Angel watched helplessly as Cordy and Catherine walked out into the bright sunlight. He desperately wanted to follow, but unfortunately, there was no direct sewer access to Cordy's apartment and he figured that none of his friends, if they were still his friends at this point, would be willing to drive him over to see her. He would just have to wait until sundown.
"Come on Ciara. We need to help her settle in." Connor said as he took her hand. He was so worried about Cordy and his sister and he was so angry at his father that he couldn't stand to be in the same room with him.
Angel had a slight glimmer of hope when he heard Connor say that he was going to Cordy's. "Son, can you take me with you?"
"Sure thing dad." Angel was thrilled. "Just hop in the back of my truck. Fresh air will do you good."
"You could have just simply said no." He should of known better. He knew that Connor was pissed at him and he should be. Hell, he was pissed at himself.
"Tell her I'll be by later." Fred said to Connor and Ciara's back. They both nodded.
"If you need me I'll be upstairs." Angel said to the silent room as he headed upstairs. He couldn't take their stares any longer.
Angel shut the door softly behind him looked around his room. With a quick glance, it looked as if she was still there. Pictures of his family still remained throughout the room. All of the feminine touches that she put on the room still remained. He gently ran his fingers over the petals of the flowers that he had given her the week before. He smiled as he remembered her face. She was so happy. He destroyed her happiness. He walked into Catherine's room. Her bed and some of her toys still remained. He knew that Cordy was telling the truth when she said that he could see Catherine whenever he wanted. He hated that she wasn't with him and he needed something of his daughter so he grabbed one of her dolls. He now searched for something, anything of Cordy's. He opened all of her dresser drawers but they were empty. He walked into their bathroom. All of her bra's that were usually hanging were gone. He opened the medicine cabinet and it was void of all of her belongings. He slowly walked back out to the bedroom. He looked around when something hanging out from under the bed caught his eye. He bent down and pulled out one of her tee shirts that she slept in. He quickly grabbed it, thankful for small miracles. He climbed in on Cordy's side of the bed and hugged her pillow to his chest, clinging to her scent. He couldn't believe that his life had come to this. He let the tears flow as his body shook with sobs.
--
"Who is it?" Cordy asked from behind the closed door.
"Connor and Ciara."
"Are you alone?" Cordy hadn't even had time to activate the uninvite spell. She wasn't sure if her invitation that she gave Angel when she lived her before would still hold up since she had moved out but she wasn't taking any chances.
"Yeah, it's just us." The door slowly opened and Connor and Ciara stepped in and Cordy was nowhere to be seen. As soon as they were past the entrance the door shut behind them. Ciara gripped Connor's hand tightly.
"Okay, this is creeping me out." Connor said.
"Dennis, stop it. You're scaring them." Cordy said as she came around the corner with Catherine right on her heels.
"Dennis?" Ciara asked. She was afraid that Cordy was losing her mind; she was talking to someone that wasn't there.
"Yeah, phantom Dennis. He is my ghost roommate." Cordy looked horrible. She had bags under her eyes, which were red and swollen from crying.
"You have a ghost for a roommate?" Connor was also having a hard time thinking that she was still sane.
"Dennis, quit being rude and introduce your self." Cordy demanded and the lights flicked on and off.
"Okay, then." The young couple was still a bit uncomfortable with the whole ghost thing so they chose to ignore it. "So can we help?" Connor asked
"Yeah, that would be great. It's been a pain in the ass bringing in my stuff from the car with Catherine tailing behind me."
Catherine finally realized that Connor and Ciara were there. She flung herself into her brother's arms. "Ner, Ara, look." She said happily. Catherine still hadn't mastered the letter C yet. Ciara took over watching Catherine while Cordy and Connor brought in everything from her car.
"Look Cordy, I'm sorry for all of this shit."
"Connor sweetie, you have nothing to be sorry for."
"I know but I'm still sorry that this has happening to you. I am so pissed at him." Connor said, his voice full of anger.
"Thanks for being sorry, but it's my fight not yours. I don't want our problems to affect your relationship."
"It's too late for that. He was incredibly stupid for ruining the best thing that ever happened to him."
"I agree Connor, he is an ass, but he and Buffy have a history together. She was his first love, sometimes people don't get over that." Cordy said that with confidence that she didn't feel inside.
"Well I for one plan on never getting over my first love." Connor said looking lovingly at Ciara, who was on the floor playing with Catherine. He saw the tears in Cordy's eyes and he realized the stupid insensitive comment that just came out of his mouth. "Oh God, Cordy, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said that."
"No it's fine. I will hold you too that. Some of us should be happy."
--
When Connor and Ciara left and Angel headed upstairs, Buffy tried to leave but Wesley grabbed her arm to stop her.
"We need to talk." Wesley knew that Angel had played a part in what had transpired between him and Buffy but he also knew Buffy had played a bigger role.
"Let me go Wesley." She snapped. She managed to break free of his grasp but Gunn, Justine, Fred and Lorne surrounded her. She knew that she wasn't going to get of this conversation.
"Buffy, what got into you? Last time that you were in town you were fine with Cordy and Angel being together. What changed?" Wes asked her
"The last time I was here it was an emergency. My main goal was to capture Angelus and at the time I was with Spike and I thought that it was just a little crush that would go nowhere."
"Well it did go somewhere. They are in love." A frustrated Fred said. Her best friend's heart was broken and it was all Buffy's fault.
"Well obviously they aren't too much in love if he has been keeping secrets from her." Buffy was not in the mood to be interrogated by the Fang Gang.
"He had a reason for that." Gunn said defending his friend.
"Look, he loves me. He has never stopped. Cordy was just a fling until I became available."
"God, just because you're not happy then Cordy can't be happy." Justine snapped
"I have literally given my life to save people. I deserve happiness and Angel is my happiness."
"Not anymore Buffy. Cordelia is Angel's happiness." Wesley said softly. He hoped that he could get through to Buffy. "You were once Angel's happiness but no more. His entire happiness is wrapped up in Catherine and Cordelia."
"I don't believe that." Buffy said softly. Wes knew that she was breaking.
"It's true. They complete each other. I didn't know you when you and Angel were together but what Cordy and Angel have is strong. Their love has been tested and when the test is over they come out stronger." Fred said
"Spike just up and left me. He gave me no reason." The tough Buffy was quickly disappearing.
"So you decided to mend your broken heart by getting Angel back?" Fred asked her softly. She was still mad as hell at her but she wanted to find out why she did what she did.
"I guess, I thought that I wouldn't miss him as much if Angel was back in my life and then when I saw how much this was destroying Cordy, I felt better knowing that someone else was hurting as much as I was." Buffy admitted softly. She hated herself for feeling so vulnerable. She was the slayer. She isn't vulnerable except when it comes to love.
"Buffy, you need to leave town. If Cordy and Angel have a chance of saving their relationship you can't be here interfering." Gunn suddenly spoke up. He preferred to let Fred and Wes handle the relationship stuff, but he couldn't let this slide.
"I…I…" Buffy began but Wes interrupted.
"I know that deep down you want Angel to be happy even it is with Cordelia and that can't happen with you around."
"I understand. I'll pack and be gone." Buffy said as she sadly walked to her room to pack. Before she left, she stopped in front of Angel's room and knocked softly. When he didn't answer she spoke anyway.
"Angel, I'm leaving. I'm sorry for everything. I will always love you."
--
"Catherine, please come back here so mommy can put your diaper on." Cordy yelled as her daughter ran naked around the house. Catherine giggled and kept running. She was becoming very frustrated. She wasn't used to doing this on her own. Angel was usually there to help rein Catherine in after her bath. They usually tag teamed, one on each end of the room and then one of them caught her. It wasn't going easy at all tonight.
"Dennis, where is she?" Cordy yelled and the lights flicked in the kitchen. "Thanks Dennis." Diaper in hand she ran to the kitchen but she was two late. Her daughter was peeing on the kitchen floor. "Catherine Suzanne Angel. You get over here right now."
Catherine's bottom lip stuck out and she began to cry when she heard her mother's stern voice. Cordy immediately felt bad for yelling at her. She ran over and picked her up.
"Baby, mommy is sorry. You just can't run around her like that and mess up mommy's floor." Cordy quickly diapered her daughter and tried to get her ready for bed when there was a knock at the door. "God Dammit" She mumbled as she headed towards the door. She was surprised by who was waiting on the other side.
"What the hell do you want?" Cordy snapped. She was so not in the mood to deal with this.
"I'm leaving town."
"Ok, bye, thanks for stopping and never come back." Cordy replied as she tried to shut the door, but was stopped by a foot.
"I need to apologize." Buffy said softly. She hated apologizing. " I was the one who kissed Angel and I blew the phone calls and visits way out of proportion. I never even knew he was there until he told me about them."
"Apology not accepted."
"Well, I hope that you can work things out with Angel. I now know that you are the one for him."
"Goodbye Buffy." Cordy said as she shut the door. Ten minutes later, Catherine was in her pajamas and Cordy was warming her bottle when there was another knock at her front door. She couldn't believe that Buffy had the nerve to come back.
"Dammit Buffy, I thought I told you to go away." Cordy snapped as whipped open the door, but to her surprise it wasn't Buffy on the other side of the door.
