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Chapter 14

After the scene at the ice cream parlor Kitty and Kurt had mostly spend their days in the mansion. Some days in the pool, some days cuddled up in the rec room with some movies and some days just laying in his room, talking.

A lot of the time they spent together was shared with the newly formed couple Rogue and Remy. Kitty hadn't let Rogue hear the end of it since she had finally given in to the smooth talking Cajun. But one night in their room, her teasing had been cut short by Rogues quick reply. "Ya and when are ya'll gonna give in ta ma brotha?"

Kitty blinked in surprise and tilted her head, not quite comprehending. "What do you mean?" Rogue rolled her eyes and tossed a pillow at the clueless girl. "Puh-lease. You two have been makin goo-goo eyes at each otha for months. Amanda practically broke up with him cause of you."

Kitty sat up straight, her back rigid and her mouth set in an angry scowl. "That's not true!" Rogue searched her face and sighed. "Then why do ya think they broke up?" Kitty shifted uncomfortably. "Kurt already told me, they were unhappy. And she thinks he likes someone anyway." She looked at the floor, her body limp and her fingers dejectedly playing with her bed spread.

"So it doesn't really matter anyway, if he likes someone else I am not gonna ruin our friendship by telling him i like him." Rogue looked almost bored as she leaned back against her pillows. "He spends all his time with you Kitty. If he liked someone else don't ya think he would have told you?" Kitty shrugged and lay on her back. "I don't know Rouge."

The southern girl sighed and shook her head at her oblivious room mate. "Maybeh you should talk ta him." Kitty laughed tossing the other girls pillow back. "I wouldn't even know what to say!"

Rogue shrugged "You'd think of somethin. Are ya sleepin here tonight?" Kitty shrugged and rolled over "Ya." Rogue mumbled and Kitty could faintly make out a 'good night' before the two girls drifted off to sleep.

X

Kitty glanced up from her spot on Kurt's bed. He was hanging from the chandelier, a book in his hands and she smiled. She took this chance, while he wasn't paying attention, to watch him. Her eyes scanning the lean lines of his body, his shirt was laying on the floor and her eyes observed every line and dip in his chest and muscles. She bit her lip and watched his agile tail clench on the chandelier.

Her eyes went to his face and in it she could see his concentration, his lips quirking up when he read something funny and his eyes never leaving the page. She sighed lightly and glanced down at the screen where she had been composing a message to her mother. She tried to concentrate on the letters and words flowing across the screen but her eyes were constantly drawn back to Kurt.

Finally with her message finished, her fingers typed out the last line and she hit send before she could change her mind. Mom. How do you know when your in love? She closed her eyes and tried to calm her needed to leave the room. She couldn't think with his scent in her nose and his golden eyes glancing at her every once in a while.

She closed her lap top lid and stood to leave. Kurt was startled by the sudden movement and dropped down to the ground just in front of her. "Keety? Vhere are you going?" Kitty couldn't look at him, her body lightly trembling. "Just wanted to go for a walk Kurt, no biggie." Kurt smiled brightly. "Vell vhy don't I go vith you?" Kitty shook her head slowly. "Nah, I just want a little alone time, Kay? I'll come find you at dinner."

X

Kurt nodded slowly "Ja.. Okay." He stepped aside and watched her exit the room, his golden eyes lit with a hint of worry and sadness. He dropped on to his back on his bed and glared at the ceiling. He knew Amanda would be scolding him. They had broken up so he could tell Kitty he loved her. But it just never seemed the right time.

She was finally getting better after the whole Lance incident and the last thing he wanted to do was ruin the friendship they had with telling her those three little words.

I Love You. Those words could build his world up to the best place it's ever been. Or they could tear it down, he could lose his best friend and his happiness. He closed his eyes and felt like breaking something. Why was this so hard?

He let out a long low breath and opened his eyes. He had to tell her. He couldn't live like this, never knowing how it would go. Maybe she would reject him. But what if she didn't? What if... What if she said she loved him too?

Kurt decided that he would tell her. Next chance he got. And if she rejected him? Well he would figure that out later.

X

Kitty walked slowly through the grounds of the mansion. She stopped and settled beneath a large oak. She had brought her lap top with her and opened it up, setting it on her lap. It had been at least an hour since she had messaged her mother and she was glad to see her mother had answered. She opened it up and bit her lip, wanting to see her mothers advice.

Katharine

I am glad to hear that things are going well. I do hope you are enjoying your summer vacation. I also love to hear when you tell me you are gaining more and more control over your powers. It makes me proud. What I am worried about is your question. I worry that you are thinking about mine and your father's recent divorce and I just want you to know hunny that your father and I still love each other. Just not how we use to. And mostly I want you to know that we both still love you. Now to answer your question, there is no specific way to know you are in love. It's many little things pulled together. I want you to ask yourself this. Could you live without this person? That is where you should start. Hopefully this has helped you, and I want you to tell me everything about this boy you might be in love with!

I will talk to you again soon. I love you.

Mom.

Kitty read the message through two more times before slowly lowering the lid on her computer and thinking through the question her mother posed. She had no worries about her parents loving her. They had thoroughly explained that it was nothing she had done, and there was nothing she could do. That they had fallen out of love with each other but would always love her.

She leaned her head back against the trunk and watched the sun begin to lower in the sky. "Could I live without Kurt?" Kitty didn't even have to think about whether she could. Her mind repelled the thought and she knew if she seriously started thinking about her life without Kurt in it she would begin to hyper ventilate.

He had done so much for her, been so much to her lately that she could not even imagine them not being friends let alone him being completely gone. She felt tears flood her eyes and was astonished at the strength her feelings possessed. Maybe this wasn't her being definitely in love but if this wasn't telling her to give it a chance she didn't know what it was.

She stood up and made her way quickly back to the mansion, resolving herself to have a chat with Kurt about her new revelation after dinner.

Sorry these chapters have been taking so long! So much is going on and I might have a small case of writers block. But do not fear I am working through it :p and I'll continue posting chapters at least every couple of days. In good news, my sister had a baby today ^.^ Her third son and he's just utterly adorable! So till next time R+R Leave me some love ;)