay attention to the blonde's outburst; her jealousy and anger clear in her words and voice. "Is there a problem over here?" a low male voice asked from behind Bella. Edward stood a few feet behind the two girls and the nurse, beside Alice.
"Yeah, you're a fucking pedophile," Rosalie snapped, lunging at Edward and shoving him hard. Despite her soft female form, Bella realized how strong the blonde was as the male orderly slammed against the wall, letting out a loud grunt of pain. Several other orderlies, including Jazz who walked halfheartedly behind the others, rushed over, but not before Rosalie had jumped on the bronze-haired man and began wailing on him, hitting him with punch after punch until blood began to run down his chin. He was too shocked, or maybe too weak to fight back. It three people to pull Rosalie off of the orderly, finally ending her rampage, and dragging her off into the isolation room.
Bella gazed down at the bloodied man with a mixture of pity and hate. He hadn't really done anything to deserve the beating he'd had, but he'd done enough to upset the blonde and cause her to snap. She wasn't sure what would happen to Rosalie now, she just hoped she wouldn't get into trouble.
"Okay, everyone, back to your rooms," Esme commanded, walking over in a rush to tend to the hurt employee. Bella hadn't noticed, but almost half the ward had stepped into the hallway to watch her girlfriend snap. She felt guilty for feeling so smug as she saw the look of jealousy on Tanya and Victoria's faces, but she couldn't help it. She flipped them off as she walked back to her room with Alice.
"Damn," the shorter girl commented with wide eyes once they were inside. "What the fuck was that?"
Bella sighed, sitting on Rosalie's bed instead of her own. She felt more comfortable in it, happier. "Long story." Alice stared at her expectantly, and finally Bella groaned. "Okay, well, I don't know if you've noticed, but Rosalie and I are a little more than friends," Bella started, causing Alice to snort. "What?" she asked the shorter girl defensively, tired of everyone doubting her relationship with Rosalie.
"No shit," Alice laughed. "I'm sorry, continue."
Bella smiled, relieved by the pixie-girl's words. "Well, anyway, that weird orderly kept looking at me. Rosalie didn't like it, but I told her not to worry about it. She thinks I like him and that's why I didn't tell her I guess…" Bella finished, looking down at her feet.
Alice sighed. "Yeah, Rosalie's a pretty controlling person, even with people she has no interest in. It's probably a sociopath thing... The fact that she really likes you, and believe me, I can see it, probably makes her possessiveness and stuff way worse with you..."
"What's going to happen to her?" Bella whispered fearfully, worried about her girlfriend.
"Nothing that bad..." Alice assured her with a sad smile. "She'll probably get a shot, and then she'll just be kinda," she paused, thinking of the word. "High all day."
"She won't get into trouble?" Bella asked, relieved that nothing bad would happen to Rosalie.
"If they punished us for being crazy here, I think we'd have a problem," Alice explained logically, smiling. "Besides, she's pretty sensitive about certain men being near her. It was his fault for approaching her like that. He knew what he was doing."
Bella nodded, reassured by Alice's words. "When do you think she'll be back?"
"Hopefully by lunch. She's probably passed out right now..." Alice explained, shrugging. "I've gotten the shot before, it hurts for a second, but then you're just really, really sleepy. Rosalie has had it pretty frequently, so it shouldn't really bother her." She paused. "Well, she really started to chill out when you got here, but I guess she's been bottling stuff up."
The brunette sighed, feeling anxious about Rosalie, but not wanting to bother her friend with anymore questions. "So, how was your... Slumber?" she asked awkwardly, ready to punch herself in the kidney for being such a weirdo.
Alice snickered. "That was a pretty lame attempt at changing the subject, Bella," she joked, getting up. "My sleep was fine. Was there a reason it shouldn't have been?" Bella blushed furiously, looking down at her feet. "Holy shit, I was kidding!" Alice gasped, making a grossed-out face. "You only made out though right?" The brunette looked away as Alice burst into a fit of "ewwww"s.
"We should get our meds and tell the nurses to unlock the door so I can get myself some fuckin' cocoa puffs," Alice suggested, standing at the door to wait for Bella.
The brunette nodded, following her roommate to the nurse's station. She looked up and saw Rosalie there with a dazed expression on her face. "Bella," she slurred, waking over to the brunette. Esme stood watching the two girls suspiciously, but allowed the blonde to walk away from her. "I'm laying down," Rosalie muttered, glancing behind her at Esme. "Nobody wake me," she warned, heading to their room. Bella was unsure if she should follow the girl, but decided not to. She figured Rosalie would probably want to be alone to sleep.
The two girls walked up to the counter, tounged their meds and made their way to the main entrance of the ward. "Man, another day without all three of us in the cafeteria," Alice grumbled as they walked down the halls of the institution.
"Well, I'm stuck going to every meal now, so you won't be missing me," Bella replied dryly. "I get discharged in five months," she sighed, looking down. "I know that seems like a long time from now... But I don't want to leave. I mean - I do. But I don't."
"That's understandable," Alice commented with a shrug. "Have you told Rosalie?"
"Not yet." Bella felt even guiltier for telling Alice before her girlfriend, but she had to talk to someone and she was worried about how the blonde would react. "I feel like Rose and I could definitely go a lot longer than five months... I know that seems silly after three weeks, but honestly? I really like her." Bella paused with a sad, worried sigh. "And I'm afraid if I tell her, she'll give up on being with me."
"She'll find out eventually," Alice said sternly. "It'll be way worse. As seen earlier, she doesn't like secrets. You need to tell her, and trust that she won't go all batshit and freak out again."
"That's kind of hard to trust right now…" Bella complained. She didn't think Rosalie was crazy by any means, but she wouldn't risk triggering that reaction again. Then again, it seemed very likely she'd have a worse reaction if she waited. "What should I do?" she groaned, walking through the glass doors of the cafeteria.
"Well," the pixie-girl started, walking towards her usual table. "Rosalie's sister is fucking awesome, everyone loves her. So if she shows up next week, Rosalie will be in a way better mood. Tell her then."
Bella nodded, feeling more confident about what she would do. She was also pretty excited to see and possibly meet her girlfriend's sister. "What's Rose's sister like?" she asked Alice.
The shorter girl grinned. "She's a really good person, kind of the opposite of Rosalie." She paused, noticing Bella's disapproving glare. "Well, I mean…Just in general personality wise. She's not like Rosalie at all."
"What's her name?" the brunette asked curiously.
"Violet," Alice answered with a grin. "Their mom had a thing for flowers I guess."
Bella laughed, nodding in agreement as they got up from the table to get their breakfast. The rest of breakfast was filled with joking and light conversation, something Bella had missed during her weeks of being a recluse in her room. She still wished Rosalie was there, and she knew Alice was thinking the same thing.
After breakfast the girls were allowed an hour of free time either in their room or in the group room. Bella opted to go to her room for a nap, while Alice practically darted into the large room, hoping to get to the remote first. The brunette creaked open the door slowly, hoping she wouldn't wake the other girl.
Rosalie glanced sleepily up at her. "Bella?" she mumbled, looking extremely out of character. She always seemed kind of tired, but Bella had never seen her right after she had just woken up. Unlike her usual guarded and sexy self, Rosalie laid with her face against her pillow with eyes struggling to stay open. She looked kind of… Cuddly. "Come here," she purred, scooting over on her tiny bed so Bella could lay with her.
The brunette did as she was told, laying down facing Rosalie. The blonde pulled her in for a lazy, half-asleep kiss before sighing. "I know you can't stay like this for too long, but stay here for a little bit okay? I like being next to you." Her lips grazed Bella's ear before continuing. "When we get out of here, I'm going to get us a nice, comfortable bed, and we're never going to get out of it…" she whispered sleepily, though still maintaining a seductive tone as well.
"You think we'll be together until we get out of here?" Bella asked, surprised by the blonde's words. She'd hoped they'd be together for a long time, but Rosalie didn't really seem like the type who jumped into long-term relationships. Or any relationship for that matter.
"Bella, I don't love you..." Rosalie murmured, causing Bella's heart to tremble. True, she wasn't in love with Rosalie, and she knew that Rosalie wasn't in love with her, but strangely it hurt to hear. "But I know someday I will. I've never really loved anyone before, it's not in my nature…" she whispered, trailing off. Bella knew Rosalie thought she was a monster, but she'd always assumed the other girl was proud of it. Now she spoke of it sadly, wistfully.
"Someday I'll love you too," Bella murmured in response, pressing her body close to Rosalie's in a tight embrace. "Someday we'll get out of here together," she promised as Rosalie's eyes closed and her breathing became soft and even.
Author's note (because if you didn't notice, I always have two in here):
Does anyone actually read these? Haha.
Nahtho, anyway, I'ma just answer a few questions from my reviews that were kinda left unanswered…
plant Bella consumed is a poison that makes you delirious and hallucinate – you see people that aren't there and shtuff like that. I have tried it as a drug, it is not a fun substance as it basically makes you schizophrenic. Bella's not really tripping anymore, it's just influenced her thoughts unconsciously – hence her doodling and dreams being about it.
2. Someone asked if Bella took the drug. Not really sure what that means, but no, Bella's not really a pill-popper. She saved the adderall because it's more effective in a suicide attempt – but she's not really considering it anymore.
3. Most asked question: "Update soon?" – Answer: "Working on it."