My Life: Upside Down Chapter 5: Indecision, a harry potter fanfic

Chapter 5- Indecision

Disclaimer: If either of us were JK Rowling, would we be bothering with this? Use your minds, people. Same goes for the song, "Consider This", because we're not Anna Nalick either.

I've tripped again and things are starting to get interesting
Don't give me choices cause I can't decide
My mind is soaked in words
I've come to terms with all my insecurities
And purity's no friend of mine

Back in his sanctuary, Draco wondered at how to pass the time, as he ate this breakfast, of course.

Thinking out loud to himself, 'Well, I don't have to be at London until noon, but of course Malfoys are always fashionably early so then I'll be there at 11:55. Which means that I have approximately… 3 whole hours to be bored out of my ever-loving mind!'

'Not that going will be much of a respite. Oh, no… Unless someone feels that spending the entire day with complete dolts in a place so infested with muggles to be anything besides a complete waste of time and brain cells…'

'Now back to what to do about all this spare time… No need to study, got a feeling this year's in the bag, no real reason to pack that can wait until tomorrow, plus don't want Mother to think I'm getting excited or looking forward to going back, because I'm definitely not. And I don't feel like flying at the moment, not if that means running into Mother again. Probably bawling her eyes out right now.'

'Poor, dependant, frail Mother. It's almost worth pitying her for. She's probably the frailest woman I've ever met. Not to mention the most ungrateful, I mean most men would have gotten rid of her long ago, but not Father, no, he was merciful, he took pity on her and kept her around…'

And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me

'Anyway back on topic, what to do, what to do?... Well I could read for a while or I could… Uhgg, I hate being indecisive. Come on Draco think… what can you do to keep yourself occupied for 3 hours?'

'I got it! I really should reorganize my book case. It really needs it. I haven't allowed a house elf to touch it since Potter went and tricked Father into freeing Dobby. He was the only one I could trust not to mess everything up. And I've just not been up to doing it nor has it been too much of a bother to encourage me to do it. There are probably some books up there I haven't read in years. I bet there are even books up there I didn't know I had. Well, with as many books as I have, I better get started if I want to finish in time. If anything really bugs me it's not finishing something I've started.'

You're kinda cool but I know better than to break the rules
Of messin' with a lesson that I'll never learn
I'll go from bad to worse and later back to better
But I'll never better bridges that I'm bent to burn

And so Draco spent the next 3 hours reorganizing his book shelf. And just as he expected he had many, many books he hadn't read in years and even more that he didn't know he had. He decided that before he got anymore he would read all the ones he didn't know he had. He even took the time to catalog all the books he had so he wouldn't have any duplicates. Seeing as he also found many of those. It was a tedious task but it kept him occupied and took his mind off of all the things that had been running through his mind since school ended.

Now that he was finished he turned to the clock that sat on a side table next to his bed.

'11:35, aye. Well, guess I finished just in time. Not that I doubted that I wouldn't. I am Malfoy after all and Malfoy's have an impeccable sense of timing.' He thought to himself as he stood up and straightened his clothes.

"Accio, shoes." He called and in response he shoes floated across the room and placed themselves in front of him.

'I'll just put on my shoes and go down stairs and see if Mother's picked herself up off the floor, yet. I guess I could ask if she wants any thing. After all she is my mother. And that would definitely make tonight easier. She'll be less predisposed to getting upset again. Maybe I should go a little easier on her tonight. Yes, I think I'll see if I can get her anything.' he thought to himself as he readied himself to leave.

"Mother, I'll be leaving for London in a moment is there anything I could get you?" he asked as he re-entered the breakfast nook where his mother and Professor Snape had spoken hours before. Snape was long since gone, but his mother remained reading the Daily Prophet.

"Oh, Draco I thought you'd left long ago." she replied astonished at his sudden appearance. Normally she didn't see him again until the next meal. And even then only for a few minutes. "And yes, I would greatly appreciate it if you'd bring me some things I've ordered from Harrods. Oh, Draco, please don't give me that look. It's only a few things. Really, it's only about three or four things."

"Alright if you say so, Mother, but the last time I went in there you'd ordered about twenty or thirty things. And you told me it was only a few things."

"Draco, you are such a wonderfully charming boy. Such a gentleman, just like you're father. Now you take care, love, and remember even if the company isn't satisfactory…"

"…Be satisfactory to the company. I know, Mother, I know." Draco said in a bored tone. Then as he passed his mother on his way out he kissed her gently on the cheek. "I'll be back before dinner, Mother." He called over his shoulder as he walked to the chimney and Floo-powdered himself to London.

"Good-bye, darling." said his mother as she sat at the table and watched his departure knowing that it was all because he didn't want to upset her any further today. Not because he truly meant it.

This is a warning
This is a warning
This is a warning

'Or maybe he does he just doesn't know it. Though he is such a good actor just like his father.' Which always left her to play the fool. Though now she was quite good at that too. She had to be to live in this house.

'Oh, how I hope Sev was right about this year. I feel him slipping farther from me every day. And what hurts the most is to know that he doesn't see it or feel it. He doesn't know how dark his world really is. It will really hurt him when someone finally opens the door and let's the light in. He'll be shattered. Dear God, I hope he'll forgive me. I couldn't bear it if I lose the only thing I still hold dear.'

"Maybe Sev is right. With Lucius gone. Draco will be free of his influence. Maybe this really is the year. Oh, I only hope it's soon. It's almost time for his induction." she thought aloud.

'What was that, Mistress? Can Piper do anything for his Mistress?" Piper asked from the doorway.

"Oh, Piper, you startled me. No, dear, I was only thinking out loud. Do you think you could clear all this away. I'm not going to be eating anything more for a while?" Narcissa replied as she settled back down again to finish reading the Daily Prophet.

"Yes, Mistress, right away." Piper responded as he started to clear away the food and gather the dishes together.

"Oh, and Piper, Thank you ever so much for contacting Professor Snape this morning. I really needed that." She said as she watched the house elf with appreciation radiating from her blue eyes.

"It was nothing, Mistress. To be honest, Piper didn't know what else to do." He replied as he levitated the dishes off of the table. "Piper will have these dishes done in no time. If the Mistress should need Piper the Mistress need only call for Piper. And Piper will be there to assist the Mistress in a flash." He said as he disappeared out of sight, laidened with dishes.

"Thank you, Piper."