I don't know how many of these will be in Edward's point of view. This chapter has kicked my ass, stomped on me and then dragged me behind its car doing 80 on a dirt grated road. To say its rough is an under statement. I have written and re written it about 10 times. I hope this is liked as well…

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EPOV

I was confused and stupid. There was no other way to explain it. I acted like a child and dismissed the sweetest girl I've ever meet here so far. I've never been this dramatic before, she just seems to bring it out in me. Hearing her call the job stupid got to me and I don't know why, my family has called it stupid and I'd just laugh it off. I have no idea why this stranger saying it upset me to the point of being so rude; my mother would be so disappointed in me. Walking out to see her hiding in the corner of my porch made me realize what the dog was trying to get me to understand. I was beating myself up to much to check what he was barking about. I was going to go in to the station and talk with the Chief or better known as Charlie Swan, Bella's father. I wanted to make sure that we could still amicably work together before I started at the academy other wise I was going to have to attempt to transfer some where else.

I was angry, hurt and confused to see her sitting on the porch. It almost seemed like she was camping out to see me come out if I did. I was worried and shocked to see her brother and another guy pull up into my drive way. What made it way worse is seeing her brother have to carry her to the car. I blame myself. I have no idea what's wrong, but I'm sure it is or is going to be blamed as my fault.

I waited on the porch to see them off before I left but was nervous when I seen the giant ass wall of muscles walking towards me.

"I'm guessing your Edward Cullen?" I nodded not feeling the need to voice my answer. "Thank you for keeping her safe, I'm sure she will call you when she is feeling better."

"She wouldn't have been sitting out here had I know she needed to wait for a ride." Deciding to jump right in and be blunt asking the things on my mind. "Do you feel that this can be set aside and not cause issues with me working with you guys or honestly tell me no and I will find something else."

"I'm fine with it. I'm sure my dad is too. You won't get any breaks, but you are more then welcome to stay. From what I hear and have seen on your application you are someone we would want. You probably think it's your dad that got you this job, but it's not. When we go through the applicants you become a number, makes to where your skills and not your name is what get's you in." He looked back at the car real quick and then back to me. "When I heard it was a recruit that she left with I was pissed. I wanted to find out who it was and kick his ass, before removing him from the program, but find out it was you, really made it easier to stomach. I just hope you know you will not get any better or worse treatment from it."

"I appreciate that. I'd like to still start with you guys tomorrow and see how things go. For what it's worth I'm sorry for not recognizing her before we left the bar and for her sitting out here waiting for you."

"She stubborn, the only reason she called was to keep from crashing her car. Had it been her truck or one of our other cars she would have tried to drive home. I hope to see you Monday. I'm going to take her in to see your dad, he's waiting for us."

"My dad, I know it's none of my business, but is she ok?" I was already feeling like shit that she felt the need to sit outside cause of me, but to know I might have caused this.

"As alright as she can be right now. You dad will fix her up." I still don't know why he is being nice. I guess because he doesn't know how I treated her after her talk with her father.

*beep* *beep* *beep*

Stupid fucking alarm clock, who ever decided to invent these annoying things needs to be taken out side and used as a target for lots and lots of bullets of different calibers. Nothing like getting pulled from a repeating dream I've had since last week meeting Bella, waking to find her in my arms and loving the feel of it.

True to their word I wasn't treated any different then the other guys. I think I was responsible for making it worse. It probably has to do my way of thinking that if they approved maybe she would give me the time of day.

It's so hard not asking about her when I am around her dad and brother for 12 hours a day. I would see her coming and going on occasion, but was never in a position to go talk to her. I was getting pissy, annoyed and feeling like a petulant child. I wanted to ask her out, take her some where nice, show her how she deserved to be treated and trying to get to know her. I'd be lying if I said I wanted to be friends with her. I was in to deep for a girl that doesn't even remember I exist. If I'd been a girl, I'd be picking out china patterns.

I quickly showered, well as quickly as you can while having to take care of my self twice before I was calm enough to wash and get out. I hurriedly shaved and got dressed into my uniform and was out the door. Of course hitting snooze a few times trying to get my dream back, round two in the shower and I would be lucky to walk in there right on the dot.

Luck was not on my side as I slowed for a changing light the jackass behind me plowed into the back of my car. I was pissed; hell pissed didn't even cover it. Tossing my car into park, I threw my door open, going to go back and give the driver a piece of my mind and then get them to follow me to the station when I was stopped dead in my tracks.

"You obviously don't know how to fucking drive, three cars could have gone through that light before it turned red. You act like there was a cop watching you." There was my pissed off, angry and sexy as hell kitten with her claws drawn. She could scratch the hell out of me any day of the week and twice on Sunday. My shower issue was coming back.

"Does being one count?" I gave her a sexy grin knowing she would be looking at me any time now.

"Shit," She looked up, seemed to get more pissed off, "Let me guess you planned this so you could talk to me again."

"As flattered as I'm sure that would make you the answer would be no." Before I could finish my conversation she was on her phone calling someone.

"Hey, you want to practice processing a traffic accident?" She seemed so smug.

"Were at 4th and main." She walked over to the curb and sat down after tossing on her hazards. I wasn't sure what to do. I could tell from the conversation she called the station, but what the hell was I supposed to do? Felling my phone vibrate I looked at it to see Captain Blood on the caller ID.

"Emmett man I'm sorry, I'll take what ever the punishment is. I was running late and got into a car accident."

"Let me guess a spittin' mad brunette was operating the other vehicle?" He was chuckling. I'm never living this down.

"Yeah." I growled in frustration.

"Just hang out there; we are headed that way in a couple minutes. What is she driving?"

"Big ass black pick up."

"Oh hell. She's going to be out for blood. Protect your balls man." He laughed again and then hung up on me.

Realizing that she was out and moving, but I didn't even check to see if she was ok. I would kill my self if she was hurt. Sure it was a little fender bender, but I didn't want to take any chances.

Walking over to her I pulled her to her feet and started turning her in my arms to check and see with my eyes that she was ok. Seeing some blood trickle down her forehead I went back to my car grabbing my first responder bag I always had with me, having a doctor as a father had its perks, and then forced her to sit back down.

"You can hate me all you want. I'll pay for the repairs, just please let me take care of you." I was wiping the blood from her head before she could push me away.

"Why does it seem I am hurt when you are around? You're bad news Mr. Cullen, very bad news." I could tell she was being a smart ass, but her calling me Mr. Cullen sent me into another raging hard on with the twitching. I could distinctly feel the pre cum leaking out. Who the fuck was this woman, I was never this out of control when I was a geeky gangly teenager boy just after puberty.

"Fuck baby are you trying to kill me?" It slipped out of my mouth before I realized what I was saying.

"You're the one that seems to be around at my worst moments." She seemed to be contemplating this. I knew we didn't have much time left before they were all going to be here.

"I'm just your superman baby." I stood up doing my best super hero pose.

"Oh good Superman's here, makes my job easier. Get to processing you tights wearing fairy." Leave it to Emmett to take the tension and turn it into my embarrassment.

"Edward can you come with me please?" one of the front desk lady's asked when she peaked into the classroom. While I was walking out I was getting razzed about being in trouble. Who knows what this is this time.

I walked out to the lobby to find the one woman that almost made me beat the shit out of her. She was sitting there with a child; he appeared to be maybe 3.

"What the fuck, Amber why are you here?" I was pissed and not thinking. Pretty sure the training classroom could hear me.

"What the hell's going on here?" The chief came out of his office. "Language Cullen." He gave me a pointed look.

"Sorry sir, is there somewhere I can go talk with her?" I gave a pleading I have no fucking clue to his questioned brow.

Charlie walked over and crouched down to the little boy. "He buddy, what's your name?"

"Rayce, are you a real cop?" He talked like he was older then he looked.

"I am, if it's ok with your mama how about we go check out one of the cars. You can play with the lights and sirens." Charlie gave me a pointed look. I knew I was in for hell after this.

"He will be safe." I answered Amber's raised eyebrow. "Let's go talk." I mouthed a 'thank you' to Charlie and then turned and started walking. The clacking of her fucking stilettos told me she was following me.

On the way to a conference room I mapped out everything I wanted to know, once inside I lightly shut the door. I didn't want her to feel like she was trapped and wanted an escape for myself.

"I know how this looks. Give me 5 minutes and then I will leave."

"Fine." I leaned on the edge of the table with my arms crossed over my chest. "Talk"

"I'm sorry. I should have told you, should have been more careful. I can't and won't change, having Rayce for the world. Only thing I regret is keeping you away from him."

"Hold up Amber. How old is he? How are you sure he's mine? More importantly why should I believe you?"

"He's almost 5. I was 6 months pregnant when you left. A liar, a bitch yes, but you know deep down I was never a cheat. He's yours. You can DNA test to be sure, but I know 150% that he is yours. You would have to be stupid not to see you in him. He only got my hair color."

"Why now?" I could see from the moment I laid eyes on him that he was mine. I just didn't know what she was trying to prove coming here now.

"I can't take care of him anymore; you know I didn't have any family. My foster mom died a few years ago. I have no one. He should be with family." She looked like she was going to start crying.

"I'm sorry to hear Maggie isn't around anymore. You can't just decide that you don't want to be a mom anymore. Shit I never got the fucking choice to be a dad." I was glaring at her.

"I am going to New Zealand for treatment that might prolong my life a few months, but I'm dying Edward. I don't want your pity or sympathy. I just want you to think about your son and the hell I went through with my life. I don't want that for him."

"How am I supposed to take care of a kid? I have no experience. Shit I cuss too much. I don't even know how to take care of myself most the time. You couldn't have told me this a while ago?"

"If you don't want him or don't want to do this tell me and I will get paperwork started with the state. I leave tomorrow morning."

"Fuck. Let me see what I can do about getting out of here for the day and we can see where that goes."

I walked out of the room and right into my heart. "Bella love, I didn't expect you around today."

"Why didn't you tell me you had such a beautiful girl friend?" Amber seemed happy there was a 'woman' in my life.

I couldn't read Bella. She seemed almost comical. "Yeah honey, why didn't you tell her?" She leaned up and pretended to hug and kiss me while whispering, "You are explaining this before you take another step." Giving her a squeeze I nodded against her head. "Yes ma'am, I'm sorry." I could feel her shake her head slightly and then pull back.