PREVIOUS NIGHT

"Angel, Catherine is adorable." Buffy said staring at Angel who was watching Cordy carry her up to bed.

"Yeah she is." He responded softly

"Cordy seems to have adjusted well to motherhood." Angel nodded but didn't respond

"Ok, so let's talk about this vamp problem." Buffy said and the two began to formulate a plan. Hours later they were all talked out and they had moved from the table to the couch in the lobby having a cup of tea. Buffy was sitting very close to Angel, resting her hand on his knee. He made no effort to move it away. It was a comfortable feeling. Buffy smiled to herself. Things were going according to her plan.

"What happened to Cordy?" Buffy asked, "Why didn't she come back down"

"She probably fell asleep reading Catherine her story."

"Angel, are you happy?"

"Yeah, sure I am. Why wouldn't I be?"

"I don't know why you wouldn't be happy. You tell me."

"I am happy Buffy. I have Connor. Our relationship is great. I have the most beautiful daughter ever and I have Cordy."

"Are things good between you two?"

"Of course. Things are fine."

"Then why was she surprised when I told her that we have been talking on the phone?"

"I, uhhh, I may not of mentioned it to her."

"If things are so hunky dory between you two, why wouldn't you tell her that you have been have phone conversations with an old friend?"

"I don't know. It just never came up."

"Yeah sure it didn't." Angel didn't respond and they sat in silence for a while. Buffy's hand slowly moved from his knee up his thigh. He made no move to stop her.

This is going well. Buffy thought. Better than I thought actually.

"Buffy…"

"What Angel?"

"Never mind." He said softly.

"My boyfriend and I broke up."

"You mean you and Spike broke up."

"You knew?"

"Yeah I knew."

"How?" Buffy was shocked. She hadn't told anyone at Angel Investigations that she was with Spike.

"I come to Sunnydale occasionally to check on you."

"Why?"

"Because you're my friend."

"Does Cordelia know that you came to Sunnydale to check on your friend?" Angel shook his head. "Do you want to know why I think that you didn't mention your visits to Cordy?"

"Do I have a choice?"

"You didn't tell her because you know that she would get pissed off."

"No, she wouldn't. We are just friends."

"Are we just friends Angel?"

"Of course we are."

"Then why is my hand resting high up on your thigh?" Angel jumped up and walked quickly away from Buffy. She followed him and placed her hand on his shoulder.

"Angel, I still love you. I never stopped."

"Buffy don't." Using her strength as a slayer she spun him around to face her.

"I love you." She whispered softly

"Buffy please, I have…I'm with Cordy."

"I can accept that if you can look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me."

"I…I…Jesus Buffy."

"You can't do it can you?"

"I will always love you. You were my first love, but…"

"But what?"

"Why do we have to talk about this?"

"Just look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't have feelings for me and I will drop it."

Angel looked Buffy in the eyes for a few minutes. He sighed.

"I don't think I can." He said with tears in his eyes

Buffy grabbed Angel by the shirt and pulled him towards her and kissed him. He took his hands and cupped her face. Her hands found his way to his ass. She caressed it.

Jesus, I have missed his mouth and his ass. God, I have really missed his tight ass. Buffy thought.

Angel shoved his tongue into her mouth. She eagerly shoved her tongue in his mouth, both of them searching for each other. Angel slowly broke the kiss and looked at Buffy, for a second then he attacked her lips again with force. Buffy grabbed his ass tightly. He kissed her harder. Suddenly he realized what has happening and he quickly pulled away from Buffy.

"What the hell Angel?" Buffy snapped

"No, this is wrong, all wrong." He stuttered.

"It's was right. You felt it. I know you did."

"I don't know what I was feeling. The only thing that I do know for sure is that the only person that I want to kiss is Cordy."

"If you are so sure about that then why did you kiss me?"

"You kissed me first."

"You kissed me second."

"And you enjoyed it."

"Look, this never should have happened. Let's just forget it." Angel snapped as he headed to the stairs.

"No let's not forget it." She said as she chased him up the stairs.

"This never happened. I made a mistake." He whispered. They were approaching his bedroom.

"Angel, we were never a mistake." She tried to kiss him, but he held her back.

"Buffy, no it's over."

"No, Angel it's not." She said as she walked into the room where she was staying.

Buffy was furious. She is not used to losing. In fact she never lost and she wasn't going to start now by losing Angel.

I'll be damned if Cordelia Chase will win this battle. Angel was mine first and he will be mine last. He won't tell her what happened. I know he won't and I will use that to my advantage. Buffy thought. She felt good by the time she fell asleep.

After taking a moment to compose himself, Angel slowly opened his bedroom door and breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Cordy buried under the blankets and pillow. He had no idea what to say to her and he was thankful that he wouldn't have to talk to her tonight. He walked into Catherine's room and saw his daughter sleeping peacefully in her crib. Tears filled his eyes.

"Oh baby girl, your dad is one big screw up." He whispered to Catherine "Your mom is going to hate me. I don't know if I can fix this but I promise you darling, I'm going to try my hardest. I love you." He kissed her gently and headed for bed.

He climbed carefully into bed, trying not to wake Cordy. He wanted to kiss her goodnight, like he always does, but he couldn't make himself do it. He was afraid that he would hurt her more so he just lay down and stared at the ceiling.

Jesus Christ, what the hell have I done? Why did I kiss her back? Why did I kiss her a second time? All of the old feelings came rushing to the surface, feelings that I had forgotten that I had but once my brain function returned I knew that Cordy is the one that I want to be with. So do I tell her? Would I want her to tell me if she did something like that? Hell yeah so I could rip the asshole's throat apart. She will be so pissed off if she found out. I possibly just ruined the best thing that ever happened to me. What the hell am I going to do?

Angel wrestled with these thoughts all night arguing with himself on whether or not to tell Cordy about the huge mistake that he made. As the sun rose he finally decided to not to break her heart.