"What do you want?" She snapped
"You." Angel answered simply
"You had me once and you lost me because you let your dick do the thinking instead of your brain"
"Please, let me explain." He begged her
"No, I don't hear your excuses."
"Fine for now. but just so you know, I'm not giving up. I remember at one time, you fought for us and you won. Now, it's my turn to fight for us and I will win.'
"Don't hold your breath. Oh wait, you don't breathe." She said smartly. She couldn't believe that he was playing her own game, a game that she knew she would win.
"Daddy." Catherine yelled running to the door.
"Chipmunk." Angel said grinning as he bent down, holding out his arms. Cordy sighed. She knew that it would be a long time before Catherine got to bed.
"Thanks a hell of a lot." She muttered
"What now?" He asked as an animated Catherine babbled to her father.
"I almost had her down for the night, and now you have gotten her all wired." She snapped
Angel sighed in frustration. "Can I come in?"
"I'd rather you didn't."
"Do you really want me standing outside holding our daughter?"
"Fine." Cordy sighed as she moved to the side to let Angel pass through. She still hadn't had time to cast the uninvite spell so she was quite surprised when Angel was blocked from entering. She would have found it amusing if he hadn't been holding Catherine at the time. It scared her.
"Dammit Cordy."
"I didn't do it. I guess the invitation became null and void when I moved out and someone else moved in." She said grinning
"Come on Cor."
"Fine. I invite you in."
"Like what you've done with the place." He said looking around at the disaster around him.
"Kiss my ass."
They stood around awkwardly as Catherine ran around the apartment.
"You look exhausted." He said softly coming toward her and she backed away. She wouldn't let him anywhere near her and even though he knew that he deserved it, it was pure torture being so close to her and not being able to touch her.
"I am. I haven't been sleeping well lately. I've a lot of shit on my mind." She said pointedly.
"Let me take Catherine tonight." He desperately missed his daughter.
"No, that's ok. I rather have her here with me."
"I've hardly seen her. I saw her for only any hour yesterday and for a minute today. I miss her. Please let me take her. That way you can get a good night sleep and it will give you time to unpack without her." Angel did have a point even though she hated to admit it.
"Fine, I'll pack her bag." She said as she headed towards her bedroom.
Cordy came out a few minutes later with Catherine's bag and blanket in hand. She handed it to Angel, avoiding touching him at all costs.
"Here is everything that she'll need. I left some bottles and sippy cups back at the hotel. Come here baby and give mommy love." Catherine came over to Cordy and gave her a hug and kiss. "Mommy loves you." She whispered in her hair
"Wuv you mommy." Angel came over and picked her up.
"I'll have her back tomorrow after the sun sets." He said walking to the door.
"Be a good girl." Cordy said softly "Angel?"
"Yeah?" He asked hopefully
"Talk to Connor, try to fix things with him. He needs you." He nodded as he walked out the door.
Once Angel left with Catherine Cordy began the unpleasant but required task of unpacking. She made it for about an hour before she was overcome with loneliness. She tried turning the radio and TV on but it didn't help. She finally gave up and called Fred who was more than happy to come and visit.
Twenty minutes later Fred was at Cordy's door with two bottles of wine. As soon as Cordy opened the door and saw her best friend standing there she burst into tears. Fred immediately jumped into action. She led Cordy to the couch and held her in her arms while she cried. Phantom Dennis thoughtfully brought two wine glasses from the kitchen and poured them each a glass.
"Thanks Dennis." Cordy sniffed once she calmed down. She drank the glass in one gulp and held out the empty glass for a refill and Dennis willing obliged.
"How ya doing Cordy?" Fred knew how miserable her friend was, but she also knew that she hadn't talked about.
"I'm doing horrible Fred."
"Talk to me sweetie."
"This isn't me. I'm a bitch. I don't cry, but now that's all I feel like doing. I hate that I can't stop feeling like this."
"It's totally understandable that you are feeling like this. You had your heart broken."
"The bastard." Cordy muttered and Fred giggled. "He came over tonight telling me that he wants me back and won't give up until were together again."
"How do you feel about that?"
"It would be so easy to forgive all and take him back. I miss his arms around me at night when I sleep, I miss his smile and God, and I miss his kisses. He is a great kisser, but I can't forgive him. He lied to me. He kept secrets from me. He lied to me and he kissed another woman. He broke our trust and I can't forgive that. If you can't trust the person you love, then what the hell is the point?"
"If it helps at all Buffy kissed him first."
"It doesn't. Any normal man in love would of pulled away but what did Angel do? He kissed her back. Not only did he kiss her back, but he kissed her a second time and I saw him do that. Why did he do this to me Fred, why?"
"I don't know Cordelia. I don't know." Fred said softly as Cordy cried and continued drinking. By the time they opened the second bottle, both girls were drunk with very loose tongues.
"Do you know what I gave up for him Fred?" A drunk Cordy asked
"Lot's of things I think." Fred replied giggling, something that she tended to do a lot of when she was drinking
"I gave up SEX, Fred, sex. I like having sex."
"That sucks."
"Hell yeah it does. At least you can have it whenever you want without your husband turning evil."
"Yeah, we do have it a lot."
"So our boy Wes is a go getter huh?" Cordy said smirking
"He always goes for it and gets it."
"God, I wish I was you. I mean not the having sex with Wes part just the having sex part." Both girls laughed at that.
"Well you guys did it once…"
"Twice." Cordy interrupted
"Ok, twice then. Was it good?"
"God, it was amazing."
"I thought that it would be."
"Fred!"
"Well he is over two hundred years old. He has had plenty of time to perfect his technique." Fred giggled
"Oh yeah, his technique is definitely perfect and his equipment surely helped make it that way."
"So he is well-endowed?"
"Biggest that I have ever been with."
"So is Wes."
"So is Wes what?"
"Well endowed." Fred blushed. Wes would die if he knew what they were talking about.
"It's always the quiet ones." Cordy said grinning
"So was there anything else that you guys could do to you know, relive the tension?"
"Lots of oral sex."
"Really, he could and not turn evil."
"Oh yeah because he would only be totally happy inside of me."
"Well that actually makes sense."
"But now I know that it wouldn't of mattered if we did it like bunnies because he didn't love me and he never would of achieved that moment of perfect happiness." Cordy said sadly.
"Oh Cor, I can't believe that's true. I think that he really did love you in his own vampirery way."
"You know what?" Cordy said as she wiped the tears from her eyes. "I'm done. I am so done feeling sorry for myself. I'm done crying. I am moving on with my life. I'm not going to live in the past and what might have been. I'm going to live for my daughter and myself. Screw Angel."
"You go girl." Fred said as they hugged each other tightly.