Alright sooo… Icy Rain (got it right this time) redid pretty much half this chapter for me so she gets credit …
Chapter 6 - Window
I stared out the window
The whole time they were trying to talk to me
It was a filthy pane of glass
I reached out to clean it but nothing happened
It remained filthy
I still could not get a clear view
The once sunny view was gone
In its place stood a hazy grey view
He continued to speak but I did not pay attention
I tried once again to clean the glass this time with my sleeve but once again…
Nothing
I could see the outline of the world that had once been vivid and clear
The outlines of the trees, the clouds, and the leaves
But now they were green black
Not like the trees and clouds that had once been
Crisp
Blue…
A lively green
They were now dark and eerie, like all the life had been sucked out of them and now all that was left was their body,
Soulless and lifeless
Damned to a world of misery
I couldn't stand it no matter how hard I tried I could not see
It was as if I had just awoken from a dream and now all I could see were the soft outlines of a once vivid dream
"Bella…Bellla…BELLA??"
"WHAT?!"
Someone had awoken me from my trance and it angered me.
I turned to face Alice. Well… how do I say this to her. Edward? A little help? You would be the perfect person to her, seeing as how you gave her the power to mind-read.
Alice. I think you already did it for me.
I was staring at them with wide eyes. Trying to understand why their lips hadn't moved.
I already had my answer, but it was too un-, too – ughh.
You can't describe what your feelings in words when you've just found out that you are a supernatural being with mind reading as a side affect. Not only would I not be able to wallow in my self pity by myself, but I had to be hearing other people's thoughts at the same time.
I sighed.
Alice and Edward were both staring at me curiously. Although Edward also had a bit of frustration in it as well. Why was that?
"Aren't you angry?" Alice questioned me unbelieving.
My eyes narrowed at them both. My voice was now barely above a whisper, but it was still deadly and calm.
"Would you rather I screamed… threw a tantrum. Should I break something? Would that make you happy? What's the point now? I guess I realize now that there's no point in getting upset by something that's no longer possible to change." I sighed and looked up at them again. Tearing myself from the window. My anger now turned mocking. "So, why yes, I am angry. Yes I am confused, and so many other emotions at this moment, but that doesn't change anything. If you want me to break something…I guess I could… but I don't know what good that would do. I already had my rant. It won't happen again."
I finished off my rant of sarcasm with a heavy sigh. I turned from Alice to examine Edward's dumbfounded expression.
"Why do you do that?" I asked Edward.
"Why do I do what?" Now he looked even more frustrated than before.
"I don't know. You look at me almost like you're thoroughly confused about something."
"I can't read your mind."
"Really," that's too bad I thought to myself. Now my expression was amused.
"Well, what are you thinking about?" Edward asked me.
"No no no, there's a reason why you can't read my mind. That means I'm not supposed to tell you."
"Well-, if you-, I-" he stuttered at first trying to think of some thing to say but eventually gave up and glared at me before he turned his face to the door.
Now I was dumbfounded. And I was about to start thinking that things might not be so bad. I mean I was being civil. After being damned to this life of a parasite, I still have the decency to talk to him and he, my murderer, can't even give me the same courtesy. What was his problem?! Thankfully Alice interrupted before we could get into a full blown fight.
"Alright alright, everything will be okay. Just settle down. I think now would be the best time for you to meet the rest of the Cullen's. Anything to get you and Edward separated." She mumbled the last part under her breath, but I still heard it.
I had to break the window
It was better if I would break the window
Even when the window's clean
I still can't see for the fact
That when it's clean there is still nothing clear
I can't tell what I'm looking through
So I had to break the window
It just had to be
Better that I break the window
Than him or me.
(A/N I don't think I have ever seen a guy author on Twilight fanfictions. Do they exist?)
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Alice led me down the honey wood staircase, bouncing all the way down. I decided to look into her mind, and see what she was so happy about.
Oooh… I can't wait till she meets everyone. Wonder what she'll think of Jasper.
Alice abruptly stopped midstep, and a look of concentration came up on her face. It was quickly replaced by frustration. She stomped her foot, and the action put me in a trance.
It wasn't daydreaming or anything like that. I knew because I was seeing flashes of images of people I had never even met before in my life.
There was me, although I barely recognized myself. I knew I wasn't another Cullen because I seemed very out of place next to everyone else.
My dull brown hair seemed to have gained subtle reddish highlights after my transformation. My eyes were blood red.
I cringed.
That was another thing that set me apart from everyone else. The Cullens all had a golden topaz color in their eyes. Well…excluding Edward.
Great. Another thing linking our similarities. First the mind reading, and now the eyes?! I'll have to see what I can do to change that…
The next image that flashed was focused on a blonde tall man next to Alice. I assumed that this must be Jasper by the way he held his arm around the bouncing pixie so lovingly.
The next picture was of Jasper holding out his hand to me. I took it apprehensively, while I looked up at him nervously. He seemed to look confident that he could take that unsure expression off my face as he took my hand and stared me directly into the eyes.
Jaspers shoulders dropped and he seemed to relax immensely at my touch. But as I looked closer, I saw that his expression held a look of confusion at the same time.
I was about to try and figure out why this Jasper person had such a strange reaction on first meeting me, when he was pushed from behind me, causing me to stumble down a few steps and knock into Alice, causing a loud crash sound like lighting to errupt.
I looked back fuming to see the culprit, who was already apologizing with his mind to me.
Apparently, Edward was lagging behind Alice and myself, deep in thought and wasn't watching where he was going when he had run into me causing the domino chain effect, knocking me down and Alice as well.
I decided to opt out of listening to his apologies, not wanting to know what he was thinking that would cause him to not even recognize my presence right in front of him.
I turned my back to his pleading eyes, and turned to Alice. I was about to apologize for knocking her over, but she didn't even seem to notice that she was on the floor.
I felt bad for prying into her mind again but I had to know what was wrong
Why can't I see? It's not like it's very far away. I don't understand. Maybe it has to do with me being thirsty. But I just hunted yesterday. Hmmm…Uggh. Wait maybe it has something to do with Bella's…
She then looked up at me curiously.
"Bella, when I stopped on the stairs did you try to read my mind." She asked.
"Umm… yes," I finally replied guiltily.
"Don't worry about it. I'm sure Edward does it all the time. You don't have to ask for permission or anything."
"Well, I think that I should. People's thoughts should be private if they want them to be."
I didn't even need to turn around to know that Edward was glaring daggers at my back. I continued my way down the stairs not waiting for Alice anymore.
Edward finally spoke.
"You of all people should know it's not that easy. It's not like I have the choice to block people out. There's always a constant buzzing no matter how hard I try to ignore them. They might as well be speaking out loud."
"You obviously haven't tried very hard. How old are you anyway?"
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He thought it before he even had a chance to block it out from me.
"So you've had the power for over a century. Shouldn't you have learned how to perfect it by now?"
He ignored my question.
"Didn't you just say that I should be asking permission before listening to someone else's thoughts. What about you? Doesn't that rule apply to you as well?"
I closed my eyes and tried to stay as calm as possible as I answered him.
"I wouldn't be asking permission, much less reading thoughts if I wasn't a vampire."
Edward got a pained expression on his face as I finished. He shuddered when I said 'vampire' and, like me, closed his eyes as well.
It looked like he was closing his eyes to make me dissapear and wishing me away with his thoughts. His mind was screaming at me. He was thinking something about someone or something called 'the Volturi'? What was that all about?
I should just go to them. This will all be over and done with, and I won't have to deal with the her any longer –
And just like before, when Edward was thinking along these same lines, Alice interrupted. She seemingly had her 'sight' back, because I could see flashes of the images of his new decision in her mind.
But it wasn't enough to understand what it was that he wanted to do, or who the Volturi were. I would have to remember to ask her about them later. And I mean much later because Alice was fuming right now.
"Edward, if you think of going to Italy, ONE MORE TIME…JUST CUT IT OUT!! Do you even realize what you would be doing to Esme? Do you know how devastated she would be. How devastated we ALL would be?"
Her voice had softened by the end of her rant, and she looked at Edward with pleading eyes.
He gave her a slight nod, but I could tell that the idea had still not left his thoughts as his eyes tried to focus on anything but my face.
Alice, semi-satisfied with his nod of agreement, continued on down the stairs. I started to hear a buzzing of thoughts, most of them concerning me.
I sighed and followed Alice with Edward, begrudgeingly following behind me, who was now staring at the ground.
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