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Can't Stop This Thing We've Started
Part 3: I Forgot to Remember to Forget
Jacob was struggling not thinking about Nessie. He was trying to keep casual thoughts but it proved to be extremely difficult. Especially when she was sitting so close to him. He shifted nervously in his seat and glanced around the kitchen and glanced into the living room where Rosalie and Emmett were now focusing on the television. Jacob could distinctly hear Edward's car make it's way toward the house. He winced and started to think about the rain outside. But his thoughts were slowly trailing to Nessiein the rain so he shook his head and remembered the other day when Paul and Embry were fighting in the forest. It had been funny how Embry threw Paul's body in that certain way; it looked comical the way it was soaring through the air. Yes, he would concentrate on that.
Nessie bit her lower lip and glanced at Jacob. She was forcing herself to think about broccoli. She didn't like human food that much to begin with, and broccoli was definitely something she despised above all. Broccoli, broccoli.
Edward pulled up his car into the garage and emerged. Alice skipped out, not even bothering to close the door. Jasper smirked as she closed it for her. Bella shut the door softly and Edward smiled as he reached for his wife and wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her to his side. Jasper had decided to head to his office, while Alice wandered into the living room to see Emmett and Rose.
Nessie felt cold fear hit her when her parents entered the house. She turned to Jacob who seemed to be concentrating hard on something.
"Let's go," she hissed.
"Where?" Jacob muttered out of the corner of his mouth.
"I don't know! You're house," she said. Nessie pulled away from Jacob as Alice danced into the kitchen and flashed them a wide grin, leaning against the counter which was a bit high for her.
"What are you two whispering about? You haven't seen us all day Nessie. Let's do something fun," Alice smiled brilliantly and rested her chin in her open hand. Nessie knew Alice couldn't possibly know about what had went down today, she struggled with seeing a future that involved her and Jacob.
"I don't know, Alice. Jacob was going to show me..." Nessie tried to think fast, but she couldn't think of anything decent that Jacob could be showing her.
Edward and Bella walked into the kitchen. Edward eyed his daughter and Jacob warily, their minds were muddled and all over the place. Bella patted Jacob on the back and squeezed Nessie's shoulder. She stood next to Alice. Edward watched Jacob's expression, sensing something had happened while he was at school.
"What did you two do today?" Edward asked, listening carefully to their thoughts. He heard Alice thinking about taking Nessie out shopping again tomorrow. Emmett and Rosalie were thinking about heading to their bedroom soon. Bella was thinking about last night, which distracted Edward from his task temporarily.
"Uh, well, Jake and I were gonna go," Nessie said, getting off her chair and eyeing Jacob. Jacob stood quickly behind Nessie whose height reached just above his elbow.
"Go where?" Bella asked, curiously. She eyed her husband who was edging closer to her and had his hand now firmly placed on the small of her back, rubbing it in soothing circles.
"Jake's," Nessie shrugged, trying to be cool and calm.
"Fine, but be home by ten. You promised me you'd try on the new clothes I bought you yesterday," Alice said. Nessie scowled at being reminded of the promise.
"Excuse me? I'm her mother," Bella protested.
Alice glanced at Edward and Bella before flicking her gaze back at Nessie and Jacob. "You didn't answer fast enough. You were distracted," Alice smirked.
"Regardless," Bella defended, pouting slightly. Edward pulled Bella closer to him when her lower lip jutted out slightly in the most tempting way.
"Go along, now!" Alice waved to Jake and Nessie. Nessie had purposefully avoided staring at her loving parents and gladly raced out of the house with Jacob closely following. Once they were fully concealed by the trees, Nessie grabbed Jacob's hand and was pulling him along after her.
"How distracted is Edward right now?" Jake asked glancing through the trees back at the house.
"I don't know, why?" Nessie asked. Jacob frowned and pulled his hand from Nessie's. She turned and stared at him a bit annoyed. Jacob flashed her an impish grin before exploding out of his human skin and into a wolf. "Ah," Nessie beamed and climbed onto Jacob's back and held onto his fur tightly as he pounced gracefully through the trees toward La Push. Nessie felt comfortable riding Jacob's wolf form. She had been doing this since she was quite young and always loved the thrill and the feeling of the wind whipping her face. She could never run as fast as Jacob, and she envied him slightly. She laughed when Jake let out a fun bark and she held onto him closer.
She glanced to her right and saw Seth in his golden wolf form bouncing beside Jacob playfully running at the same speed. Seth jumped up and snapped his jaw happily at Nessie. She laughed. Suddenly, she felt a certain weight of realization hit her: she was so perfectly happy; she couldn't ever remember feeling this content. She relished in the feeling and nuzzled her face into Jacob's fur.
Jacob came to a slow halt and Nessie climbed down from his back and rounded to his face and petted his forehead. Seth came beside her in cut-off jeans and grinned up at Jacob, condescendingly.
"In your haste you forgot to bring clothes," he laughed, pointing at Jacob who growled lowly. Nessie smiled slightly but felt a bit embarrassed about this fact. She hadn't seen Jacob completely naked before. He was always very careful about having his pants following him closely when he was a wolf. Today he forgot. He was so preoccupied about getting Nessie faster to his house that pants hadn't even crossed his mind. Well, not in the way he should be thinking about pants...
But now Seth knew about Nessie and Jacob too. Which wasn't too good.
Nessie realized this and quickly rounded at Seth. "How much do you know?" she wondered quickly.
"Everything," Seth grimaced slightly. "Don't worry, I'll avoid coming over until your family knows. I'm not as good at keeping my thoughts from Edward like you two. But, I say you tell him soon. Or else it could just slip out one day and then you will feel his and Bella's wrath for not telling them sooner."
Nessie groaned and rubbed Jacob's nose, searching for comfort. Jacob nudged his face into the crook of her neck and she giggled.
"It's hard. How do you bring that up after years of them understanding and knowing the inevitable?" Nessie mused.
"I don't know," Seth laughed. "It's your problem, not mine. Or, rather, it's both your problems, now!" Jacob didn't like how much Seth seemed to be enjoying their predicament so he bared his teeth at him. "Okay, okay! I'll get you pants, I always keep a few around here just in case," he muttered wandering away from the two of them.
Nessie sighed. "What are we gonna do Jake?" she asked, dejectedly. Jacob whined slightly and moved closer to her. They stood there near the edge of the forest close to the beach, waiting for Seth to bring Jacob pants.
When Seth finally returned, he tossed the pants to Jacob who caught them in his mouth, and walked away into the thick trees to hide himself from Nessie. He emerged as regular Jacob in a pair of dark blue sweats. Nessie's eyes were focusing on his bare chest a little too much, which caused Jacob to chuckle slightly, snapping her out of her reverie. They hadn't even noticed that Seth was nowhere to be seen, he had left them soon after delivering the sweats.
Jacob rubbed her arms methodically and then led her through the trees onto the beach, walking in the direction to Jacob's small house on the reservation. When they got close, Jacob debated whether he should just climb through the window or walk through the front door. He decided to be respectful to his father and brought Nessie around the house and opened the front door.
"Jake, is that you?" Billy called, as he wheeled out of his bedroom. He grinned hugely when he saw his son (someone he barely got to see) and Nessie.
"Yeah, hey dad!" Jacob smiled and nodded to his father. While holding Nessie's hand he pulled her to the couch and seated her right next to him.
"Hey, Billy. How've you been?" Nessie asked politely. She always liked Billy, she just never got a chance to see him often. Well, it wasn't like she didn't have the time, she just never thought of spending it here, especially when Jacob came over every single day anyway.
"I've been well, Nessie. How're your parents?" Billy wondered, stopping in front of the couch.
"They're good, I guess," she shrugged. She didn't want the conversation to come to a whole stop and it make it awkward so she decided to elaborate. "They've been commuting to British Columbia - you know, attending university."
"Well, good for them," Billy nodded; he was never one to talk a whole lot. Billy noticed the way Jacob stared at Nessie as he often did when he was near his son and his imprint. It always pleased him that his son found someone to share the rest of his life with. Even though the situation was a bit too twisted for his taste. "Well, I was actually just going to lay down for a nap."
"No problem, we can entertain ourselves," Jacob said, shrugging. Billy nodded and wheeled himself out of the front room and toward his bedroom. Once Billy's bedroom door was closed, Nessie and Jacob sat there silently for a few minutes. The television wasn't on. They just stared at nothing.
Finally, Jacob couldn't take it anymore and leaned toward her and kissed her lips. Nessie responded immediately, feeling the desire consume her as she fell back onto the couch. She wasn't as tall as the couch so her feet still had plenty of room at the end; but it wasn't that way for Jacob, who was laying half on top of her and half off the couch. He was too tall for his own good. Jacob grunted and lifted her off the couch, Nessie let out a squeal before she could stop herself. He carried her - while still keeping his lips firmly planted on her own - past his father's bedroom and toward his own. The double bed that took up the whole space of his bedroom still wasn't big enough for Jacob. But it was better than the stupid couch. When Jacob let go of her on the bed, the springs squeaked slightly. Jacob positioned her diagonally on the bed; it was just more easier for him. Nessie grinned up at him as he climbed onto the bed and hovered over her eager body. Nessie thanked the Lord that Billy was the only person they actually knew - besides Charlie - who didn't have super sensitive hearing or able to read ones thoughts.
Jacob teased Nessie shamelessly while he kissed her neck and his hands roamed over her body, before he finally brought himself to her lips once again. Nessie felt so incredibly hot that she didn't know how she would be able to survive the heat. The two of them already ran very high temperatures, but with the added passionate embracing, the heat sky rocketed. Nessie gasped as Jacob slipped his tongue expertly into her mouth.
This was it. This is what they're relationship was supposed to lead to. It was supposed to lead to the two of them together. It finally made sense. There was a time when Nessie had been unsure; she thought it would be much less complicated if they stayed best friends - but she didn't regret that moment when she kissed him. An hour ago.
It seemed the two of them couldn't get close enough to one another. They were pressing themselves together tightly and it still wasn't close enough. Jacob slipped his hand underneath her back and pulled her body upward to his. Was it too soon to go all the way? Did it matter? It would lead to that someday or another. Nessie pushed him off and Jacob rolled onto his back. Nessie climbed on him and straddled his body before leaning downward and kissing him once again. Jacob was struggling not to lose control. This was the closest to sex he had ever been and having the love of his life straddle him was making him lose all the sense and self-control he had. He had to remind himself that it was still too soon. Bella and Edward didn't even know yet! But Nessie slipped her hands on a particularly sensitive spot on his bare chest and that moment of responsible thinking went right out his small bedroom window.
Jacob sat up and Nessie was now sitting comfortably in his lap, which made Jacob groan. He ran his fingers through Nessie's long bronze coloured curls, inhaling her scent. Nessie breathed in sharply - something she hadn't remembered to do in a while. Breathing. Yes. Remember that, Nessie. She gripped his shoulders tightly, loving the warmth and strength of them. She pulled away from his mouth and tilted her head to kiss his glorious shoulder. Oh, how she wanted him.
But just like Jacob, reality crashed onto her focused mind rather rudely. They were dangerously tip-toeing into forbidden territory. But was it so forbidden? Nessie believed it was. At least for now it was. Her parents didn't even know and she couldn't go home with thoughts of having sex with Jacob racing through her head. She wasn't sure she'd be able to stop thinking about it. No, she knew she wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it. She pulled away from him and leaned her body away from his slightly. Jacob was staring into her eyes lovingly and passionately and she wanted nothing more than to continue their little...session. But she had to be firm.
"Jake," she whispered, catching her breath.
Jacob mistook her use of his name as the kind that is murmured in the throws of passion. "Nessie," he mimicked in the same breathy tone before kissing her once again.
If you ask me, Nessie's self control was similar to Edward's. It wasn't the right time. And in some ways it was dangerous. So she pulled away again.
"Jake," she said more firmly, warning him. Jacob noticed her tone and gave her a curious look. "We have to stop."
Jacob was reminded that they had only declared their new relationship status just an hour ago. She was right. They had to stop. As much as it would kill him to pull her off his lap, he did it just the same. Nessie hated it when she was now sitting alone on the bed. Jacob stood up and pushed himself against the wall. He wasn't that far from Nessie because of the small space, but it felt like miles to the both of them.
"We have to tell my parents," Nessie said. She closed her eyes. This big knot in her stomach turned uncomfortably. Fear. She was terrified to tell her family.
"Yeah, we do," Jacob agreed. He was trying to clear his head and stared out the window attempting not to glance down at Nessie again. "Are you ready?" he asked.
Nessie sighed heavily. "Yeah, I suppose." She stood up off the bed and was once again very close to Jacob. He looked down at her and they said nothing for a few moments before they were once again on the bed kissing.
They'd get back to the Cullen's eventually.
R/R!