BTW: Jimmy is Donny, just a little name confusion, couldn't decide which I liked best.

Chapter 13: Why?

Part One

Four Months Later

"Oh, no. Oh God no." I cried as I sat on my bed in my room. Had could I not expect this to happen? Why hadn't I known that everything couldn't be perfect, not even for a little while? Now I felt so stupid. I had been fooled, bamboozled, and so many other things. Why didn't I know? Why didn't I notice? How come out of all the things that could have happened, this had to be the one thing? I should have trusted him when he told me.

I suppose I should start from the beginning of this, because I'm thinking in circles and not getting any closer to coming up with a proper solution.

It started about two months ago, about the time Anna was six months and everything was actually going good for me. Troy had gone out to do a few things for his actual job for a few weeks-he worked in his father's company that he would someday run- and me and Anna were the only ones at the house. We were downstairs and I was running around the living room. Today wad very hectic for some reason. The phone kept ringing, Anna was crying her head off, someone kept knocking on the door and running, my stomach was very upset, and my head was pounding.

Usually I'd be at school right now, while Chad's mother took care of Anna, but his mother had errands to run today and I wasn't feeling well. Thanks to Chad, and a bunch of my teachers and other friends, I'd been able to take a few tests and go ahead on to the 12th grade instead of being stuck back repeating the 11th. It was hard, managing time with my baby and going to school and homework and dealing with Troy and my friends.

Everybody acted friendly toward Troy, though I really didn't doubt they wouldn't. Even Taylor was nice to him when we all hung out together, which was often. Troy was also great, but I had this feeling that something was changing about him or that something was happening with him. He seemed a lot more distant lately and a lot more weird. He would sometimes act secretive around me and he never wanted to talk about what was up with him and how he was doing. I tried ignoring his behavior, but it was of everyone, Chad was always helpful. He would come over as much as he could, especially when Troy was gone, and help me out. He would sometimes even spend the night and take care of Anna and let me sleep, which I had been very deprived of.

But like I said: Today was very hectic.

I had just gotten Anna quiet when the doorbell rung. I touched Anna's head and sighed then went to answer the door. I swung open the door and almost fainted when I saw the person in the door.

He was tall, dark, handsome, and familiar.

"J-Jimmy?" He still had light brown hair, his great skin, and those beautiful blue eyes, but he was different also. He was taller and his face was more matured now.

"Hi Sharpay." My mouth hung open out of surprise and shock. His voice was so much deeper.

I stared for a few more seconds before blinking and shaking my head. "Jimmy? What are you doing here?" I couldn't keep the distaste out of my voice.

"Sharpay look, I-" He was cut off by a loud cry erupting from the living room. I sighed and looked behind me. I turned back to him and debated for a few seconds. The cry got louder and I decided.

"Come in, close the door behind you." I turned and rushed to the living room. Anna was lying sideways on the floor wailing. "Oh my." I rushed to her and scooped her up in my arms. I laid her head on my shoulder and swayed her side to side. I put a hand on the back of her head and whispered in her ear. "Its okay, don't cry. Momma's here." Her cries quieted down. I turned and saw Jimmy sitting on the couch looking at us. Without a word, I sat next to him.

"Who is she?" Jimmy asked, pointing at Anna.

"This is Anna." Anna stirred as I said her name.

"Is she-" He was cut off again, but this time by the phone.

I sat Anna in my place on the couch and ran to the phone. It was another bill collector. They had been calling all day for my mom. "She's not here." I said and hung up the phone. I went back into the living room and wasn't surprised when I saw Anna smiling and laughing at Jimmy. She loved new people. I walked over to them and put Anna on my lap.

"As I was saying, is she your sister? I would never have guessed that your mom would get pregnant."

"No, my mom didn't get pregnant and no, shes not my sister."

"Then what is she?"

"She's my daughter."

"Your daughter? You got pregnant?" He asked, but I heard his real question: 'You had sex?'

"Mhm."

"How old is she?"

"Seven months."

"Shes beautiful and she looks just like you." I froze when he stroked her cheek, but she only giggled and cooed with satisfaction.

"Yea, thank you." He smiled and the phone started to ring. I stood up with Anna on my hip and he did the same. "I have work to do, so if you don't mind." I pointed toward the door.

"Of course, but can't you go to lunch with me? To talk and catch up?" I looked up at him impatiently.

"Sure, whatever. Come pick me up at noon. Bye."

"Bye." He walked out the door and I locked it behind him then rushed to the phone. It turned out to be only another bill collector.

I sat back on the couch with Anna in my lap and thought about what had just happened. Jimmy had just made a re-appearance in my life and wasn't so sure as to why this had happened or how I felt about it. My feelings were mixed between being worried that he was back, being happy I could possibly have another friend, and anger that he had the thought to come back into my life after what he did, or tried to do, to me. I didn't hate him, I never could, for it, but I still harbored some ill feelings for him. Anyways, I'd figure all of it out sooner or later, sooner actually, since I was going to have to have lunch with him tomorrow since it was Saturday.

The day came and gone and now it was Saturday.

I was siting in the living room waiting because I was going to lunch with Jimmy. He had called about five minutes ago to tell me that he'd be here soon. I was even more nervous because this morning I realized that I hadn't had my period for months. Even though it could only be stress, I still was going to have Chad run to the store after school and get me a test. Chad had been very worried when he caught me throwing up this morning, but after I explained, he understood. I was so wrapped up in my thoughts, that when the bell rung, I jumped. I stood up, grabbed Anna, and walked to the door. When I opened the door, Jimmy was standing there smiling. I almost returned his smile.

"Hi Jimmy."

"Hey Pay Pay, are you ready?" I was surprised he called me my old nickname. Nobody called me that anymore.

"Yea, just one second." I turned and grabbed the diaper bag, threw it over my shoulder, then grabbed the stroller. I turned back to him and started toward the black car in the driveway.

"Here, let me get that for you." He grabbed the stroller and the diaper bag off me.

"Thank you. I have to grab the car seat anyways." I turned back around, grabbed the car-seat, locked the door, and followed him to his car.

I put Anna in her car seat and we were off.

The car ride was quiet, except for Anna's babbling and cooing in the backseat. We arrived at this fancy burro called 'La Bonita'. He parked and we went and sat at one of the tables outside. It was kinda awkward waiting in silence for the waiter to come.

I looked up from Anna, who was in my lap, and looked at Jimmy. "So Jimmy, how've you been?"

"Fine. After I graduated for high school, I went to college in California, San Fransisco State University, and majored in psychology and biochemistry & biophysics."

"When are you going back?"

"I'm not. I graduated this year."

I looked at him curiously. "In two years? How?"

"I took day and night classes and I had enough hours to graduate."

"That's great."

"What about you?"

"Nothing really. Its my senior year."

"Having a baby didn't screw that up for you?"

"No, not as much as you'd think."

Before he could respond, the waiter came and took our orders. He soon left, and Jimmy looked back at me, then looked at Anna, who was staring at him, and smiled.

"You have a thing for blue-eyed boys?"

His question confused me. "What?"

"I'm talking about her eyes. They're blue, which must be her father's, since yours are a beautiful brown."

"Oh yeah." The waiter returned with our food and we started to eat. "So," I said after a while. "What about you? Anything happening in your love life?"

"Nothing really. I had a few girlfriends here and there, but never serious. We'd go out on a few dates. Not much." He took another bite of his food and swallowed. "That's actually why I came back."

"Really?"

"Yea, I wanted to-" Just then Anna started to cry. "Whats wrong?"

"Nothing. She's just hungry." I pulled a small cover out of the diaper bag and laid it over my shoulder. Then I pulled down my shirt and my bra and started to feed her.

"Are you feeding her?" I looked up and saw Jimmy looking at me. What was it with guys and breastfeeding? Chad and Troy did the same thing when ever I feed her around them, though Troy had gotten used to it.

"Yea."

"Does it hurt?"

"It did at first, but it stopped after a while. But lately, my breasts have been real sore and it started to hurt again." I realized what I had just said. "Oh, I'm sorry. That's a bit too personal."

"Oh no, its okay." By that time, Anna had stopped so I moved her up and burped her. "Are you ready to go?"

"Yea." He put some money on the table and we went back to the car.

"Actually, do you want to go for a walk? There's a park five minutes from here."

"Sure, I'll need the stroller." He turned and got the stroller out for me. I laid Anna inside the stroller and put the cover over her since she was now sleep. I buckled her in and we started to walk.

It was quiet on the walk there. We entered the park, it wasn't that big. It had a small playground, a few benches, and a path that ran around the park. We started to walk the path. It was very pretty, but also very familiar. I looked around and saw another pathway that led into a more private part of the park. We went down that path. This path ventured into the trees and it looked even more familiar. I looked up at Jimmy and he was looking at me.

"Do you remember this place?"

I looked around and, upon seeing a very familiar bench, realized where we were. "Yea, we're where you took me that night. It's where you..." I paused and looked back up at him.

"It's where I hit you for the first time." I looked away. He guided us to the sides of the path and we sat on a bench there.

We sat in silence for a while.

"Why did you bring me here?" I had tried to hide the tears and emotion in my voice. It worked, halfway.

"I wanted a quiet, secluded place to talk to you." He paused for a second. "And I really wanted to apologize."

I turned Anna's stroller toward me and watched her sleep. "Jimmy, I already told you: I forgive you. I forgave you three years ago."

"But just because you forgave me, doesn't mean anything. It doesn't change that you hate me."

"I don't hate you." It was the truth. I didn't hate him.

He took a deep breath. "Well that's good because..." He took another deep breath. "Look, I'm still in love with you, Sharpay."

This surprised me. "What?"

"I'm still in love with you, and-and I want you to be with me."

This surprised me more. "Again, What?"

"I want to be with you. I want to love you. I want you in my life again. I want you to give me another chance. I want to be able to kiss and touch and hold you again."

I sat there speechless. Here he is, proclaiming that he wants me back, and I'm just sitting here like a lump on a log. "I-I don't know what to say."

"Say that you'll be with me, Shar. Say yes. I know that you still love me, you said you would forever. And you are no liar. So just say yes."

"I can't"

"Why not?"

"Because I'm already in love with someone."

"Who?"

"Anna's father of course."

"Why?"

"Because I love him."

"I guess I understand. He is the father of your baby and you must have loved him to have a baby with him."

"Um, yeah. Of course." I was feeling a little weird about that comment.

"But I'm not going to give up on us just yet."

"Why not?"

"What I feel for you is worth waiting and fighting for. You, are worth waiting and fighting for."

I didn't have anything to say to that so I just accepted his hand when he put it out to help me off the bench. We were in his car and driving a few minutes later.

"It is such a beautiful Saturday and it's only two in the afternoon, are you sure you just want me to take you home?" He asked as we exited the highway.

He had a point.

It was a beautiful Saturday, Anna had just woken up a few minutes ago from a very short nap, there was nothing to do at the house, and we'd both been trapped up in a house or a school for what seemed like forever. We needed a day of something new that wasn't so routine.

"You know what, you're right. Is there anything fun you can think of that we can do today?"

He looked over at me and smiled. "As a matter of fact, there is."

Troy's POV

"I can't believe no one is here." I said as I entered Sharpay's house. Some one was usually here, especially on the weekends. But the house was abandoned. I walked to the living room surprised to see that baby toys and school books littered the floor. Sharpay was kind of a neat freak.

I had planned on surprising Shar by coming back earlier than I told her I would. She thought I wasn't going to be back until Wednesday, but here I was on Saturday, four days early, and nobody was here.

I'd been gone for the past two weeks on a business trip for my father. When he was around my age, my father, Jack Bolton, had become an entrepreneur and a rich one at that. I wasn't quite sure as to all of the knowledge of everything that his business serviced to the people, but people loved. People all over the world. I went on these routine trips with my dad so that I could see what running his business was like so that if something ever happened to him, like him dying or he becoming too old to manage it, I could take over and run it the same way he had.

I almost looked forward to it.

I looked around the whole house before concluding no one was here. So I went upstairs and laid on Shar's bed and waited and fixed my eyes on a picture of Sharpay and my lovely little daughter. I hoped she would be happy to see me.

It was always so weird feeling these things I felt for her-someone who had started out as no one but some little girl I could have sex with and take advantage of. It was so weird loving her and wanting her and caring for her and hoping that she felt the same. I had never felt these feelings for anyone in my life and it was just new to me. It was also weird feeling guilt. I had raped so many girls before that I couldn't even remember half of them and I had never felt guilty, not even a little, for it. But with Sharpay I felt guilty for doing this to her and everything. I felt guilty for getting her pregnant, making her a teenage mom, and screwing her life up. But right now, I felt the most guilty for betraying her trust. Not just that, but for betraying her trust and love with...

"Hi Troy." I looked away from the picture of my daughter and the woman I loved.

"Gabriella." I said, and sighed as I did. "What are you doing here? Aren't you suppose to be at college? Way in Maine?"

She smiled at me, a sweet and innocent smile that I had quickly learn to see through. "Mom and I agreed that I should take a little time off from school to come home and help my little sister out as she adjusts to being a mother. Her life has been so crazy lately, don't you agree?"

Bullshit. She wants something. I thought as she walked deeper in the room. "Yea. You should probably go somewhere else and wait. Your mom or your sister will be home soon." Her smile just broaden. She walked over to the bed and sat down beside me. Just as I was about to get up and move; she was on top of me straddling me. "Get off of me Gabriella."

"Why should I? We had so much fun last time." Her smile transformed into a mischievous and seductive one.

"Because I'm in love with Sharpay and Sharpay is your sister."

"But if you love her so much, why were you with me those many nights ago?" She smiled and ran her hands over my chest.

I grabbed her hands and moved her away from me. "Look, Gabriella. What we did the last time was a mistake, a huge one-"

"One you made three times."

"It doesn't matter. All that matters is that we stop. I don't want to hurt Sharpay, I love her. You shouldn't want to hurt her either. She is your sister. You can't be so heartless to the point that you want to keep having sex with the father of your niece and the person your sister is in love with."

"Yes, actually, I can and I am." She swatted my hands away from hers and got back on top of me.

"But why would you want to hurt your little sister? I love Sharpay and you should too. Why would you hurt her and end up hurting her child? Don't you love?"

"Of course I love my sister. Of course I love my niece. But I am not going to let that get in the way of what I want, or who I want..." She smiled and ran her fingers down my chest again.

"Gabriella no."

"Troy-"

"No."

I was just getting ready to shove her away from me when she opened her mouth and said: "Do it Troy or I'll tell Sharpay everything."

I glared at her. "You wouldn't."

"I would. I'll tell her about the three marvelous times we spent together: together, naked, on her bed, while she was gone. I'd do it."

"Don't do it. Those were mistakes and you know it. If you tell her anything, you'll end up breaking her heart."

"I don't care. Just do this this one more time and I swear we'll never have to do this again and I won't tell Shar anything."

I didn't know if I should have believed her, but if doing this would end her reign of terror, I'd do it. I flipped us over on the bed and glared at her as she started to undress us.

"The last time." I practically growled.

"Oh shut up and pull down your pants." She sneered.

"You don't have to be such a bitch about it."

It was quick and over easily. She was satisfied enough to the point to where she couldn't possibly want anymore. We were just finishing up and she was still acting like the leech she was and kissing on my neck when I heard something from the door.

I jumped up and looked at the door just in time to see a flash of someone with brown hair drop something and dash out the door. I quickly followed, after throwing on my pants, and ran down the stairs. Chad was gone, I knew was him with no doubt, but whatever he was carrying was left abandoned by Sharpay's room door. I went back to the place where it was and saw a plastic bag with a box in it. I peeked in the bag and rocked back on my feet. There was a pregnancy test in the bag. My eyes got wide. I didn't have the thought to move from my spot. I just sat there outside the room.

Who would Chad be buying a pregnancy test for? And why would he bring them to Sharpay's house?

I shook my head again when I realized how stupid those questions were because the who and the why were so obvious. It was Sharpay, but could she really be pregnant again? Could she really have our second child growing in her stomach? How could she be pregnant again? We were so careful every time this time. Why didn't she tell me she thought she might be pregnant? She must have just thought about it a few days ago or something.

Gabriella walked out the room fully dress a minute later.

"You know, if you weren't so stuck on my sister, I'd actually like you." I flicked her off, wishing I could do more, as she walked into the guest room, which was probably hers now, and closed the door.

I hadn't felt so powerless in my life. This is why you don't fall in can never have full control over anything.

Again I heard the front door shut but this time I heard a familiar laugh that I knew belonged to Sharpay. I finally had the mind to get up from my seat at the door when I heard her start upstairs. She appeared at the top of the steps with Anna on her hip and a bag in the other hand, and turned down the hallway for her room. She didn't notice me-she had stop to look behind her at something or someone down the stairs-until Anna clued her in by saying, "Dada."

"What?" She said looking down at our daughter before looking up and spotting me. She was shocked at first but then she smiled happily. "Troy? What are you doing here? I thought you weren't getting back for a few more days. I'm so happy to see you...why aren't you wearing a shirt?"

I really couldn't think about answering her questions or bring myself to care that there was someone coming up the stairs behind her. I could only think about the question rocketing through my head.

"Sharpay, are you pregnant?"

A/N: I know it's kind of long, its gonna either be in two or three or maybe even four parts, sorry if it's too long and for taking so long to update. It's been a real interesting few months at my house. Anyways, tell me what you think.

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