Screams... Cries... Heartbreak... Despair... That's all you need to know, and I guarantee that you have at least met ONE person with this kind of light. And do you know where they end up? Jail you might think, since they're obviously criminals right? Or, the Insane Asylum, as they'll probably kill themselves. But... no. You're all wrong. The place that people like this... like me... will end up in something no human could withstand... what none would want... in the person's mind.

Ouran High Host Club

I collapsed onto the couch Hikaru and I had been hosting on with a sigh, relieved that all the girls had gone. It had been a tough time today. Each of us had at least fifty customers per setting. And if that wasn't bad enough, it felt as though Hikaru was still holding me in a lover's embrace. I shiver in disgust. Though I loved my brother, I still didn't like the way we had to act. I mean, sure, we act in sync and finish each other's sentences… but… we only like each other like brothers. And thank God for that! I mean, no one would like they're sibling like that!... Unless they were supposed to marry… or were their first kiss… Oh God! Evil images of my brother and I! Ew! Ew! Ew! Ew!

"KAORU!"

"EW!" I blinked. Did I just say that out loud? I turn around and see, thankfully, that it wasn't Hikaru, but Tamaki. And by the look on his face-eyes filling with tears and lip trembling-I had said it out loud. "Uh… sorry. Didn't catch that King. What were you saying?" I asked, earning a smile… honestly, he's so easy to please.

"I have good news!" he exclaimed excitedly. When doesn't he? "We're going on a cruise!"

I stared at him for a moment, face blank. "And… how is this exciting?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. We had all gone on a cruise millions of times. I mean, doesn't every rich person?

Tamaki looked a bit crest-fallen for a second, and then was instantly happy again. "Because my daughter is coming this time!" he exclaimed, jumping for joy.

I rolled my eyes. "Right. That makes all the difference my King." I said sarcastically, not at all surprised when he didn't notice the sarcasm. It was then I realized something. "Ano… where's everyone else?" I asked.

Tamaki was walking to the main doors. "Oh, I let them leave early so that they could go pack for the cruise. It's tomorrow after all!" he called, before leaving the room, and in turn, leaving me alone.

I stood there for a moment, shock welling up inside me. Hikaru had forgotten to tell me, to get me up and go home together. I slowly sat on the couch and sighed. Well… this wasn't new as of late. Hikaru had been becoming… distant since he had gotten that crush-he won't tell me on who, but I'm sure it's on that new foreign boy exchange student from England-on someone. We had begun to talk less now… laugh together less. It hurt. Sure, everyone else talked to me sometimes but… not much, unless in the Host Club. I lean my head back and look up at the ceiling, heart feeling heavy and burdened. Was I… was I being left in the dust of everyone? Was I becoming a… pumpkin?

I closed my eyes as tears tried to come. Oh God I hope not. If I was, I would have no one to stand by me this time, no one to share the desolation. My chest clenched in misery as I imagined it happening. Even though I tried to stop it, I couldn't. The image of being alone was too powerful.

Suddenly, I remembered the vague dream I had been dreaming since… five years ago. It had started on our twelfth birthday… the day I found out that our parents… weren't really our parents. Then that dream… that horrid, horrid dream had started. Not ON our birthday, but a few days later. The last day of February. God… that dream… on the first night I had it, I had woken up screaming, eyes still closed, heart pounding. Hikaru had woken up and tried to quiet me, then comfort me gently, letting me cry on his shoulder. When I had been done, he had asked what was wrong, but I couldn't form it into words. That dream had been too vague. To hard to decipher.

Since then, I've had it every night on the last night of a month.

My eyes snapped open. I stood, and then wiped my eyes, knowing there would be tears. Well… at least it wouldn't come for a while… I had to try to enjoy life until then.

Tenshi's Room

School… I don't want to talk about it. Not worth my time is what it is. sigh oh well. I sit on my bed, reading my manga Ouran High Host Club, and chewing my dinner, sourdough bread. Underneath me, I can feel the sheets cling and plead for me to curl under them, and sleep… and how I want to, need to.

Setting down my book, I finish my bread, and then begin the ritual of getting ready. First comes off the jacket; the shirt; the pants; the bra. I choose my large GIR T-shirt with GIR in his disguise and out of it. I Slip it on and relish in the cool material sliding against my skin. I tie up my hair, and then slip under the thin sheets. They cling to me, thankful for me coming back. I smile softly, and close my eyes, sending them a silent message to relax.

As they do, I feel sweet sleep begin to pull me down. I'm sure that I will have decent dreams tonight… pleasant ones. After all, tomorrow is not the last day of the month.