A/N: sorry it took me so long I'm working on another fic that had just sucked me in. So here is chap 9 :) thanks for all the reviews and follows.

Oh my God! Oh my God! What did I do? How could I be so stupid. I fall back on my pillow back on my pillow after Austin ran out the door.

I have to call Trish. It rang only twice when a very tired and very angry Trish answered. " You better have a good reason Ally." in the background I hear Dez moan " no one I know calls this early." I then hear a ding " was that Dezs phone?"

"no it was his alarm" Trisg said quickly. "So why are you calling at this ungodly hour?"

" I don't even know where to begin. Well Austin came over last night because I was upset that Dallas was getting married. We began kissing and the next thing I knew we did it." I sunk my face in my palm.

"Ally that's wonderful we wanted it to happen for so long. We were beginning to think you were both dense that you couldn't see you're perfect together."

"No this isn't wonderful. This is I don't know. It feels wrong but I don't know."

"Well how was it?" Trish asked.

I shrug " I thought it was good but now I'm not sure since he ran out the door this morning."

"oh I'm sorry. Do you want to come over for breakfast later?"

"no thanks but I have to work. How could I be this stupid?" I hit myself in the forehead.

"you're not stupid. Shit happens. You know I'll call you later Dez is glaring at me" Trish said soothingly.

I realize how early it is " oh my gosh I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have called this early. I'll talk to you later." I hung up the phone and get myself out of bed. I rip off my sheets and stuff them in the hamper. "Last night never happened" I say out loud.

I shower and apply my make up. As I sat staring into the mirror I decided I was just going to tell him it was a mistake. I just hope I get to say it first.

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I felt bad about running out like that. Well I didn't run out I spent the night and I really have to go to work. Still I can't believe that happened. I text Dez "dude I think I did something stupid."

I get a response quicker then I expected "No one I know contacts me this early." Trish must be on the phone with Ally but I still need to talk to Dez.

"I'm sorry bro but I think I messed up my friendship with Ally."

"what did you do exactly?"

"well she called me over last night crying over Dallas getting married. Well I hugged her. Then she kissed me one thing lead to another and we did it."

"Wow dude! That's not awful it's wonderful. Trish and I were waiting for it to happen. How was it?"

"The during was great but then I felt suffocated. I had to get out of there. I feel bad for Ally you know how woman get."

"Sorry bro. Do you want to come over for breakfast?"

"no I'm already late."

"Good. I mean I don't want you to ruin your schedule more then you already have." Trish must of invited Ally over. " Call me later and we'll talk more."

"Ok" I reply back. I reach my apartment and hope in the shower. I let the water fall off my skin. I have to tell her it was a mistake. I just hope she says it first.

I call her on my lunch as promised " Hi Ally."

"Hello" she said flatly. I knew it was going to be weird like this but I kept talking.

"So are you still up for dinner?"

"Sure."

"Great. I'll make reservations at 21 club. I know you love their food."

"Sounds nice. Text me the time and I'll meet you."

"Ok. But I can pick you up it's no problem."

"No I'll just meet you there."

"Ok. See you tonight Ally." in the existence of us knowing each other that was the most awkward conversation we ever had.

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"Ah what to wear?" I said to myself. I got off work early since I'm ahead of my deadline. So I'm storming my closet to find something. I had to look like I was fine with my decision. Which I totally am; I think.

It was bad that we slept together right? Or was Trish right that it was meant to be? No it was wrong. God what if Austin read more into it? " Ha" I laugh. This is Austin, egotistical, womanizing, fraternizing Beck.

I grab my phone and dial "Trish please come over I need help."

"I'll be over in 10" she hung up.

"How did I let this happen?" I ask Trish who was sitting across from me at my kitchen island.

"You let your emotions get the best of you. It happens. You tell him it was a mistake and you move on. I'm sure Austin feels the same way."
She rests her head on her right hand leaving her left hand on the counter.

"You're right. Ah I'm so stupid."
I look down at the counter and get a glimpse of Trishs hand. On her ring finger is a solitaire round cut diamond. I grab her hand and she lurches forward " Ally!"

"Oh my God is this what I think it is?" I squeal.

"Yes" Trish smiles. "Ahh" I shout in joy and stretch to hug her much to her chagrin.

"Congratulations. When did it happen? I feel like a fool here I am talking all about me. Tell me everything."

"First of all you have a real issue so I don't mind. Second it happened 2 nights ago."

I swatted her hand " you waited 2 days to tell me? Were you ever going too" I joked.

"What I was busy" Trish shrugged.

"So tell me how it happened."

"Well I was surprised; which you know I hate. Anyway I came home from work and I find dinner all made and the dinning room set with candles. I call out to Dez and he comes out of the kitchen with a dozen roses. He gives me a kiss and leads me to the table. I immediately get curious and start asking a million questions and ask for an explanation. Dez holds up his hand for me to stop talking and gets on one knee."

I squeal at the story and urge Trish to go on.

" He takes my hand and says ' I've never been happier then when I'm with you. My whole life I've waited for the feeling of something to complete me and that thing is you. You are undoubtedly crazy and as stubborn as a mule but I wouldn't change you for anything. I love you Trish and you would make me the happiest and the luckiest guy in the world if you'd became my wife. So Trish will you marry me?'
against my will I start to cry. I tell him yes. We're getting married in 3 months."

I squeal again and get Trishs death glares if I make that noise again. " Sorry I'm just so happy for you! 3 months that isn't long."

"No it's not. It has to do with his grandmother or mother I don't know and really don't care. I just can't wait to marry him. Look at me excited for marriage. Remember when I used to make fun of people like me?". She laughed.

"yes I do remember." I smile I really am happy for them but I can't help feel a twinge of jealousy. I'm the only one who is still single. Too bad I'm allergic or I would start getting my cats now. Trish pulled me out of my thoughts " I want you to be my maid of honor. Will you?"

"Really? Oh my gosh of course. I'm so honored. What about your
sister?"

"the person who happens to share the same parents as I do is a bitch who lives out in LA and never calls or visits. You're my real sister and that's why I want you to be my maid of honor."

"That's the nicest thing you've ever said." I was so lost in talk about Trish I almost forgot why I called her here. Trish of course didn't " as for tonight aim for something classy that won't show a lot of skin. Your black leggings and blue button down would be nice. You can spice it up with your black sparkly belt and sort of matching bracelet. No dresses or skirts were keeping down there off limits Also wear your hair down we don't want him thinking about nibbling on your neck."

"Trish you said he would think it was a mistake."

"Just covering all the bases. Literally" she joked.

"Very funny. So what else should I do?"

XXX

Austin texted me that the reservation was for 8. I arrived at 7:30. I had taken Trishs advice on the outfit. God I feel like I'm going to a business dinner rather then dinner with one of my closets friend.

Austin arrived at 7:45. He looked very handsome in his suit he opted for no tie though. I really liked him in a suit, all he usually wears is t-shirts and jeans every chance he gets. Not that looks bad on him but he looks really good in a suit. God I have to stop these thoughts.
He leaned in and gave me a kiss on the cheek. "How was work?" he asked.

"Fine. I got out early due to being a head of schedule. How about you?"

"Boring but also fine. New client came in so that was pretty much the highlight at work." I nod in reply. Not a moment to soon our table was ready. We sat in silence other then ordering our food. It was now or never to say it was a mistake. I take a deep breath and blurt it out " last night was a mistake."

"I'm so glad you think so too" he quickly sighed in relief. Which upset me just a little. I must of had a frown on my face and he noticed because he continued. "not that it was great last night."

I put on my fake voice " yes it was." I would be lying to myself though if I said it wasn't.

He nods emphatically " yes it was. It just shouldn't of happened."

"right" I agree.

"Right" he says again. It was the answer I thought I wanted to hear but hearing it actually come out of his mouth made me want a different answer. I guess its for the best though.

We sat in silence again. The salads came and Austin began to eat as though everything was fine. "it's so nice when you can go to dinner with someone and not have to talk."

I watch him as I slowly pick at my salad. Did he really feel relieved that he didn't have to deal with me or even talk to me? I'm more depressed now then I was this morning.