A/N - I'm having fun getting into Christian's head here, so I may switch back and forth from now on. Comments are always welcome!

CPOV

I can't believe I'm letting her touch me this way! She really is doing a number on me and not just the sex, though she's very good at it. What man doesn't like a woman who is ready and wet for him? Wait, I take that back, plenty of men I've talked to could care less if their woman is aroused. I take it as a compliment if I already have a woman wanting me like that. Oh well, not a problem here. My Ana was like that. I need to stop comparing them. They are not alike in any way. Well, no, they both have dark long hair, and didn't come from money and they are both strong women in their own ways. But no, I need to stop comparing them; it's not fair to my Ana's memory and not fair to Katniss. I hope she's not comparing me to her dead husband, though what could I possibly have in common with him?

I want Katniss to like me because I'm not like him. He was a young man in love with the same girl for a decade before she even knew about it or so the story goes. Maybe I'll ask her about that, see if it's really true. He knew how to play the audience, that's for sure. I don't think she ever got the hang of it, always looking to him to speak for the both of them. She speaks up here though and though I wouldn't have liked it ten years ago, I don't seem to mind it now. What is she doing to me? I want her to stay in my bed and only Ana ever got that honor. Will she be my next Ana? No, stop comparing! They are not the same woman and they are not meant to be!

I look down at Katniss' small hand under mine and lift it to my lips. Her fingers curl around mine and I can tell she's already knocked out. I wore her firm lithe body out and I smile at the thought of doing it again and again. I'm getting hard just with that notion. She moves closer to me, and I slide my other arm beneath her head, resting it on my shoulder. I'll probably ache a little tomorrow from its weight, but that okay.

I like this too much, this closeness and I know I might get hurt in the process, but I also know that I won't stop it because I like it so much. I'm a different man than I was before I was married and I think that it's a good thing, most of the time. I fall asleep quicker than I normally would and I'm pretty sure there's a smile on my face as I do.

When I wake up the next morning, I don't feel Katniss next to me and panic instantly. She decided that the room was too much and left me, I know it! She wouldn't be the first to be freaked out by it, though only two have actually walked out. Then again I hadn't even had sex with them. I sit up and suddenly hear the toilet flush. Oh good, she was just in the bathroom! Why was I freaking out? She seemed to enjoy herself last night and was asking questions and everything. I lay back down with a smile on my face.

"You're awake? I hope I didn't do that when I flushed the toilet." She explains, climbing back into the bed.

"No, I woke up before you were done." I answer, facing myself towards her. Her hair is all curly and tangled from sleep and looks like a beautiful halo around her face and shoulders.

She smiles and gets closer to me, on her knees. "Is there anything I should do before we eat breakfast?"

"Eager, are we, Miss Everdeen?" I ask, not being able to help the smile that has stayed on my face since she came out of the bathroom.

Her smile fades a little, "Well, no, actually, I thought you were going to make me work out or something. Though I guess that would definitely be considered a work out, wouldn't it?"

Her face lights up again and in a swift moment, I grab her by the waist and pull her on top of me. She giggles and tries to push away making it more fun. Since when did I start having fun with sex? Enjoyed, yes, always, but fun? Laughter in the playroom was forbidden and I had never really had sex outside of it until my Ana and now Katniss it seems. I grab Katniss' wrists and pull her down, bringing her mouth to mine and kiss her deeply. She melts against me and has stopped pushing away.

This is what I want, the closeness of each other. Have I been looking for someone to fall in love with since my Ana died? I don't think so, not consciously anyway. Those two women after her were nothing to me, just women to screw. Katniss is so different and so alive with her own fire. I have a feeling that she is just coming back to life too since her husband died and I'm fine with the thought that I may have something to do with that. Actually, I'll happily accept that notion. I brought the Girl on Fire back from the grief of having a lost her first true love. Maybe, just maybe. Is that what she's doing for me too then? Bringing me back from grieving over my Ana?

Yes, I think she is.