I own none of the characters of Angel
"So what did the car do to you?" Angel asked with a cocky grin.
"I'm sorry I'm late. Traffic sucked."
"I would have waited all night for you."
"Thanks." She whispered softly.
"Nice shoes by the way." He complemented and she flashed him her beautiful grin.
"Thanks for noticing." I knew that I picked the right pair. She thought to herself.
"So what did you want to talk about?" He really couldn't stand the suspense much longer.
"Can we walk?" He nodded and she took his hand. He felt a surge of electricity flow through him when their hands touched. They walked to the edge of the bluffs where they could see out into the ocean. "It's beautiful isn't it?" She asked
"I've never seen anything more beautiful." He said looking at her, not the ocean.
"I love the ocean."
"I know you do."
She turned to face him. Her stomach was in giant knots. She took a deep breath to try and calm her nerves. It's now or never Chase. "I have something to tell you, about Gru and I."
"Let me guess? You're in love with him." He said bitterly.
"Angel I…"
"As long as you're happy then I'm happy for you."
"Will you please let me talk?" She snapped.
"Sorry."
"Gru left me."
"I'm going to kill that son of a bitch. I'm going to rip his throat out. I'm going…"
"ANGEL."
"Sorry." He mumbled again.
"It won't be necessary to kill Gru. We parted on good terms."
"Why?" He whispered.
"He knew I wasn't in love with him."
"You're not?" He felt a slight feeling of hope surge through him.
"No Angel I'm not. I'm in love with another man." As quickly as the hope entered his body it vanished just as quickly. She said man so it can't be him because he isn't a man. He's a vampire.
"Who? Wesley?"
"Oh dear god no. Are you insane? If Wesley was the last man on earth I wouldn't love him."
"Then who?" He needed to know.
"Angel, I'm in love with you." She answered looking into his brown eyes.
"Cordy, I…"
"Gru saw that and he made me realize that. I know that I'm not Buffy and I know that you probably don't feel the same but I needed you to know." She was now looking at the ground so he couldn't see the tears rolling down her cheeks and the fear of rejection shining in her eyes.
"Cordelia would you please look at me." She slowly raised her head. "You're right. You aren't Buffy. You are a totally different person. I never thought that I would feel anything for another woman again after Buffy but I was wrong. I feel for you. I feel strongly for you. I love you too Cordy. I've loved you from afar for so long."
"Then why haven't you told me?"
"Because I can't offer you what you deserve. You deserve a man that can walk hand and hand with you into the ocean in the bright light of day. You deserve a man who can walk outside period. You deserve a man who can make love to you and give you the family that you deserve. You deserve to be happy Cordelia and I'm not the one who can give that happiness to you." He had no idea why he was fighting her on this. He loved her, she loved him. It really should be that simple but it wasn't. As much as he wanted to be with her he knew he couldn't. It wasn't fair to ask her to sacrifice everything just to be with him.
"I don't care about walking outside in the day light. The day is too overrated anyway. The sun is bad for your skin. If I'm with you then I don't need a family. You are my family now anyway and the sex. I can live without sex Angel. Sex isn't all it's cracked up to be anyways."
"Bullshit Cordy. You are a young beautiful woman with sexual needs and desires."
"There are other ways to fulfill those needs Angel."
"Cordy if we do this and you give up all of these things you will eventually hate me and I would rather be without you then to risk you hating me."
"I'll hate you if you push me away Angel. I enjoy having sex but I would much rather fall asleep every night in the arms of the man that I love then have empty sex for the rest of my life. Sex is just sex if you're not in love. What we have if so much more than sex. You are my best friend Angel but I want more than that. I want to hold you in my arms. I want your face to be the first one that I see and kiss every morning and I want your face to be the last thing I see and kiss every night before I fall asleep. I want to love you like you deserve to be loved Angel. Will you let me do that? Will you let me love you?" She begged softly with tears rolling down her cheeks.
"Are you sure about this Cordy?" He asked as he wiped away her tears with his thumb.
"I've never been more sure of anything in my life."
"I want to make sure that you realize everything that you are giving up."
"I'm gaining so much more by being with you." He had no other argument left. She had convinced him that she wanted to be with him and he wasn't going to fight her on it anymore. He gently cupped her face.
"I love you so much Cordelia Chase." He whispered huskily.
"I love you too Angel. More than you'll ever know." He pulled her towards his chest. He looked for any doubt in her brown eyes and when he saw none he slowly leaned forward, closed his eyes and pressed his lips to hers in a soft gentle kiss.
The gentleness of the kiss didn't last long. It quickly turned passionate. His tongue probed for entrance into her mouth, which she quickly granted. His tongue explored every possible crevice and she did the same to him as her hands wound around his neck. She reluctantly pulled away when she had to breathe but his lips didn't want to stray away from her so moved his lips down her neck while she caught her breath. Within seconds she was pulling his face back up to hers and their lips crashed together.
Suddenly Cordy felt and electric shock on her lower back and she knew that it wasn't the sparks from their kiss. She pulled away, gasping in pain and fell to the ground, darkness surrounding her. The last thing she saw was Angel's confused eyes staring at her.