Chapter 16: Shattered Completely

Sharpay's POV

When I felt I was ready or that it was getting too cold for me outside, I went up to the door and walked in. When I walked in and saw my whole family-Gabriella, my mom, and Troy- sitting on the couch laughing and talking, it was hard to believe that I could get so mad but here I was, fuming like a hot tea kettle.

Before I could walk into the living room, Troy got up and walked into the kitchen. The kitchen was opposite the front door so he didn't see me. Now I could actually go into the living room without making a scene. I walked in and smiled at my mom and my sister. They both smiled back and my mom reached for Anna. Neither of them could see through the poker face that I had perfected back in the seventh grade when I took up drama. Though I had quit before I got to high school it was so good to learn that I still had it. I hadn't ever needed to fake my emotions before this moment in time because I'd never been this upset with anyone before, but now I was glad that I had the skill now.

"Hey honey, what took you so long getting home? We were getting worried." My mom said as Anna settled into her lap. Gabriella nodded along as if she actually cared. I wish I could have hit her then and there but I had more composure at the moment and knew Anna didn't need to see that kind of violence.

"I was over at Chad's and he was explaining the homework to me so I could know what to do. Sorry, time just got pass us." My mom opened her mouth to say something but it was then that Troy walked back into the room holding two cans of soda. He handed one to Gabriella before looking up and spotting me. A smile appeared on his face just as the smile was wiped off of mine and I felt the fire from before swell up in me times ten.

I knew I had two courses of actions at this moment in time. I could one: reveal to both of them that I knew everything. That would succeed in getting thing off my chest and off my mind, but had I really had the time to think about how this would all play out and all the consequences to it? Or I could two: pretend that I hadn't seen a thing for just a while until I had the chance to think it all through. This would insure that I wouldn't say anything stupid and that I could think out every possible outcome to my actions.

Again, Option 2 was my best choice.

It had taken me a minute to come up with all this so Troy had already noticed my change of expression before I could cover it up again.

"You okay, Shar?" He asked, moving closer to me.

I plastered the most genuine smile I could manage on my face. "Yea, I'm good. I'm just a little run down today. It's been a long day so I think I'ma head upstairs." I turned to go and felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He asked again.

Remember: Poker face, Sharpay. Poker face. Don't let them see you down.

"Yea, I'm fine." I nodded, patted his hand, and continued upstairs where I locked myself in my room for the rest of the night. Just like earlier that day, I cried most that night.

Over the next month, the dynamics in the house changed from stressful to extremely stressful.

I avoided Troy and Gabriella like the plague. I could barely stand their faces let alone being in the same room as them. They still tried to pretend as if nothing was happening between them but I knew better now. I knew wiser. I could trust the both of them just as much as Harry Potter could trust Lord Voldemort with a knife behind his back or, as my mom would say, I could trust them as far as I could throw them.

Chad came over a lot more frequently, which was a lot compared to how much he already came over. He liked to help me out while I was figuring out a way to deal with Troy and my sister. He had understood when I told him not to say anything to anybody about the Troy and Gabriella thing and had told me to take as long as I needed. If I had the choice, I would take as long as I could and absorb as much as I could take until the day I reached my breaking point. I wasn't aware that day was today.

Who would've known that one little fact, one little surprise, could shatter your whole plan?

It was another day in a long thread of days. Last night I had intentionally started a fight with Troy, which actually wasn't hard to do, in order to insure that he wouldn't try to talk to me today. It worked. So when Chad showed up at the door and I walked passed him, Troy said nothing. He watched me go, but said nothing.

"Ready to go?" He asked me. I had a doctor's appointment today.

"Yea." I said and left the house.

Troy's POV

Something isn't right. She must know. I was sure she knew. I thought as I watched her walk out the door with Chad. Either she knew or something else was wrong because she was not acting like herself. Sharpay was usually cool and mellow and nice and a lot other stuff that was peaceful, but lately she's been so aggressive and so angry at me and I couldn't figure out why. What other than her knowing about me and her sister would cause her to be so upset that she won't speak or even look at either one of us? That only left me wondering who could've told her.

My first thought was Chad, but he wouldn't tell, not unless he wanted to break his best friend's heart on purpose, which he didn't. That left me with Gabriella. So after Sharpay was gone with Chad to the doctor and Shar's mom was out of hearing or seeing distance, I went and grabbed her by the arm.

"Hey!" She protested as I pulled her to the kitchen, but I didn't care. I closed the doors behind us.

"What did you tell Sharpay?" I whispered.

She looked at me confused. "What are you talking about?"

"What did you tell Shar? About what you and I did?"

"What we do?"

"What we did."

She shrugged. "I haven't told her anything. Why do you think she even knows?"

"Because somehow, some way: she knows. Haven't you noticed that for a while she hasn't said a word to you? She hasn't asked you to babysit Anna or help her with any problems? She hasn't come to 'big sister' for any of the normal stuff that she usually comes to you about? You haven't noticed that she has been a lot more hostile in the past month than ever, even when she was having one of her moods when she was pregnant-and those were terrible."

She looked thoughtful for a second. "Yea I noticed, but I just thought she was just stressed over everything at school and all the testing their having at the moment."

"So you haven't told her a thing?"

She shook her head and shrugged again. "I have no reason to tell her. And why would I? If I told her, all the fun we're having would end." She smiled and ran a finger down my chest. I grabbed her hand before it could get any lower.

"Well I'm sorry to inform you, but play time is over: it's been over." I threw her hands away from me and moved to the other side of the kitchen. "So if you didn't tell her, and I didn't tell her, who could have possibly told her?" I asked and received one her shrugs again.

"Maybe she doesn't know at all and just sensing that something is amidst in the house? I don't know and I really don't care so if you please...?" She moved around me and left the kitchen. Left me wondering if Chad would be able to tell his best friend such bad news and be ready to have her blow up at him.

I wasn't ready for her to know yet, which made me really nervous. I mean, I really, truly loved her and I didn't want to do anything to hurt her, but there was nothing to stop this from happening: nothing to stop me from screwing this up. And I had done it. I had screwed up the best thing in my life with the greatest person I have ever met...if she knew.

I faced two theories: Either she knew and was waiting for me to come forth and tell her the truth or she didn't know and was just having emotional problems.

I was hoping on the later.

Sharpay's POV

"What!" I yelled, as startled as can be in the doctor's office. We were sitting around my mom's doctors, Dr. Williams, office and two of the three of us were in a state of shook. Mostly me. The doctor looked at me with sympathetic eyes. I continued. "That can't be!"

"But it is."

"How?"

"I'm afraid you know how."

"But I-"

"I know, but nothing is always 100%."

"But it's been a while-"

"Some people don't notice for a while."

"But I would-"

"But you didn't." She shook her head. "I'm sorry to be the bearer of such sad news-that usually isn't so sad-but based on everything here, it looks to be right."

I cried. I actually broke down in tears in front of this doctor and Ivan, who was still staring at Dr. Williams. I hadn't meant to be so emotional, but this new dropped into my lap like a bomb ready to explode. It showed just how much all this crap was fooling with me by me just breaking down over this little surprise.

Dr. Williams got up from her seat and walked around her desk to kneel in front of me. She put a hand on my shoulder and squeezed a little bit. "It is going to be okay, Sharpay. Don't be so sad. It's not the end of the world."

I sobbed as I nodded. "Y-Yes...Yes it is. M-My life is...it's over!" I knew I was over-exaggerating but I couldn't help it. That's how everything felt to me in that moment.

She laughed. She actually laughed. If I hadn't been so weepy in that moment, I would've been pissed. "Sharpay, don't be a drama queen. You're pregnant; you don't have a disease or cancer. You're just pregnant. You are bringing a new life into this world, you should be happy. You should feel glad that God has given you this."

"Usually I would be glad, but how can I be glad when this baby is coming into a world where its mother is being cheated on by its father? How can I be happy when I know that my boyfriend is probably screwing my sister at this very moment, even with our daughter there? How am I supposed to be happy?"

She looked stunned for a moment, but went said, "I don't know, just play it by ear. Just a word of advice: don't let him get in the way of your being happy about this baby. Every baby is a miracle, no matter what the circumstances." I nodded but was still crying. How was I supposed to be happy about this? How was I supposed to feel?

Chad waited until I got myself together before hugging me. He knew me well enough to know my moods and when I wanted to be comforted and when I wanted to be alone. Right now, I wanted to be comforted.

"Don't be so sad. It is a happy thing, Shar. Remember how you felt when you thought you weren't pregnant? Remember?" I nodded. "Now you are, so just be happy."

"But I didn't know then what I know now."

"Understandable, but listen: let's get you home. You'll be better after you sleep. You'll be able to think." I nodded and let him take me home.

I walked into my house wishing that neither Troy nor Gabriella were anywhere around, but I didn't get my wish. As soon as I walked in the front door, there sat Gabriella, watching T.V.

Anger boiled up in me like a fine tool and I was just about to give my 'dear sister' a few words that weren't so lady like when Troy walked in from the kitchen. The redefined anger left me so quickly that I was unbearably cold for those few seconds as he took a few steps before looking up at me. It felt as if all the blood in my body had turned to ice. I thought I wasn't going to feel anything after all, but the moment his eyes met mine, the coldness went as quickly as it came and many feelings instead of one filled me till I was full of emotion: anger, betrayal, disgust, frustration, but most of all, pain and sadness.

My eyes teared up and I couldn't keep myself. "How could you?" I sobbed before running upstairs as fast as I could go.

"Sharpay!" I heard him scream my name but I kept running, kept going. I went to my room and locked and shut my door. I heard footsteps running down the hall before there was a knock on my door.

"Sharpay." He said again and waited for me to answer, but I stayed quiet. "Please Sharpay, just listen to me." I made up in my mind that I was going to listen to him, but he wouldn't know that I was listening. I put my back against the door and leaned my head against it. "I am so sorry, Shar. I didn't mean for none of this to happen, it just did. She came on to me; I did not come on to her. It just happened. I tried to stop it after the first time but she kept threatening that she was gonna tell you if I didn't do it again, so I did what she wanted. Please, it was a mistake. I am so sorry for hurting you and I am so sorry for not telling you the truth. I just didn't want to hurt you and take away the only good things in my life so far: you and Anna. I love y'all so much. I love you so much. Just please, Sharpay, please forgive me." He paused for a second, waiting for my reply. Too bad he wasn't going to get one. "Sharpay, please." He said after a minute of silence. "Please say something. Anything. Just let me know that you heard me. Please say something." When I was again silent, I heard him sign and move away from the door and back down the stairs. I even heard the front door shut and his car start up as he left. I don't know why, but his leaving seem to hurt me more than his staying.

I slid down the door and rested against it as I cried endlessly. I was completely shattered, or shattered completely depending on the way you saw it. Everything in my life had been thrown up to the wind and I, and I alone, had to catch them and reorganize the pieces from scratch, but first: I had to cry. I had to let it all out. So I sat there for majority of the rest of that night, crying. Even when I crawled into my bed, I was crying. No one disturbed me that night as I pulled myself together and prepared to face the hard day of tomorrow and the days to come after it.

But nothing I'd done that night could have prepared me for what was to take place over the next two weeks.

A/N: I know its been a while since I've updated, but here you go. Hope you like it because there is lots more to come. And BTW: if you haven't noticed, Sharpay's the kind to cry.

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