Summary: Alice and Jasper have taken Emmett and Edward to Alaska on a hunting trip. Bella hasn't gone to the Cullen house in a few days, but suddenly, she urgently needs to speak to one of them. But what about? (Includes mature themes! warning!)

This is a short story, probably around 10-15 chapters depending on how fast or slow the story goes, etc. It includes dark theme's so please don't read unless you can handle this...

READ: I'd like to clear it up; Edward and Bella are together, but this story is Carlisle/Bella because it's a father/daughter bonding story. Sorry for the confusion. Further chapters will show the bonding.

Bella's POV

The time had come to speak with Carlisle. It was the perfect day. The clouds were high in the sky, no sun in sight, so the Cullen kids were chilling in the garden playing a ball game Emmett seemed eager to carry out. I'd told Edward multiple times already that I was alright and that I didn't want him reading Carlisle's mind whilst I was talking to him, and he'd eventually agreed, told me he loved me, and then trotted out to the garden to join in on the game. Esme was probably planting some more of her flowers and taking care of her garden.

I took a deep breath before slowly climbing up the large, spiral staircase. Once on the top, I quickly marched towards Carlisle's office – knowing that if I spent anymore time thinking I'd have run away.

"Come in, Bella." Carlisle called, obviously hearing me hovering outside of the door.

I took another deep breath and pushed the heavy door open, standing awkwardly in the doorway.

Carlisle sat at his desk, his head deep in a huge medical journal. When the door opened, he closed the book and gestured to the chair in front of his desk. "What can I help you with, sweetie?" He smiled encouragingly.

I lowered myself into the chair and looked down at my hands and was about to begin when he stopped me.

His pale, cold finger came towards me and he lifted my chin up so I was looking at him. "None of that, Bella. You can trust me, eyes up here please."

I nodded and tried to start again. "I…I haven't been too honest with how I've been feeling lately…"

He didn't look as surprised as I thought he might. He just titled his head to the side and leaned on his hand. "No?"

I shook my head. "No. I've just been trying to convince myself – and the rest of you – that I'm fine but in truth…I'm not."

A slight crease appeared between his perfect eyebrows. "How so, dear?"

"I feel really hopeless…" I flickered my eyes down to my joint hands but quickly looked back up. "I feel really weak, lonely, and really sad and I just don't want to be here…"

He was intrigued now. He pulled his chair as close as the desk between us would allow. "How long have you been feeling these emotions, Bella?"

I ran my tongue over my lips, surprised that they'd suddenly become dry. "It started in Phoenix…" I mumbled so quietly that it was barely audible but I knew Carlisle had understood me.

"I told mom and she listened and we were going to get it sorted out…but then I started taking care of her a lot more and it distracted me for a while. I was happy, content and fine when I was around people, but when I was alone…I was a mess. I just cried and cried and wanted to just die right there on my bed. I knew it was selfish of me, especially when I didn't know what was wrong. Then I came to Forks."

I brushed the tears from my eyes, refusing to look up at Carlisle's expression. "The first few days were like living torture. I didn't even want to move, but you know, I guess I made it through."

"Then I met you guys." I smiled softly. "Whenever I was with any of you I just felt so special and loved and just really happy. Finally I was feeling so great and content in myself. I was starting to get confidence and I was really seeing the beauty in life…but now…"

"The feelings are flooding back after what Jacob did to you," Carlisle murmured softly. He came around the side of his desk and crouched down in front of me. He took my shaking hands in one of his and with the other, wiped my tears away. "Don't cry sweetheart. I'm a doctor, remember? And you came to me for helps; that's such a brave and successful thing to do."

"I don't know what to do, Carlisle." I whispered and was instantly pulled into his arms. I couldn't contain the tears anymore; they came rolling down faster than they ever had before. "I don't know how much longer I can hold on!" I sobbed.

"Shh, shh." He murmured lovingly. "Daddy's here baby girl, I'm going to make it all okay. We need to get to the bottom of this. Do you know why and when these emotions started?" He sat me back in the chair and pulled his around so he was next to me.

"About 6 months before I moved to Forks," I said thoughtfully. "I don't know how they started…they just sort of occurred but I did get bullied back in Phoenix and I started to lose my confidence around that time…" I shrugged helplessly.

"What did these bullies do to you, Bella?" I knew Carlisle didn't want to ask the question, but he had too. If we wanted to figure it out then we needed too.

I took a little bit more time answering him this time. "They told me I was worthless, that nobody loved me and never would and that I was liar. About what I'm still unsure about." I shrugged as if it didn't hurt. "They'd corner me in the corridors when no one was around and they'd sometimes…hit me. I came home with black eyes, bruises and scrapes but I was able to say that it was just because I was clumsy…it went on for so long and one day I begged for them to kill me." I murmured, not stopping the tears. "They had a knife and they were just going to scratch me, so I begged them to dig harder, to let me bleed to death. I wanted to die. They didn't do it, they ran off. I stumbled home; hoping something or someone would take advantage of my injured state and kill me."

I stared down at my feet and took in every bit of detail I could. I was so scared to see Carlisle's reaction. He would be so mad that I wanted to die.

"Bella," I looked up at him. ", I think this is where your emotions developed. The bullies put you through such a hard time that you could not bear it anymore and decided you wanted out. All you saw were the bullies and they were taking over your life. There was no escape, but death. You hated them so much for what they did, and you couldn't bear the mental torture. The only reason you're here today is because you love the people in your life so much that you couldn't ever leave them and hurt them…Am I correct?"

I sat there in silence for a few moments, taking everything in. I nodded. "Yeah…I feel trapped in a world full of pain. I just want out…"

He pulled me into his lap and we sat there for about 15 minutes – both of us thinking over the words that had just been exchanged. He rocked us from side to side, humming the song I'd heard the other day with Rose.

"Rose and Alice will help, Bella." He began, stroking my hair. "We need to build your confidence back up. We can't change the past, but we can change the future. They can both make you more confident and convince you that you are worth fighting for and that someday you are going to be happy. Bella, our family would never abandon you or hurt you. It pains us all to see you this way, but I vow with all my heart that as a father I will do everything I possibly can to make you happy and content in yourself."

I nodded, doubting slightly the plan. I didn't think anyone could ever make me feel completely happy again. It just wasn't going to work. I didn't tell Carlisle that of course. "I love you daddy." I sobbed.

"I love you too baby girl," He murmured against my hair. "And I will always protect you. I promise."

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