A/N - I had to go back and read a specific part for this next chapter. References to Chapter 20 of FSOG

CPOV

Did I more or less just tell this woman that I need to be with her? Did I just tell her that I think I'm in love? It's not the same obsession that I had with Ana, but of course Ana wasn't staying with me when I was obsessed. What is this? Do I love Katniss? I can't answer these questions that are filling my head. I just want to focus on the woman in front of me. I want to be with her, yes, I definitely want that.

I detach my lips from hers and immediately feel like something's missing. How has this happened so quickly? Breathing heavily as I say the next thing I'm going to say to her, I dive right in, "Katniss don't leave me, please?"

Her eyes go wide and a sad smile comes to her lips. "I didn't realize I had anywhere else to go."

We laugh together, and the feeling of elation washes over me. "Well, at least not until tomorrow night."

She stays on my lap, making herself more comfortable. "Is Beetee really going to be there?"

"Are we really going to talk about other men?" I ask and she smiles and giggles.

"No, I guess not." Her smile fades slowly.

"What's wrong?" I lift her chin up as she has dropped her eyes from me. "Katniss, what's wrong?"

She looks into my eyes, "Are you going to punish me for hiding from you?"

I can't help but laugh at her and the blush that rides up her cheeks makes her even more gorgeous. "Well, I was looking forward to using the metal balls on you. Or rather in you."

Her blush darkens and spreads down her neck to her chest. "Oh. Well, I did say you could use them."

"Are you afraid they'll hurt?" I ask her, trying to keep eye contact with her.

She nods her head and whispers, "Yes."

I take both of her hands in mine and pull them up in between us. "Trust me, if you can hold me inside of you, these will be nothing."

Her jaw drops and grey eyes widen. I shift her off my lap. "Go get us a glass of water, I'll get those, and then maybe we'll take that shower we started."

"Christian?" She calls out right before I exit the room. I turn towards her and raise an eyebrow, urging her to continue. "How come I never see Taylor or Mrs. Jones at night? How do they know that I'm not screaming for help or something?"

I suppress a laugh. "Because they have been trained to hear but not see or comment on what they've seen and they have been with me long enough to know the difference between a cry for help and cries of passion. Plus, I pay them a crap load of money to not talk to anyone about it."

She shakes her head, smiling and getting off the bed. "I'll go get the water."

I walk back towards her and stand right in front of her. Katniss looks up at me quizzically. I just put a finger under her chin, lifting it so that I can kiss her. Before she can wrap her hands onto my arms, I break the kiss and walk away. I do everything I can to not look back, but as I turn into the hallway, I shift my eyes towards her and see that she has her fingers to her mouth.

By the time I get back to the room, she is propped up on the bed, a glass of water sitting on a coaster on the nightstand. She is quick, I'll give her that. Closing the door behind me, I swing the velvet bag in my hand and she eyes it warily. "It won't hurt, Katniss. As sexy as you look on my bed, I need you to stand up, please."

She does as she's told and her arms hang down at her sides, not knowing what to do with them. "Open your mouth."

Her eyes widen again as I drop the balls into my hand. When I tell her again to open her mouth, she shakes her head slightly. "I can't put them into you dry, Katniss, that'll be awkward for you."

She rolls her eyes at me. Hmmm, it looks like she'll get punished after all. "Yeah, right, as if this isn't awkward enough."

I put them in her mouth carefully. "Suck on them, get them nice and wet."

Katniss squints her grey eyes at me but still does as she's told. I sit down on the edge of the bed and take a drink of water. She watches me and finally crosses her arms across her chest. I can see her tongue swirling around the silver balls, getting accustomed to them. After a minute, I pull her in front of me and slowly pull the objects out of her mouth. She sucks back the extra saliva, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand.

"Turn around and bend over, grab your ankles." She does it quickly and I take in the sight of her womanhood in front of me. I'm glad she hasn't had a chance to go to the salon just yet; I like the natural look on her. I run a finger over her and it slides into her easily. I hear her gasp and I pull my finger out and insert the balls one at a time. Once they're in, I grab a hold of her firm behind and rub her cheeks. "Stand up."

She does so and turns to me, her face flushed and she seems excited and nervous. Katniss shifts her legs, maybe trying to adjust herself, get used to the feeling of the metal in her. "How does it feel?"

She cocks her head to the side, "Weird."

"Weird good or bad?" I ask, I want to make sure she can handle this before I go any further.

She takes a walk around the room, nodding her head. "Umm, doable?"

I smile at her. She's not screaming out, so that's good. "Come here then, lay across my knees."

I adjust her so that her chest is resting on the bed while her lower torso is situated across my legs, her side against my up again manhood. Poor guy, he's been all over the place in the last hour or so. I make sure her hair is over her shoulder, out of the way, and keep one arm over her back. I rub her bottom again, squeezing each cheek before I let my hand slap one.

"Ugh!" She groans out.

"How does it feel, Miss Everdeen?" I can't help myself as I let my fingers slide against her wet sex. I want to take her now, but I need to punish her for hiding from me.

She's panting as my fingers play with her, takes a deep ragged breath before answering me. "I feel full and they moved when you hit me."

"But how does it feel?" I ask again, caressing her now pink cheek.

"I'm not going to tell you to stop yet if that's what you're looking for." She murmurs.

"Good answer." And I smack her again on the other cheek.

I take turns with each side of her rear end, enjoying the feeling of her skin hot beneath mine and the color it's turning as well. I rotate the wallops; up, down, left and right. Her moans and groans are getting me so hard that I can barely contain myself. She's practically dripping, she's so wet and I give her one last blow before I yank the orbs out of her and drop them to the floor.

"Oh!" She cries out.

I turn her over and lift her onto the bed, grabbing a condom and putting it on quickly. I'm inside of her before I come all over myself. I can't seem to slow myself down and she tightens her legs around my waist. "Oh, Christian, please, harder!"

I have to give the woman what she wants, right? I pound into her relentlessly, thriving in how her eyes keep rolling back from the pleasure I'm giving her. She's so slick that I bury myself to the hilt as much as I can, pushing into her hard. I can feel her tightening around me and come right before she does, crying out her name as if she's my savior.

"Oh, yes, Katniss!" I burst out, collapsing on her as she hollers out my name.

I take a moment to get my bearings and attempt to roll off of her, but she tightens her legs around me again, and hugs me close. "Stay here, inside of me, please."

Nestling my face in her neck, I start kissing under her earlobe, nibbling on it a bit before I can help myself. Katniss leans her head to the side and I can feel her smile against my forehead. Another ticklish spot perhaps? She unlocks her legs and I drag myself out of her, rolling over and bringing her with me, my eyes closed.

I feel her hand go down and before I realize what she's doing, she's pulled the condom off of me and drops it in the wastebasket near the bed. "Thanks. I hate those things just so you know."

She giggles and I smile. "Then why do you bother wearing them? I've heard most men don't care."

"I'm not most men and who knows what women have these days." I say, feeling very sleepy. Usually I'm ready to go again, but she's worn me out!

I feel Katniss rise up and open my eyes to look at her. She turns and smiles at me, "Ready for that shower, Mr. Grey?"