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I seriously would not be this far without you guys! I love y'all! This chapter is called Lithium. I find this song to be beautifully written, and when I first heard this song I started going around school mumbling it under my breath in a creepy tone and my friends thought I was going crazy. Ah, sweet memories. . . Oh! Sorry, I'm rambling, here's chapter 6!

Chapter 6

Lithium

Ahsoka POV

I didn't sleep a wink last night; I was awake thinking about Lux. I think I made the biggest mistake of my life, and that's saying something considering that I have made mistakes before that have resulted in other peoples deaths.

I rolled over onto my side and gazed out the window. There was too much condensation on the window, so I could only make out that it was raining. It seemed like appropriate weather, being that I had just made the love of my life believe that I hated him.

I stretched my arms lazily and stood up weakly, I felt sick. I grabbed my pillow and threw it across the room; it hit the wall and slumped to the floor. I sighed and grabbed my lightsabers. I put them on my belt and then I saw a drop of water hit the floor. Then another, then another, and then it was like a waterfall. I slumped to the ground, buried my face in my hands, and cried.

I fell onto my back and groaned loudly. "I'm so stupid!" I sobbed.

My tears eventually slowed and stopped. I stood on my knees and wiped my eyes.

I wanted to talk to somebody, but I didn't know who. I couldn't very well tell Anakin, and Barriss wouldn't understand. Although this was usually my last resort, I decided to go see Padmé.

I grabbed my cloak and left my quarters. I stayed next to the wall as I walked; I wanted to avoid conversation if I came across another Jedi. I reached the gargantuan front doors and walked through them, the sky was almost pitch black and lightning was flickering across the sky. I heard distant thunder rumbling in the distance and it was pouring rain.

I put my hood over my head and ran down the steps. I sulked on my way to Padmé's apartment building, I was completely soaked, but I didn't care at this point. I entered Padmé's building with my head hanging. I walked into the turbo lift and rode up to her floor.

I knocked on the door. I was expecting Threepio to answer the door; not Padmé. "Ahsoka? What are you doing? You're soaking wet! Come inside."

She grabbed my hand and pulled me into her penthouse. "Take off that cloak; you'll get sick if you keep it on."

I kept my gaze fixed on the floor as I took off the cloak. Padmé took it and disappeared briefly and came back out with a blanket. "Here, this will keep you warm."

I took the blanket from her and wrapped it around my shivering body. "Is there something you wanted to talk about, Ahsoka?" Padmé asked sitting on the couch; she motioned for me to sit next to her.

I sat down, "Yes, actually. There is something I want to talk about."

Padmé put an arm around me in an effort to be comforting. "What's wrong?"

I sighed and looked down. "Last night, after Rosette was born. Lux told me he wished he could have a child one day and I asked why he couldn't. He said he only loved one person and that he could never be with her."

I paused and Padmé leaned forward. "I asked who it was and he took me to the roof to tell me. I asked who it was again and then he. . ." I stopped.

"He what?" Padmé asked.

"He, he kissed me and said he loved me." I felt more tears.

"What did you do?" Padmé asked.

"I didn't do anything. I my facial expression came across to him as betrayed. He said he would never bother me again and then he left." I sniffled.

"Ahsoka, I'm so sorry." Padmé said. "But I have a question for you now."

I looked up at her with tears in my eyes. "What?"

"Do you love him back?" She asked.

I was a bit shocked at the question. "I live by the Jedi Code, I can't love anyone."

"Ahsoka." Padmé coaxed.

I sighed before nodding weakly. "I do, I'm in love. There, I said it."

"Then go tell him that." Padmé said. "I promise I won't tell anyone."

"No, Padmé, you don't get it. I can't love Lux and be a Jedi at the same time." I said truthfully.

Padmé sighed. "Ahsoka, I am about to tell you something you can not tell anyone else. Do you understand?"

I nodded. "Ahsoka," Padmé began. "Anakin and I are married."

I widened my eyes before screaming. Padmé clamped her hand over my mouth, "Ahsoka! Be quiet!"

I stopped screaming and removed her hand from my mouth. "You're married!" I said in a normal tone. "How can you two be married?!"

"Anakin and I first met on Tatooine, and then again after that when he was assigned to protect me here on Coruscant. We spent a lot of time together and we fell in love. Then we found a priest on Naboo and got married there." Padmé said calmly.

I sat in silence for a few minutes, trying to comprehend what she had just said. I always knew there was something in between them, but not marriage!

"How are you two doing it?" I asked.

"We haven't told anyone." Padmé said. "Anakin keeps his emotions in check and I don't breathe a word of it to anybody."

I sighed. "Then what do I do about Lux?"

Padmé just gave me a hug. "Follow your heart."

"Thanks, Padmé." I said. "I'd better get going."

She handed me my now dry cloak. "Everything will be okay, Ahsoka."

"Thanks." I said. I put my cloak back on and left.

I groaned. "Great advice, Padmé." I said sarcastically. Maybe I should talk to Lilo?

I walked back into the turbo lift and pressed the button for Lilo's floor which was a few floors down.

I knocked on the door and Lilo answered almost immediately. "Ahsoka!" She said happily. "Come in!"

"Thanks, Lilo." I said glumly. I stepped inside and saw Marina sitting on the couch with Rosette in her arms. "Hey, Marina."

"Hey, Ahsoka." Marina said with a smile.

"What is it?" Lilo asked.

"I need to talk to you guys." I said, my expression turning sad.

"What is it?" Marina asked. I sat down next to her and she handed the sleeping Rosette to me.

I sighed and looked at Rosette. She fluttered her eyelashes and smiled at me. I smiled back at her and stroked her cheek. I was starting to realize how much I wanted to have a child of my own some day. "I've made a mistake." I said, looking up from Rosette who had started playing with my fingers.

"What is it?" Lilo asked.

I told them everything I told Padmé. "Why can't you just tell him you feel the same?" Marina asked, taking Rosette back.

"Because I'm forbidden to form attachments. I'm not supposed to be attached to anyone. I can't get married, have kids, or be in love. I can't imagine what the council would do if they found out I had two sisters and a niece, let alone in love!" I said.

Marina and Lilo gasped in unison. "Ahsoka, I never knew that." Marina said.

I wiped my nose. "It's okay." I looked at Marina, then at Lilo. "What should I do?"

Lilo sighed, "I wish I knew what to tell you, Ahsoka. But I choose not to mess with boys."

I turned to Marina. "It doesn't matter what the council says," she began. "They can't stop you from being in love, and you need to tell him how you feel, before you lose him forever."

I thought about that, and I couldn't lose Lux. "I have to go." I stood up and ran out before they could say anything.

I pulled my hood over my head and ran through the streets; I had to get to Lux.

I reached his building and walked inside. I ran to the turbo lift and pressed the button for the floor I remember his apartment was on. The turbo lift opened and I found his apartment. I hesitantly knocked the door.

The door opened slightly. "What do you want?" I heard Lux's upset voice.

"Lux, I need to talk to you." I said. "Can I come in?"

He sighed before opening the door all the way. I walked inside and followed him out to his small balcony.

It was pouring rain, but neither one of us cared. "What is it?" Lux asked.

I stood on the tips of my toes and pressed my lips against his. My eyes were closed, but I could sense his were open at first. Then he closed them and wrapped his arms around my waist as I held his face in my hands. This was so much better than the fake kiss we shared at Death Watch, and it was so much better than the one we had last night. This one was passionate, loving, and sweet. How romantic, my first real kiss in the rain.

We pulled apart and I spoke first, "I love you."

Lux kissed me again, but it was quick. "I love you, too."

I hugged him. "How long have you loved me?" I asked.

Lux smiled and kissed my forehead. "When you first came to Raxus and I reached for your bag."

I smiled at him before kissing his nose. "I've loved you since you asked if I was a Jedi."

Lux hugged me tightly. "I love you so much."

"Lux, I love you. But we can never be together." I said as I remembered the truth.

"Why not?" Lux asked.

"I'm a Jedi, I can't love." I said looking down.

Lux lifted my chin gently. "Nobody has to know, Ahsoka. We can do it secretly."

I looked into his eyes. "How?"

Lux kissed me again with much more passion. When he pulled back he said, "We'll take it day by day."

I wrapped my arms around his neck. "I love you."

Lux wrapped his arms around my waist. "I love you more."

I smiled. "I love you most."

We kissed again, and this one was the best, and I enjoyed every minute of it.

And that was the last chapter! The epilogue should be up pretty soon, and then out comes the sequel! Read and respond!