Bold italics:Shizuo

Plain italics:Izaya

It had been a week since Izaya had unwillingly moved into Shizuo's apartment and Shinra had given them the idea of putting their thoughts on laptops. Both of them found it odd but figured it'd be a good way to vent without actually having to speak, i mean... Noone's going to read them so why not?

what the hell...? Ever since Shinra did that surgury on Izaya's shoulder, he's been acting weird. It's like Izaya's a whole different person... He's become more... I don't know... Loveable... Nobody still hasn't told me why or how he got those injuries but i'm not really that intrested in it... If Izaya doesn't want to tell me then i won't push him into it... But... Still... I wouldn't even put those types of injuries on the flea... I couldn't... I l

He quickly shut the laptop as he heard a knock on his door. The last on louder than the rest as a clash of thunder echoed throughout the city. "you don't have to knock flea..." he said loud enough for him to hear. The door opened slightly but Izaya didn't step through. "hey... Izaya?" he got up and opened the door completely. "h-hey! What's wrong?" he asked, wiping away a tear as it fell down Izaya's lovely, perfectly toned- shizuo mentally smacked himself. "dammit... You shouldn't be thinking that about your worst enemy! but, you have gotten some pretty good glances! Like yesterday, with the shower!" Shizuo really did smack himself that time. Izaya looked up at him. "don't worry about it... What is it that's bothering you?" Izaya's only answer was wrapping his arms around Shizuo's chest tightly. He flinched when Shizuo slowly wrapped his arms around him and rubbed his head lightly.

"what's wrong for the last time...?" he mumbled into the top of his head, secretetly breathing in Izaya's scent. "... It's the... The storm... And my shoulder..." he looked at Izaya with a confused look. "you're scared of thunder storms!" he held in a laugh. "it's not fucking funny, asshole!" he squeezed Izaya playfully.

"c'mon Izaya i was joking..." he wondered why Izaya was so defensive about it but was inturrupted by a clash of thunder and Izaya hugging him closer, burrying his face in shizuo's chest. "is it just the thunder...?" he sighed as Izaya nodded and picked him up bridal style, walking over to the bed and carefully set him down. He smiled lightly when Izaya curled in a ball. "god... How much more pathetic can he get...? He's so adora-" he mentally slapped himself again. "get it out of your head! You don't have amny feelings other than hatred!" he yelled in his head as he layed next to the informant.

"then why am i in the same bed as him?" he thought to himself as he wrapped an arm around Izaya's waist. "because you're comforting him that's why!" he screamed at himself. He closed his eyes and nuzzled the back of the ravens neck, feeling him tense a bit. "i'm gonna break your neck... Believe me if i was i would've already done it..." he mumbled. Izaya turned around and looked at Shizuo.

"it's not the thunder... It's the memories the thunder gives me..." he said quietly. Shizuo blinked and rose an eyebrow. "what?" Izaya flinched at a clash of thunder and Shizuo lightly rubbed the back of his head."they're just memories right? Nothing to be scared of..." Izaya nodded. "i know... But they haunt me... If it wasn't for my sisters i would have never let it happen..." he sat up as the rain stopped.

"you won't tell me will you?" he looked at Shizuo and shook his head. "maybe... When i'm ready to tell someone about my past..." Shizuo grabbed his arm as he got up off the bed. "you've told Shinra but you won't tell me?" he sighed and let go as Izaya nodded. "you would just laugh. Shinra won't..." he stared at Izaya in shock and anger as he left the room.

"if that's the way he thinks i'll react, then i'll ask Shinra." he growled as he walked outside and stomped towards Shinra and Celty's apartment.

12:16 am

I think i made shizu-chan mad... But i was right. Even with the fact that it's me he'd still try to comfort someone... Not that it worked... It is HIM after all. But i think he has feellings other than hate for me... It's almost cute. If i wasn't here because of my shoulder, i would've already left by now. But since Shinra apparently thinks that i'll screw it up even worse if i work just a little bit. I will admit there have been some close calls just living here like when Shizu-chan tried to stab me with a fork but thankfully, Celty arrived just in time... Shizu-chan has become more relaxed these past few days i've noticed... It's strange.

12:53 am

Shizu-can's been gone for a bit so i think i'll do a little looking around. Although the storm has'nt completely stopped... Well... I have a right to look around! I've been here a whole week and i havn't found every secret of this place. I mean i'm going to be here a month so why not?

Izaya sighed quietly and got up from his perch on the couch and walked into the kitchen to get something to eat before going into the forbidden area. He thought about closing the small laptop but figured he'd be done before anyone got a chance to look in it.

"i wonder what secrets Shizu-chan has in his room~?" he walked in and frowned. "he should clean up more. I don't know how i didn't notice it when i was in here..." he looked around and spotted what he was looking for.

"at least it was somewhat hidden... Shizu-chan was probably expecting me to look for it..." he sat on the edge of the bed and opened Shizuo's laptop. "oh. So he didn't finish his last entry!" he happily read the entry before it was cut short. "that must've been when i walked in..." he mumbled as he scrolled up and read more of Shizuo's entries.

I don't know how that flea manages to survive everything. He doesn't get injured when somthing i throw at him actually hits him, he doesn't get sick, and he certainly doesn't get urges. I do too! And i still don't get why he taunts and teases me like he does. Because it's fun my dear Shizu-chan! Although i do wonder if he really does love humans or if it's just some lie he tells himself... That's just cruel... Of course i do!

"hrm... How do i manage to survive it all?" Izaya asked himself. He closed the laptop and walked out of the room, satisfied with what he found and read. "mmm... All that snooping made me hungry again..." he mumbled with his arms behind his head, and started humming a small tune he learned as a child with his sisters.

He walked into the kitchen and snapped his fingers as he remembered the words to the tune and chuckled to himself. "how could i have forgotten something like that?" he mumbled as he opened the fridge. He grimaced at the strawberry milk and opted for regular, singing the small song to himself.

One bright day in the middle of the night, two dead boys got up to fight. Back to back they fought each other, drew their swords and shot each other. The deaf policeman heard the noise, pulled his gun out, and beat the boys. If you don't believe this story be true, ask the blind man, he saw it too.

"what the hell kind of song is that?" Izaya almost dropped his glass when he heard Shizuo and glared at him when he laughed. "that wasn't nice Shizu-chan! I could've dropped this!" he hissed. Shizuo chuckled and leaned against the counter. "i'm sorry but it was so funny! But really... Where did you get that song from?" Izaya crossed his arms and looked at Shizuo.

"it's a song i tought my sisters for oxymorons... " he sighed and downed the glass of milk, cleaned it and put it back up. "if it gets stuck in my head, im murdering you..." Shizuo mumbled, walking into the living room and noticed Izaya's laptop was still open. He leaned back to make sure Izaya wasn't looking and sat down in front of it to read a couple enties.

1:29 am

I miss my apartment! I miss making Namie-san do unnecessary work and i miss watching my beloved humans! But with my shoulder still slighly numb from the surgury, i can't "move around because it will move the stitches out of place." myeh stupid Shinra! I want to see my humans! Not even Shizu-chan is letting me out! Brute. I would just be gone for a few minutes... Not even enough time to start a fight and get out of it safely! Jerks...

1:33 am

Shizu-chan's asleep so i'm going to go out for a few... Chiao!

1:56 am

Ahh... That was refreshing! I got to see all my favorite humans and i even saw Dotachin and togusa! Erika and Walker were passed out in the back seat though... At least i think they were. I think Shizu-chan was having a dream about me when i got in, because he was moaning my name. It was severly creepy.

Shizuo hid his blush at Izaya knowing about his dream as said person walked in and sat next to him, eating some sushi. "you mind?" Izaya asked, holding up the remote. He shook his head and leaned back as Izaya flipped the tv over to the news.

"hey Izaya..." he looked over at the blonde. "yes Shizu-chan?" he stretched and crossed his arms before looking at the raven.

"what would you do if i said that i loved you?" he kept a strait face as much as he could while Izaya stared at him like he crazy, his face turning slightly pink. "well... I guess... I would laugh and say nice joke... Why?" Shizuo turned, looking at the tv to hide the hurt in his eyes. "no reason... It just randomly popped in my head so i figured i'd ask..." he mumbled. Izaya shrugged and turned his attention back to the tv.

"it wouldn't be a joke though..." Shizuo said silently.

Wow... That was alot less depressing in my head... But anyway! The song Izaya was singing i got from my friend A-chan and it's not really a song more as a poem... And it wasn't really for oxymorons... I don't even know if that's the word i'm thankin of... But as per the usual, i still want sum nummy reviews...! I know... I'm greedy... But i get hungwy alot... Chaio!