CH 6: I See You …

Kurt rolled over in his sleep expecting to feel the warmth of Blaine, when he didn't he opened his eyes blurrily. He slid onto his elbow to look at the window smiling slightly as he saw a half dressed Blaine standing in front of the window the light from the setting sun hitting his body just right so it shown. Blaine looked down at him smiling and leaned down for a kiss. The kiss was sweet and quick.

"Hey you, I was hoping you would wake up before I had to escape. I love you, but I have to go and you need a shower. I heard your dad get home about fifteen minutes ago."

Kurt pouted, "I wish you didn't have to go."

"I know,' Blaine whispered pressing his lips to Kurt's forehead, 'but I have to love. I will see you tomorrow I love you."

With that Blaine opened the window and scaled the tree outside it, all before Kurt could answer. Kurt got up to stand by the window and watched Blaine run to the car and start it up to leave. As Blaine pulled away from the curb, Kurt started to turn away from the window, but as he turned a flash of black across the street caught his eye against the snow. He turned quickly and stared across the street, standing there in black jeans, and a black leather jacket with a deep blue shirt on stood a figure. The figure waved briefly, before turning and walking down the street before vanishing around the corner. Kurt stumbled back from the window eyes wide, that had to be Jeremy there was no one else that it could be. He heard his phone go off on the desk across the room. He turned his head and walked toward the phone, when he saw the text he went even paler.

Looking good gorgeous, I know you saw me. –J

The phone dropped from his hand as he walked to the bathroom in a daze. He turned on the shower and turned on the water. He stepped into the shower and began washing himself slowly.

Why does he show up now? Kurt asked himself. He always shows up on the moments that I am happiest. It is like he knows that I am finally happy again and then he has to be my own little personal cloud of disappointment.

Kurt finished his shower and got out. He stood in front of the mirror examining his arm, and running his fingers gently over the cuts that ran there. He pulled the blade out from its hiding place inside the medicine cabinet and stood there considering it. He had promised Blaine that it was a onetime thing, which meant that he couldn't do it again right, but he remembered how the blade had made him feel. It had calmed his mind, he had stopped thinking, but he couldn't use his arm, he had promised Blaine it wouldn't happen again.

He looked down at his body contemplating where, and then he saw his hip. He placed the blade on the skin there and pulled. A line of blood appeared there, he pulled again and again until there were ten lines on his hip and the blood was slowly sliding down his leg. Kurt backed up against the wall and slid down to the floor, he just watched the blood pool and slide down his side. He leaned his head back against the wall and sighed in relief. He sat there for a while before pushing himself up off the floor, grabbing his sweats and going to bed.

Across the street from Kurt's house stood a figure dressed in black. He watched the upper window until the light went off and then he knew that Kurt was asleep for the night. Jeremy walked off toward his car, got in and revved the engine. He drove off down the street and pulled off the main road. He drove down the dirt road until he came to a rundown old shack. He got out of his car and walked inside. Covering the walls of the shack were thousands of pictures, all of them of Kurt. Jeremy looked around smiling and found a blank space to add his new picture from today. It was, again, of Kurt. This time; however, he was standing at the window naked, Jeremy studied the picture and saw something strange on Kurt's arm. He looked closer and saw 5 angry red lines down his forearm. His forehead crinkled in disappointment. His beautiful boy shouldn't need to do that to himself.

Never once did it cross Jeremy's mind that he might be the reason for Kurt doing what he did.